Month: January 2024

Go big or stay home, Cassandra.

I have often heard the saying go big or go home. I have always taken this to mean dream and strive big or don’t waste the time.

I must admit, sadly to my way of thinking now, that I have generally chosen the safer/safest route.

Why?

I was always told not to touch the hot stove.

Don’t go there!!!!!!

Dont try THAT!!!!!!!

Why on earth would you want to experience such and such!!!!!!!!!!!?

I ended up choosing other folks safe path for me. For, my life.

Yikes!

It has only been since God told me to tell The Universe what I wanted that I have been opened up to thoughts I had been too afraid to think, let alone ASK FOR?!…*gasp*.

I thought God mad, initially. I mean, why in the wide world would GOD, God, I’m telling ya, tell me to ask The Universe for what I needed or wanted? Of course, what dumbsky would be dumb enough to think or call God mad?!

Anywho, after secretly thinking/calling God mad, just a smidge, I sat down and penned my letter to The Universe. It’s somewhere in the archives. Repost if you find it wouldja someone? Asking for A Friend…lol.

N-E-Waze, doing something sooooooooooooooooooooo ridiculous actually opened me up the the ridiculous possibilities life could, perhaps, maybe gimme.

Ah.

Aha!

God just needed for me to pry my limited mind(set) so I could begin to SEE, to BELIEVE, to RECEIVE, the infinite possibilities of….

Possibilities?

Hmmm.

Possible?

Hmm!

Before 55 showed up to scare the fresh hell out of me and my comfort zone, I was much too comfortable living in my limited space. Yes, I grew cramped. Yes, my heart longed for, no demanded, I get out there and live!

Still, I remained still. That is, until my stillness could stand my stillness, no more.

Stillness: No more, Cassandra! Get out there and LIVE! Go now.

Me: I don’t know how.

Stillness: So what? Go anyway!

Me: I don’t know where to go.

Stillness: Stop lying, Cassandra! You have ALWAYS known where you want to go. You are just afraid of what it may take to get there. You are simply terrified you may never make it there. You are chastened to think you just may not have what it takes to get there. What are you waiting for, Cassandra?! Get gon!

Me: I…I…hhmm.

*Cassandra peers over the precipice and…*

to be continued,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: How does this story end? How in the fresh hell would I know, beloveds! Help. Ack!

*Cassandra peers over the precipice and…*

Live, beloveds. Perhaps you, too, find yourself at your very own precipice. Shall we take the leap together? I will if you will. Okay, I am fixing to whether anyone else goes or not. Here goes nothing…

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Fear, the ONLY thing I am losing is you!

Kick rocks, fear!

I am tired of you trying to scare the bejeez out of me with your threats and lies.

Fear, the ONLY thing I am going to be losing is YOU!

Get gone!

You will NOT, fear, cause me to fear.

No way.

No how.

I don’t care what things currently look like. I KNOW all things work for my good. I KNOW I am loved and am NOT alone. I KNOW my efforts are NOT in vain.

Be off with you, fear!

I shall NOT allow you to have me all up in my feels. You can both take two seats.

Ha!

ALL you are doing, fear, is helping me to strengthen my faith muscles. That’s ALL you are doing. ALL I am allowing you to do in and for me, fear.

I run my life.

I CHOOSE.

I believe.

I have faith.

I rejoice.

I embrace what happens in and for my life.

Go way from me, fear.

I ain’t worried about you.

laughing through it all,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Do NOT allow fear to scare the bejeez out of you. Tell fear to stop lying to you and to kick some rocks. You do NOT have to live a life limited by fear and doubt. Be encouraged. Keep moving forward. Though the steps may seem small and slow, your steps are producing much.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

I am wondering…

Soooooooooo, I was asleep. Sleeping 😴 soundly.

Awoke, suddenly. Suddenly, I tell you!!😳

What woke me, beloveds, out of a dead sleep?!…*gasp*.

My ridiculous mind wondering and wandering and wondering about something completely irrelevant and stupid in the middle of the night when I have to work in a few hours!…*stamps foot*.

So, now I am awake, in the middle of the night…*sigh*…wondering how you are, beloveds.

I am wondering:

How are you?

Is your heart okay?

Are you still hanging in there?

I am wondering how I can:

Make you laugh.

Annoy your try enough to get you to try.

Make your lazy mad enough to do something.

I am wondering if you know:

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Whilst wondering and wandering, I decided to wake up and just check on you:

How are you?

Is your heart okay?

Are you still hanging in there?

asking for A Friend,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note:🤗

Have a great Fri-yay!

It’s Friday.

Fri-yay!

Prepare to enjoy the weekend, beloveds.

You have done your best. Time to do some you. It’s imperative to get some time to rest up and get refilled.

Power through then rest. You have earned it.

Pay up, Universe! Give us our bounties!

thankful,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Be encouraged. You are loved and you are not alone.

YOUR words matter.

YOUR words matter.

YOU matter.

ALL of you.

Yes, beloveds, even the parts you think boring and of no use. In fact, the parts you love the least, God enjoys the most.

Don’t look upon your precious heart and dismiss the beauty that lies therein. Beauty comes in all shapes, sizes and forms. Beauty comes softly and loudly. Beauty amazes and baffles.

I keep saying these things, beloveds, because I also need to hear these things. For me. 55 keeps laughing at me and telling me who on earth will ever give two figs about an old lady like you?

I tell fear to kick rocks and to shut up. I tell 55 it shall love me soon! I am persistent!

I had to tell myself today that my heart, matters. That my thoughts, matter. That my words, matter.

Why? Because everything inside me was trying to say my words are just words.

Ha!

There is NOTHING just about our words, beloveds. Our words, heal. Our words, inspires. Our words, engages. Our words, changes things. Our words, changes US.

Keep speaking.

Keep trying.

Keep loving.

I know. I know. Nothing seems to be happening, quite yet. Ack!

Be encouraged. Laugh whilst being bored half to death waiting on the miracle called you. God and Life are simply waiting for YOU to see some things. Then, your dreams, my dreams, shall come a calling.

We have it backwards. We think if we get this or that that we will be this or that. Nope. Doesn’t work that way. I am a tad hard headed, at times. Like now. I want my dreams NOW. Right this instant. They have been a long time coming.

I also know, if I had received, back then, I would not be writing as I do, right now.

My way. In an uncommon way. With too many commas. With not enough commas. Cassandra script. Ah. Aha!

Soooooooooooooooo, keep on keeping on, beloveds. No matter how much it hurts to watch your dreams laughing, just out of reach. Keep it moving. Laugh, as well, KNOWING your turn is coming. It is.

In the meantime, continue to look within, look around and look beneath your feet. You are standing on a mountain of diamonds, just waiting to be cashed in by The Universe.

believing with and in you,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: I did NOT want to do this day. Not any of it. I told God, tearfully, I was soooooooooooo tired. Of the hard. Of the strain. Of the much. Yet, I also have found joy, in those things. Still, the exhaustion appeared to outweigh the diamonds. I made myself get up. I made myself do the day. I found myself laughing all day.

To my delight, evening showed up and asked me to dance. Speaking of which, beloveds, I have a date with evening. Enjoy your life. ALL of it. Be well.

You are loved and not alone. You can do this thing called life. You already are.

Share your heart.

Your heart is precious.

Yes, YOURS.

You.

YOU!

You are used to hiding your heart, eh, beloveds?

You are used to being the one giving. You are used to being of service. That’s great. Needed. Yet, YOU are needed. Yea, you. Just YOU. Not your gifts, only.

Share YOUR heart.

What do YOU dream of?

Where would YOU like to go?

Get to dreaming. Get to sharing.

YOUR heart.

You matter.

Yea, beloveds, you do.

Why do I harp on this so much? Because, it’s easy to feel unseen in such a huge world. It’s easy to wonder if we really and for truly matter. We do. Each of us. ALL of us.

I find it terribly sad how many folks are running around pretending to be someone they are not. Why? Because they think their them is not enough. It is! They are! You are!

I wish I could run screaming, through the streets, letting folk know they matter. I guess I could but I don’t feel like getting locked up somewhere. Who wants to see an old coot like me running around hollering? Okay, so I do said hollering in my apartment, so there is that…lol.

Share your heart, beloveds. Don’t fret about folks taking advantage of you. It’s the way of the world. There will ALWAYS be folk who will try to take advantage. Dismiss them and keep it moving. Stop locking your heart away because of some dummies who had no clue the priceless treasure held!

Okay, enough. Off with you. Get on our there and share your heart.

sharing my heart with whosoever will,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Life is short. Live it. Stop surviving life. Life is to be embraced and enjoyed. For a while, I had been so focused on enduring the hard, I had begun to forget my why. I did a reset, had an extra cup of coffee, gave myself more love, then hit the streets to LIVE.

Be encouraged. Give hard a cup of coffee then keep it moving. We have things to do.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Don’t worry about the haters.

I was just watching a YouTube video with a content creator who was devastated due to being accused of ‘clout chasing’ simply because of posting uplifting and fun videos.

Don’t fret about the haters, beloveds. Keep on being YOU. Keep on writing. Keep on singing. Keep on running. Keep on blogging. Keep on doing whatever it is that brings you joy.

Continue loving folk and praying for those who are too broken to receive honest love and care.

Don’t waste ONE second worrying about how folk will perceive you. There is NOTHING you can do other than to just be YOU. Simple as that.

Don’t look at glossy Instagram and TikTok pages. Don’t lament your lack based on what others may or may not have. You have billionaires who are so very lonely as they have no idea who cares about them for THEM and not what they have.

Remember, beloveds, you are loved and not alone. Not for one instant. No matter what you are going through you do NOT go through alone.

Be encouraged. This has been a long day. A long week. So much so, I am taking off two days from work, next week, just to refresh myself.

