I was talking to God, last night.
REALLY talking.
FINALLY being super honest, about a quiet ask I have been carrying around for a long while.
It’s not that I am lonely. I am alone. Getting older, alone. The closer I get, to 55, the more I find my heart wishing/longing, just a bit, to have a somebody, some somebodies, who cares for Ms. C, me, just cuz they were thinking about me and wanting to let me know I was not alone.
I am not sad. Not, really. Just…
So, I asked God/Life to send someone my way just cuz.
This morning, I received a text. A friend sent me 20 dollar Cash App with subject line ‘I love you’.
When I texted and asked why it was on them to do this…*sniff*.
The answer was…
Just cuz.
((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((hugs self))))))))))))))))))))))))
God is good.
Life is wonderful.
I say that, beloveds, not to sound pitiful. I say that to say it’s terrifyingly wonderful to be completely honest/vulnerable with yourself, God and Life. It’s important to allow your heart to let you know what it TRULY wants from God, from Life, from this, from that.
Life is short.
We were not meant to be an island, unto ourselves.
We do NOT have to play superman/woman, braving the fates of the world, all alone.
We ought not strive to bear the burdens, of the world, yet now allow the world to bear a bit of OUR world, eh, beloveds?
Ask.
Who knows?
A text may arrive.
loved/grateful,
Cassandra
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- BELOVEDS, YOU CAN HAVE MY FLOWERS. I DON’T NEED THEM ANYMORE.
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