Month: November 2023

Happy tears.

I am content.

Ah.

Aha!

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: It’s important to embrace where you ARE. NOT where you were hoping to be. You are:

Here.

Now.

Right now.

Enjoy your lives, beloveds. Even the hard parts. Even the lonely parts. Training was a beast yesterday. System issues. Got chewed out, rightly so, because I had NO clue what I was doing. Yet, today, I KNOW I gave my all. That’s enough.

I embrace today. I miss my mom. I shall have ☕ coffee and a laugh with her soon. I embrace my lonely. She is awfully lonely today. I shall listen to her quiet.

Listen to your quiet. Quiet does NOT mean you are not moving forward. You are growing. Sometimes, growth requires stillness. Ah. Can you feel the silence? Listen with me.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU

Who are you without…?

Who are you without…

Him/her/they?

Who are you without…

This/that/the other?

What are you…

Without a cause?

What are you…

Without a fight?

Whose are you…

Without a gift?

Whose are you…

Without a check book?

Are you:

Somebody?

Somebody, worth knowing?

Somebody, worthy?

Ah.

Aha!

It’s important to know why you do what you do. It’s important to know who you are. It’s important to know whose you are.

It’s crucial that you know that you don’t have to come bearing gifts to be loved. It’s imperative to know you don’t have to work yourself to death to be loved. It’s amazing to know that you don’t have to…

You don’t have to!

Ah.

Aha!

Life wants you to come just as you are. God wants you to come just as you are. The Universe wants you to come just as you are!

You are:

Enough.

Much more than enough.

Everything!

Lift up your head. Stop trying to validate your existence. You are NOT a parking spot you know.

Be encouraged. You are love and you are not alone.

here,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Wow. How you need a note after THAT is beyond me. Okay, here:

Hhmmm.

*scratches head*

🤷‍♀️🥰🤣🤗🤷‍♀️🤦‍♀️💃🎤😁🎹🎶🎸

The older I get.

The older I get…

The more I understand life is not about getting.

The longer I live…

The more I know life is about living.

The more I give…

The more I see life is about giving.

The harder I try…

The more experience how hard trying can be.

I shall keep living. I shall keep giving. I shall keep trying.

*sigh*

Cassandra,

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: The older you get…

♥ Heart check Friday.

Hey there.

It’s Doctor C. Conducting my heart check. How are you? YOU?

If you don’t know, you are much too busy.

I hope you take care of yourself today.

This has been a long week. Training is almost over.

Speaking of over, the weekend is here. It’s time to let the worries of the week go.

The team I was rooting for lost. It was their loss. In times past, I would have been upset all day because they lost. I would have seen their loss as mine. Now it’s their loss.

Too often, folk allow themselves to align with a particular group and there. I didn’t even become that of the group. Their life is no longer their own. Now, their thoughts must align with that of the group. Otherwise, they feel ostracized.

Keeping you. You don’t need to align with any particular group. Find your own path. Your path may lead you to others. Your pass may leave me alone. Either way, walk your path.

Have an awesome day.

too tired to come up with an inspirational note to remind folk they are loved and NOT alone,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Okay, so didn’t you catch my clever note up above? Smh. Since you are here, take this…

♥️☕️🤓

The quiet is not so quiet.

The quiet is not so quiet.

Is the quiet mocks me.

The quiet asks me where is my symphony.

I don’t know, I reply.

The quiet asked me where is my song.

I know not, I say.

The quiet asks me what will I do with the silence.

I shall rejoice.

I shall sing.

Here.

Now.

In the silence.

I shall listen to all that the quiet shall say to me.

Be still.

Listen.

The quiet is not so quiet.

listening,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Don’t be afraid when life gets quiet. This is when life speaks the loudest. Speak. We are listening…

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being… YOU

Last night, I cried. Today, I rejoice.

Last night, I cried.

I was missing mom.

I drank coffee.

I talked to mom.

Life told me to get on with life.

I told mom I had to go, and I got on with life.

Today, I rejoice.

Today, I drink coffee with mom.

Ah.

Aha!

rejoicing,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Enjoy your life. Loss comes for all in many forms. Don’t let change change who you are or change your direction and dreams.

Live. Embrace life. You don’t need greener grass. Lie upon your own spot. Enjoy it. It’s the spot Eternity set out for you to enjoy.

Huh?

Seems like Life has things to say to me over a cup of coffee ☕. I think I will invite mom for another cup. Care to join me?

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being… YOU

Leaving: Mom’s most important lesson to me.

Ah, mom.

You left.

In leaving, you taught me THE most important thing to DO, in life:

Live.

Live, Cassandra.

Every day, The Universe whispers, to me.

Live, Cassandra.

Every day, God whispers, to me.

Live, Cassandra.

Every day, Life whispers to me.

