Month: June 2026

I’m no longer her. Then again, she’s no longer me!

Reality is FINALLY setting in, beloveds. A reality I do NOT want to face. I HAVE to. Dammit, I  HAVE to.

I cried in my sister’s arms tonight. Said I no longer feel like me. I had been itching to make an uplifting video. You know,  one of m ridiculous and sappy ones.  I was going to add inspiring music.  I was going to wax poetic about the vicissitudes of life. 

Then  I realized, I remembered that I could barely say  let alone remember what the vicissitudes of life even meant!

Dammit!!

I fired up my video making software but no longer remember HOW to work it which made me cry harder. Sis told me to teach myself again.

Monday morning I have a neurology appointment to find out just how much my brain has been affected.  I am terrified! What if I can’t remember or relearn things.

Words are my life. How do I regain my footing, pun intended!Ah, God, what do I do with me now.

I am not the same. I will NEVER be THAT her again.  Never seems like such a long time. I’m not depressed. Terrified. Sad. Wondering. Wandering. I am truly in my own Garden of Gasemeni! My ONLY comfort is that  He promised to be with me.

I just stopped by to encourage someone to keep on keeping on. Quit is NOT for us We’ve got too many thangs to do!

Get UP!!! FIGHT! THERE IS TOO MUCH LOVE IN US TO DESPAIR, TO QUIT, TO RUN AWAY.

Cry, if you have to. Then:

Rise.

Move.

Believe.

Sing

Dance.

I may not can raise both hands. Still, I shall flap this left one with all that I have.

I’m no longer her. Then again, she’s no longer me.It will be interesting finding out who WE are…lol

Its okay to wonder who and why you are. Let’s discover together, eh. In case no one has told you today: I love you and so does He.

STILL here,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Be encouraged. Somebody pray for a sista!Asking for A Friend!

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Living left handed in a right handed world!

Whew.

WHEW!

WHHHHHEW!!!

Everything is hard right now. And I mean everything!!!!!!!

I am doing my best not to get discouraged. I’m doing my best not to get angry. I’m doing my best. That’s all I can do. That’s all I can ask myself. That’s all you can ask of yourself.

Everything I do takes effort. Everything I do takes is time. I want to rush forward. I want to run. I want to go places. I can’t. Not now. Not yet. Who knows ?

Part of me wants to be angry with the world. I don’t blame the world for my stroke. I am trying to learn the lesson in this. Is there a lesson to be learned? You tell me.

I have tried to make uplifting videos all day. My hands no longer work right. I no longer work right. I’m doing the best I can. I’m using the tools I have right now. That’s all I can do. That’s all you can do. That is all God asked of me to do.

I just stopped by to encourage someone.

Be encouraged. Keep doing what you know.  Keep fighting the good fight. I’m living left handed, in a righthanded world. There are days I want to hide. There are days I want to run away

I can’t afford to run away. Neither can you. We have to face our fears. We have to walk alone. Let’s keep trying. Make the most of things. I have to keep rewriting my life. So do you. As many time as it takes. As long as it takes.

Don’t give in. Don’t give up. Don’t Iet despair stop you. I want to say forget it. I can’t. None of us can.

There is so much I want to say. It bothers me that I can’t say what I want. When I want. How I want. Still, I try. Just writing these words takes so much effort. That’s OK. I’m OK. Or, I will be. I choose to be. What do you choose?

Life is what we make it. Make yours a good one. So will I.

asking for A Friend,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: There are days that I want to sit down and cry all day. I don’t have time for that. I have a life to love and live and grow in. And so do you. What do you do with your life? What can you do with it )) What must you do with your life? Asking for A Friend.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

NOTHING will ever be the same. And, that’s okay.

A miracle gave me my life back. But for the love of a friend, I would have died from the stroke. She called everyone she could think of to do a wellness check.

I lay on the floor for almost an hour before  paramedics kicked in my door. I could hear but could not move. I had many MRIs as doctors worked to stop me from having. more strokes There was concern for my aorta. Fresh crimeny!!

As a result,  I have to take blood thinners for the rest of my life. I am praying for healing but will make the best of things.

