God: Why?
Me: Huh?
God: WHY do you need a sabbatical. Right now, I mean.
Me: Because I am tired.
God: Of what? Your job?
Me: Not, really. I am doing really well. I enjoy working. I enjoy my peers. My leadership cracks me up.
God: What are you tired of, then?
Me: I had not thought of WHY. Just know I have been exhausted and ready to lay down somewhere.
God: Do me a fave, ask yourself why, THEN come back and ask for your sabbatical.
Me: Okay.
*Cassandra climbs down from The Father’s Lap, summons Yikes!, Egads! and Jesus to have a confab. Nosey angels Michael and Gabriel tagged along just cuz…*
Me: Okay, yall, God told me to ask myself why I have been so tired, lately. I have been so tired I could give two hoots about the why. Just want to lay down. Thoughts my peeps?
Egads!: If you ask me, I blame incline.
Yikes!: Yikes!, don’t say THAT! Incline will get her for sure, this evening. Smh.
Jesus: Well, you HAVE been toting other folk’s water. for quite some time now. You have been rushing in with pillows and such to comfort folk who need to learn how to comfort themselves and get their own act rights and lefts.
Me: True that.
Yikes!: True that.
Incline: True that.
Stairs: True that.
Me: Who asked YOU, stairs! Bad enough I have to deal with you after fighting with incline! Leave me alone til later. Smh.
Jesus: So, why DO you need a sabbatical, right now?
Me: I’m tired. Soul tired. Soooooo tired. Tired of dismissing MY tired.
Jesus: Go back and talk to Dad.
God: Why do you need a sabbatical, right now?
Me: Great question. Brb.
For months, I have been wanting to take a break. From everything. From everything! Yet, the more I asked myself why, the more I realized I didn’t want to abandon life. I just want to experience a bit of rest and writing without fatigue. I want to experience, what it’s like, to be financially comfortable so I can write, write, write and write.
The job I hold, and have held, have been serving others. I love it. Yet, these type of jobs don’t lead to million dollar contracts. I wouldn’t change it. I love serving. I love removing a pebble from someone else’s mountain.
At 54, beloveds, I have been wondering if there are folk, who may remove a pebble or two. From, me. For, me. Why? Because I am more than just a server.
Ah, beloveds, when God gets to asking questions, it leads you to soooooooo many places. I wonder if I shall get there. I no longer care where He is leading. I just want to be where He is. I just want to encourage folk, where they are.
I have no idea where this ends. So, I shall end here. In times past, I would have been frustrated with, not knowing. With, not knowing, how. Now, all I need to know is God and Life knows my, when. God and Life knows my, how. That is enough. For, now…lol.
Be encouraged.
Keep talking to the universe.
Keep talking.
The world IS listening.
God and Life are listening.
What shall They say?
Ah.
Aha!
waiting with expectancy for the universe to bring my bounty,
Cassandra
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