Don’t allow a dark place, to take you to a dark place.
This morning, after I did me some me, life walked up, tapped me on the shoulder, waited til I turned around, and kindly slapped me in the face.
After coming to, with tears in my eyes, I tried to be about being about it but my get up and go went where I know not.
In times past, I would have called upon old habits who would have brought familiar friends: comfort food, plenty of why come, why me, along with a boatload of melancholy.
Since I now live, now, I gathered myself, asked new habits to spend the day with me, reached out o my boss and let him know I could not do the workday.
I grilled some cheese on my new sandwich maker, thanked My Maker for having and being with me, and had grilled cheese and jello. Just HAD to keep doing me, for me, in a healthy way. Not in a, woe is me life is a tragedy so I have to make my way through a dozen cookies way.
Worn out, I tuned out, turned out the lights, lay in the dark, in order to catch my breath. A nap gently whispered for me to go along with it. Going along, a nap I took, leaving my heart to rest, in peace, while telling my loved one to rest in peace.
Nap taken, I awoke, realizing he was gone, still. Yet, I was here, still. Laying, in the darkness, I pondered, the darkness. Said to said darkness “get the hell out of here”.
Hell, having been kicked to the curb, left me shaken, not stirred. Stirring, I turned on the lights. Determined, I determined, to keep living, to keep loving, to keep going.
Speaking of going, another grilled cheese sure sounds good…
brb,
Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe
- THE HAND FROM HEAVEN ✋🏾☁️🧻🤣
- COME SIT AT MY TABLE 🪑❤️🩹
- BELOVEDS, YOU CAN HAVE MY FLOWERS. I DON’T NEED THEM ANYMORE.
- Forgive them, Cassandra, God said to me
- Still In Love
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