Yikes!
I found myself soooooooooooooooo out of sorts, today. Work stuff. Life stuff. Work tech stuff. Life acting a fool stuff.
It started out with me scaring the hooey out of myself, for a few minutes, after checking my bank account. After I came to, I got some act right and rushed to get in The Father’s Lap and let Him know I was scared. Briefly. Loudly. For quite a few minutes. Then, I called sis in the middle of the night and eventually shared my scare with her.
Then, tried to log onto work and my work station asked me what the fuss was all about so had to fight with it to get working.
THEN, whilst fighting with my workstation, my main overhead workstation light chose the moment to go out. Poof. Leaving the room, leaving me, in partial darkness, worn out, exhausted from having been scared half to death by the boogie man, content after having booted said boogie man from the room, and got things going.
Things got going. Workstation got to working. Folks got to yakking, remotely, sharing all of their Memorial Day plans. It was enjoyable hearing about mom’s doing this with daughters. I laughed hearing daughters talking about and rolling their eyes at their mom’s outlandish life requests.
Then, ah, beloveds, the boogie man showed up. Right there. THERE amongst the laughs and holiday mom photos. he laughed at my lonely. he taunted me I would ALWAYS be here, alone, incessantly yakking at folks to love loved ones still here. All the while being alone, still. Still. Still, waiting.
I snatched the boogie man, from amidst the laughter and smiles and told him to go on ahead and take two seats. Then, I went back to cutting up with coworkers blessed to have mom, still. Dad, still. Me, to laugh with, still.
Now?
I am shaken. Not stirred. I grilled some deliciously delicious top sirloin and made sandwiches. I am going to reheat my coffee and spend the evening bingewatching movies with mom. Yes, I have to lover her a new way but we still love one another. Just from much farther away. Ah, beloveds, she’s super far away, today. Here, in the silence. Miss you mom.
Enjoy your life. Tell the boogie man to kick rocks and take two seats. Then:
Live.
Love.
Laugh.
You got this. God has us all.
For those who are alone, for whatever the reason, know you are NOT alone and you are loved. You are.
His and yours,
Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe
- THE HAND FROM HEAVEN ✋🏾☁️🧻🤣
- COME SIT AT MY TABLE 🪑❤️🩹
- BELOVEDS, YOU CAN HAVE MY FLOWERS. I DON’T NEED THEM ANYMORE.
- Forgive them, Cassandra, God said to me
- Still In Love
Why Can't I Be Loud?! 