Month: November 2021

The Ocean: The Shadow of God.

I love the ocean. Always have. It calls to me. It’s just so BIG. AWESOME. ENDLESS. Reminds me, always, of God. Hishighness. I was talking to my wombie of my love of the ocean. Told her:

The ocean is just like God being a protector. Like a Father, hovered protectively nearby. He hides us, behind Him. We are protected, by His Shadow. Ah!…*delicious shiver*🥰

We are guarded, shielded, LOVED, behind, amidst God’s Shadow. How much more safer can we be?

GOD’S SHADOW?! Love this! Love this!!!

Now, whenever I view my ocean, I shall remember that I am under the shadow of The Most High.

How great is that?!

How loved are we?!!

loved by Him,

me🥰😎

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Happy birthday, wombie.

Happy birthday, wombie.

53.

53!!!

Yikes!

Egads!

Hey there, what are yall up to? I was just fixing to wish my twin, my wombie, my dear friend, a Happy Birthday. I shall tell her you both said hello. By the by, Yikes! and Egads!, thank you for being there for me. Thanks for allowing me to experience all manner of hell, high water, high jinx, anxt, aints, not yets, hell no’s and a myriad of other feelings, situations and stations with joy in my heart and laughter in my spirit.

Speaking of thanks, needs to get back to my wombie….

Hey, there, sis. I just wanted to send out a birthday wish, a wish, hope, dream, ask, of many, many, many that I have for you. I wanted to get it in, where I could fit it in. Early….*smile*.

I love you, sis. More than you can or will ever know.

We have:

Worked, each other’s last nerves. Soothed the other’s frayed nerves.

Kicked, each other to the curb.

Rescued, each other, from said curb.

Been there, done that, for one another.

Turned our backs on the one, in hurt, anger, fear.

Turned our backs towards the other, in love, forgiveness, hope, laughter.

We have given each much, taken lots more, still.

We have had:

Short, clipped conversations.

Long, meandering, wandering, wondering conversations.

We have:

Laughed, together.

Loved, together.

Talked, endlessly, incessantly, unapolegetically of our love for and by God. By God, we love us some Him, don’t we, sis?!…*delicious shiver*.

Together!

Notice the theme, sis, wombie? Together. Although, the miles part us. We shall NEVER be parted. Why, we began life, together, in the womb. Not many can say that. That they began the journey, called life, with the life of another, an other, born of one mother, for one another.

I love you, sis. I just wanted to take, but a moment, gathered from my life’s moments, to let you know that I SEE you, I LOVE you, and I CARE DEEPLY for your life. As does God and Life.

53 down, eh, with many more years, tears, hopes, fears, and jeers to come. Yet, we shall conquer them ALL, together.

Be well, my wombie. Stay, free. As will I.

your wombie/sis/friend,

Cassandra aka Sweetpea

#YourLifeMattersToMe! #MyWombie #MyFriend #WhatAWeekIAmHaving #PicardRocks #Yippppeeee #OkReallySis?! #LOL #ILoveMeSomeYou #WontHeDoIt?

Go straight to hell, fear: I CAN/WILL Be Loud!

Go straight to hell, fear: I CAN/WILL Be Loud!

Did you hear me, fear?!

Go!

Kick rocks, fear!

Straight to hell, fear, from whence you came!

I do NOT fear you, fear! Ha! I laugh at you fear, now. I tower over you, fear, now. I gleefully, joyfully, victoriously, shout you down, fear.

God and Life have always whispered to me “Fear not”. Yet, I feared. Yes, fear, I DID fear you. I am NOT afraid to admit this, now.

Why, you ask?

Because God and Life have set me free, of you, fear. Because God and Life helped ME, to set me free, of you.

So, go!

Kick rocks, fear! you are but just a thing, but just a tool that God and Life and me, hell yea, ME, have used to set me free….of you, fear!!

Ha!

HAAAAAAAAAAA!!!

Go, now, NOW, fear. Go on ‘head and kick them rocks.

I SHALL be loud.

DAMMIT, I AM LOUD!!!!!!!!!

I rejoice, now, in my supposed loudness. God and Life made me loud. I hold my head, high. I bow, not, to shame/embarrassment. If you see shame/embarrassment, world, it’s because you see YOUR OWN, not mine! Ha!

I rejoice, now, in my supposed ugliness. God and Life made me beautiful. I have a good heart, a tender soul, a ridiculous laugh. It’s YOUR LOSS, world, if you can’t see I got it going on like popcorn with a coke on the side! Ha!

I rejoice, now, in my baldness(lost ALL my hair stressing out over you, fear). Jesus gave me HIS Crown! Ha!!

I rejoice, now, in my fatness(more of me to love…*shrug*). Okay, so a bit too many slices of bacon lately…hehe….opps. Ha!

I rejoice, now, in my aloneness. NOTHING separates me from the Love of God. I am NEVER alone. Ha!

I rejoice, now, in my sorrows. What the hell do I have to be sorrowful about? I am loved, cherished, cared for, thought of, received by the CEO of The Universe and The King of Kings. God and Life are ever with me and I am loved by some fam and a few friends. Ha!!

I rejoice, now, in God’s and Life’s silences. God and Life speaks to me, to us, through so many ways they are hard to count! Ha!

I rejoice, now, in my supposed badness. I have and do, the best I can. If not good enough, well, I did my best. Ha!

I rejoice, now, in my uniqueness. I am a bad mama jamma. Can’t nobody do me like ME! Ha! There be only ONE, me, homie/homettes! Ha!!

