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The Universe told me to put it on my right, ring finger.
I have ‘engaged, the borg, er, The Universe.
The Universe, has engaged, with me.
I am no longer, afraid.
I am not strong.
I am courageous.
I have started journaling again. I have such ugly handwriting. God gave me this handwriting so I have learned to love it. You will have to go in the archives to read my God’s Handwriting piece. I may do so, as well.
I am also rediscovering my love for reading. I am re ordering all my favorite authors: Sidney Sheldon, Judith Michaels, Elizabeth Gage, Kathryn Harvey. They are all fighting for the first read.
I also want to read Michelle Obama’s books. As well as, Viola Davis’. Yikes. Yet, my copy of Corrie ten Boom’s Prison Letters came and I think I shall start with that.
I am starting.
I am starting, over.
I am starting, fresh.
I am starting, anew.
I am starting…
Ah.
Aha!
How about you, beloveds?
I find myself looking at my Buddha belly, at mama’s ring, and thinking of hers. I smile. She smiles, back at me. She has sent the universe for me. Thanks mom. I love you.
I’m supposed to be working today. I’m having system issues. I’m getting paid to wait for technical support to call me. Working from home, I can do what I want while I wait as long as I don’t leave the house until after my shift is over.
Lazy of course voted to go lay down. Lady reasoned that since my computer was silent I could get me a nice nap. I told later to shut up. I’ve made lazy wash the dishwasher and go fold the laundry from last night.
Lazy argue with me. I made lately organized the kitchen more. I made lazy clean out the freezer. I found some old ground beef patty’s that were a bit freezer burned. I started to throw them away. I decided to re imagine the ground beef and make something new.
I threw some of this, a hint of that, and a whole lot of what the world is this in my electric skillet. I let things simmer. Lazy simmered with annoyance. So what, I told lazy.
I spent the work day working on me. I spent the work day moving forward. I spent the work day looking in work. I have spent the work day looking upward.
I am finally making work, work for me. That’s been as much time awake as I can. I am no longer sleepwalking through life. I no longer allow noise or distractions, to distract me from living.
No longer worry about or wonder if anyone will ever respond to my reaching out. I guess reach out. I just love. I walk with the universe and enjoy every moment. Those who choose not to engage with me are just missing out, on the awesome life called Cassandra. Not my problem. I have the entire world to love.
I must say, beloveds, my concoction, of old hamburger, five cheese sauce, 🥔, green beans, and a million spices have been bubbling nicely. I hate to go run and eat…
COME SIT AT MY TABLE 🪑❤️🩹 Beloveds, Come sit at my table. I don’t care who you are. I don’t care what you look like. I don’t care whether your life looks anything like mine. I don’t need you to explain yourself before you pull out the chair. Just come sit with me. I know … Continue reading COME SIT AT MY TABLE 🪑❤️🩹→
BELOVEDS, YOU CAN HAVE MY FLOWERS. I DON’T NEED THEM ANYMORE. ❣️💟💕💞💓💗💛🧡🖤💙💚🤍🩶🤎💜❤️❤️🩹💖💝💘💘🧩🧸 Beloveds, You can have MY flowers. I don’t need them anymore. 🌹🌷🌻 No, really. Take them. Take every last one. Give them to somebody who can smell them. Give them to somebody who can hold them. Give them to somebody who needs to … Continue reading BELOVEDS, YOU CAN HAVE MY FLOWERS. I DON’T NEED THEM ANYMORE.→
God: Forgive him. Me: He said some terribly hurtful words. God: I know. Do this for me. Me: He said some blatantly racist things to his supposed friend!!🥾😡 God: I know. Forgive for they know not what they do. Me: He KNEW. HE CHOSE THOSE AWFUL WORDS!!😠✋️ God: How will he ever learn and grow … Continue reading Forgive them, Cassandra, God said to me→
Good morning! I love my new avatar!! Now I can express me!!! Two issues: I’m almost out of free space and will have to upgrade this week. Secondly, I have been sick enough to have upcoming surgery and to take a full week off to rest. Yet, my heart won’t let me quit you, beloveds. … Continue reading Still In Love→
REAL TALK: DESPISE NOT SMALL BEGINNINGS, BELOVEDS. 👘🦺🥾👟🥿👞🩴👢🩰👡⛑️🔌🕯️🔎🖌️🖋️📢 Beloveds, Real talk. Despise not small beginnings. “For who hath despised the day of small things?”— Zechariah 4:10 KJV I want to talk about your hard. Not motivational-poster hard. Not the kind somebody can wrap up in three sentences and put underneath a pretty picture of a … Continue reading REAL TALK: DESPISE NOT SMALL BEGINNINGS, BELOVEDS.👘🦺🥾👟🥿👞🩴👢🩰👡⛑️🔌🕯️🔎🖌️🖋️📢→
Beloveds, Before there was a blog, there was me. I need to start there. Because if I’m going to introduce myself—really introduce myself—I don’t want to begin with a website. I don’t want to begin with something that happened to me. I don’t want to begin with a list of things I have survived, things … Continue reading IT ME!→
