This is EXACTLY how I feel about now after a long work week that will not end until 3/10!
Overtime!!💃
Have an awesome weekend. Leave the week alone and quit bothering it. You have done your best. Leave it alone. Put it away now. Rest and rejuvenate for the incredible life you fixing to live.
What in tarnation are you STILL fretting and fussing and crying and carrying on if you have prayed to God about it? Do you want His help or not?
Aite, then.
That settles it.
He got this.
He got the situation.
He got you.
In, His Sight.
In, His Hand.
In, His Heart.
In, His Protection.
In, His Promise.
In, His Word.
What the world else you need?
Pray.
Then shut up about it.
He has heard you.
praying with Him for you,
Me
P.S. If the post seemed a tad hard…*shrug*. I tell myself to shut up all the time when I get to forgetting Who He Is. Tell myself to take two seats and wait for Him. He got this, beloved.
P.S. I have been wondering how many more days I have to keep chasing dreams that have been decades, in the making. I am trying not to wonder. Wonder makes me want to start wandering. This waiting, today, hurts. Think I shall climb upon The Father’s lap and tell Him about my restless heart. Yet, I am not restless. Just quietly waiting for…something.
My heart is ready to go elsewhere. Yet, God and Life won’t let me, just yet.
I remain, in the meantime, in my in the meantime job, doing in the meantime things. In the meantime, my mind is elsewhere. My soul is elsewhere. My heart is elsewhere.
Where IS elsewhere? I have no earthly idea. Yet, each are straining towards a new there. There, somewhere. Near enough where I can almost grasp it. Yet, far enough away I strain to catch ahold of there so I can do and be what my mind, spirit and heart is longing to do, to be.
There.
THERE.
I’m not even sure there is even a place. If so, I surely don’t know where there is. Yet, I know that my heart wants to go there. I have learned, slowly, to stop asking how long it will take. How long, I will have to be in this in the meantime state of mind. I no longer mind it. Much. I am learning to just enjoy life whatever this state may bring. Even the having a hard time to wait state. Even the I would rather be doing something else state. Even the this is getting soooooooooooooo exhausting waiting state.
I know I am here, still, for a reason. That reason may not even be for me. I may be needed, here, to support someone else as they make their way through their own there, through their own in the meantime.
Today, I guess I am here, not there, in order to tell you to hang in there. I have to keep telling myself this, in fact. In fact, just a bit ago I wanted to tell my job to kick rocks. I enjoy my job. Love it, in fact. Hmm, I seem to be on an in fact kick there….*shrug*.
N-E-Waze, I was not able to finish this piece, while on lunch. Turns out, my heart has gotten a bit resentful in having to put down what she really wants to do, in order for me to do what I HAVE to do to make a living.
*Cassandra stamps foot and wonder when it will be her turn to do as the lucky others are doing in being able to live out their dreams and make their living*
Fresh hooey!
*sniff*
*pout*
*sigh*
Alas, I have to snatch a few minutes, from in the meantime, to encourage you, to encourage myself to just keep putting one foot in front of the other.
Keep, going, Cassandra. Keep, going. I know, I know, you are so desperately weary from trying not to wonder, trying not to wander away from this long, slow, somewhat boring road. Same, scenery. Same, rocks. Same, worn shoes.
This is just one of these days, when one of these days, is just being a royal pain. I made sure to do my me time. I made sure to eat healthy. I made sure to give work all that I have to give. I made sure to give myself a few minutes to breathe during lunch.
I’m just making sure that I am making sure to be sure to keep the main thing the main thing, in the meantime…lol. I get a kick out of playing with words…*sigh*.
I choked that sucker out and watched it gasp it’s LAST, lying breath!
Ha!
Yes, beloveds, I was fed up, soooooooooooooooo very tired of anxiety making my hell by scaring the hell out of me with gloom, doom and woe.
Yall, I was tired of peering anxiously around EVERY corner. Enough, already!
I was soooooooooooo tired of being tired of running and running and running and running and running from imaginary foes, imagined catastrophes that seldom materialized. What’s worse, if they DID materialize they were much less daunting then initially feared.
Or, the things I was desperate to have, or to have happen, were things I thank the good Lord never happened! Whew!! Hallelujah!…..*shiver*….*Cassandra thinks of what may have been had she received that which she thought she just HAD to have*….yikes…egads.
One day, I FINALLY got fed up with feeding my fears, encouraging fear, forever commiserating and agreeing with anxiety, having coffee with doubts. Fed up, I fed these two fists to the face of anxiety!
POW!
Yea, anxiety, you ain’t comin’ ’round here no moe!
Let your friends know. Tell them this is one house best to be left alone. This heart just too large to contain one more second of your foolishness, your lies, o, you sly, dumb anxiety.
Ah, God, it feels good. Ah, Life, it feels fantastic being unburdened by that which need not have been borne, worn, carried in the first place.
*Cassandra throws her hands towards the heavens*
YYYYYYYYYYYYYYAAAAAAAAAASSSSSSSSSSSS!!!
Dance with me.
Celebrate with me. Then, if you have not yet told fear, told anxiety, told doubts to shut the hooey up and get on out of your, go ahead and do that then come back and celebrate. We shall dance on anxiety’s grave, together.
Life is so very short, beloveds. Time to do you some you and let go of all the things that have been besetting you and keeping you from living your best life.
You, CAN.
You, WILL.
Go for it!!
You are different. You no longer have to rely on other’s expectations, or lack thereof, to keep you motivated. You now motivate yourself. You now love yourself. You now see all the possibilities your heart and this life can hold.