I rejoice, now, in my being a woman. ‘Nuff said! Ha!!

I rejoice, now, in being a sista, in being an African-American Queen. Chi;d, please. Ha!

I rejoice, now, in being a child of God, a Precious Daughter of The Most High. Yea, baby, I be loved by God. How the world can I NOT rejoice?! Ha!!

I rejoice, now, in being the daughter of Aniece, the granddaughter of Nancy and Jimmie, the daughter of Eddie, the sister of beloved siblings.

I rejoice, now, in my beginnings. I ain’t done, yet. Not be a long shot. Ha!

I rejoice, now, in a future that may never be. Child, sho nuff, please. Ha!

I rejoice, now, in a past that can, never again, hold me! Ha!

Go straight to hell, fear. I CAN/WILL Be Loud!

I CAN be loud.

I WILL be loud.

I shout you down, fear. Did you hear me, fear?! Yea, I know you hear me, fear. For, I KNOW, now, fear. Yea, baby, I KNOW, fear. I KNOW of YOUR ultimate fear, fear. YOU, fear, yea, you, fear, has ALWAYS feared ME!

YASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!

For, fear, you KNEW, soon as I SAW me, as God and Life created me, made me, intended me to be, helped me to be that it would be OVER, so over for you, fear!

I pursue YOU, now, fear. Ah, now, don’t be afraid, fear. Don’t you worry, fear. I AM coming, for you. Don’t fret, fear. I SHALL, WILL, and forever DO stomp you down, fear, back down into the ground, back to hell, from whence you came.

I pursue you, fear, relentlessly, aggressively, honestly, fiercelessly, ceaselessly. Rinse/repeat. I vanquish you, fear. I vanquish you, from ALL that concerns me.

Do you hear me coming, fear? Ah, good! Not only am I coming for mine’s, fear. I am coming to get others. This loud, black, ugly, fat, broke, busted and disgusted WOMAN, fixin’ to tear down EVERY stronghold, fear, you have ever thought about, raged about, contended about, pretended about. For, me. For, others. I come for you, fear.

I am FREE, from you, fear. Fear by The Love of God, by the care of Life, by the blood of Jesus, by The Cross, by my TRY, by my standing, by my living, by my loving, by my forever shouting into the void in pursuit of my hopes/dreams, by the love and care of ALL those who have loved me whom I was afraid to love and receive because of you, fear.

I am FREE, from you, fear. Free to:

SAY!

LIVE!

LOVE!!

Go on ‘head, fear. Kick some rocks, already!

Go straight to hell, fear. I CAN/WILL Be Loud!

I go now, fear. I go, into the world you THINK you own. you own it not, fear. And, yea, didja notice I did not capitalize your sentence? Yea, fear, you get no capital letters. CAPS are meant for the first, for important things, for named things. The ONLY name for thee, fear, is one I can not mention around polite company.

Goodbye, fear. You shall see this face, no more, now. And, yet, if I should see your face, fear, I shall go on head and do the damned thing, anyway! I shall STILL win! I will defeat you, fear. EVERY time you call for me. I shall beat your tail, fear, every time you come for me. COME! I ain’t scurt!!

I, rise, yet again, from you, fear.

I, rise, as MORE than a conqueror, fear. As the bible says, fear, 2 Timothy 1:7 – For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.

I HAVE, present tense:

Power.

Love.

A sound mind.

Leave now, fear. I am bored, now, with thee. Go, from amongst me. Tell your pals, fear, that I am coming for them, as well. Not only in my life, but in the lives of as many beloveds, others, folk, peeps, I can help God and Life conquer. Yea, tell discouragement, despair, hopelessness, divisiveness, and ALL the ‘lesses that make folk feel ‘less than’, ‘not enough’ about. Am coming for them all. Firstly, though, fear, I have come, for you.

Go straight to hell, fear. I CAN/WILL Be Loud!

*Cassandra exits, stage left, to continue her awesome present, looking FORWARD, to her astonishingly brilliant future. Hopeful, joyful she goes*…

Beloveds, there are just times where you, well, you just have to declare to ALL, including yourself, ESPECIALLY yourself, who you are, WHOSE you are, where you stand, where you WON’T stand, how you live, THAT you WILL live. Outloud. Proudly. Unapolgetically.

Why? So, the world, fear and foolishness can KNOW, of a surety, that homie don’t play that. It’s time, beloveds. Time to take back, from fear, ALL that he has stolen, from you. From, those you love. From, those you are afraid to love. Because, of your fear(s).

Go, now, beloveds. Take, your life back. Take, your dreams back. Take, your hopes back. Take, YOU back. From, fear. From, ALL that has, is holding you back. Don’t waste another moment, beloveds. Go, now. Not a moment, hear me? Don’t spare one second, no, not even one, getting on yourself over being afraid, over what you have done, have failed to do, have been too afraid to do.

Get on up, beloveds. Time to go on head and make the chili(if you don’t understand the chili reference…smh…folks be actin’ all new and thangs. Read the post on do it already, or kick rocks or some such post I did the other day…*shrug*).

It’s time. Nigh past time, to get all loud up in places and spaces. Folks want you quiet as YOUR loudness reminds them of THEIR silence. Not, your own. Fear not. Speak up. Help folk to face their fear. Then, take that person and yall go kick some fear but together!

I go with you. God and Life goes with us all.

Let’s get loud!!

His and yours unapologettically,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

P.S. Beloveds, love you some you. If none go with you, if none stand with you, if none love you back. Go on head and keep on keeping on. Your day shall, is, ane ever will be. We got this.