Month: March 2024

You are more than an entertainment center for the world.

Ah.

Quiet.

I have taken the next three days off to do…

ABSOLUTELY NOTHING!

*gasp*

Calm down.

CALM DOWN!!

I am NOT the entertainment epicenter of the world.

I have let folk know I am tired. I need to refresh. I need to rest. Darn it, I need actual sleep!!!

I used to run myself into the ground. I fight running myself into the ground. Not so much, now.

Why?

I no longer allow myself to be guilted into entertaining the entirety of the world.

Growing up, we had to entertain folk when they came to visit. Grown up, we had to entertain folk at work.

After work, we had to entertain coworkers. Then, had to wait for coworker approval so we could entertain them at church or other functions.

Then…

Enough already!

That’s what God said to me. He told me He did NOT have us here to be entertainers. Yes, we can and are entertaining, as we make our way in the world.

But, and this is a big but, we are NOT here to earn approval or have to apologize for breathing air!

I matter.

So do you.

I just wanted to stop by and tell you so.

Why?

So you can STOP 🛑 wasting your precious life trying to be a traveling clown so folk can see you.

God LOVES you.

God SEES you.

God CARES DEEPLY for your life.

So do I.

Who am I?

Someone who is loved by God.

Someone who loves you.

Nuff said.

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: You are enough. You matter. Your thoughts matter. Your heart matters. Share them with others. Share them with me.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Don’t take no for an answer.

Don’t take no for an answer.

Your age can’t stop you.

Your circumstances don’t define you.

Your gender won’t hinder you.

Not if you:

Believe.

Ask.

Demand.

Command The Universe to work with you and for you. It will.

Don’t take no for an answer. Keep knocking on the door 🚪 to your dream/present/future.

Don’t judge yourself on the outcome of another. Your try will bring YOUR results. As will mine.

I gave up too easily on me. Not anymore. Never again.

getting through the nos,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Don’t take no for an answer. I have been up early and often demanding my bounty. Give it here!!!!!!

Keep asking. Keep trying. Keep commanding Life to be about being about it for you. You got thangs to do. As have I. Let’s go…

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Your pain. My gain.

I’m trying to learn about others. I’m trying to empathize with others. With their struggles.

Often, folk find it easy to empathize with those who struggle with the things they struggle with. I’m trying to learn to empathize period.

Just because your hurt is not my hurt does not mean I can’t hurt for you.

I have been learning about micro bakers. I had no idea there was such a thing! Turns out, I think, a micro baker is someone with a tiny bakery. Who knew?!

I came across a micro baker who lived in Australia. He had excitedly opened a micro bakery. I was all set to learn about his journey. He only had five episodes. He had to quit a year later.

I felt bad for him. I grieved with and for him. I thought about how excited he was to have open his micro bakery. I agonized with him as he agonize about not having time to do other things he wanted to do in his life. His dream had become cumbersome. His dream had become work. His dream was no longer something he loved.

I looked at other micro bakers who were having a time. They were happy. I wondered if they would also quick in a year.

In trying to learn how to empathize with and for others, I am learning to give myself more of a break. I’m also finding I am enjoying my job more than I thought. I thought I was ready to move on from my job to pursue my writing dreams.

To my surprise, I have found I truly enjoy my job and want to keep doing what I’m doing. I also want to make room for my writing dream. I have asked myself what is it I love about writing? I have asked myself where I want to take my writing?? I have asked God what HE would like for me, to take my writing.

Now, I wait. Now, I research. Now, I experience the lives of others. Now, I am enjoying the learning process. The learning process used to be so frustrating for me. I wanted to get somewhere already!

Now, I’m enjoying the journey. All of it. I am enjoying sharing it with you. I am enjoying talking to The Universe about it. I’m enjoying talking to family and friends about it. I’m enjoying sharing it with my supervisor at work. I am just enjoying everything about it.

In trying to get to know the struggles of others, I have found my struggles not to be so heavy. Yes, the hard is still hard. Yes, the lonely is still lonely. But, I find joy in all of those things.

I no longer feel as though I have to. Now, I do because I choose to. Because, I want to.

I have spent the last several hours getting my pieces ready for the next week. Normally, I do that on Saturday or Sunday morning. Tonight, I just wanted to share life with you and enjoy the evening.

Enjoy your life, beloveds. Love someone. Starting with you. Then, try to find someone who does not look like you and empathize with what they are going through. We are all we got, but we are all we need.

The more I am delving into the cultures of other countries, the more I am learning we all love the same. We all hurt the same. We all care the same. Just in different ways.

