Month: July 2021

Breakfast at midnight.

I love bacon! FINALLY remembered to order bacon!

YYAAAAASSSSSSSS!

It was late. I had a satisfying Saturday. I had turned in, early, anticipating bacon, eggs, orange juice and coffee. Yummers!

I couldn’t sleep. Just couldn’t get bacon and eggs off my mind.

Bacon!

Eggs!

No work tomorrow!

Hhmmmmm.

Aha!

No work tomorrow sounds an awful lot like BREAKFAST AT MIDNIGHT to me.

BRB…*Cassandra heads for the kitchen, scrambled eggs, makes bacon, pours coffee….*

No time for yakking, beloveds. My bacon is getting cold.

Ponder this as I stuff my face:

The ONLY true limits we have are the limits we place on ourselves. We box ourselves in, close ourselves off, tell ourselves we can only do this and that during this time or with that person.

Or, we are too old, too young, too poor…yada yada. Enough!

Do you, boo. At, midnight. At, noon time. Whatever. Whenever. Do you. BE you.

Time we stop limiting ourselves, don’t you think?

Keep going. I go with you. I root for you.

We got this.

Breakfast at midnight, anyone?😎❤👀

Cassandra SATISFIED

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Feel the heat/fear. Do it anyway!

I have been wanting to go to the lake. Have heard how pretty it was. Have never been. Have been wanting to go for five years. Egads! Will get to him in a minute!

I was also starving. Hankering for some BK Original Chicken sandwiches.

Road trip!

Figured I would go to the lake, enjoy some peace, music and hang out time with God and Life.

We have been having an awful heat wave. The weather has been bad. For weeks. EVERY time I planned to go to the lake, something always came up. I was TIRED of using the heat, as an excuse. I needed to get out.

Last night, I  must admit to being a bit pitiful; alone, listening to coworkers discuss family bbq holiday plans.

I ALLOWED myself to be sad, lonely and pitiful, for a time. I find it sad that society tries to make folks feel sad about feeling, well sad, at times.

Especially, Christian folk. Good night, appears to be a crime to be a Christian with any type of feeling. Another subject for another day.

Anywho, let myself BE:

Lonely.

Lonely.

Lonely!

Woke, next day, and was done being lonely. Went about my afternoon, enjoying my solitude with God and Life. Decided to annoy my wombie and rang her up. Delicious!😎

So much so, I decided to try the lake experience.

*sinister music begins to play in the background. Foreshadowing!!👀*

Snatching up water, snickers bar, purse, keys, adventurous spirit, I hopped in Cherry 🚗, blasted my fave music and headed for beauty, lake-chilling, awesome music and hanging out with God and Life.

Full disclosure: I love mountains. Love, love love looking at them on television and on my scenic calendars. That said, I am absolutely TERRIFIED of mountain road driving. Especially the especially curvy, winding, what the hell is all this fresh hell, type windy roads.

*sinister music is up full blast about now. A terrifying monster have joined said sinister music just waiting for entrance….*sigh*👀

So, of course, the 30 MINUTE DRIVE IS ALL WINDY, TWISTY, WHAT THE FRESH HELL IS ALL THIS TWISTY PRETZEL ON STEROIDS ROADS!!!!

OMG!!!

Geez!!

GEEZ!!

Oh, yea, yall I was introduced to Geez! today. Yall already know me and Yikes! and Egads! are tight.

30 minutes! I forgot to enjoy my music. Who can enjoy music hollering ‘Geez!’ at the top of one’s lungs, anyway!

GEEZ!!

GEEZUS!!!!😱

God: Why don’t you enjoy these beautiful mountains I made for you?

Me: Can’t You see?! I am trying not to die here!!

Yikes!: Yea, we a bit busy here. Egads!

Egads!: What in the fresh hell!!??

GEEZ!: Geez! Don’t folk know how to drive!? OMG! SLOW DOWN!!

Fast forward a horrifying 30 minutes, white knuckled, I pull up to an entrance, one mile from my destination, says Google Maps, and this tiny man, in shorts two sizes too big, rushes up and yells at me:

Tiny man: Hey! You almost went the wrong way! The ranger would give you an $1,800 ticket for going the wrong way!

Me: Sir, I have never been here before. I am not from around here.

Tiny man: I don’t care.

Tiny man storms off. I get ready to head towards the lake, a mile away. Terrified, still, I remind myself I will be seeing the lake, soon. I soooo looked forward to seeing it, in PERSON. I was tired of enjoying life in picture, in dreams.

I wanted, no NEEDED, to see the lake, in person. A reminder that my other dreams would soon be lived out, by me. I wouldn’t have to keep longing for them. Would hold them, in my hands.

Whilst daydreaming and waiting my turn, tiny man came tearing back to my car:

Tiny man: So, you know it costs $5 to enter, don’t you?

Me: I had no idea. That’s fine.

Tiny man: You know we only take cash, don’t you?

Me: I had no idea. I am not from here. I don’t carry cash. Will you accept my credit card?

Tiny man: No. Most folk are like you. They only use cards. You will have to turn around.

Me:🙃💔🤷‍♀️

The next thoughts I had were not age appropriate, I must say.

It would be one thing, to have conquered my fears, and be rewarded with a pretty lake, quiet time and chillaxing.

Nope. ALL I had accomplished was a terrifying ride, only to be turned back, ONE mile, from my destination.

A metaphor for my life, this past little while.

I could have gotten angry with God and Life for not giving me the ‘heads up’. They KNOW my fears. They could have let me know what was around those terrifying bends. Rather, could have let a sista know the terrifying bends were coming, in the first place.

They could have told me to bring some cash.

Why did They remain silent?

To enjoy my terror?

