Month: June 2023

Limited. Limitless.

Limited.

The INSTANT  I finally understood that I was limited, I became…

LIMITLESS!

Understanding, beloveds, that I, me, Cassandra, Jaybird, Sweetpea, and all that I am/was/will be was NEVER meant to be the be all, the end all, the all seeing, the all knowing, the savior of the entire damn planet, the rescuer of damaged men, the fixer of every wrong, the put your dreams forever to the side to help all others realize theirs, the perfect Christian, the hero of all, and understand that God and Life only needed/required ONE thing, from me, my whole existence shifted from it’s axis.

What was this ONE thing? Incredibly, tearfully, amazingly, ridiculously, the ONE thing turned out to be…

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*pregnant pause*

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*Cassandra glances at Jesus and decides to stop with all the dramatic pauses given His amused eye rolls…*

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Me!

ME!

Limited.

Flawed.

Imperfect.

Which turned out to be, more than plenty.

I found that ONE oyster cracker COULD FEED THE WHOLE DAMNED WORLD!

HA!

Beloveds, we were never meant to be forever. Our lives have a beginning, a middle, an end.

It is the how, what, when, where and who we become within that time.

What legacy shall you leave, behind?

What legacy are you currently giving, now?

You ARE leaving YOUR legacy whether you actively choose to or not.

My legacy is to love as many hard head, undeserving, foolish folk I can until I draw breath for the last time. Beginning with me…lol.

Adding things, people, places to your life will NOT satisfy you without your having found and loved THE most important person in your universe…YOU!

You.

You will never love you until you KNOW you are loved.

You are.

When you understand you don’t have to look like a million bucks, have a million bucks, wear a million bucks, to be worthy/worthwhile/worth it, you can live your life in a shack or a mansion KNOWING you are all that and a bag of chips!

The bible says we love because He first loved us. Such a beautiful thought.

Life is short. Spend your moments scooping as much love into as many moments as you can. You will be glad you did.

Love someone.

Start with you.

limited and loving life,
Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Okay, really? Your life IS your note, beloveds. Get to doing your own writing and help God and Life change the world, beginning with you.

I love you.

Be about that gnat life.

Gnats are sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo annoying.

Good egads I have been about ready to let them HAVE my apartment, already!

Ack!!

*Cries of agony wend their way towards heaven.*

I will give these tiny little buggers FULL credit. These fellows are about that gnat life!

These jokers have woken with me, on the daily. The SECOND, the INSTANT, fresh hell, the MOMENT a light turns on, the NANOSECOND a toe wiggles, those teeny weeny fellows grab their work pails and get about their day of making my day as annoying as humanly possible!

OMMMMMMMMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!

*Cassandra tosses down keyboard and take up gnat arms. The very balance of heaven and earth, it appears, rests in her ability to subdue these time horrors of wonder in order to have a moderately successful day. Cassandra swears she see Thanos fighting on the gnats side. Snap the finger already!! Ahhhhhhhh! OMG. Cassandra pleads with Jesus for a bit of help. Jesus, being wise, tips out the side door leaving poor Cassandra to battle these super foes alone*

Okay, beloveds, seems like I have a long morning/day ahead. I believe we need to be as these gnats and get about attacking our day just as soon as a toe moves, don’tcha think?

Life is short. Get on out there and live it. Gnats and all.

living fearlessly even among the gnats,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: This is the day the Lord has made. Let us rejoice and be GLAD in it. Gnats and all. Good egads. Whew! Be encouraged. Laugh, today. Love, today. Begin with you. I love you. Remember you are NOT alone. Keep on being…YOU!

You are His Dream.

You.

YOU!

YOU, beloved, are His Dream.

For years, for decades, for weeks and weeks and weeks and weeks and weeks I have been asking God and Life one question:

What is YOUR dream for my life.

For years, for decades, for weeks and weeks and weeks both God and Life have been telling and trying to tell and telling one word:

Me.

Me?

Me!

For 50 plus years, I have/had been trying to barter everything BUT me.

How the world could THIS me be pleasing in His Sight when this me has/had been so unsightly, unseemly, seemingly by man/men?

Yet, God and Life loved me, loves me, still.

Until, finally, ah, love, I loved me back.

There is not a lot more satisfying than the sheer satisfaction of KNOWING you are satisfied, finally, with…YOU.

Warts, mistakes, missteps and all the other messes that messes with you.

Once you understand you ARE  His Dream, you can enjoy chasing down dreams, unicorns and rainbows. Whether you catch them or not becomes moot.‍♀️

You are His Dream.