Live, Cassandra.

Every day, mom, you whisper to me.

It’s hard.

Yet, I’m living, mom.

Best as I can.

Slowly.

Painfully.

Awfully.

Awfully, painfully, slowly, I live.

Ah.

Aha!

living,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: I am thankful. I am grateful. I am full. Life dealt me a hand I wish It had not. Still, I play. Ha! Still, I love. Still, I try. Still, I fight on. Life is short.

Keep going, beloveds, though the way may seem and is, hard. Go. Grow. Above all…Live!

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Keep trying Tissue paper wars.

OMG!

I need you!

I NEED you!!

What the what the what!!!!

Wwwwwaaaaaaaaaaaa!

*stamps foot*

O

M

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*Cassandra considers tossing the offending not wanting to open itself so she can roll off some tissues and thought against it. She DID NEED IT ALREADY!!! WHY IN THE NAME OF ALL THAT IS…OMG!!*

*Cassandra patiently slides her delicately fingers around THE STUPID TOILET PAPER FOR THE 100000000000 TIME IN HOPES TO GET A FEW MEASILY SQUARES OF TOILET PAPER!!!!!!*

What a way to start the morning, eh, beloveds? Not to mention I LEFT MY PHONE ON THE KITCHEN COUNTER AND WAS TOO TIRED TO GO BACK AND GET IT!

Hhmm.

*Cassandra, listening to the apparent hints from The Universe, and goes back to 🛏bed.*

Have an awesome Thanksgiving, beloveds.

For those missing loved ones, be encouraged. Love on you today. Enjoy your day.

For those who wish they had loved ones, what the world you still sitting on the sidelines? Join a group. Make your own group. Pray. Reach out. Be the friend you are looking for.

For those who have loved ones who are working their last nerves…hhmm. I got nothing. Do the best you can. Whew.🥰😆

For all:

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU

Thank(ful).

I am thankful, today.

I thought today, the day before Thanksgiving, would be super hard.

I thought I would be:

Sad.

Melancholy.

Wistful.

I find myself:

Thankful.

Grateful.

Hopeful.

Yes, I miss mom. Yet, not. She is with me. Just in another place then me. Yet, with me. Still.

Ah, mom.

I am tickled, thinking of all the dumb conversations we had. I loved saying super dumb things to make her laugh. Her laugh was as ridiculous as mine.

Ah, mom.

Life is good, beloveds. Be encouraged. Remember loved ones. Embrace the moments and memories shared. Make new ones, in a new way.

Ah, beloveds. Be encouraged. I am thankful, for each and every one of you. Newbies AND old-bies(okay Britta?..lol). I enjoy praying for you and wondering what the world you are up to in your corner of the world.

Yall are soooooooooooooooooooo special. Stop hiding your hearts from the world! The world needs YOU. Don’t worry if you will be loved back. YOU go the 100%. God/Life/The Universe will meet you the rest of the way. You SHALL be loved. Be sure to love you some YOU. Stop waiting for others to fill your bucket. Get to filling yours and the rest SHALL be added unto you.

forever grateful/thank(ful),

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Smh. I can NOT believe yall still here waiting for a note. Off with you! We got thangs to do. Geeeeeeeeeeeeeez. Since you still here, Valencia AND Silent Knight…hehe…

*Cassandra tosses some water balloons and tears out of the room…hehe…*

No nonsense: Tell your feels No!

Me: No!

Me: Nonsense!

This was me, beloveds, when I found myself wanting to get all up in my feels because life was being mean. Or, so I thought/said/whined/complained.

It’s important, beloveds, to not allow your feels to run your life.

Otherwise, your feels will have you all up in your feelings. You will begin to say:

No way.

I don’t know how.

It’s hopeless.

I am hopeless.

It’s imperative to tell your feels NO, and absolutely NOT, when they want to act a fool and act like all is lost. All is NOT lost. Some things may be hard, at the moment. Other things, may have been removed, but ALL is NOT lost.

Tell your feels:

No!

So what?

Keep going.

Boo hoo!

Then, get back to:

Living.

Loving.

Hoping.

Life can and does happen. So what, beloveds? What are YOU going to do about it? Stop carrying on and start happening to your life! Life is not always fair. So what? Boo hoo. Now, happy? I have cried for you. I have played a little violin for you. I know, this sounds hard/harsh. And? Life is short. Hard/harsh is NOT a crime, you know.

I have been snatching my feels, by the collar, and letting them know….well, NO. You will NOT run my life. I do. It’s okay, to feel things. Just not the best choice to allow your feels to run you ragged doing things that do not serve you. Be encouraged, though. You got me. How terrible can your life be knowing this amazing factoid!?

Here,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Be encouraged. Everything will be alright. Remember you are loved and not alone. Keep being you.