For the last few weeks, God has been helping me to re-imagine, to re-image, to-restore how I see myself, now.
Re-imagine, now, how I view the past, NOW. As, an adult.
Not, through the eyes of those who hurt me.
Not, through a society who is constantly trying to tell/show me the color of my skin is a crime, somehow.
Not, my dad who used to call me his ‘little monkey’, causing me to feel less than sub-human.
Not, through a hurting mom who told me once, in relation to me, that she should have kept the afterbirth and thrown the rest away. She said she was ‘joking’. I took her words, literally, and felt like afterbirth for many, many, many years….*sigh*. It has taken many years to get over THAT particular part of the elephant.
Not, even, as I used to see me because of THEM. Not, because of how I viewed myself. God and Life, showed me I didn’t truly see myself as ugly or unwanted. They told me, They SHOWED me, I was merely seeing myself through mud-splattered glasses.
Patiently, lovingly, relentless, both God and Life, polished my glasses. Leaving, ME to see through MY eyes. Leaving me, free, free beloveds!
Free, to love.
Free, to be.
Free, to be ridiculous.
Free, to be serious.
Free, to be a moron.
Free, to grow.
Free, to be obstinate.
Free, to make mistakes.
Free, to understand my mistakes are just that. Mistakes.
Free, to work through my crap.
Free, to be obstinate and not work through my crap.
Free, to be however my heart is fighting to be. My heart is doing her level best to be about being about it. She is trying to live. With INTENTION. She, meaning me, won’t always get it right. She, being me, won’t always have her act right.
Yet, I know, she as me, is doing the best she can.
THAT is enough.
It is, beloveds.
It is.
YOU are.
You ARE.
Enough.
Everything.
When God told His Folk to get on over to the other side of Jordan, He told them He had given them the land. Yet, there were giants there. Folk had to go and run those jokers out. Instead, they looked upon those seemingly too big giants and were afraid. They forgot that God and Life went with them, fought with them, encouraged them, restored them, supported them, loved them, rooted for them.
All these wandering jokers saw were giants of doubt, of fear, of anxiety and all manner of huffs and puffs and blowing their house down. Numbers 13:30-33:
You see, they were afraid because they saw themselves as grasshoppers IN THEIR OWN SIGHT. God knew they would be able to throw hands(slang for fighting) and root those jokers up out of here. Ha!
But, they felt small. And, feeling small, they didn’t possess the Promised Land. Land, ALREADY promised. They just had to take out the trash, handle those giants and be about being about it.
Moral of the story, beloveds? You are NOT the mud this world tried to cover your glasses in. Allow God and Life to clean the mud, from your glasses, so you can see the beautiful soul, called you. Then, you will be able to help Him reach other folks and let them know they don’t have to fear the giants, in the land.
Then, THEY will start throwing hands. Yea, boyz, they, others, you, me, we shall all get to throwing haymakers and will clobber fear, doubt, anxiety, division, strife, apathy and all the other things which keeps us from living together, in harmony, in love, in peace.
Give Him your glasses. Let Him help you to see the most priceless gift of all…YOU.
I fight with you.
I fight FOR you.
Fight for me, beloveds.
We all we got.
We are all we need.
Together.
Wow, yall almost got me singing ‘We Are The World’ there….hahahahahahahaha. I crack myself up.
Be encouraged.
You are loved.
You are NOT alone.
Keep on being…YOU.
His and yours,
Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe
- THE HAND FROM HEAVEN ✋🏾☁️🧻🤣
- COME SIT AT MY TABLE 🪑❤️🩹
- BELOVEDS, YOU CAN HAVE MY FLOWERS. I DON’T NEED THEM ANYMORE.
- Forgive them, Cassandra, God said to me
- Still In Love
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