We are all more alike than we are different. I have been having such a good time looking for the good in others. There is enough darkness in the world. I am sharing my light and looking for the light in others.

Be encouraged. As you hurt, I hurt with you. As you heal, I cheer for you. As you grow, I grow with you.

feeling with and for you,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Nuff said.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Thank God it’s Friday!

Hallelujah!

Thank God it’s Friday!

Nothing has worked all week. And, I mean nothing. I have been ready to run away from home. The only,problem with doing that is that I have to go as well.

I have been getting on my own last nerves. Even comfort eating told me to shut up and take two seats. I have taken three.

I told myself I would not be telling jokes today is nothing it’s funny. I found myself telling jokes anyway.

Life is short, beloveds. Keep telling jokes even when life does not appear to be very funny at the moment. Someone else may be going through a hard time as well. Life has not been easy for any of us no matter what category you find yourself in.

I did not feel like doing the day. I got up and did the day anyway. I don’t know where life is taking me. I don’t even know if I want to go along for the ride. I would just like to stop and set up camp somewhere. Anywhere. I’m just so tired of this journey. I want to be there already.

I don’t feel like moving into a new place and space. I want everything to be furnished already. I know it won’t be. Just the thought is making me tired again.

The computer is being a pain. It’s a reminder that it is broken. Crap. Feels like me today…*sigh*.

Be encouraged.

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Fight on. Why? Because, we have thangs to do. Be encouraged. Yes, it’s tiring. I know. I want to crawl in bed and never come out. Okay, maybe for Doritoes and some chicken strips. But, not after that. Okay, maybe for a cup of coffee or two. But, not after that. Okay, maybe…lol. May as well stay out of bed and keep fighting, eh, beloveds?

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Your outside can not change your inside.

Your outside can not change your inside.

Not if your heart is broken.

A new job won’t.

A new relationship won’t.

A change of scenery won’t.

Having less money won’t.

Having more money won’t.

Loud music won’t.

Distraction won’t.

Drinking won’t.

Eating won’t.

If your heart is hurting, beloveds, only healing will help you. Take the time to heal. No you can’t fully heal on your own. None of us can. As the saying goes, no man is an island and unto himself. We all need each other.

We all have needs. What does your heart need? Is important to ask your heart what it needs. I never used to ask myself. One day, got asked me what I needed in what I wanted. I had no answers. I was used to just giving and giving and giving and giving and giving and hoping for a scrap here and there.

There are so many people who are trying to hide their inside. They tried to cover themselves with expensive clothing. They attempt to hide their shame under designer labels.

Many look to be called an influencer who is loved by millions but don’t like themselves.

I like me. I love me. It took me a long time to be able to say those two sentences. To believe those two sentences. I believe them now. I believe in me now.

Life is so short. Yet, is long enough to do what we need to do. If we get to doing those things.

doing things,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: . Life is short. Get healing on your inside. Then, if you want go-ahead and change some of you outside.… LOL.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Don’t sell yourself short.

Don’t sell yourself short, beloveds.

It breaks my heart beloveds, to see so many people selling themselves short. It hurts my heart to see so many doing ridiculous things for click bait. Or, for content for money.

Don’t sell out your dreams because you think the world needs you to do so to make money.

I have been talking to myself and asking myself what it is I want to give the world. I have been asking what I am asking for the world to present or give me.

I have no plans to be the lifesaver or babysitter for the world. I want to encourage others. I want to empower others. I want to share best practices with others.

Then, I’m going to learn how to make motivation old videos and create a page and presented to the world. My labor is worth getting paid for. Am done selling myself short.

I am working things out in real time. Hopefully, something I say will encourage you to go for your dreams. Just start somewhere. Anywhere. Just start.

Stop selling yourself short. Ask for what you need in want. Work hard. Dream big. What do you have to lose?

Take small steps. Cut yourself some slack. It takes time to make your dreams come true. Don’t let yourself be overwhelmed because you felt like a small fish in a big pond. You are a small fish in a big pond.

Yet, God and The Universe sees you. You are not alone.

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note:

Be good to yourself. In the meantime, enjoy your day. Enjoy your life. Life is much more than being stimulated all the time. Life means experiencing the heat of the day. Life means experiencing the dark of night.

Life means standing in the rain. Life means being lonely. Life means being among people. Life means being hungry. Life means being full.

It’s okay to feel uncertain. It’s okay to be afraid of the future. It’s okay to wonder if you’re going the right way. Just keep going. Stop selling yourself so short.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

You don’t have to apologize.

