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The Universe told me to put it on my right, ring finger.
I have ‘engaged, the borg, er, The Universe.
The Universe, has engaged, with me.
I am no longer, afraid.
I am not strong.
I am courageous.
I have started journaling again. I have such ugly handwriting. God gave me this handwriting so I have learned to love it. You will have to go in the archives to read my God’s Handwriting piece. I may do so, as well.
I am also rediscovering my love for reading. I am re ordering all my favorite authors: Sidney Sheldon, Judith Michaels, Elizabeth Gage, Kathryn Harvey. They are all fighting for the first read.
I also want to read Michelle Obama’s books. As well as, Viola Davis’. Yikes. Yet, my copy of Corrie ten Boom’s Prison Letters came and I think I shall start with that.
I am starting.
I am starting, over.
I am starting, fresh.
I am starting, anew.
I am starting…
Ah.
Aha!
How about you, beloveds?
I find myself looking at my Buddha belly, at mama’s ring, and thinking of hers. I smile. She smiles, back at me. She has sent the universe for me. Thanks mom. I love you.
I’m supposed to be working today. I’m having system issues. I’m getting paid to wait for technical support to call me. Working from home, I can do what I want while I wait as long as I don’t leave the house until after my shift is over.
Lazy of course voted to go lay down. Lady reasoned that since my computer was silent I could get me a nice nap. I told later to shut up. I’ve made lazy wash the dishwasher and go fold the laundry from last night.
Lazy argue with me. I made lately organized the kitchen more. I made lazy clean out the freezer. I found some old ground beef patty’s that were a bit freezer burned. I started to throw them away. I decided to re imagine the ground beef and make something new.
I threw some of this, a hint of that, and a whole lot of what the world is this in my electric skillet. I let things simmer. Lazy simmered with annoyance. So what, I told lazy.
I spent the work day working on me. I spent the work day moving forward. I spent the work day looking in work. I have spent the work day looking upward.
I am finally making work, work for me. That’s been as much time awake as I can. I am no longer sleepwalking through life. I no longer allow noise or distractions, to distract me from living.
No longer worry about or wonder if anyone will ever respond to my reaching out. I guess reach out. I just love. I walk with the universe and enjoy every moment. Those who choose not to engage with me are just missing out, on the awesome life called Cassandra. Not my problem. I have the entire world to love.
I must say, beloveds, my concoction, of old hamburger, five cheese sauce, 🥔, green beans, and a million spices have been bubbling nicely. I hate to go run and eat…
Cry won but that’s okay Friday, October 16, 2026 Beloveds, Sometimes the tears win. And I want to say that plain. Not dramatically.Not apologetically.Not like it means faith packed up and left the room. Sometimes, cry wins. And that is okay. Sometimes the body is tired.Sometimes the heart is carrying more than words can properly … Continue reading Cry won but that’s okay.→
Fear. Not.✋🏿 Not TODAY!🖖🏿 Despair. Not.✋🏿 Not TODAY!🖖🏿 Hopeless. Not.✋🏿 Not TODAY!🖖🏿 Despair. Not. Not TODAY! Desperate. Not. ✋🏿 Not TODAY!🖖🏿 Disheartened. Not.✋🏿 Not TODAY!🖖🏿 Discouraged. Not.✋🏿 Not TODAY! Today I planned something fun for 6p. Health said, Nah Fam, refusing to release it’s grip, on my numb left hand. Leaving me: Stuck in bed, … Continue reading Not TODAY!→
Friday, October 16, 2026 — 6:00 PM Find Somewhere New to Meet Yourself Beloveds, We’ve spent this week talking about you. Not me. You. The person who sometimes misses who you used to be. The person learning what to do when simple things aren’t simple anymore. The person remembering that being alone doesn’t always mean … Continue reading Friday, October 16, 2026 — 6:00 PM→
There’s room for all of us — Bring it home Friday, October 16, 2026 — 12:00 PM Beloveds, It’s FRIDAY! 💃🏿 And look at us! We made it to the end of another week. Some of us came through smiling. Some of us came through wondering what in the world happened between Monday and today. … Continue reading There’s room for all of us — Bring it home.→
Keep on Keeping On 🌅💛 Friday, October 16, 2026 | 8:00 AM Good morning, Beloveds! 🥰☕️ Just stopping by to remind somebody of something this morning. YOU GOT THIS! 💪🏿❤️ I know. Life has a way of throwing things at us that we never saw coming. Sometimes we get tired. Sometimes we get discouraged. And … Continue reading Keep on Keeping On 🌅💛.→
Thursday, October 15, 2026 — 6:00 PM You Don’t Have to Want Your Whole Old Life Back Beloveds, Here’s something we don’t say enough. You can miss parts of your old life without wanting the whole thing back. You can miss the house and not miss what happened inside it. You can miss the job … Continue reading Thursday, October 15, 2026 — 6:00 PM→