IT IS FINISHED. BUT BELOVEDS, WE ARE NOT. ❤️🩹🌎 For Mom.For Wombie.For every person in this world carrying the name of somebody they love who is no longer here. Beloveds, Before I say anything else, I need to say two names that don’t belong to a sermon. Mom. Wombie. Before there was Why Can’t I … Continue reading IT IS FINISHED. BUT BELOVEDS, WE ARE NOT. ❤️🩹🌎→
💙📫 ONE LAST POSTCARD — LOVE SOMEBODY NOW Beloveds, My mother died on Christmas morning in 2016. Before she died, we had plans. We were supposed to take a vacation together in March. I was going to show her my new car. I was so sure we had time. We never got that chance. We … Continue reading LAST ONE. FRFR!→
💙📫 A POSTCARD FOR YOU: DON’T GIVE UP YET Beloveds, DON’T GIVE UP YET! I don’t know who needs this little postcard today, but I’m sending it anyway. Don’t give up yet. Not because I can promise you everything is about to become easy. I can’t. Not because I know exactly what you’re carrying. I … Continue reading DON’T GIVE UP YET!→
COME SIT AT MY TABLE 🪑❤️🩹 Beloveds, Come sit at my table. I don’t care who you are. I don’t care what you look like. I don’t care whether your life looks anything like mine. I don’t need you to explain yourself before you pull out the chair. Just come sit with me. I know … Continue reading COME SIT AT MY TABLE 🪑❤️🩹→
BELOVEDS, YOU CAN HAVE MY FLOWERS. I DON’T NEED THEM ANYMORE. ❣️💟💕💞💓💗💛🧡🖤💙💚🤍🩶🤎💜❤️❤️🩹💖💝💘💘🧩🧸 Beloveds, You can have MY flowers. I don’t need them anymore. 🌹🌷🌻 No, really. Take them. Take every last one. Give them to somebody who can smell them. Give them to somebody who can hold them. Give them to somebody who needs to … Continue reading BELOVEDS, YOU CAN HAVE MY FLOWERS. I DON’T NEED THEM ANYMORE.→
God: Forgive him. Me: He said some terribly hurtful words. God: I know. Do this for me. Me: He said some blatantly racist things to his supposed friend!!🥾😡 God: I know. Forgive for they know not what they do. Me: He KNEW. HE CHOSE THOSE AWFUL WORDS!!😠✋️ God: How will he ever learn and grow … Continue reading Forgive them, Cassandra, God said to me→
Good morning! I love my new avatar!! Now I can express me!!! Two issues: I’m almost out of free space and will have to upgrade this week. Secondly, I have been sick enough to have upcoming surgery and to take a full week off to rest. Yet, my heart won’t let me quit you, beloveds. … Continue reading Still In Love→
REAL TALK: DESPISE NOT SMALL BEGINNINGS, BELOVEDS. 👘🦺🥾👟🥿👞🩴👢🩰👡⛑️🔌🕯️🔎🖌️🖋️📢 Beloveds, Real talk. Despise not small beginnings. “For who hath despised the day of small things?”— Zechariah 4:10 KJV I want to talk about your hard. Not motivational-poster hard. Not the kind somebody can wrap up in three sentences and put underneath a pretty picture of a … Continue reading REAL TALK: DESPISE NOT SMALL BEGINNINGS, BELOVEDS.👘🦺🥾👟🥿👞🩴👢🩰👡⛑️🔌🕯️🔎🖌️🖋️📢→
Beloveds, Before there was a blog, there was me. I need to start there. Because if I’m going to introduce myself—really introduce myself—I don’t want to begin with a website. I don’t want to begin with something that happened to me. I don’t want to begin with a list of things I have survived, things … Continue reading IT ME!→
IT IS FINISHED. BUT BELOVEDS, WE ARE NOT. ❤️🩹🌎 For Mom.For Wombie.For every person in this world carrying the name of somebody they love who is no longer here. Beloveds, Before I say anything else, I need to say two names that don’t belong to a sermon. Mom. Wombie. Before there was Why Can’t I … Continue reading IT IS FINISHED. BUT BELOVEDS, WE ARE NOT. ❤️🩹🌎→
💙📫 ONE LAST POSTCARD — LOVE SOMEBODY NOW Beloveds, My mother died on Christmas morning in 2016. Before she died, we had plans. We were supposed to take a vacation together in March. I was going to show her my new car. I was so sure we had time. We never got that chance. We … Continue reading LAST ONE. FRFR!→
💙📫 A POSTCARD FOR YOU: DON’T GIVE UP YET Beloveds, DON’T GIVE UP YET! I don’t know who needs this little postcard today, but I’m sending it anyway. Don’t give up yet. Not because I can promise you everything is about to become easy. I can’t. Not because I know exactly what you’re carrying. I … Continue reading DON’T GIVE UP YET!→
AFTER MIDNIGHT — WHAT ALL OF THIS WAS ABOUT 🌎❤️🔥 Beloveds, Tonight we went a long way around to arrive at something that has actually been here all along. Why Can’t I Be Loud? was never simply about being loud. It was about having a voice. It was about refusing to let this world decide … Continue reading AFTER MIDNIGHT — WHAT ALL OF THIS WAS ABOUT 🌎❤️🔥→
😂🎤 SOMETIMES I JUST WANT TO LAUGH Beloveds, Listen. Sometimes there is a lesson. Sometimes there is a testimony. Sometimes there is something that makes me stop, think, pray, cry, or look at the world a little differently. And sometimes? 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 IT’S JUST FUNNY. That’s it. That’s the post. 😂 I love comedy. I love … Continue reading 🤣😂🥰😍→
Life has been acting ten kinds of fool, lately. Throwing this test and that test and all kinds of what in the fresh hockey puckis all this!!
