Month: September 2023

How much?

How much…

Are your dreams, worth?

How much…

Sweat equity, are you willing to put out?

How much…

Are your passions, worth?

How much…

Effort, prayer, faith, will you use to see these things through?

How much…

Time will you waste, doubting your try?

How much…

Time do you have?

How much…

Are you loved?

Infinitely!

How much…

Does God, Life, and The Universe, believe in you?

Infinitely!

How much…

Do I pray and hope for you?

Infinitely!

Life is short. Be encouraged. You are worth so much more than you know. Be good to you, okay? Asking for a Friend.

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

NO excuses: Use your obstacles as fuel.

What?!

WHAT!!!???!!

🤯😤😡😠😳😲

That’s what I THOUGHT, to myself, as my boss was giving me news that…..

*stamps foot*

Long story short, I have to have my internet provider to replace my router or find myself out of a 12 year job!!

*stamps foot*

In the past, I would have….okay, you don’t even want to know…whew!

Instead, I started making calls, making arrangements and making myself prepare for drama. Smh.

I had taken another day, to get over this cold/flu. Obstacles, however, decided to show up and show out.

What did I do? Told obstacles I hope they packed a large lunch, then got to beating some obstacles…ehem, for messing with my perfectly pleasant day off!

NO excuses, beloveds! None. Nada. Nope!

NOTHING shall be reason enough, to get us to give up or give in!

I told hard, long time ago, it would be my REASON to keep going! I told fear, it would be my REASON, to not fear. I told doubt, it would be my REASON, to remain hopeful and joyful!

Life is hard, right now. So what?!

Your dreams won’t cooperate, right now. So what?!

Your finances are laughing at you, right now. So what?!

You are alone, right now. So what?!

You are not alone, right now. So what?!

Add whatever excuse/situation you want. So what?!

Life is short. Embrace your life. Enjoy your day. No matter what. We got this.

making no excuses,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Okay really? Get going…lol 😂

Remember:

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU

What good would/will it do?

What good, would it do…

To act a complete fool, upon hearing tough news?

What good, will it do…

To tell tough news to shut up, take two seats, and get on with your day?

What good, does it do…

To tell yourself the truth, that ALL things work together, for your good?!

All the good, in the world!

What good, would it do…

To walk away, from your dreams?

What good, will it do…

To tell doubt and fear to shut up, head to the curb, and get on with getting on with making your dreams, come true?

What good, does it do…

To tell yourself the truth, that NO weapon, formed against you shall prosper?

All the good, in the world!

What good, would it do…

To keep your heart locked away, to be certain nothing hard/hurtful, comes its way?

What good, will it do…

To tell the world to shut up, sit down, take the whole row, and get on with letting love come, for your heart?

What good, does it do…

To tell your heart the truth, that love IS out there for you? That hard times come, but love stays?

All the good, in the world!

What good/will it do?

How will you know, beloveds, unless you get put there and do your try?! Get going. Hurry! Love IS waiting. The Universe is calling! Run!

Running with you,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: NO excuses, beloveds! We shall NOT allow any news, folk, situations, or circumstances to cause us to pack up our toys/tools! We have too much invested, in us, don’t we?!

Get as mad, frustrated, angry as you want. Then, get over yourself, and handle your business! Enough of you walking away, from your heart and your dreams whenever life pops you upside the head! Life is simply trying to get your attention and tests to see if you REALLY WANT THIS?!

Be encouraged.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

What have you promised you?

What have you promised you?

I promised myself, I will try to write every day. For the most part, I have kept that promise. Before, I made every excuse in the world not to write. I was tired. I was busy. I was working. I was taking care of the need of other people. I was this. I was that. I was doing everything but writing.

Now, I write. Something. Every day. For, me. For, whosoever will. What good has it done? I don’t know. I do know, now, that I write. Every day.

I promised myself I would rest. Today, I rest. Today, I take the weight of the world off my shoulders. It never belonged there.

I promised myself I would dream. Today, I dream I am sitting next to the ocean. Writing. With a cup of coffee in my hand. With a song, in my heart. I dream.

