This may sound like THE most asinine statement I have ever made. Note, I have made some really ridiculous statements:
I am THANKFUL that God and Life did not answer my prayer for rest/sabbatical. I was soooooooooo tired mentally, emotionally, physically I could do nothing but see and feel my CIRCUMSTANCES. I became my circumstances. I no longer overcame them. My circumstances had overcome ME.
After that, ALL I could focus was on circumstances of what I thought I saw. All I saw were obstacles I could never really overcome. Not, really. Not, me.
Before, I would have focused on the circumstances. Now, in having gone THROUGH the circumstances, I have learned how to live and be content in the midst of the fiercest battle. I have discovered I can move about in the most heated furnace. I have found I can live, with intention, not dreading the rocks in my shoe.
God and Life have the rocks from my shoes and have given them as diamonds in my hands.
Thank You, God.
Thank You, Life.
For remaining silent.
For teaching me how to speak, how to stand, how to try, how to love, how to endure, how to persevere, how to be content, how to…
Ah.
Aha!
How to!
These past dreams not coming to decades have been me writing my how to. Now, I give my how to to you, beloveds, that you may live. Now, right now, in need of nothing more than being you.
My sabbatical has come.
I rest now.
Speak now, God.
Speak now, Life.
I am ready.
resting,
Cassandra
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