Category: Writing

Real talk: The scariest person you will ever face in your life is you.

Yikes!

Whew!

That’s what I said, beloveds, after running into the scariest person I have ever met. Me.

Yep, who knew that I could be so darned scary?!

Only God and Life knew that I was:

Fearless.

Breathtaking.

Undaunted.

Indefatigable.

Relentless.

Brave.

Yea, who knew that I was ALL those things, and a million mighty more. That is, once I had beat the hell out of fear, anxiety, doubts and all their minions and opinions.

Since then, I have been storming castles, busting down walls, chasing bandits/fiends/foes. I’ve been taking names, dishing out pain, to all that has stood in my way.

I no longer cower, in corners. I corner, the pursuer. I pursue that which had previously pursued me.

I, now, conquer, my days. I, now, dominate, my hours. I allow nary a moment, no, not one, to go,without notice. With INTENTION, I make my way through.

Ah, world, best get to steppin’ girl. Else, I may be coming for you! Don’t make me throw hands. Don’t make me come looking for my blessings, my hopes and my dreams.

Let’s get going now, Life. I gotta a lotta living to do! Life is much too short. We’ve got books to write. We’ve got burdens to share. We’ve got a million places to be!

Let’s get after it now, God. Life is much too short. We’ve got folks to love. We’ve got hearts to hug. We’ve got all manner of work to do!

Let’s get after it now, Sweetheart. Life is much too short. We’ve got folks who are in darkness who need your light. We’ve got folks who have given up who need your fight. We’ve got mountains, and valleys to see!

Can’t believe I spent sooooo many years living in and with fear. When ALL I had to do was trust God, trust Life, trust the gifts They gave and tell fear and anxiety to kick rocks.

I spend my days, now, kicking butts and taking down names. I no longer care how long or ask how much or say why me.

Now, I ask fear and anxiety how long and how much more can they stand getting beat down by me! Ha!

Lift up your head, beloved. Look in the mirror. Your champion is staring back at you!

Lift up your hands, beloved. Reach forth and claim all that is for you!

Lift up your countenance, beloved. Dry your eyes. Deliverance has come for you!

This is the day that God has made. Rejoice and be glad in it.

Fear not, beloved. For, the scariest person you will ever face is you. And she/he/they are a bad mama jamma!

fearless,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

My Yikes want to say Yipppee.

Yikes!

YIKES!!

My heart is excited and I have NO idea why. Feels like it is ready to take a leap and I have NO idea where. Or, how. Or, what.

Egads.

My heart is wide open. My arms are wide open. Here goes nothing…

leaping having NO idea who/what will catch my fall,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Conquer something, today.

Conquer something, today.

Conquer, fear. Do something that has terrified you.

Conquer, anxiety. Try something you have NO chance of mastering the first time.

Conquer, lazy. Get done with the project you have been wanting to do for some time.

Conquer, some apathy. Get back to caring about things that have exhausted you to the point where you could care less.

Conquer, your job. Do the best you can as hard as you can til the work day ends. Don’t allow the work day to end you. When the work day is done, be satisfied.

Conquer, the walls that stands between you and the ones you love. If you put the walls up, tear them down. If you find walls between you, tear them down. Get to your loved ones. They need you. You need them. Conquer the walls of pride, of anger, of fear, of despair and repair what has been broken. Conquer what lies between you, NOT the love within you.

Conquer, looking back. Nothing is gained trying to live, in the past. Move, forward. Look upward. Determine, to be determined to conquer that which lies in your way.

Conquer, a big thing.

Conquer, something small.

Conquer something, today. Start throwing some hands and put ALL on notice. You are here!

being about that life,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Tell doubts to shut up!

Tell doubts to shut up!

Nuff said.

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Stop listening to your doubts. You have NO idea what you can do. You have NO idea how far you can go. You have NO idea what will happen after you have given your all.

Knowing this, beloved, go! Try. Just, try. Today may yet be your day. Finally. You won’t know until you do the darned thing. Your doubts know as much as you do. Which, is nothing. All you can control is your try. Just, try, beloveds.

I no longer worry about the outcome. I no longer wonder if I will win the day, if I will lose the thing. The fact that I did the thing, having no clue if I would win or lose, is enough for me. I gave all that I had. I did all that I know. I can live with the outcome. The point is that I am. I am living. I am loving. I am writing. I am trying. And, that, is win enough for me.

Shut up, doubts. Go ahead and take two seats. You are not welcome here, no more. Hit the road…

One word can change a life.

One word, can change a life.

That life, may be your own.

That word, may come from you.

You, may be the one someone has been waiting for, all this time.

You, may be the one YOU have been waiting for, all this time, all your life.

Open, your heart.

Then, open your mouth.

One word, beloved, can change a life.

Starting with, your own.

listening for the sound of YOUR voice,

God.

Life.

Me.

You.

Your family.

Your job.

Your community.

Speak!

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Let’s go, anxiety!

Let’s go, anxiety!

I got some for you, too!

I already told your friend, fear, where it could get gone to.

Let’s throw some hands, anxiety. You don’t run me, no more. You and your tired lies can go on ahead and kick rocks. Take your tall tales with you!