What have you promised you? Be sure to keep your promise to you. If you have not make yourself a promise, make one. Then, keep it!

Being me,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: we have made and kept the billion promises to 1 billion people. It’s time to make and keep promises just for us. Don’t you think? I think so. I have to go. I have promises to keep, you see. Don’t you? Let’s go…

Remember, you are loved and you are not alone.

Make a new one.

I was working on a long piece. I thought it was fantastic. When I went to save it, the worst disappeared. Most of them, were lost.

For writer, this is agony. I didn’t waste time getting angry. I cannot reproduce the words. So I made up new ones. Who knows? Maybe, the new words were better words. Maybe, those new words, what have a greater effect. I know, make it a new piece, has made a great affect on me.

Before, I would have wasted time, having a fit about what was lost. Instead, I used the time, to create a new piece. A new part of me. Open, for the whole world to see. I am satisfied.

I’m supposed to be resting today. My try, just won’t let me. My try, is used to try. My dreams, just won’t let me be. They are yearning, to be free. God, please help me to set them free. I don’t know how. I don’t know what to do with these words. I just know these words are remaking me hopefully, they are helping others. I don’t know. So, I write.

Today, I’m trying to make a new me, I guess. Too tired to know.

Trying to still,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: when life hands you lemons, lemonade is quite tasty!

My try just wants to try.

I told myself I was take Monday off to rest. My try, however, just wants to keep trying.

So, I find myself up, at the crack of dawn, writing. Trying. Hoping. Dreaming. Dreaming, of a world, in which I can spend, the rest of my days writing, trying, hoping, dreaming.

Ah.

Aha!

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Keep trying. Who knows what your try may bring…

Don’t let the darkness stop you.

Well phooey!

*Cassandra peers into pitch blackness*

Egads!

So, it’s hot. I’m not feeling well. I have kept it moving. Just barely.

I cheered myself by tossing some tater tots, into the air fryer. Happily, I awaited said golden brown morsels of wonderfulness. 🤗

One extremely loud boom later, I found myself sitting, in the dark, wondering what the what the?!!

Thankfully, I was prepared and pulled my power pack from its location. I also had/have extra USB cords to power my phone and fan, while waiting for power company to get me back going. In five hours…*sigh*.

So, I am romantically writing to you, beloveds, by the light of my power pack. In times past, I would have wasted this time whining and complaining, to The Universe, about how not fair this was. I know. I know. Smh.

Since mom passed away, Christmas morning 2016, I no longer waste time carrying on about things I:

Can’t change.

Don’t matter.

Can’t change, so what does it matter?!

Now, I do my level best to, well, make the best out of the situation.

I’m also giving myself more of a break. I no longer require perfection. Yes, I still strive for excellence. But, now I laugh at my mess ups and don’t allow those times to mess ME up!

There will be times, beloveds, when the power WILL go out on your tater tots. The trick is how you RESPOND.

Prepare.

Put your preparation, in ACTION.

Then, keep it moving.

Don’t allow anything to keep you from:

Moving, FORWARD.

Giving, your ALL.

Trying, your BEST.

My heart, is now used to, keeping it moving, no matter what. My body, is now used to trying, no matter what.

It takes time. It takes effort. It takes your commitment to stay committed, to you.

You are worthy of great effort. You are!

Get going, beloveds. Even, when it’s dark.

living in the darkness with you,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Heart check.

I’m taking the day off, just to rest. It’s been a long week. A long year, in fact.

I’m tired. Tired of trying to figure things out. Tired of trying to put the commas, in a right places. Tired, of wondering. Tired, of wandering. Wandering, looking, asking, praying, hoping, trying, to make my writing dreams come true. I’m not even sure what that dream looks like. Not, anymore. Not, after so many decades of…

I don’t even know. Now. Now what?

I’m tired. Of asking, why. Today, I just wanted to be. So, I am. Yesterday, I told my boss I wasn’t feeling well and am taking today off. I chose, me. I chose, my rest. In the past, I would’ve kept working tired. I would’ve kept working sick. I would’ve just kept working. Simple as that.