A need, so big, surely even God, even Life, could not meet/handle.
I have, a need.
A big one.
An unrealistic one.
A need, so large, surely the Grand Canyon, could not hold this need.
I have, a need.
A big on.
An outlandish one.
A need, so far-fetched, surely all of Heaven, could help God meet this ask.
Trusting that I could trust Him, I climbed onto His Lap, hugged Him, super tight, and whispered my need, my ask, my life-altering dream, where only He could hear. He hugged me, super tight, and whispered…..ah, beloveds, that’s for only He and I to know. Kissing His Cheek, I straightened His Crown, clamored down, then ran off to play.
I had a need.
A big one.
I speak in past tense, now.
I, asked.
He, responded.
Good enough, for me.
What shall the outcome be?
*shrug*.
God knows and He is not yet tellin’.
receiving and believing,
Jaybird
Note: Life is short. Ask for what you need. Ask, beloveds.
Good news? Not so fast. Good news seems to trickle in at it’s own slow self time…*sigh*.
But, bad news. Really bad news comes a bounding in, jumps on your bed, in the middle of blissful sleep and peace and wops you upside the head hollering and carrying on and just a wailing away to get you to look, LOOK! at all the devastation that is fixing to devastate you and take everything and do all manner of only God knows what!!!
Ah, there is the rub. God DOES know. Knows exactly what is going on. God sees what you can not. God knows what you not. God knows that what absolutely terrifies us is the not knowing. We can deal with the what in the world is this happenings. We just find it maddening, terrifying not knowing what in the world is happening?!
Beloveds, what fear and anxiety forget to tell you is that you always have help, support, love, care, joy, peace, safety, security, comfort and ALL that you need waiting for you. Waiting for you to receive it. Waiting for you to ask for what you need. Waiting for you to activate and walk in your faith, in faith.
Yeppers, even folks who don’t know the Lord are prayed for and cared for by God. He loves us all. Even those of us who are hard headed or who have been hurt by supposed lovers of God so they don’t trust Him. Even those who don’t believe He even exist. Yep, ALL of us are within earshot, within grasp, within a shoulder to lean On.
Peace, be still. This is what Jesus told the winds and the rain when they were kicking up and making all kinds of fuss as He was in the boat, with folks, travelling to the other side. When we are asked to go, with Him, to the other side, He knows full well we SHALL make it. To the other side. It’s why Jesus was chilling and taking a nap whilst all kinds of storm foolishness kicked up trying to scare folks into thinking they were about to sink!
“We fixing to sink, Lord! Why the world would you be down there sleeping!?? Don’t You KNOW we fixing to sink and gonna die!???”.
Yet, there Jesus slept. Why? Cuz He knew that God, The Father, was watching everyone’s back. And, when told to get on over to the other side that all would make it to the other side. Simple as that….*shrug*.
Making the storms of our lives settle down is NOT our jobs, folks. Our jobs are to say but three words and keep it moving:
Peace, be still!
Then, be still and KNOW He is God. Simple as that….*shrug*.
How great is that?????!!!
Tell doubts to shut up. Tell fear and anxiety to take two seats.
Tell yourself you got this because He got this and keep a going.
I know you are scared to death. Scared, you may fail. Scared, you may succeed.
Yep, you scared you just may well succeed and then you are stuck like chuck! Then, YOU are the one responsible for keeping the success successful. Leastwise, this is what you are thinking. High, up there, waaaaaaaaaaaaaay up high, contemplating if you will actually jump this time.
THIS, time.
YOUR, time.
Many times, both God and Life have asked you to trust and take that leap, do that dive, launch out into the deep.
You have argued, many, many times, that it was not yet quite time. You were afraid, still. You begged God, you begged Life, to at least remove the fear and THEN you would dive. Yeppers, THEN, AFTER the terror, the anxiety, the fear, all the hidden agendas and cracks and crevaces had been removed you would dive off and see what happens.
You would see, AFTER you could KNOW and see the outcome. Nopers, you were NOT going to go on head and jump until you were assured by God, by Life, that you would land smack dab in the middle of ooodles and oodles of praise, of success, of being seen, of being heard, of being valued, of receiving boat loads of treats, eats, meets, greets and all that comes with victory and victorious living.
So, now, here you sit, stand rather, while you peer down there, suspiciously, wondering if God, if Life, will be down there, in the depths, scuba mask wearing and waiting to catch you and keep you from all the unforseen rocks and situations and sharks and such which are ever lurking, down there!
God whispers “Jump”.
You holler back “I don’t think so!”
Life whispers “Dive in.”
You cry out “It’s too high”.
fear says ” Don’t trust Them. What do THEY know?”
You whisper “What if you are wrong?”
Anxiety shouts “fear is right!”
You wonder “anxiety may be right”.
It’s getting super cold, being up so very high, shivering from the wind blowing at your back. Your legs grow tired. Your heart grows weary of this forever battle of will you or won’t you. You, in fact, grow weary with the weight of your own expectations.
Below, all of Heaven or hooting and hollering for you to go on ahead and dive in and take your fears, ALL if it, with you. Heaven knows what you do not. What’s that? Only way to find out, beloveds, is to go on ahead and dive.
Below, God, Life, Jesus, your loved ones, your friends(even those who you thought couldn’t see) are all shouting for you to go on ahead and dive, taking ALL your fears and fear with you.
Below, life awaits. YOUR life. What will that life look like, once you have jumped?
*shrug*…don’t ask me. God knows and He ain’t tellin’!
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