I woke up hurting TODAY. I’m frustrated TODAY. I don’t feel like doing TODAY. I don’t feel like seizing TODAY. I don’t feel like seizing TODAY. I don’t feel lovable TODAY. I don’t feel loveable TODAY. I don’t feel TODAY. I don’t feel anything TODAY. Me: God, I don’t know how to do TODAY. God: … Continue reading Even then. Even when. →
Two things can be true, beloveds. Thursday, October 15, 2026 — 12:00 PM Beloveds, Yesterday, we talked about giving ourselves permission to feel. Today, I want to talk about something else. What happens when we feel two things at the same time? And neither feeling wants to move over and give the other one some … Continue reading Two things can be true, beloved.→
Wednesday, October 14, 2026 — 6:00 PM Nobody Was Missing From the Room Beloveds, Can we stop treating being alone like somebody forgot to show up? Sometimes nobody is missing. Sometimes the room has exactly the right number of people in it. One. You. There are people who love being surrounded by people. There are … Continue reading Wednesday, October 14, 2026 — 6:00 PM→
Cry won but that’s okay Friday, October 16, 2026 Beloveds, Sometimes the tears win. And I want to say that plain. Not dramatically.Not apologetically.Not like it means faith packed up and left the room. Sometimes, cry wins. And that is okay. Sometimes the body is tired.Sometimes the heart is carrying more than words can properly … Continue reading Cry won but that’s okay.→
Fear. Not.✋🏿 Not TODAY!🖖🏿 Despair. Not.✋🏿 Not TODAY!🖖🏿 Hopeless. Not.✋🏿 Not TODAY!🖖🏿 Despair. Not. Not TODAY! Desperate. Not. ✋🏿 Not TODAY!🖖🏿 Disheartened. Not.✋🏿 Not TODAY!🖖🏿 Discouraged. Not.✋🏿 Not TODAY! Today I planned something fun for 6p. Health said, Nah Fam, refusing to release it’s grip, on my numb left hand. Leaving me: Stuck in bed, … Continue reading Not TODAY!→
Friday, October 16, 2026 — 6:00 PM Find Somewhere New to Meet Yourself Beloveds, We’ve spent this week talking about you. Not me. You. The person who sometimes misses who you used to be. The person learning what to do when simple things aren’t simple anymore. The person remembering that being alone doesn’t always mean … Continue reading Friday, October 16, 2026 — 6:00 PM→
There’s room for all of us — Bring it home Friday, October 16, 2026 — 12:00 PM Beloveds, It’s FRIDAY! 💃🏿 And look at us! We made it to the end of another week. Some of us came through smiling. Some of us came through wondering what in the world happened between Monday and today. … Continue reading There’s room for all of us — Bring it home.→
Keep on Keeping On 🌅💛 Friday, October 16, 2026 | 8:00 AM Good morning, Beloveds! 🥰☕️ Just stopping by to remind somebody of something this morning. YOU GOT THIS! 💪🏿❤️ I know. Life has a way of throwing things at us that we never saw coming. Sometimes we get tired. Sometimes we get discouraged. And … Continue reading Keep on Keeping On 🌅💛.→
Thursday, October 15, 2026 — 6:00 PM You Don’t Have to Want Your Whole Old Life Back Beloveds, Here’s something we don’t say enough. You can miss parts of your old life without wanting the whole thing back. You can miss the house and not miss what happened inside it. You can miss the job … Continue reading Thursday, October 15, 2026 — 6:00 PM→
I woke up hurting TODAY. I’m frustrated TODAY. I don’t feel like doing TODAY. I don’t feel like seizing TODAY. I don’t feel like seizing TODAY. I don’t feel lovable TODAY. I don’t feel loveable TODAY. I don’t feel TODAY. I don’t feel anything TODAY. Me: God, I don’t know how to do TODAY. God: … Continue reading Even then. Even when. →
Two things can be true, beloveds. Thursday, October 15, 2026 — 12:00 PM Beloveds, Yesterday, we talked about giving ourselves permission to feel. Today, I want to talk about something else. What happens when we feel two things at the same time? And neither feeling wants to move over and give the other one some … Continue reading Two things can be true, beloved.→
Wednesday, October 14, 2026 — 6:00 PM Nobody Was Missing From the Room Beloveds, Can we stop treating being alone like somebody forgot to show up? Sometimes nobody is missing. Sometimes the room has exactly the right number of people in it. One. You. There are people who love being surrounded by people. There are … Continue reading Wednesday, October 14, 2026 — 6:00 PM→
Beloveds, I feel stuck. Stuck between two worlds: Hopeful, yet wondering. Able, yet, hesitant. Joyful, yet, wandering. Stuck in the middle of… New life. Old life. Future life. Nevertheless/however Cassandra lives. Ah, God, why must I be stuck in the middle. I trust You. I’m learning to trust me, too. Thank You for loving me … Continue reading Stuck between two worlds.→
Give yourself permission, beloveds. To: Feel. Fear. Cry. Worry. Fret. Fuss. Holler. Howl. Whatever. Whenever. However. Beloveds, it’s important to give yourself permission and room to feel however you feel. Folk ought stop lying 🤥 about how they truly feel. Yesterday, my heart ached. I had to pick up my bifocals and reading glasses 👓 … Continue reading Give yourself permission, beloveds.→
Life has been acting ten kinds of fool, lately. Throwing this test and that test and all kinds of what in the fresh hockey puckis all this!!