You don’t have to apologize…

For being born.

You don’t have to apologize…

For being unique.

You don’t have to apologize…

For being different.

You don’t have to apologize…

For having needs.

You don’t have to apologize…

For having dreams

You don’t have to apologize.

So, 🛑 STOP…

The Apologies.

apologizing no more,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: It’s okay, beloveds, to desire change in your life. That being said, it’s important to understand that you take you with you wherever you go.

It has broken my heart to see so many people who are imploding their lives because they want to feel differently. These folks don’t understand it’s not the things they seek but how they interpret those things that helps determine how we feel.

Being content is a choice. Being satisfied with her circumstances is a choice. Being happy is a choice.

You can be satisfied anywhere. You can also be dissatisfied anywhere. It’s all determine by what we tell ourselves.

Growth takes time. Change takes time. One step at a time. It’s important not to make rash decisions when we are feeling like we’re in a dry place.

Don’t quit your job, start a relationship, remove things when you are feeling lost or empty. Stop. Take a breath. Take stock. Rest.

Rinse and repeat. Talk to the universe. Pray. Most importantly, be honest with yourself. Ask yourself why.

Why do you feel incomplete? Don’t immediately seek another person to try to make you feel like a whole person. Be good to you. Love you. Allow your heart to heal.

Don’t look for another to entertain you, to amuse you, to feel you, to complete you. It is not the world’s job to stimulate you. It is not your spouse’s job to stimulate you. You don’t need a spouse to stimulate you.

I have been working hard on my relationship with God. I understand that he is not my Butler. I am working on my end of the relationship. I am also working on my end of the relationship with my family and friends.

I asked myself what he is that I need to do to help the communication. I am working on myself when I feel triggered during an interaction.

I’m working on myself with my job. I’m thinking of different ways that I can be more useful and helpful with my job. I’m looking where I can grow.

I have also allotted time to work on my writing dreams. This way, I can give my whole heart to work in be about work business and not be frustrated because I am not pursuing my dreams.

I am no longer apologizing for being born. I no longer apologize for being the person that I am. I no longer apologize for being passionate. I no longer apologize for caring so much.

Be encouraged, beloveds. Stop being so terribly hard on yourself. You are doing the best you can. I am proud of you. I am proud of me.

I am looking forward to tomorrow. Why? Because, I have thangs
of to do.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Build so the whole world can see.

I am building my dream. I’m flying, beloveds. Where the whole world can see.

Mistakes and all. Missteps and all.

This is MY dream. I shall build it the way MY heart has been longing to do so for 30 years plus. I shall run and see where my heart shall take me. I shall go where I have been afraid to go. I shall climb even though I am terrified of heights.

I shall try.

I WILL fail.

I WILL fall.

That’s okay.

I am enjoying every step.

Every frustrating, maddening, soul destroying, heartbreaking, lonely, awful, heavy, burdened, tiring, annoying, exhausting, wonderful step.

Ah.

Aha!

God just wants us to try.

We build our dreams in the try.

We confront our fears in the try.

We meet us in the try.

Get up, beloveds. It’s time for you to try. It’s time for you to build your dream out loud. Where the whole world can see!

building my dream,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: It’s time, beloveds. Rise. Shine. God is with you. The Universe is for you. Life WILL sustain you as you continue to try. It’s all in the try. When you truly understand that God, that Life, that The Universe could EASILY move and remove your obstacles, the more you will understand there is a point to these, to your shenanigans. Keep going! Look around you and see what you have already built!

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Okay. Um. Oops.😳

Okay.

Um.

Opps.

PSA: It is HIGHLY recommended to BOTH put on one’s 👓 spectacles and REMOVE dirty 👟 shoes, BEFORE vacuuming the carpet.

Smh.

I can neither confirm nor deny having done such a foolish thing.😳

*mutters to self and makes note to vacuum the carpet. Again!*

spring cleaning sorta,

Cassandra

Note: It feels good slowly getting back into the swing of things. Give yourself permission to take as much time as you need to heal/grow. Promise you.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Repeat after me.

Repeat after me:

It’s up to me.

Nuff said.

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Now, go make it happen. How? Beats me. Start anywhere. Just start moving.

Moving on can be scary. I admit whilst doing my research, I have wondered if it would not be easier remaining in the known I know now.

The future, the unknown future, used to scare the begeez out of me. Now, it just terrifies me.🤣

Now, I know God is with me, so I am not so afraid. Or, I take my legit fear, climb onto His Lap and tell Him ALL about it. Poor Him.😁🤣

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!