Dammit.
*sigh*
DAMMIT!
This is the conversation had EVERY morning now, with this beautiful, money saving water filtration system.
EVERY morning! Every fantastic, cold, delicious sip of water from this 20 dollar system I thought cost entirely too much right now when I can pay 99 cents for a jug of water’.
OMG, Cassandra! How COULD you have fallen for that lazy, lazy, lazy, costly 99 cent lie?!!
Takes me a few minutes to get over myself.
I tell myself I am saving NOW. There truly is nothing I can do about things not done, THEN, than dealing with those things NOW.
A lesson I shall never forget. Until I remember the next dumb thing I need to correct, fix, move, remove, replace, etc.
It’s okay, though. God and Life have ALREADY figured in EVERY dumbness we could ever do or come up with. 🤣
My morning beatdowns have gotten much shorter. I am loving on me, more. Giving myself a hard time over mistakes made, less.
I am doing my utmost, to count the cost NOW. To pay the price of standing, living, loving, enduring, hoping, giving NOW. In order to have them all built up and waiting tough times LATER.
Count the cost, NOW. Do the hard thing, NOW. Do the standing, NOW. DO the LIVING, NOW.
Life is short, beloved. Don’t waste a moment chastising yourself for not having replaced your filter then. Do it, now. Then, move on and keep it moving.
As long as you are doing all you know, God and Life WILL and ARE taking care of all else in you, in your life, for you, for your life.
We got this.
Good Yikes! though! Do you know how much money I have wasted these past five years! CASSANDRA!!!! OMG!!!…*shrug*. Lotsa money, yall. Omg!!😱🤷♀️
Keep going.
His and yours,
Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe
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