So what, I told EVERY test and trial.
Ha!
It was much too hot to walk outside, for folks. So, I walked for folk, inside.
I walked, for those who are just too soul tired to walk, right now. That’s okay. You SHALL walk. Be encouraged.
I walked, for those who are just too angry, over(insert reason here). It’s okay. You shall get to the other side. Be encouraged.
I walked, for those who are just too I’ll. That’s okay. You shall heal. Be encouraged.
Don’t give up on you.
Not just yet, beloveds.
Life IS about to turn around, for you. It is. Be encouraged.
Now, I have to get back to my concert. 🎤🎸🎹🎷🎶🎶
making a joyful noise for all who can’t yet sing,
Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe
Note: Don’t allow ANYTHING come between you and your dreams, you and your family, you and those you care for. Not, even you. Especially, you. Remember:
I have done well, this year, with letting holidays and fave events, just that. I am doing my level best to no longer allow occasions to be occasions ruminating in mom’s passing.
Perhaps, you are also fighting with a loss, of some sort. Losses, hurt. Even, losses that are in our best interest.
If you are currently, hurting in plain sight, I got you. I am praying for us all.
It’s no fun having to keep on keeping on when our want to does not want to yet we HAVE to. It can be…
Exhausting.
Yet, I smile. I made myself, an omelet. I’m fixing to have a cup, of coffee, in the ☕ my big bro sent me, just cuz. I am Watchung old reruns of Boston Legal.
Yea, mom is smiling down on me. Miss you, mom.
I just popped in, to remind you that it’s okay to NOT be okay until you are okay.
Okay?…*smile*.
Be encouraged.
Beware.
Someone may tap you on the shoulder. I haven’t forgotten our game of tag.
MMMUUAUAAAAAA!
*Cassandra sneaks up on Avita, taps her on the shoulder, and takes off 😂. Tag, you are it.*
Rather life and God have been preparing me, for this time, all my life.
I am here, world.
Finally.
I have been wanting to reach out, to the wide world, since I knew what a world was.
The world, has not always, been kind.
So what?
I CHOOSE, to be kind, still.
The world, chooses, to be cynical.
So what?
I CHOOSE, to believe, still.
The world, rejects everything that has ANYTHING to do with faith, hope, and love.
So what?
I CHOOSE, to have faith, to embrace hope, to give and receive, love, still.
The world, scoffs at, my dreams.
So what?
I CHOOSE, to dream, still.
The world, says there is no God.
So what?
I CHOOSE, to love Him, still.
The world, says the universe has turned it’s back, on me and locked the 🚪 door on me and my dreams.
So what?
I CHOOSE, to be ride or die, for me and my dreams.
The world, says I am much, much too loud, for any man to love him some me.
So what?
I CHOOSE, to keep loving me some me. The Universe may or may not, send my soul mate this way. Then again, may not. I am having too much fun, living, with intention and being loved on, and loving, me some Jesus, to worry about a boo not showing up. Would be a HIS loss and problem. I am fantastic, yall. Just saying. Some lucky man, should he find this goof, er, good thing, such as me, Cassandra, Sweetpea, will be THE luckiest man in all of the world. There is only ONE, me. Priceless, Mona Lisa self, me. Ha! You had better ask somebody!!
How much do I love me, now? Let me count the ways.😄😉😊🥰😍
Hello, world.
I am here.
I am not strong.
I am courageous.