Amazing.

You are amazing.

Amaze yourself.

Close your eyes.

Open them.

Live.

Be.

Dream.

Ready?

Set?

Let’s go!

dreaming with you,
Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: How the heck you needing a note after THAT inspiration? Yall some greedy peeps, huh?

Pieces of you.

The world needs your pieces.

The world needs my pieces.

Broken.

Whole.

By halves.

Pieces of me.

Pieces of you.

Needed.

A shoulder.

An ear.

A hand.

Sometimes, a boot to the rear!🀣❀

Pieces of you.

Liberally sprinkled.

Everywhere!

You will sing again.

There are times when life will have dealt a blow, so tough, it snatched the song from your heart.

So much so, you wonder if you shall ever sing again.

You shall.

You will.

You WILL sing again.

Your heart shall find it’s way, again.

You shall love, again.

You shall hope, again.

Your song has simply been waiting for you to catch your breath.

Breathe.

Deeply.

Open your heart.

Sing.

Ah.

Amazing.

You sound good.

listening to your song,
Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Do not despair if your song has not yet shown itself. It will. Be encouraged.

Rejoice in the dark.

Rejoice!

In the dark.

Dance.

In the dark.

Sing.

In the dark.

Laugh.

In the dark.

Love.

In the…ehem…hhmm… *Cassandra realizes one can take that last one in a way not quite meant. Cassandra tears outta the room.*‍♀️

Rejoice.

In the dark.

Weeping may endure for the night.

Joy WILL come in the morning.

In the meantime…

Rejoice.

Again, I say…

Rejoice.

In the dark.

Fear has NO place in your life whether it be light or dark. ALL fear does is suck the oxygen from the room.

Ha!

Rejoice.

Life is short.

Live.

Laugh.

Love.

Say.

Do.

With intention.

It’s dark?

So what?!

rejoicing in the dark with you,
Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Choose THIS day to be the last day you allow fear on the throne of your life. No matter what. Be encouraged. You are loved. You are NOT alone.

I told God.

I told God…

I just want to be loved. Just once.

God: You are. I love you.

I told God…

I just want to be wanted. Just once.

God: You are all I could ever want in a daughter.

I told God…

I just want to be enough. Just once.

God: You are enough. Always.

I told God…

I just…

God: I know. Be encouraged.

Me: K πŸ˜₯πŸ₯°

wanting to be loved/needed/enough,
Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Some days…ah…some days. I love you, beloveds. Be encouraged.

Mercy.

Mercy.

Something, the world needs more of.

Mercy.

Something, YOU need more of.

Mercy.

Something, more need to extend.

To, themselves.

To, others.

Lord, have mercy!

On us all.

Mercy.

You are much too hard on yourself.

I extend mercy.

I give you some grace.

Allow yourself room to grow.

Allow yourself time to heal.

Allow yourself freedom to just breathe.

In and out.

Slowly.

Take your time.

All the time it takes.

Mercy.

She knocks.

Let her in.

here,
Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: My wombie says I ALWAYS have to provide a note. Here it goes…

I love you. Nuff said. Cut yourself some slack. You truly are and have done the best you can. Wish you would stop breaking God’s Heart in continually berating yourself for the past.

The past is just that! Past! Get into your now. Right now!❀

I’m ready now.

I’m ready.

Now.

I’m ready now.

Now.

Ready.

Set.

Go.

Go!

Now!

You are ready now.

*Cassandra takes a deep breath, takes a step and…*

Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: I am in pursuit. Of? Who knows? Who cares? I know not. I think not. I no longer care about not knowing what. All I know is I no longer have to know. Ah.

YYYYYAAAAAAAASSSS!

Are YOU ready, beloveds? Ready or not, life keeps rolling along. Best get to living, loving and chasing it down.

Ready.

Set.

Go.

Go!

Now!

Ready, not ready, just go…

I knew.

I knew.

Just before mom passed, I knew.

My spirit knew she would be gone, soon.

My heart, did not wish to accept her leaving.

Ah, mom.

It was her time.

She knew.

She knew I was ready.

To make it on my own.

Without her.

Being cheered from on high, by her.

Her heart knew.

As did mine.

Just as I knew then, I know now.

Something.

Something is ending.

Something is beginning.

What?

I know not.

Mom does but she’s not telling.

She says I shall find out.

Soon.

I know.

How?

I just…

Know.

knowing,
Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Life is changing. Beneath my feet. Before my eyes. As is yours. Hold tight, beloveds. Life shall get very interesting from here…