You do NOT run, my mind. You do NOT, run my life. You do NOT run a blasted thing, ’round here.

Anxiety, I suggest you join your friend, fear. You can go where fear went. Yall can both go to…uh, oh.

Uh, oh, anxiety, shoulda kilt me while you had the chance. Too late, now, as I now know the secret of life.

I now know, to keep living life, in the now, right now, loud, proud, and not studdin nothing your lying mouth has tried to say.

Let’s go, anxiety! I show you to the door. Be gone, get goin’. You ain’t welcome here, no moe.

What are YOU looking at, sad? Do you and I need to talk, next? Didn’t think so…

content,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Don’t waste another moment, beloveds, running from fear and anxiety. Tell them jokers where to get off at and go on ahead and live your life. Now. Here. As best and as hard and as loud as you can. Love as much as you can. Don’t waste a moment wondering where the payoff is. Live. Then, watch God and Life show up for you. In the meantime, love yourself, darn it. Then, love someone else. Someone needs to know they are not alone. Someone needs to know they are loved. Get going!

Let’s go, fear!

Let’s go, fear!

You do NOT intimidate me.

You shall regret it, fear.

Yes, you shall regret taunting me.

You shall rue the day you haunted my dreams.

Yea, boy, fear you will wish you had never met me!

Let’s go, fear.

Don’t cower, now.

Now that I have dragged you into deep waters.

Now that I have chased you into the sun.

Why do you run now, fear?

Thought you said I would be the one running away, from you?

Ah, fear. Where you off to, now?

Now that, I hold my head high.

Now that, I have brought you low.

Keep on, running.

I shall, keep coming.

Fear, I am the one coming, for you.

Let’s go, fear!

fearing not,

Cassandra

Note: There are times when you need to let fear and all it’s companions know who they are dealing with! Live. Love. Laugh.

#YourLifeMattersToMe

You are not alone.

“I’m lonely “.

What I texted one of my sisters. I have been living alone, away from all family since 2016. Seven years.

I had to hear the most awful news a child could hear, alone.

I had to go through terrifying financial times where I didn’t think I would make it, alone.

I had to hear devastating health news and deal with it’s aftermath, alone.

I have had to deal with blow after blow after blow after blow, alone.

Alone, yet not.

Sometimes, not having some skin around can feel awfully lonely. During those times, it is important to understand that we are NOT alone.

On the other end of my text, sis texted back.

Back and forth, sis and I cut up, via text. Back and forth, I yakked with mom, as she was in heaven, sipping coffee and telling her of my say. Back and forth, I yakked with God and Life, pouring out my heart and letting all know that I was here. Here, still. Still, waiting. Still, loving best I can. I am lonely, I said, knowing I am not alone.

blessed,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Be encouraged. You will see the sun.

Be, encouraged.

You WILL see the sun.

That’s what I told myself as God and Life refused to give up Their secrets. Everything seems to be in a holding pattern. Nothing earth-shattering going on. Nothing life-changing either.

Me and Life appears to be in a staredown. I want to tell Life to stop being a bully and give me what I have long been working for, walking towards, taking the high road to obtain.

Life simply stares at me, in silence, waiting for me to find all the nuggets contained within this almost unbelievable and unbreakable and unbearable silence!

I am learning to be still, in this silence.

I am learning to keep moving, in the silence.

I am learning to keep believing, in the silence.

Believing can seem soooo hard to believe, in the silence!

I, believe.

In, me.

In, life.

In, God.

In, my skills.

In, my try.

In believing, I continue to encourage myself. I tell myself I WILL see the sun, soon.

As shall you, beloveds.

In the meantime, sit with me awhile. Let us speak to one another’s heart. Let us encourage others and invite them to sit. Here. With us. In the silence. Until, the sun rises. It shall. In it’s time. In the meantime…

Be encouraged. You will see the sun.

waiting with you,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Embrace the lag time: Learning how to be content.

The Bible tells us to be content no matter what state we find ourselves in.

Yet, it can be super hard to be content when it’s hard to be content!

We want to be there, already!

We want to have that, already!

We get tired of the drive, weary of the endlessly winding roads, exhausted from fighting with or amongst fellow travelers.

We get exasperated with all the blasted clues the Bible, God, Life, life, situation and circumstances leave us with.

SPEAK PLAINLY, ALREADY!! TELL US WHAT THE WORLD YOU NEED FOR US TO DO HAVE OR BE SO WE CAN GET TO DOING HAVING AND BEING ALREADY!!!!??

Whew.

Yet, both God and Life waits patiently for us to learn some patience. Then, after learning som patience we can finally learn to be content no matter where we find ourselves.

I’m a clicker. Leastwise, I used to be. Meaning, when online I would click the blasted mouse until the dumb pages loaded. The problem was, EVERY time I clicked, the computer had to do it’s thing to load each page.

Instead of making things faster, all I did was make my computer time frustrating, aggravating and why on earth did I get online for time.

Over time, I learned to, quiet my hands. I would do other things while waiting for the page to load. I learned to, be content while content was being loaded…lol.

So, we just have to learn to be content, whilst God and Life downloads/uploads the content needed, in order for us to do, be and have.

Simple?

Yes.

Easy?

Depends.

How content are you?

chilling with still fingers,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe