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You ARE winning!

If the fight seems impossible, KNOW you are winning.

If you are exhausted and ready to throw in the towel, KNOW you are winning.

If circumstances/situations are laughing at you and telling you ALL is lost, KNOW you are winning.

If God and Life are extra quiet, while the battle rages the loudest, KNOW you are definitely winning.

If you have fought the night, seeming to have lost, risen exhausted, not knowing if you can win the day, KNOW you are winning.

If you reach for love, and love has not yet reached back, KNOW you are winning.

If you have tried, and failed, and tried, and failed, and have tried, yet again, KNOW you are winning.

If you question your efforts, wondering who the heck cares, why the world does it matter, KNOW you are winning.

the enemy, your circumstances, your situations, would NOT be so desperate to get you to give up, if you were not winning.

If you were losing, in fact, as they are trying to convince you of, why the world would they be wasting energy on a lost cause, worthless words, unneeded actions?

Easy answer? You ARE winning.

In the middle of your fight:

Rejoice.

Laugh.

Love.

Rest.

Sing.

Shout.

You are growing, you are LIVING!

The timid souls choose to survive. You have done the hard thing, of LIVING this life. Keep going.

You got this. God and Life has got us.

We got this, yall.

I feel a dance parta coming on. How bout you?

Cassandra FREE

We have come too far to stop now.

Keep going….*sigh*…

We MUST keep going. Too many need our light. We HAVE to stay positive. We HAVE to keep reaching out. We HAVE to keep caring for one another.

Yes, it gets exhausting. Yes, life these past few months makes one want to dive in a bed never to come out except for comfort food and the restroom.

I must admit, I have been arguing with myself, for DAYS. Fussing that what in the holy world can I do to change things in this upside down world?

I ate half a cheesecake, told Yikes! and Egad! to kick rocks as I was tired of this one fighting with that one, this group hating that group.

I want to run around, yelling at the top of my lungs for folks to STOP THIS ALREADY!!!

We are brothers. We are sisters! We are gay. We are straight. We are biracial. We are fifty million things, all at once. But, WE ARE FAMILY!!

We are all we got, people!

How the world, GROWN FOLKS are acting like children and expecting our children to understand, is BEYOND me.

Yet, people, we keep going! We fight. FOR, one another. NOT, against one another.

We can do this thing, called life. We CAN.

TOGETHER.

I can NOT be the only one, shouting into the void.

I REFUSE to quit on us. There is just too much good in us, people!!!!

We are better than this. So much better than this.

Keep going. Someone needs your voice. Someone needs your love.

Praying for us all to get some act right,

Cassandra

Keep going.

Keep going.

Heartbroken.

😥

As a person of color, yesterday’s verdict was NOT justice.

I dare not say more…

Father, I do NOT understand.

You are beloved.

You are:

Beloved.

You are NOT:

Your, mistakes.

Your, worst moments.

Others, words said to/about you.

YOU are:

Beloved.

You are NOT:

A mistake.

The awful things you have said to/about yourself after you have made a mistake.

The awful words said/to about you from others because of a mistake or an on purpose, you made.

You ARE:

Beloved.

So, BE loved!

Be LOVED.

Enough. Enough beating yourself because of things you said, did not say, did, did not do.

Is it not enough, beloved? How many more moments are you willing to withhold yourself to pay for moments when you were not at your best. Must you keep sacrificing the rest:

Of, your moments?

Can you EVER free yourself of:

Guilt?

Fear?

Shame?

(Add whatever you like here)?

You are beloved.

Dictionary definition of beloved:

dearly loved : dear to the heart.

You are dearly loved:

By God.

By Life.

By folk around you. If you will allow them to.

You are dear to the heart. It saddens me, greatly that many walk around feeling unloved. Saddens me more having ever felt God did not love me. He did. Always had. Always will.

Foks are running around chasing fame, fortune, clicks, likes, and all manner of things hoping to purchase good feelings, good will.

The Love of God is free. His Care is free. His Grace is free. They just need to be RECEIVED.

You are loved, this day. BE loved, would you please?

His/yours,

Cassandra

HIS Goofhead.

Cassandra S.'s avatarWhy Can't I Be Loud?!

I admit. I can be a goofhead. At times. I find myself gabbing to God, in the middle of the night, about the dumbest things. He knows it. I know it. I tell Him it ain’t my fault I can’t sleep and He doesn’t need sleep and I am currently wondering about the current ridiculous thing I am wondering about.

Just KNOWING that it is okay to yak with God about anything is so amazing. What is more amazing is that He gets a kick out of it. Gets a hoot out of me.

He enjoys me in ALL my forms. Loves me when I am mad at Him for having to take the damned high road EVERY time. Who the world likes taking the high road all the time, I hope and whine and complain. All whilst being on that high road He put me on.

He understood me…

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Repeat after me.

Repeat after me:

I got this.

I am loved.

I am cherished.

I am needed.

I am creative.

I am precious.

I am wonderful.

At times, I can be:

Thoughtless.

A moron.

Unyielding.

Unfortunate.

Unforgiving.

Ridiculous.

Yet, God and Life, love me. STILL!

Whodathunkit😁🤷‍♀️!

I gave all I had to today. Won some things. Tore up some things. Renewed some things. Buried some things.

In ALL things, spend every second with God and Life, LIVING this life.

How great is that?!

Keel going. You really do got this. What you don’t got, God got the rest. So, rest.😎👍💃

Cassandra HIS ALWAYS

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Stand, whether you feel like you can or not.

When circumstances tap on the shoulder and punches you square in the face you are welcome to get holy hacked.

That said, you may NOT:

Quit.

Quit.

Quit.

You may fuss at God and Life. Feel free. Throw a tantrum. Have at it. Stomp your feet. Shake your fists.

Then, scratch, claw, cry, holler, wonder your way back and get to standing.

Stand not on YOUR:

Hurt, feelings.

Confused, feelings.

Betrayed, feelings.

Bewildered, feelings.

Feelings. Feelings. Feelings. FEELINGS!

Get the theme here?

We are NOT to stand on our feelings. Standing has ZERO to do with what you feel or don’t feel. Standing, could give two hoots, about what you want or don’t want. Need or don’t need.

Beloved, do not allow yourself to fall into the trap of standing only when you can see God, hear God or know what is going on. There will just be times when you can’t see, can’t trust what you feel, and have not the slightest idea of what is going on.

It’s so easy to walk away when you have tried everything and STILL, dammit, the damned mountain just won’t move already!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

What is more maddening, is when you have done all that you know, the mountain won’t move and God and Life are so damned silent!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Don’t yall see me over here doing the best I can do and nothing is giving way!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!?????????

I can admit to telling God and Life yesterday that I was either going to win, or I was going to lose. Just could not bear, or so I thought, yet another day of going around these same damned mountains. Only, more mountains are being added, the climbs are much steeper, there are more bandits and scary things on these mountains. These mountains never seem to have an end.

I wanted the end, dammit! Wanted off of here. I did NOT WANT to face another mountain, another day, with Jaybird forever yapping in my ear to keep going.

I was tired of the damned mountain. Exhausted from day 10 of this blasted fever. DAY TEN!!!! I was sick of being sick, tired of being tired. Dammit.

DAMMIT!!

So, I made the decision to stop standing….*sigh*…smh. Moron me, using being all up in my feelings, as an excuse. I called a friend. Told him I was fixing to do a whole bunch of drinking and was over it. Thank goodness for friends who will tell you the truth.

I got a nice lecture. A nice boot to the rear. I pouted. A lot. I drank. A fair bit. I cried. Not at all. Just too sick and tired for that. Put on a super hero movie and watched all night. Fussed at the screen. Super heroes were for dummies. Ordinarily, I would be the main one hooting and hollering and donning capes to get in the fight. Just sat glumly, fully engaged in my pity party, drinking not quite so much knowing I was going to get over my mad and go to the job I said I was going to quit come morning….smh…..

Que morning. Turned on my music, poured myself in some clothes, got some act right, sulked past a silently staring God and Life and got back to standing.

Moral of the story, you ask? Beats me, am too busy standing. Too busy living this life and not surviving it. Too busy being grateful for how horribly awful terrible exasperating maddening yesterday was. It gave me the opportunity to watch me give up on myself, ungive up on myself, give up, ungive up, stand, stop standing, stand again, and watch a half way decent super hero movie where the hero wins in the end.

How could I NOT be grateful?

Keep going. We got this. Even when it doesn’t feel like it.

Cassandra GRATEFUL

P.S. You are NOT alone. Have never felt more alone in my life than I did yesterday. I was not alone, yesterday. Not for one second. Tell yo feelings, ANY feelings, that gives you permission to quit to go kick some rocks!!

I run this!

I run this!

Fatigue, does not.

Discouragement, will not.

Sickness, can not.

I run this!

the enemy, does not.

Circumstances, will not.

The unknowns, can not.

I run this!

Fatigue, discouragement and sickness will ALL take their asses to work WITH me.

I run this!

And, since yall won’t let me rest, we starting this day, super early with some praise and prayer.

We shall see who run this house. As for me and mine, we shall serve The Lord no matter what, no matter where and no matter who.

Beloveds let NOTHING come between you and all that God and Life have promised you. Especially, you. Only way you lose is if you quit.

Quitting is no longer an option. We no longer have the time. Too many broken pieces. Too many broken hearts. Not enough folk to give two hoots.

Do whatever else you want to do today but you had best not quit.

