Month: June 2023

Starting over…

There are times where I wish I could start over. Wish I could have some do overs with past relationships and opportunities.

I wish, I had more time with mom.

I wish, I had tried harder to understand dad.

I wish, I could start over with this sibling and that cousin.

I wish, I would have had the courage to try for that promotion.

I wish.

I wish.

Since I ain’t no genie, ALL I can do is start over.

Today.

Now.

Now is all we have. No need or sense in wasting what remains of the rest of our lives hoping, wishing and fantasizing all the things we would do over.

Start over.

Then, start over, again, if need be.

Keep it moving, people!

Nothing to see here!

Forgive yourself.

Then, head held high, STILL:

Live.

Love.

Laugh.

God and Life does NOT need you forever throwing your past mistakes up all up in They Faces. Stop that!

Look at you, NOW. You are moving. You are grooving. Go on ahead with yo bad self!

YYYYYYASSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!

Put on some old music, then chair dance, move your groove thang and get on with your life.

Enough, beloveds, let it be enough.

We got this, eh?

getting Jiggy with you,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Put down the gavel, beloveds. You have judged yourself much too harshly. I declare you innocent from this day forward…

How much do You love me?

Me: How much do You love me?

God: Why, I love you to the moon and back.

Me: How much is THAT?

God: Well, if I could have made ALL the stars, in ALL the sky. AND, if I could have created ALL the sands, in ALL the lands. Well, beloved, that would only account for just a smidge of my love for you.

Me: Okay, so you DID create those things.

God: I know…*smiles*.

Me: Ah.

God: Aha!

loved,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Isn’t in nice to be loved?! You are. You are NOT alone. Be encouraged. I love you as well.

Compare yourself to no one.

You have got it going on like popcorn!

Compare yourself to no one.

No one can compare to you, beloveds!

Your heart is priceless and NOTHING can compare to it.

Your try is soooooooo mighty, NO try compares to your try!

Your love is such that God and Life rushes to be near you, on the daily. There is NO love that compares to YOUR love.

Look not around you. Yet, look inside. The grass is sooooooooooooooo very green within.

Compare your life to no one.

For, NOTHING and NO ONE compares to you.

in awe of the awesome person called you,
Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: We all need to be reminded how very precious we are. Be encouraged. You are loved and not alone…

End your day with joy.

End your day with joy.

You have done all you know.

Rest.

Laugh over the day’s foolishness.

Reflect over all the life you lived today.

Enjoy all the try you tried to pour into the world.

Then, give yourself a hug and end your day with joy.

What a beautifully difficult day, today was!

thankful for a deliciously difficult day,
Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Life is short. Enjoy your life. Don’t rush past the hard. The hard has many a nugget contained within it. You CAN. You SHALL. I love you. You are NOT alone.

Linger.

It’s the middle of the night.

I am tired.

Exhausted.

I have exhausted every moment from every second of the day.

Everything within me entreats me to squeeze the life out of every single moment.

I linger over every conversation with family. I live for them.

I linger over text messages with my one friend. I look forward to them.

I linger over ever song. I am ministered by them.

I linger over every laugh while working. Working is about giving all of me to all of them.

I linger over cooking. I relive cooking time with mom and linger over each meal.

I linger over phone coffee chats with sis and zombie and big bro. I rejoice over every second spent in tears and laughter with them.

I linger over every piece written in love. I love loving on folks, with clever, ridiculous, wonderful words.

I linger.

Night reminds me that day shall be here soon.

Wait.

Wait!

WAIT!

There is STILL some life left in this almost gone day.

I must sleep.

Fresh hell.

Day, I shall be with you shortly.

I lingered, all night.

I shall linger, to the length of your day.

see you soon,
Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Oh, that the world only knew how precious these seconds are! Hurry! Use them ALL….

I know.

I knew.

Just before mom passed, I knew.

My spirit knew she would be gone, soon.

My heart, did not wish to accept her leaving.

Ah, mom.

It was her time.

She knew.

She knew I was ready.

To make it on my own.

Without her.

Being cheered from on high, by her.

Her heart knew.

As did mine.

Just as I knew then, I know now.

Something.

Something is ending.

Something is beginning.

What?

I know not.

Mom does but she’s not telling.

She says I shall find out.

Soon.

I know.

How?

I just…

Know.

knowing,
Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Life is changing. Beneath my feet. Before my eyes. As is yours. Hold tight, beloveds. Life shall get very interesting from here…

Cherish you.

Cherish you.

Cherish.

YOU!

Don’t wait for another.

Cherish you.

Cherish ALL of you.

All of it.

Quit hiding your scars.

Stop berating your mishaps.

Perhaps, those mishaps have happened to make you…YOU.

Cherish you.

Dismiss those who dismiss you.