Storms come. Yet, you shall be the stronger. Your challenges are your friends. Embrace them. Today, was especially difficult. I couldn’t do ANYTHING right. Just felt off all day. But, I laughed. Still. I laughed at my many, many, many mistakes. I did what I could. I apologized for my mess ups. I made folk laugh with especially corny jokes.

We only get ONE go around. Just one. Enjoy your day. I am fixing to have a great conversation with a cup of coffee and some cookies. Want some?

Don’t waste a breath trying to convince your critics that you are this and that. Note, if you were NOT the bomb.com, folk wouldn’t be all up in your business hating on you!

Take care of you. Love someone. Starting with you.

watching your back,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Okay, so the whole piece was a note…smh. Be well.

Here I am. Again.

Here I am.

Again.

Chasing my dreams.

Again.

Running from disappointment.

Again.

Running into challenges.

Again.

Here I am.

AGAIN!

Facing my fears.

Again.

Facing the sun.

Again.

Facing forward.

Again.

HERE I AM, WORLD.

AGAIN!

DEAL WITH ME, WORLD!

I’m NOT going anywhere.

Here I am.

Again.

being about being about it,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Keep being about being about it. Making diamonds takes effort. Effort. More effort. Rinse. Repeat.

Most fools, er, folks, are waiting for the world to come and toss diamonds, beneath their feet. We know the secret. WE make diamonds as we try. We are adding gold threads, within our hearts, as we try. Ah. Aha!

Keep going.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being… YOU!

Heart check ❤️ Thursday.

I have lived an entire year in this first month of the year!

I could end the piece right there.😳

I have warm my knuckles out banging on the door of my dreams. I’ve worn out my boots trying to kick down the 🚪 door!

I am learning how to rest. I am learning that I have no idea how to rest half the time. I guess learning is the point, eh?

I’m trying my best to be good to me while I am being good to others. I feel I have not done that well. I have found that I have been trying to find comfort in…* shrug*

Comfort has been hard to find lately. Lately, I have been wondering what the point is to keep pointing out to folk to keep believing.

Who am I? I know as soon as I start asking this, I tell my feels to shut up. It’s just discouragement who is trying to get me to focus on the disappointment. I tell both to kick rocks.

To be truthful, beloveds, I am weary of kicking rocks. I want to be skipping rocks, on a lake. I want to be drinking ☕ coffee from a glassed in balcony.

Crap.

Ack.

*Cassandra tells her dreams to shut up already and goes to find a cup of blasted coffee so she can write some uplifting pieces to encourage the world all whilst ready to tell the wide world to kick rocks!*😳🥊😭🗝🚪

Hhmm.

Oh, yea, I was supposed to be checking on YOUR heart, wasn’t I? My bad.

How is your heart? Be honest. No need in tall tales. God knows. Be encouraged. Keep going. You CAN. You WILL.

trying through trying times,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being… YOU!

Remember your joy(your why).

I enjoy my job.

I enjoy telling jokes. Especially corny ones.

It brings me joy.

I spend my workday, howling, falling out of my seat, yukking it up with this one and that.

Joyful.

Joyous.

Yiippppppeeeee!

Or, I did. Here lately, I have had to scrape my way around work. Yea, eventually I would talk myself into my joke telling. After a bit, I would smile, deep inside. Eventually, I would forget about hard and laugh for the rest of the day.

Yesterday, I REMEMBERED that I took joy, in my job. I REMEMBERED. In remembering, my heart began to rejoice. Causing me to stop focusing on the hard. I focused, on the joy. I remembered how much fun work was.

It is something how shifting perspective can change the entirety of the day. Wow. Who knew?

Joy, renewed, these past few days have flown by. Simply flown! I had been dragging myself around. Tired. Exhausted. Tired of being exhausted. Now, today, having remembered joy, I find myself:

Renewed.

Joyful.

Hopeful.

Yet, again.

I am soooooooooooooooooooooo thankful that we get to CHOOSE joy, beloveds, whenever we choose. We do NOT have to wait on circumstances, to change. We do NOT have to wait on others, to change. We do NOT have to wait, for someone(s), to change us.

All we have to do is to remember our joy, remember our why.

WHY, beloveds, do you do what you do? Remember how much joy it used to bring to you? You CAN renew your joy, whenever you wish. How fantastic is that??!

You all are my why, beloveds. I remembered you. Remembered how much joy it brings me encouraging folk, on the daily. I remembered how much I rejoiced over stupid/dumb things I could share that perhaps may could bring a smile, to your face. I remembered each and every one of you, beloveds, and joyously thought of a ridiculous joke I could share. Like this one:

Rose are Red.

Sand is whatever color it chooses to be.

Hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!

How ridiculous was that?! It DID make you smile, though, right? If not, I shall think of another:

Knock knock.

Whose there?

How the world should I know?

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!

OMG!!

Be encouraged.

Life is short.

Remember your joy(your why).

remembering my why,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Okay, so you were supposed to be gone by now living your bestest life. Smh. Scat.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!