You run this!

Keep going.

Cassandra DETERMINED

Can you be TRUSTED with God’s/Life’s silence?

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NOTHING is harder than waiting. Waiting without hearing a word, that is. Anyone can stand, yield, give when knowing the endgame.

How many can wait, PATIENTLY wait, when God and Life are completely and utterly silent?

Not many, I suspect. Even Jesus, before He had to endure The Cross, cried out “Why hast Thou Forsaken Me?”

It’s easy to feel abandoned. Especially when things are super tough and you have done all you know to do and have done. You valiantly stand, endure, relentlessly pursue and then you…wait…and wait…and wait…and wait….

???

Thinking more effort is required, you valiantly stand, quietly endure, remain relentless in your relentless pursing of the relentless and then you…wait…and wait…and wait…and wait….

!!!!??

Wondering if perhaps, God and Life may have missed your valiant standing, quiet endurance and relentless pursuit of your relentless pursuits you begin again. Rinse/Repeat:

You stand, valiantly.

You endure, quietly.

You pursue, relentlessly.

You then proceed to:

Wait.

Wait!

Wait?!

WAIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!??

Unbeknownst to you, you have a large audience. For, watching your battle are none other than:

God.

Life.

Jesus.

The Heavenly Host.

the enemy.

Circumstances.

Situations.

Moments.

Chances.

Miracles.

ALL are waiting on YOU. ALL are straining, to see what YOU shall choose:

God will not choose for you.

Life can not choose for you.

Jesus dare not choose for you.

The Heavenly host can only root for you.

the enemy can only suggest to you.

Situations can only invite you.

Moments can only entice you.

Chances can only invite you.

Miracles can only work FOR you.

As you choose:

To, stand.

To, run.

To, give up.

To, give in.

To, win.

To, lose.

To, love.

To, withhold love.

To, open arms.

To, close fists.

To, look up.

To, look down.

To, praise.

To, proclaim.

To, complain.

To, declare victory.

To, accept defeat.

I think we have all read/watched one too many:

Fairy tales.

Romance novels.

Marvel movies.

We are forever waiting for someone to swoop in to save the day. Forever, waiting, as damsels in distress to be rescued. Forever, waiting for someone else to save the day, win the war, rescue this thing or take care of that thing.

God, Life and ALL who watch us, every moment of every day, know the real truth. LIfe is short and nothing to be trifled with. We are running out of moments, chances, miracles. This is why all of Heaven has been in an uproar, lately.

This world has gotten completely out of hand. Everyone appears to be out for themselves. No one appears to be giving a fresh hell about anyone else.

At least, this is how things appears to be. How the enemy wants us to see things. Yes, life is hard right now. Yes, things are dark, right now. But, ONLY due to the fact that folks so busy protecting his/her/their own they are not uplifting and helping others to uplift their light.

We got this, people. LOVE WILL DRIVE OUT THIS DARKNESS. It will. We just have to able to be trusted with God’s and Life’s silence.

Rejoice when things are hard and you hear nothing. It means God is trusting in YOU. He KNOWS you are going to choose to stand, to love, to care, to fight. He KNOWS you will keeping giving your all. His silence is meant to show YOU, how much is already in you. It’s not for His Benefit.

He knows the valiant warrior He made you to be. You don’t have to be loud, to be valiant. You don’t have to expound to be valiant. You don’t have to have this particular talent or reach a million people.A

ALL that is required is…..YOU!

That’s it. YOU are more than enough, beloved. Just by being you. Nothing extra special other than giving what YOU have to give. You don’t have to give my portion. You don’t have to worry about someone else’s portion.

ALL you need to do is to uplift your light. YOUR LIFE IS MAKING A DIFFERENCE. YOU ARE THE DIFFERENCE IN YOUR CIRCLE.

Be glad that God and Life aren’t forever having to scoop you up and bill and coo to you as if you were a feeble child. you are growing, each day. You don’t need your hand held every other five seconds. You can and are walking to school, on your own. Yes, God and Life are walking behind you, hiding in bushes so you can’t see Them, making sure you will get to class safe. They got you.

Keep shining your light, into the darkness. Keep shouting, into the darkness. Broken pieces can hear you. Broken hearts can see you. THEY need you, beloved. Though, you can not see or hear them, they cling to your words, your hope, desperately. You are all they have, right now. Keep going.

Not only are you growing, healing, adjusting and living. But, you are teaching others to do the same. Though they may never tell you, they watch you. YOUR freedom calls them to want to be free, as well. Your life matters to this world. Your life matters to God. Your life matters to me.

Keep going. Even in God’s Silence. ESPECIALLY, when God/Life are silent.

You got this. I got this. We all we got. But, we all we need, yes?

shouting in the darkness til all come,

Cassandra FREE

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