Keeping it real. Am on my third, or is it fourth, cup of coffee. Even my Kuerig is muttering ‘what’s up with her?!’
One thing, after another. Yet, I keep on keeping on. Surprising really. Didn’t sleep much if at all. Again. Fought the night, night beat holy hell outta me. Fought the day, work beat holy hell outta me. Fought to stay out of my feelings, feelings ran all down the front of my shirt.
Fought, discouragement. Must say, I beat ten kinds of hell outta discouragement!
Ha!
Fought, fear. Told fear don’t even step over this way! Fear took one look at this kitty and tore outta the room.
Fought, the world’s belief that this old, broke, loud woman couldn’t/wouldn’t make a different. Told the world to go on head and kick rocks and watch me BE the difference, somehow, someway, in even a tiny way. Just watch me, world!
Ha!
Fought, myself and the limitations I had placed upon my dreams. Kick rocks, I told me. Get on up and outta my way. I got things to do, words to write, folks to love, folks to love me back(eventually), things to do, places to go, peeps to me.
Ha!
Just keep fighting. Just kept swinging. Just kept having another cup as I chair danced, laughed, frustratingly cried, munched double chocolate chip cookies through the madness called today.
I thought of my young friend, who can no longer fight, and fought in her stead.
“I got you, my friend. I got you. I shall keep on going. Ms. C shall keep it moving, beloved”.
It is quiet, now. The work day, ended. My heart, winded. Yet, I remain:
Here.
Steadfast.
Strong.
Steady.
Love.
Cherished.
Heard.
By, God.
By, Life.
By, me.
By, those who see and love me. For those who can’t, I have tried. Nothing more I can do, say, or be.
Just, me.
I, am.
I, do.
I, will.
Life is sooooooooooooooo short, beloveds. Don’t waste time focusing on the battle. The battle SHALL end. The battle is not here to defeat you, beloveds. It is here, yea, shall stay to teach you, to draw the best out of you, not the rest of you.
The battle is besides the point. Don’t give it wait. Look BEYOND it.
To, your future.
To, your present.
To, your blessings.
See, the world dumbly tries to get us focus on things that just don’t matter. The world wants us struggling to have this, get that, live in this, move out of that. The world just wants us to be eternally unsatisfied and chasing things that just don’t matter.
What matters?
LIVEing.
SAYing.
BEing.
DOing.
Life is short. Too short to be defeated by past or present storms. Laugh at the storm. Tell the storm to go on head and kick rocks already! You CAN and you WILL make it through.
So, what if it is taking longer than you thought, hoped, wish. So, what.
Too bad, if it hurts. Let it hurt and keep it moving. This too, shall pass. Make sure, beloveds, that YOU remain. Still. Always.
Ha!
Rise, beloveds.
Stand up, o precious ones.
Know ye not that your very life is so precious there is NO amount of money or things that can purchase you???!
HA!!
We be queens/kings. We REIGN. We are NOT servants to fear and all manner of doubts and trials which come to try us to see what we are made of.
The kitty in us, roars. Let her roar. You don’t have to be the tiger, always. Just in the game. Just stay in the game. That’s it. Stay in the fight, have one, two, three cups, if needed.
Some days, one cup just won’t do. No matter, we got a lotta more, as Clubber Lang once said…lol…
We got this.
God and Life has us all.
Keep going.
Keep believing.
dancing still for those who can’t quite dance yet,
Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe
Note: For those who are still too tired to fight, rest. I got you. Don’t get down on yourself for needing to step away. Take as long as you need. You got this. And, even when you don’t got this, GOD AND LIFE DOES! Ha!!!!!!!!!
- COME SIT AT MY TABLE 🪑❤️🩹
- BELOVEDS, YOU CAN HAVE MY FLOWERS. I DON’T NEED THEM ANYMORE.
- Forgive them, Cassandra, God said to me
- Still In Love
- REAL TALK: DESPISE NOT SMALL BEGINNINGS, BELOVEDS.👘🦺🥾👟🥿👞🩴👢🩰👡⛑️🔌🕯️🔎🖌️🖋️📢
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