NOTHING will ever be the same. And, that’s okay. I am doing my best to walk again! Still, beloveds, I SHALL live fully no matter what!!!!

I stopped by to encourage someone. Starting with me.!

Don’t give up. Not today, Not tomorrow. Not ever! Healing will come. Be patient with yourself. Pray. Ask for help. Things will not always be this hard. You can make it. You can take it.

Be encouraged. You got this. We can do this.

Nothing will ever be the same again. And that’s OK. I love you. So does God. Have a wonderful day. Let me hear from you. I have been praying for you. Pray for me.

asking for A Friend,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: This stroke has been a blessing in disguise. I have had to learn patience. I have had to learn how to take things one step at a time. I am learning how to slow down. I’m thankful. I’m grateful. Be grateful for your life. The best is yet to come. For all of us. I believe that. Trust in God. Trusting your gifts. Trust in you! We can do more than we give ourselves credit for. . Jesus loves us. I love you. I pray, pray, pray for you every day!

Life is worth living? Even the hard parts. Life changes for us all. PLEASE don’t despair when that happens. You are not alone. I’m with you. So is God. So IS, Jesus! Have FAITH!!!!.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Yay!

Today is the first I have been able to do my exercise bike using both legs!!!! Whew!

Just got out of the hospital.  Story later.  Just stopped by to encourage someone.  Keep going

I ❤️ 😍 you.

Cassandra

I love you.

I love you.


Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Just sending some love your way.  Be encouraged. Life has been really hard. I am dealing with mental deficits from my stroke. I can no longer recall easy words and things like I used to.  Forming coherent sentences has been devastating to a writer. I have cried alllereek trying to make peace with my new normal.

It takes me days to bounce back from speech therapy sessions. Speech is hard. Texting takes FOREVER.

I want to encourage those whose struggles are many right now.  We SHALL get better.  It may take a long time.  Let’s laugh in the meantime.  Let’s love, in the meantime. Let’s hope,  in the meantime. We got this.

Cassandra 🤗💃🏽😁🥰👍🤨

Yesterday sucked!

Yesterday sucked!

Nuff said.
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Am I the only one who is tired? Asking for a friend…😳🤗

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

I was made/built for this!

Hard times.

I was made/built for this!

Challenges. I

I was made/built for this!

Heartache.

I was made/built for this!

Heartbreak.

I was made/built for this!

Ghosted.

I was made/built for this!

Obstacles.

I was made/built for this!

Frustrations.

I was made/built for this!

Sad times.

I was made/built for this!

Defeat.

I was made/built for this!

Failure.

I was made/built for this!

Success.

I was made/built for this!

I can do ALL THINGS through He that strengthens me. So can you.

Nuff said.
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note:  Hang in there..

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

God, give me back my voice.

Me:God, give me back my voice!

God: Why?

Me: I  need it!

God: What will you DO with it? What have you DONE with it?

Me: Owww!

God : I  know.

Me : Geeeeeeez. Low blow!

God: What do ye with this silence? What have you DONE with the silence thus far?

Me: No fair! That’s cold.

God: True that.  Well?

Me: Cry.  Complain.  Beg.  Plead.

God  : For what?

Me : I want YOU to fix what has been broken.

God: What’s that?

Me: My  heart.

God: What can I do?

Me : Give me back my voice.

God: Again,  what have you, will you,  can you DO with the words.

Me :

God: I know the way has been hard, beloveds. Trust ME.

Me: K.

Whew!!!! Beloveds, finding my way,  finding my new voice has been:

Hard.

Maddening.

Embarrassing.

Annoying.

There has been little joy in feeling like a moron as I find my voice.  My speech therapist went off on me for calling myself a moron.  Geeez! Oops.  

Be encouraged, beloveds.  Finding your voice takes:

Time.

Heartache 

Heartbreak.

Let life break your heart so that God can heal ALL your broken pieces.  He can. He will. He will NEVER leave or forsake you or me. God keeps  His Promises.

Quitting is NEVER an option.  NOT EVER!! We can. We WILL.  WE HAVE TO!!

asking for A Friend,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note:  We can do this. We truly can. Take joy with you. 👍

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!