Category: faith

Stop bugging me, God!:Stay open to The Universe.

Yikes!

Egads!

Every since I had to have drywall fixed, under the sink, I have been having to fight with bugs.

Yikes!

Egads!!!!!!!!!

I hate bugs!!!!!!

Almost daily, it seems, I find myself hooting and hollering, raging at The Universe, fighting with my Thanos sized can of bug spray, whilst attempting to finger snap these dumb things out of existance!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It also feels as if God and The Universe keeps bugging me by revealing past issues and unresolved issues/feels that have been preventing me from moving forward.

EEEEEEGGGGGGGGGAAAAADDDDDS!!!

I now find myself hooting and hollering, raging at The Universe, at God, at this, at that, at me, at you, at Life, at work, at me again, at Life again, at….whew….rinse….repeat, at…

You get my point.

Still, in the midst of all the raging and hooting and hollering, I find myself:

Growing.

Going.

Believing.

Receiving.

Acknowledging.

Feeling…

Feeling?

Hmmm.

Ah!

Aha!

I used to squash my feelings into some drawer that I would get to ‘later’. Later never came. So, I found myself a ball of unresolved what the world is this feels. I am thankful that God and The Universe keeps on bugging me to continue to heal and to grow.

I am looking forward to my future. I am enjoying my present. I am embracing all this hard. I have asked, though, for God and The Universe to teach me some lessons on a beach whilst feeding me grapes!

Be encouraged, beloveds. Don’t give up yet. Not just yet. I find myself on an encouragement kick. I need it. Now, more than ever. I feel the days running away. How many do I have, God? Universe?

I want to see what it FEELS like to be living my dream outloud. Ah, God. Won’t You come down and hang with me as I wait for You to…*shrug*. Just come kick it with me.

waiting patiently kinda/sorta,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Be encouraged. Keep going. You got thangs to do. Enjoy you in the meantime. We only get one go around.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Repeat after me: Hey, Monday!

Repeat after me:

Hey, Monday!

This SHALL be a great day.

I CHOOSE.

I will give the best that I have. This shall be enough for me.

I shall handle stressful situations without stressing out. I know I can overcome all that happens in this day.

I refuse to allow lazy to keep me from pushing forward. I will try whether I feel like it or not.

I can.

I will.

Life maybe hard today. So what? I eat hard for breakfast!

Now, get out there and happen to your Monday, beloveds.

Don’t you EVER allow yourself to complain about the start of your week! Your week shall be full of all the miracles and moments you have been asking and waiting for.

The problem is too many are too afraid to move from fear of making mistakes. So what?! Get out there and get things wrong til you get your thangs right!!

doing thangs with you,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

🗒: You STILL here!? Get going!!

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being… YOU

Turn it into something good.

Frustration woke me up this morning.

I was tired.

I was hungry.

I was too tired to fix something to eat or make coffee.

I started work tired, hungry and coffee-less!…*gasp*.

I faked it til I made it.

I called my sis and told her I was tired. Said I did NOT want to go another year THIS way. Yet, I could not even say what THIS even was…

Dissatisfaction?

Frustration?

Whattheworldisthisness?

I knew not.

Talking helped. In times past, I would have ‘sucked it up’ and kept my feels, to myself. I would have been supportive and loved on folk, all the while being tore up from the floor up.

I don’t do that anymore. Now, I share. Now, I do the best I can to encourage folk when I am THE most discouraged. Why? I figure if I could be so down, when having so much and KNOWING, how are other folks feeling who don’t yet KNOW they are loved and not alone?

So, I drag my feels with me in encouraging folk to hang in there. Things really WILL be alright, beloveds. Until they are though:

Have faith.

Be encouraged.

Talk to someone.

Write.

Read.

Pray.

Sing.

Take a walk.

Take out the trash.

Wash the dishes.

Do the laundry.

In short, keep on living. Life is good. Even when it’s hard. Turn your not so hot, into something good.

You CAN.

You WILL.

So shall I.

making chocolate chip cookies from lemons,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Okay, really? Get out there and LIVE. Enjoy the rest of your weekend. I have had my sad. Now, I shall enjoy the rest of my day. Don’t let sad or any other feels keep you from embracing and enjoying your moments. We got this.

You are loved and not alone.

Dreams: Take the next step, God said to me.

God: Take the next step.

Me: I can’t.

God: Take the next step.

Me: I’m tired.

God: Take the next step.

Me: I don’t know how.

God: Take the NEXT step. Just the one. You don’t have to know or worry about the steps thereafter.