I find, however, life is just not simple anymore. I simply want to be… me. I just want to spend my days telling you to be you…

I’m too tired to cheer, today. Today, I cheer for you. Hopefully, you are cheering a bit for me.

I just wanted to take a bit of time, to do a heart check on you, beloveds. Be sure to choose you sometimes. You matter. A lot. I wish more people would show more love to one another. I wish more people would reach out when they need love. I wish for so many things that I may never see your have. I try. Still.

Take care of yourself today, beloveds. Remember, you are loved and you are not alone. Stay hopeful. Remain joyful. Remember, you are not your pain. Remember, all you can do is try. Remember, to live your life unapologetically. Remember, there’s only one you. And all of the world, there is only one you. Amazing! You, are amazing.

Love someone. Start with you. Do something, today, yet been wanting to do. Life is short. Why can’t I? Why can’t you? We can. We will!

Hoping for us all,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: I wish I could take care of all that concerns you, beloved. I can’t. I know who can. I’ll be talking to Him about you, today…

Why can’t I?

Why can’t I?

Why won’t it be me?

Why should not go there?

Why didn’t I do that?

It can be me. I could go there. I may do that.

Why can’t I?

Invent something new. Read do something old. Start an amazing thing. Finished a spectacular something.

Why can’t I?

I could be the one. My life could change things, for the better. And maybe to make a difference, somehow.

Why can’t I?

Have love.

Be loved.

Why can’t I?

Maybe, I can.

I shall try.

Trying,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: why can’t I? Why can’t you? Maybe, we can. Let’s try…

Who are you doing your why for?

WHO are you doing your why for?

Who are you for?

Why for, are you for, who you are for?

lol.

I said a mouthful, eh? What I am asking, is why are you doing, your why? For, whom? You? Or, for someone else?

Is your try, for you? Or, are you trying in order to meet someone else’s expectations?

It’s important to know WHY and for WHO you are trying.

Why?

Because, life gets awfully trying, if you are trying, simply to try to win the love, respect, eyes, of another.

I have been asking myself why. On just about everything.

Why?

Forever, and a day, I had been doing because I was so used to doing. Everything. For, everybody. Now, I don’t regret this. Far from it. I just wish I had done more, for ME.

Why?

Because, I had put off soooooooooooooo many things, working myself into a ball of exhaustion. I had given all, to all, leaving not very much, for ME.

Why?

I rarely, asked why.

Okay, I never asked why.

Why?

I was raised, to take care of everyone’s care. I was raised, to care less, for me and my cares. I was raised, to pretend I didn’t care.

Why?

It’s just how us women are often raised. Mom told me she was teaching me to cook, so I could win the heart, of a man.

Also, I was forever being told I would be ‘pregnant before you turn 16.’ Still waiting for that, at 54.

I spent decades, essentially, working myself into the ground. To prove I was NOT:

A young, black, lazy, loud, unintelligent woman who just wanted to make her way, through life, living ‘off the system’.

Real talk, and I am purposely digressing, I AM SICK AND TIRED OF BEING A PERSON OF COLOR THAT HAS TO TIPTOE QUIETLY, THROUGH THE WHOLE DAMN WORLD, IN ORDER TO PROVE, SOMEHOW, TO WHITE FOLK, THAT I AM A ‘GOOD’ BLACK PERSON WHO IS QUIET AND A BOTHER TO NO ONE. TO HELL WITH THAT?!! LET ME BE ME!! I AM LOUD. SO WHAT?! GET USED TO ME AND MY PASSION!!

Whew! That felt great. I bet some of yall, beloveds, are just as annoyed, to have been told to be this, that, or the other thing.

I am unapologetically me, now.

Why?

It was time for me to start doing my why for me.

It’s important to know why. It’s important to know for whom.

Why?

Good question!

Keep asking,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: so often, we’re placed into a box. We only get out of that box, when it suits the world. To heck with that! Be you, beloved. Unapologetically. Loudly, if necessary. Quietly, only if you want to be quiet. Our timeliness is short. Live the life you want to lead. Not the life that has been chosen for you by others. You don’t have to do the things your parents did. You don’t have to follow, in the footsteps, of your peers. Take new steps. Take your steps. Then, keep moving forward…