I have been under the weather, this past little while.
On top of this, the weather, God bless this weather yall, has been averaging 104 for 10 days straight. Least of which, I live upstairs so ALL the heat from the downstairs apartments have moved in with me. I am currently surrounded by three fire-breathing dragons, er, supposed fans.
ALL these dumb fans have done, and are doing, are shrugging, blowing hot air every which way and telling me it could be worse, that I could be in the middle of The Sahara with no food, water, Youtube, phone, and Disney Plus. There is that…*sigh*.
I wish all could read my mind. Okay, only certain parts of my mind as I may be talking about yall so don’t want yall knowing I be talkin bout yall on the regular….hahahahahahahahaha!!
Alas, I have concocted daily odes, odettes, songs, sonnets and the like, in my head, trying to scrape the energy and coolness in order to deliver my wonderful odes and thoughts, to you, beloveds, who have desperately missed me and have sought, valiantly, hopelessly, pitifully, as you have gazed, forlorn, at your empty inboxes wondering where the world Cassandra, Jaybird, Sweetpea, and the like have been hiding.
It’s either that, my world view, or perhaps, your truth that you have not missed moi, have enjoyed the quiet, and are reading these words through your fingers wondering if some sad words may be about to come amongst thine eyes.
Nope.
Nopers.
Just me, Cassandra, Jaybird, Sweetpea, checking in to say I have been praying for all, on the daily, and wanting to let all know that EVERYTHING will be okay.
No matter what you are going through, you SHALL make it through.
No matter how far things seem to be, you SHALL get to where you need to be getting to.
No matter how badly you may be feeling about your current circumstances, you SHALL, and are overcoming them all.
Keep, fighting.
Keep, going.
Keep, growing.
Keep, loving.
Keep, living in the moment.
Don’t let your fears keep you from experience life.
If you must be afraid, go on ahead and take the fear with you. Fear, you see, gets bored easily. Fear, you know, can NOT stand when we don’t pay it much mind. Fear, you see, is just a bunch of hot air intent on trying to scare you from doing, living and being.
Tell Fear, to, well, go on ahead and kick rocks already!!!
Having all kinds of tech issues at work so making peanut butter sandwiches, out of my day, by calling and yakking to fam members.
Had a super long, delectable yak, with one sis…
Ah.
Had a brief snack yak, with one big bro.
Ah.
Had a kick rocks not answering phone, dial tone, from another sis. 🤷♀️
Was feeling so wonderful, I started to call mom.😥
Fresh hell.
*Sigh*
I miss you, mom.
Ssssshhhhhhhhhhhhheeeeeeeeeiit!
Carry the hell on, Cassandra.
carrying on,
Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe
Note: Life is short. Days like these used to be spent hollering at malfunctioning equipment and wailing dumb things to God and Life like They really must not like me because my stuff all tore up and I can’t work right…smh. Don’t judge me. I was a this happened so it must mean that person. Now I am a whatever homie God got this person. Carry on, beloveds.
When life hands you lemons, make a peanut butter and jelly sandwich.
Yep, got my hind end handed to me ALL day and therefore going to make a peanut butter and jelly sandwich, watch some tv and try again, tomorrow.
In times past, I would have:
Blamed, me.
Blamed, me.
Then, blamed me, some more.
Today, I am going to chalk it up to the game of life and leave life to do what it do.
We are NOT:
Our, successes.
Our, failures.
Our, efforts.
Our, lack of efforts.
Our, paychecks.
Our, setbacks.
We are…
Ah!
We ARE!
So, beloveds, how about we give ourselves permission to just BE. If we be productive, non productive, semi morons, full blown stupid, kinda wonderful, simply fantastic, or absolutely ridiculous…
In ALL these things, how about we remember we all doing the best we can. And, try, at least, to understand folks are doing the same. Or, trying to.
In the meantime, when life hands you lemons, make your face sammich!😎🥰
You do NOT need the like of another, of others, before you can/will/do, like you, first.
FIRST, beloveds, you must like YOU, first!
Then, if folks still not liking you, if you still are not getting those likes, or no likes, who in the holy flying flip gives two hoots!!!??
The ONLY likes you need to be likin and hankering for are:
YOUR, likes.
God’s, Likes for YOU.
Lifes’ Likes, for YOU.