He is able to present me fautless…
I’m not begging you to love me. I shall ALLOW you, world, to put in your application, to be in MY world. You had best come correct, though. I don’t play!!
Ah.
Aha!
Hey world, time for me to go. The Universe has grown a bit jelly of me spending a bit of time, with you.
Enjoy your life, beloveds. The world will do what it does. You be sure to make it do what it do!
Cry won but that’s okay Friday, October 16, 2026 Beloveds, Sometimes the tears win. And I want to say that plain. Not dramatically.Not apologetically.Not like it means faith packed up and left the room. Sometimes, cry wins. And that is okay. Sometimes the body is tired.Sometimes the heart is carrying more than words can properly … Continue reading Cry won but that’s okay.→
Fear. Not.✋🏿 Not TODAY!🖖🏿 Despair. Not.✋🏿 Not TODAY!🖖🏿 Hopeless. Not.✋🏿 Not TODAY!🖖🏿 Despair. Not. Not TODAY! Desperate. Not. ✋🏿 Not TODAY!🖖🏿 Disheartened. Not.✋🏿 Not TODAY!🖖🏿 Discouraged. Not.✋🏿 Not TODAY! Today I planned something fun for 6p. Health said, Nah Fam, refusing to release it’s grip, on my numb left hand. Leaving me: Stuck in bed, … Continue reading Not TODAY!→
Friday, October 16, 2026 — 6:00 PM Find Somewhere New to Meet Yourself Beloveds, We’ve spent this week talking about you. Not me. You. The person who sometimes misses who you used to be. The person learning what to do when simple things aren’t simple anymore. The person remembering that being alone doesn’t always mean … Continue reading Friday, October 16, 2026 — 6:00 PM→
There’s room for all of us — Bring it home Friday, October 16, 2026 — 12:00 PM Beloveds, It’s FRIDAY! 💃🏿 And look at us! We made it to the end of another week. Some of us came through smiling. Some of us came through wondering what in the world happened between Monday and today. … Continue reading There’s room for all of us — Bring it home.→
Keep on Keeping On 🌅💛 Friday, October 16, 2026 | 8:00 AM Good morning, Beloveds! 🥰☕️ Just stopping by to remind somebody of something this morning. YOU GOT THIS! 💪🏿❤️ I know. Life has a way of throwing things at us that we never saw coming. Sometimes we get tired. Sometimes we get discouraged. And … Continue reading Keep on Keeping On 🌅💛.→
Thursday, October 15, 2026 — 6:00 PM You Don’t Have to Want Your Whole Old Life Back Beloveds, Here’s something we don’t say enough. You can miss parts of your old life without wanting the whole thing back. You can miss the house and not miss what happened inside it. You can miss the job … Continue reading Thursday, October 15, 2026 — 6:00 PM→
I woke up hurting TODAY. I’m frustrated TODAY. I don’t feel like doing TODAY. I don’t feel like seizing TODAY. I don’t feel like seizing TODAY. I don’t feel lovable TODAY. I don’t feel loveable TODAY. I don’t feel TODAY. I don’t feel anything TODAY. Me: God, I don’t know how to do TODAY. God: … Continue reading Even then. Even when. →
Two things can be true, beloveds. Thursday, October 15, 2026 — 12:00 PM Beloveds, Yesterday, we talked about giving ourselves permission to feel. Today, I want to talk about something else. What happens when we feel two things at the same time? And neither feeling wants to move over and give the other one some … Continue reading Two things can be true, beloved.→
Wednesday, October 14, 2026 — 6:00 PM Nobody Was Missing From the Room Beloveds, Can we stop treating being alone like somebody forgot to show up? Sometimes nobody is missing. Sometimes the room has exactly the right number of people in it. One. You. There are people who love being surrounded by people. There are … Continue reading Wednesday, October 14, 2026 — 6:00 PM→
Beloveds, I feel stuck. Stuck between two worlds: Hopeful, yet wondering. Able, yet, hesitant. Joyful, yet, wandering. Stuck in the middle of… New life. Old life. Future life. Nevertheless/however Cassandra lives. Ah, God, why must I be stuck in the middle. I trust You. I’m learning to trust me, too. Thank You for loving me … Continue reading Stuck between two worlds.→
Give yourself permission, beloveds. To: Feel. Fear. Cry. Worry. Fret. Fuss. Holler. Howl. Whatever. Whenever. However. Beloveds, it’s important to give yourself permission and room to feel however you feel. Folk ought stop lying 🤥 about how they truly feel. Yesterday, my heart ached. I had to pick up my bifocals and reading glasses 👓 … Continue reading Give yourself permission, beloveds.→
