My lonely just won’t leave me alone.

My lonely just won’t leave me alone.

I have done my all to distract her.

Yet, my lonely is refusing to no longer be heard.

She has been awfully loud, here lately.

Work, has not helped.

Sleep, has not helped.

Taking care of the needs of others, has not helped.

*sigh*

My lonely just won’t leave me be.

See, she wants to go outside and play.

My lonely is tired of being lonely.

I hide me lonely.

From, God.

From, Life.

From, me.

Especially, from me.

I keep telling me that there will be time for my needs to get met.

Somehow.

Some day.

Some kind of way.

Normally, lonely and me are super content. It’s just that Easter is coming. A more than one person family kind of holiday. Only problem is I live alone. I am alone. I FEEL alone on holidays like this.

Yea, beloveds, don’t tell, but when friends check in, from time to time. Doing their obligatory ‘I have to check on the poor old single still helpful woman’ bit….*sigh*. Anywho, I don’t want to mess up THEIR family thing with MY lonely. So, I tuck my lonely away and keep it moving.

Only, keep it moving went ahead and left me and my lonely to our own devices. Keep it moving went ahead and got together with act right and they are tearing up the town living with intentions and living their in the in the meantime right now.

So, here I sit.

Alone.

Wondering.

Too tired to wander much.

Too tired, even, to sigh.

*sigh*

My lonely just won’t leave me alone.

Not today.

wondering what to do with my lonely,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Life can get to be a bit much, at times. The sheer exhaustion of doing the every day, EVERY day can be a bit mind bending, mind numbing, what in the fresh hell going oning….*sigh*. Hang in there, beloveds. Spring IS here. The long winter has passed. It has. It just seems to be lingering, still, in the soul. This too, shall pass. Hang in there. We got this. Keep reaching out and letting folk know what you need, letting God know what you need, letting Life know what you need. Your needs ARE important. As are you. We got this…

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