Hopefully, your fam, your peeps, your circle, will ‘like’ you. And, if they choose not to, for whatever reason, well, why, ever flavor ain’t for everybody. Not your work today.
So long as you ain’t runnin around actin a fool, being an unlikable pain, then it’s on them, not you. And, if you ARE being a non likable goof, stop being one, and keep it moving. Forgive yourself. Ask for forgiveness for your acting a fool and continue to love on some you.
Time for folks to STOP chasing likes, thumbs up, smile emojis, and whatever ever things folks be chasing now up in the social media game.
HA!
It ain’t ’bout other folks likes for you, beloveds. So long as you are loving and liking some you, well, tell the world to go on head and kick some rocks!
You are:
Amazing.
Dazzling.
Worthy of love.
And, when you are not so much those things, you STILL worth of love and all of life’s good things.
Love you, some you.
Then, spare a bit of love, for me, okay, please and thanks?
*Cassandra does some serious chair dancing round the room*
YYYYYYYYYAAAAAAASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!
Yea, boy!!
She’s back!!!!
*Cassandra snatches up Britta, from across the pond, and does a chair dance*…..heya!!!
*Cassandra swipes up Ashley and does a chair dance just for the fresh hell of it*…
YYYYYYYAAAAAAAAASSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!
*Cassandra does some serious chair dancing with every beloved she sees/hears*…..
YYYYYYYYYYYYAAAAAAAASSSSSSSSSSSS!!!
Hope all have been well. Have taken some moments, many, many, many, moments, in fact, to make sure my chicklets(mind), my heart, my soul, and my spirit took some me time to do whatever in the world I felt like, did not feel like, who gives a hoot who likes it, time for Me, Myself and I!
HA!!!
Yep, beloveds, had to tell Martha to go on head, honey, and take TWO SEATS!
Then, me and Mary have been having a blast resting, resting, resting, resting, resting. And, when we got tired of resting, well, shrug, fresh hell, we rested, rested, rested and rested, some more.
So, am back. Ret for action.
Okay, not ret for action. Am tired, still, from three decades worth of shouting into the void for me, for others. And, also just shouting, for no good reason, for many reasons, for all reasons.
Yep, a sista was, and still is, tired. Yet, I am doing some me time. For, the first time. Time, for it, don’tcha think?
This time, yea, THIS TIME, beloveds for the FIRST time, I don’t feel a bit guilty about looking out, for me.
No, I have NOT been leaping tall buildings, in a single bound. Heck, I have barely scraped my way out of bed to take out trash, run the dish washer, cook and do the every day things we MUST keep doing whether we feel like it or not.
No, I have NOT been fighting alongside the Avengers as they have set about avenging this and that. Have left the cape in the closet, where it is fixin to stay.
No, I have NOT been doing other folks work in trying to get them to be joyful/playful/able/capable. I have prayed for all, and have kept my train moving. Folks have to do their own work. Or, not, then suffer the consequences of not having done said work….*shrug*.
Yes, I have been thinking of, praying for, rooting for, being about it for, you, beloveds.
Yes, I have been carrying my hopes and dreams and prayers and wonderings to God and Life in order for Them to do whatever the heckamia They want to do with them…*shrug*. It’s no longer MY issue or problem to solve.
Nope, once I have laid my heart, my prayers, my hopes, my dreams, my all and all, in the Hands, and at the Feet, of God and Life, well, it then becomes a Them problem. All, I have to do, after that, is to remain hopeful, helpful, prayerful, joyful and let the cards play out as they will, or won’t.
And, if those things don’t find their way, to me….well, hey, that’s completely okay with me.
I have tried the thing, prayed for the thing, did the best I could to procure the thing. The rest will or won’t come out, in the wash, as the old folks used to say.
It has taken years, no, decades, to learn to lay down the shovel, the ax, the weapons, the toil, the strife, the “I have to do it or it will never get done”, “It’s on me or it will never be”, and all other manner of nonsense, and falsehoods we have been fed, by the world, in order to be, have or do.
Ahhh….*yawn*….
*Cassandra hears yet another respite calling out for her*
brb…*Cassandra whispers for folks to take care, to be encouraged, and to keep on keeping on til they need to get off the world and rest a bit*….
Why Can't I Be Loud?! 