No.

To take satisfaction in another experience falling short of my Hope’s, my expectations, my dreams?

No.

To take glee in me ‘wasting’ an afternoon?

No.

Why then? Will answer after describing the trip back.

OMG THE TRIP BACK!!

GEEZ!: MUST we talk about the trip back! OMG!!!!!

Me: We must…*sigh*

White knuckled, I turn around. This time, I tell myself I am going to do my best to enjoy the mountains, the gorgeous clouds, the sunshine, and return trip home.

I had to do the trip, anyway, may as well make the best of things, of the day.

It’s amazing how peaceful a winding mountain drive can be, minus screams of GEEZ! and OMG!s. I could actually hear the soothing music, enjoyed how the trees swayed this way and that. Seems like the trees were enjoying the music, the sun, the peace along with me and God and Life.

I forgot to be afraid.

I forgot my mad about being ONE mile from a five year’s daydream.

I forgot.

I lived.

Just LIVED.

The scary was no longer scary.

The scary became another precious moment.

A moment I will carry with me for the rest of my days.

Looooong after I have forgotten the initial terror, I will remember the MOMENT:

The drive.

The quiet.

The peace.

The knowledge I had faced more fears and LIVED, anyway.

It was the TRY, you see, God and Life were actually after. The lake was besides the point.

There will be other opportunities, to see the lake. At least, I hope there will be. One never knows. Life happens.

The moral of the tale, I guess, is to TRY. Just TRY. Get on out there. EXPERIENCE life. Don’t just survive it.

Don’t let the threat of ‘heat’ to keep you from getting out there and mixing it up with life.

Will I try again, tomorrow? Who knows.

I DO know, THIS TRY, has given me the confidence, the willingness, the drive to TRY something else.

God and Life had a different path and plan for my afternoon. Did it make mine unimportant? No, just meant they course corrected to another moment, to another journey. I learned more about me. I enjoyed the mountain drive. I enjoyed ME.😎

ALL we need to do, beloveds, is to TRY. That and make sure you have some cash on you, just in case! 😜🤣

Live. Love. Rejoice.

We got this.

God has us all.

I love you,

Cassandra ACCOMPLISHED

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Let’s get after it.

Let’s get after it.

Let’s ATTACK and WIN this day!

No slinking in the back way, hoping for a good outcome.

Naw, we kicking down the front, DEMANDING situations, circumstances, doubt, fear, the enemy and ALL their ilk to bow to our say so, to give way to our hope, to give in to our joy, to turn loose our dreams, to say uncle to our enthusiasm.

LET’S GET AFTER IT!!!

NO time for hiding. NO time for giving up. NO time for giving in.

The ONLY thing we giving in to is the KNOWLEDGE we got this.

So, in having got this, how ’bout we go on ‘head and get it, already!

Life is short.

Live it.

Love in it.

Have peace through it.

Hold on to your joy in the midst of it.

Allow folk to love you, and love you some folks within it.

We got this.

God and Life has us all.

Don’t allow this life, this day, to get away from you without experiencing some joy, today. Be sure to get in enough laughs to sustain your heart. Love on yourself. You are NOT alone. Your struggles are NOT yours alone.

You are loved.

You are cared for.

You are prayed for.

This day.

Tomorrow.

So long as I have breath.

I cheer for you.

I walk with you.

walk with me,

Cassandra JOYFUL AND LOVED

Yikes!

Much to share.

Much, much, much TOO BUSY at work!

Yikes!!!

Whew!!!

Good thing I can STILL tear up heaven praying for us all.

Hang in there, beloveds.

Remember, you are:

Loved.

Prayed for.

Cherished.

Special.

Needed.

Necessary.

Okay.

Okay to be okay until you are okay if you are not okay today.

Keep moving forward.

You are NOT:

Your, pain.

Your, mistakes.

Your, feelings(good and not so hot ones).

Your, situations.

Your, circumstances.

You ARE:

Growing.

Living.

Loving.

Hoping.

Expecting.

Daydreaming.

On the verge of breakthrough.

Keep it moving!

We got this!

God and Life has us all!!

How SPECTACULAR IS THAT!!!!!!!!!!???

YYYYYYYYYYYYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAASSSSSSSSS!!!!

I love me some Him. I love me some you. I love me some me.

How great is that to know???!!!

His and yours,

Cassandra INSPIRED, FIRED UP AND RET TO GO!!!!!

We got this!!

We got this!!

NOTHING shall keep us from receiving:

Love.

Peace.

Joy.

God’s Promises.

Life’s say sos.

Keep going, beloveds!.

Let NOTHING keep you from believing:

Not, you.

Not, other folks naysaying not knowing what the world they be talkin’ boutness.

Not, situations.

Not, circumstances.

ESPCIALLY not:

Fatigue.

Doubt.

Fear.

Struggle.

Trials.

We got this, beloveds!!

It’s okay to get tired, from time to time. Fighting, living, loving, growing….these things can and do get to be exhausting, at times.

That’s okay. Be tired, exhausted, etcetera. Just don’t give up, on you, on the process, on God, on Life, on folks you love, on folks who are trying to love you.

Things take time. Sometimes, sure seems like time is taking foooooooooooooooorrrrrreevvvver!

That’s okay. Just means we will enjoy the breakthroughs that much more, when they FINNNNNNAAAAALLLLY GET HERE!!!!

Lawd a mercy, can we kinda get a move on God and Life?? Take your time, though, and get our meals right wouldja please and thanks?

We got this, beloveds.

YOU got this.

Keep going.

I go with you,

Cassandra HANGING IN THERE STILL BUT GOODNESS AND GRAVY THIS TAKEN A LONG TIME LORD/LIFE…. 😉