So what, I told EVERY test and trial.
Ha!
It was much too hot to walk outside, for folks. So, I walked for folk, inside.
I walked, for those who are just too soul tired to walk, right now. That’s okay. You SHALL walk. Be encouraged.
I walked, for those who are just too angry, over(insert reason here). It’s okay. You shall get to the other side. Be encouraged.
I walked, for those who are just too I’ll. That’s okay. You shall heal. Be encouraged.
Don’t give up on you.
Not just yet, beloveds.
Life IS about to turn around, for you. It is. Be encouraged.
Now, I have to get back to my concert. 🎤🎸🎹🎷🎶🎶
making a joyful noise for all who can’t yet sing,
Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe
Note: Don’t allow ANYTHING come between you and your dreams, you and your family, you and those you care for. Not, even you. Especially, you. Remember:
I have done well, this year, with letting holidays and fave events, just that. I am doing my level best to no longer allow occasions to be occasions ruminating in mom’s passing.
Perhaps, you are also fighting with a loss, of some sort. Losses, hurt. Even, losses that are in our best interest.
If you are currently, hurting in plain sight, I got you. I am praying for us all.
It’s no fun having to keep on keeping on when our want to does not want to yet we HAVE to. It can be…
Exhausting.
Yet, I smile. I made myself, an omelet. I’m fixing to have a cup, of coffee, in the ☕ my big bro sent me, just cuz. I am Watchung old reruns of Boston Legal.
Yea, mom is smiling down on me. Miss you, mom.
I just popped in, to remind you that it’s okay to NOT be okay until you are okay.
Okay?…*smile*.
Be encouraged.
Beware.
Someone may tap you on the shoulder. I haven’t forgotten our game of tag.
MMMUUAUAAAAAA!
*Cassandra sneaks up on Avita, taps her on the shoulder, and takes off 😂. Tag, you are it.*
Rather life and God have been preparing me, for this time, all my life.
I am here, world.
Finally.
I have been wanting to reach out, to the wide world, since I knew what a world was.
The world, has not always, been kind.
So what?
I CHOOSE, to be kind, still.
The world, chooses, to be cynical.
So what?
I CHOOSE, to believe, still.
The world, rejects everything that has ANYTHING to do with faith, hope, and love.
So what?
I CHOOSE, to have faith, to embrace hope, to give and receive, love, still.
The world, scoffs at, my dreams.
So what?
I CHOOSE, to dream, still.
The world, says there is no God.
So what?
I CHOOSE, to love Him, still.
The world, says the universe has turned it’s back, on me and locked the 🚪 door on me and my dreams.
So what?
I CHOOSE, to be ride or die, for me and my dreams.
The world, says I am much, much too loud, for any man to love him some me.
So what?
I CHOOSE, to keep loving me some me. The Universe may or may not, send my soul mate this way. Then again, may not. I am having too much fun, living, with intention and being loved on, and loving, me some Jesus, to worry about a boo not showing up. Would be a HIS loss and problem. I am fantastic, yall. Just saying. Some lucky man, should he find this goof, er, good thing, such as me, Cassandra, Sweetpea, will be THE luckiest man in all of the world. There is only ONE, me. Priceless, Mona Lisa self, me. Ha! You had better ask somebody!!
How much do I love me, now? Let me count the ways.😄😉😊🥰😍
Hello, world.
I am here.
I am not strong.
I am courageous.
He is able to present me fautless…
I’m not begging you to love me. I shall ALLOW you, world, to put in your application, to be in MY world. You had best come correct, though. I don’t play!!
