My heart is ready to go elsewhere. Yet, God and Life won’t let me, just yet.
I remain, in the meantime, in my in the meantime job, doing in the meantime things. In the meantime, my mind is elsewhere. My soul is elsewhere. My heart is elsewhere.
Where IS elsewhere? I have no earthly idea. Yet, each are straining towards a new there. There, somewhere. Near enough where I can almost grasp it. Yet, far enough away I strain to catch ahold of there so I can do and be what my mind, spirit and heart is longing to do, to be.
There.
THERE.
I’m not even sure there is even a place. If so, I surely don’t know where there is. Yet, I know that my heart wants to go there. I have learned, slowly, to stop asking how long it will take. How long, I will have to be in this in the meantime state of mind. I no longer mind it. Much. I am learning to just enjoy life whatever this state may bring. Even the having a hard time to wait state. Even the I would rather be doing something else state. Even the this is getting soooooooooooooo exhausting waiting state.
I know I am here, still, for a reason. That reason may not even be for me. I may be needed, here, to support someone else as they make their way through their own there, through their own in the meantime.
Today, I guess I am here, not there, in order to tell you to hang in there. I have to keep telling myself this, in fact. In fact, just a bit ago I wanted to tell my job to kick rocks. I enjoy my job. Love it, in fact. Hmm, I seem to be on an in fact kick there….*shrug*.
N-E-Waze, I was not able to finish this piece, while on lunch. Turns out, my heart has gotten a bit resentful in having to put down what she really wants to do, in order for me to do what I HAVE to do to make a living.
Ack!
SHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT!!
*Cassandra stamps foot and wonder when it will be her turn to do as the lucky others are doing in being able to live out their dreams and make their living*
Fresh hooey!
*sniff*
*pout*
*sigh*
Alas, I have to snatch a few minutes, from in the meantime, to encourage you, to encourage myself to just keep putting one foot in front of the other.
Keep, going, Cassandra. Keep, going. I know, I know, you are so desperately weary from trying not to wonder, trying not to wander away from this long, slow, somewhat boring road. Same, scenery. Same, rocks. Same, worn shoes.
This is just one of these days, when one of these days, is just being a royal pain. I made sure to do my me time. I made sure to eat healthy. I made sure to give work all that I have to give. I made sure to give myself a few minutes to breathe during lunch.
I’m just making sure that I am making sure to be sure to keep the main thing the main thing, in the meantime…lol. I get a kick out of playing with words…*sigh*.
Be, encouraged.
As, shall I.
keeping it real/going,
Cassandra
Jaybird STILL
- THE HAND FROM HEAVEN ✋🏾☁️🧻🤣
- COME SIT AT MY TABLE 🪑❤️🩹
- BELOVEDS, YOU CAN HAVE MY FLOWERS. I DON’T NEED THEM ANYMORE.
- Forgive them, Cassandra, God said to me
- Still In Love
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