Cherish not those who will not cherish you.

Cherish YOU.

Cherish not those things which adorn you, surround you, hold you. Hold loosely to things as things are simply things.

Simple?

Simple!

Cherish.

You.

cherishing me,
Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe

Keep pressing through.

When life is pressing down on you…

Keep pressing through.

When depression wants to keep foolin with you…

Keep pressing through.

When there seems to be no way and your heart wants to say no way…

Keep pressing through.

When you have absolutely NO idea what to do…

Keep pressing through.

When the pressing is soooooooooo pressing and weighing on you…

Keep pressing through.

When all you have won’t do all you need.

Keep pressing through.

When all seems lost/hopeless and you are ready to throw in the towel…

Keep pressing through.

When God/Life have answered everyone’s prayers but you/yours….

Keep pressing through.

When pressing through is the LAAAAASSSSSST thing your heart wants to do…

Keep pressing through.

The hard IS hard. It is. No getting around it. Yet…

Keep pressing through.

pressing with you,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: I’ll be honest. Day tapped me on the shoulder and asked if I was ready to get after it. I soooooooooooooooooo wanted to tell the day to go ahead and kick some rocks. Instead, I drug my weary self, up out my super scorching hot bed and got about my day. I tossed sad, frustrated and hopeless into the shower. Joy and laughter replaced them.

Yes, life is being unbelievably life, today. My second Kuerig has decided to taunt me with no water coming out. I am just toooooooooo hot and bothered to want to bother with trying to do the YouTube fix. So, I am here, bothering you…lol.

Life is short. Keep pressing through. You are being pressed into some outstanding wine. So stop whining….hehe. Remember:

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Fear not.

The unknown can seem scary.

Not knowing, what will be, can be sooooooooooooooooooo terrifying.

Especially, as we get older.

Especially, being an older woman.

Especially, being an older woman.

*shiver*

LOL.

I can not tell you how many arguments the old me gets into arguments with the new me about not being afraid of growing older.

The new, younger feeling version of me, wants to get into all manner of foolishness.

The old, old lady feeling version of me, wants nothing more than to hide beneath a mountain of Lucky Charms and my body pillow.

Life is short, I fear, which is why I no longer fear. Rather, I no longer allow fear to dictate how I will live my life.

Ha!

Tell fear to kick rocks.

Short of that, if fear refuses to go, drag that joker into the shower with you and leave it there!

What’s the worst that will happen?

Whatever happens, beloveds, you will have grown. You will have laughed. You will have loved. Sounds like a win to me, don’tchathink?

Dive in.

Let life do what it do.

Then, you do what you do.

The rest will come out, in the wash.

I am doing my utmost to not worry about the outcome of my try. It’s not easy. I keep checking my the bank account, holding my dream(s), and the funds are still in the red. I still, smh, fret, just a tad, that life is passing me by. I am doing my best, tho, to snatch as much of it as I can. Here. Now.

All we have is all we have. Best get to using what we have, eh?

Fear?

Not!

Be encouraged.

Alway remember:

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: You tell me.

Not just yet, beloved.

Don’t give up, on you.

Not just yet, beloved.

Don’t give up, on your dream(s).

Not just yet, beloved.

Don’t give up, on your family.

Not just yet, beloved.

Don’t give up, on your kid.

Not just yet, beloved.

Don’t give up, on your career path/choice.

Not just yet, beloved.

Don’t give up, on God.

Not just yet, beloved.

Don’t give up, on Life.

Not just yet, beloved.

Don’t give up, on the person you are working to be.

Not just yet, beloved.

Don’t give up, on the person you are now.

Not just yet, beloved.

This is NOT the end.

This is NOT your end.

It IS the end of many things for you.

It IS the end of your:

Throwing in the towel.

Walking away.

Giving in.

This is your new start.

Why?

Because EVERY day is one where you can begin.

Again.

Again.

Again.

Do NOT, beloved, dismiss your try.

You are doing all that you know. Let this be enough.

You ARE enough.

You are so much more than what you currently have or don’t have. STOP blaming yourself and beating yourself up for actions and events that are long past. Your past is just that. Your past. Move past it. Go on now, beloved. Let those things go. You really have done all that you know.

I speak as much to me, as I do to you, beloved. Yes, we have done many a stupid thing. We were dummies, weren’t we? Let us laugh at our dumbness, forgive ourselves, and keep it moving. Shall we?

Okay, let’s go!

We have too much life left to live.

Live.

Love.

Laugh.

When is it okay to give up?

Not just yet, beloved.

still here as are you,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Forgiveness can be tough. Forgiving others for terribly wounding us, can be hard. Forgiving ourselves, for terribly wounding us, can seem near to impossible. It takes time. Just a step, beloved. One. You got this. Go now, precious….