Focus on what you have, not on what you have.
Sooooooooooooo, I had been in a fantastic mood. Thanking God for this. Thanking Life for that. Yeppers, Cassandra was dancing through the meadows and lilies with glee and nothing but thanksgiving.
Until….*sigh*….smh.
Until, one of my work children let me know how humungus a raise he was fixing to get soon.
WHHHHHHHAAAAAATTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!?????????
“You are getting HOW MUCH???!!!!!!!!!
Almost immediately, okay, right off top, the top of my head flew off and I rushed to The Father, snorting, hooting, hollering and just kicking up ten kinds of fusses and why not mes, and how come theys, and what in the fresh tarnations, and why aren’t MY financial prayers being answered like I have been diligently seeking, asking, and campaining for!????
Yea, I admit it, I had a laundry list of ALL of my accomplishments made for Him, with Him in mind, trying to be a blessing cuz He asked me to. I went on a nice tirade of all I had given, done, gave up, gave away, yada yada, shut up Cassandra, type drama.
After I had laid my petitions, er, complaints, before The Father, He gave me a hug then whispered these words, which shut me up quick, fast and in a hurry:
Focus on what you have, not on what you have.
Meaning, focus on the joy you have, on the daily, being able to be of service, to be able to laugh most of your work day.
Focus on the many lives you have been able to bless with your essence, with your coins, with your willing heart which has touched many a folk through the years.
Focus on the relationship you have, with Him, with Life, with others as you have been able to remove a pebble from folks mountains of worry, stress and fear.
“Ah, Father, I SEE! It’s not what I have, meaning finances only, but what I have: peace, joy, love, humor, integrity, fortitude, stick to it tive ness and all the other things I have gained while scraping by, making my way through, being about it as I have waited and done what I could/can for financial freedom to do what I really want to do.
In fact, I already am doing what I really want to do. Encouraging folk, through the written and spoken word. I am already working from home. Yes, I want to be able to work from home and be paid from the gifts He gave me and working for ME, and not a company. I want the satisfaction, as quite a few have, of seeing if I can feed myself whilst feeding others.
I know most writers have this same dream. Yet, I write not to see my name in lights. Not anymore. In my younger days, I wanted to see MY name in a bookstore. I wanted to see MY book jacket with MY picture with me staring scholarly in a far off direction gazing at only God knows what some of these writers are looking at on these book covers and jackets…smh.
Yet, that was only a very tiny part of my dream of writing. Mostly, I have always wanted to encourage folk and let them know they can. Make it. Take it. Shake it. And, all the other words that rhyme or mean folk CAN do.
All my life, mostly until I was in my 20s, I had been told I would end up pregnant by the time I was 16 and have many kids. 54 years later, I am still childless…*shrug*. Wonder what folks have to say now? O, yea, they replaced that with I would never go to college, I would never amount to anything. I would never have this. I could never do that because I was black, a woman, not good looking, not good at this, too good at that. On and on and on and on and on….*sigh*.
Now, I KNOW all that I have. Now, I can also:
Focus on what you do not have, not on what you do not have.
I do NOT have:
Fear, of the present.
Anxiety, of the future.
Regrets, of the past.
I no longer worry about what I do not have. Meaning, I write and do what I can and am not waiting until a flood of cash land in my Cash App. Yes, I think it would be wonderful to wake up to a nice Cash App total from someone, somewhere…..lol…..hahahhahahahahahaha!! In fact, I told God, in a huff, last night to hit up my Cash App pronto!…..hahahahahahahhaahahahhahahahahha! Now, I calmly say “Hey, Father, can you please/thanks hit up my Cash App tonight?”
In the meantime, I am continuing to live, in the meantime. I am doing my best to keep doing my best and leaving the rest up to God and Life.
Time is short, beloved.
Focus on what you have, not on what you have.
Be encouraged.
rejoicing,
Cassandra
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