Ah.
Aha!
Hey world, time for me to go. The Universe has grown a bit jelly of me spending a bit of time, with you.
Enjoy your life, beloveds. The world will do what it does. You be sure to make it do what it do!
COME SIT AT MY TABLE 🪑❤️🩹 Beloveds, Come sit at my table. I don’t care who you are. I don’t care what you look like. I don’t care whether your life looks anything like mine. I don’t need you to explain yourself before you pull out the chair. Just come sit with me. I know … Continue reading COME SIT AT MY TABLE 🪑❤️🩹→
BELOVEDS, YOU CAN HAVE MY FLOWERS. I DON’T NEED THEM ANYMORE. ❣️💟💕💞💓💗💛🧡🖤💙💚🤍🩶🤎💜❤️❤️🩹💖💝💘💘🧩🧸 Beloveds, You can have MY flowers. I don’t need them anymore. 🌹🌷🌻 No, really. Take them. Take every last one. Give them to somebody who can smell them. Give them to somebody who can hold them. Give them to somebody who needs to … Continue reading BELOVEDS, YOU CAN HAVE MY FLOWERS. I DON’T NEED THEM ANYMORE.→
God: Forgive him. Me: He said some terribly hurtful words. God: I know. Do this for me. Me: He said some blatantly racist things to his supposed friend!!🥾😡 God: I know. Forgive for they know not what they do. Me: He KNEW. HE CHOSE THOSE AWFUL WORDS!!😠✋️ God: How will he ever learn and grow … Continue reading Forgive them, Cassandra, God said to me→
Good morning! I love my new avatar!! Now I can express me!!! Two issues: I’m almost out of free space and will have to upgrade this week. Secondly, I have been sick enough to have upcoming surgery and to take a full week off to rest. Yet, my heart won’t let me quit you, beloveds. … Continue reading Still In Love→
REAL TALK: DESPISE NOT SMALL BEGINNINGS, BELOVEDS. 👘🦺🥾👟🥿👞🩴👢🩰👡⛑️🔌🕯️🔎🖌️🖋️📢 Beloveds, Real talk. Despise not small beginnings. “For who hath despised the day of small things?”— Zechariah 4:10 KJV I want to talk about your hard. Not motivational-poster hard. Not the kind somebody can wrap up in three sentences and put underneath a pretty picture of a … Continue reading REAL TALK: DESPISE NOT SMALL BEGINNINGS, BELOVEDS.👘🦺🥾👟🥿👞🩴👢🩰👡⛑️🔌🕯️🔎🖌️🖋️📢→
Beloveds, Before there was a blog, there was me. I need to start there. Because if I’m going to introduce myself—really introduce myself—I don’t want to begin with a website. I don’t want to begin with something that happened to me. I don’t want to begin with a list of things I have survived, things … Continue reading IT ME!→
IT IS FINISHED. BUT BELOVEDS, WE ARE NOT. ❤️🩹🌎 For Mom.For Wombie.For every person in this world carrying the name of somebody they love who is no longer here. Beloveds, Before I say anything else, I need to say two names that don’t belong to a sermon. Mom. Wombie. Before there was Why Can’t I … Continue reading IT IS FINISHED. BUT BELOVEDS, WE ARE NOT. ❤️🩹🌎→
💙📫 ONE LAST POSTCARD — LOVE SOMEBODY NOW Beloveds, My mother died on Christmas morning in 2016. Before she died, we had plans. We were supposed to take a vacation together in March. I was going to show her my new car. I was so sure we had time. We never got that chance. We … Continue reading LAST ONE. FRFR!→
💙📫 A POSTCARD FOR YOU: DON’T GIVE UP YET Beloveds, DON’T GIVE UP YET! I don’t know who needs this little postcard today, but I’m sending it anyway. Don’t give up yet. Not because I can promise you everything is about to become easy. I can’t. Not because I know exactly what you’re carrying. I … Continue reading DON’T GIVE UP YET!→
AFTER MIDNIGHT — WHAT ALL OF THIS WAS ABOUT 🌎❤️🔥 Beloveds, Tonight we went a long way around to arrive at something that has actually been here all along. Why Can’t I Be Loud? was never simply about being loud. It was about having a voice. It was about refusing to let this world decide … Continue reading AFTER MIDNIGHT — WHAT ALL OF THIS WAS ABOUT 🌎❤️🔥→
😂🎤 SOMETIMES I JUST WANT TO LAUGH Beloveds, Listen. Sometimes there is a lesson. Sometimes there is a testimony. Sometimes there is something that makes me stop, think, pray, cry, or look at the world a little differently. And sometimes? 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 IT’S JUST FUNNY. That’s it. That’s the post. 😂 I love comedy. I love … Continue reading 🤣😂🥰😍→