Me: I don’t know what my life will look like. I have no idea where I will end up. I have NO clue who I will be.

God: Just be. Take the next step, beloved.

Me: I am tired.

God: I shall take the next step for you. Come here…

*God scoops up Cassandra and slings her across his back. With a whoop and a laugh, God raced through the puddles, as the rain continued to stream down.*

taking the next step,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: I was tired. Did NOT want to work today. Work is sooooooooooooooooooooooo worky! Endless! Everyone needing everything. For a time, my feels had me all up in my feelings. Woe is me blared from my heart. My spirit, being annoyed, told my feels to shut up already and get about being about it! I got about being about it.

Be encouraged, beloveds. You shall. You will. The way just seems hard, right now. Okay, it may yet well be hard but enjoy the journey. We woke. Some did not. We moved. Some could/can not. We rejoiced. Some choose not.

Live. Laugh. Love. Starting with you.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

😴

What a day.

What a ddddddddaaaaay.

What a…😴

🛏,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Work was work. Whew! The first month of the year is the busiest. It’s like life crams 6 month of work into one month. Yikes!😳

Enjoy your days. Even the especially busy ones. I have just enough energy to check on folk and to remind all that they are loved and not alone. Keep on being you.

Don’t let the upside down turn you around.

Well now.

My days are upside down. Due to system issues, STILL, I am battling through my days and have not had the chance to get my pieces done and posted by 6:30 am…*shrug*

In times past, I would have been hooting anx hollering over the unfairness of life and all the nonsense going on round here!

Ack!

Whew!

Instead, I am simply writing NOW. There is no sense in lamenting about the hard. We just have to keep working with it, around it or within it. Simple as that.

I have also learned not to allow work frustrations to bleed into the whole of my day. I have another aggravating hour to fight through but plan on enjoying the rest of my evening.

Keep going, beloveds. Laugh at hard and tell it thanks for helping to shape you into the victorious champion you are!

You got this.

God has you.

How much more blessed can you and I be?

Be encouraged.

praying for all who are aggravated and or tired,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Take care of your wonderful heart, would you? Asking for A Friend.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU

♥️ check.

🤒

Feeling poorly. Again! Debated calling in sick. Again!

Calculated bills. Again!

Ack!

Hmm.

Soooooooooo, beloveds, I PROMISED I would be good to me so told bills to shut up and called out. Paid bills, to get them out of the way, and fixing to scramble some eggs 🥚 and get back in bed.

Be good to YOU, beloveds. Too often, we run ourselves ragged for job and family. It’s imperative that we consider ourselves, as well.

I was raised to NOT consider my health, my wealth, or my feelings. We had no choice. We had to work and care for our siblings and mom, who had been super ill most of my life. She did what she could but her health kept her from being financially able to do much. Plus, she had to raise 13 kids. Egads.

Anywho, folk of color were and are raised to suck it up! No time for:

Tears.

Fears.

Dreams.

We had to work. We had to strive. WE HAD TO!

There was no time for day dreams. No time to meander or rest. NO TIME!

So, we grew up:

Tired.

Stressed.

Angry.

Angry from being ALWAYS tired and stressed. We weren’t and aren’t, angry people. Just angry over the constant hard that had no business being so damned hard just because of being born a person of color in a world who cared not for folk of color.

I love the world, still. Ignorance makes fools of us all.

Keep loving folk, beloveds. Folk are often the product of their environment and choices. Folk are often following what their family has done.

Life is short. Keep being good to you. I shall do the same. Am feeling so poorly I am not sure if I have made sense.

Be encouraged. Do something special for your heart as it is precious. Someone remember to turn off the lights and pass out some love and hugs.

Take care.

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Life is good. Even when it’s hard. Embrace your day. Don’t let a frustrating moment ruin your whole day. Acknowledge your feels and keep on with your day. Look up at the sky. What a wonderful gift this planet 🌏 is for us. Breathe deeply. Many never got the chance to take a breath today.

Remember to cut yourself more slack. You are doing the best you can. Sheesh. Why are you soooooooooooo hard on you? Stop that!🥰

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU

🤒 Be good to you.

🤒. Sick appears to have snuck up on me…

Hhm.

I calculated pushing through. The 🚽 said it didn’t think 🤔 that wise.

Comforter sided with hot/cold who are currently arguing with bod temp for supremecy.

I told them all to go away and told bills to shut up as I am going to be good to me today.

Be good to you, beloveds. Some days, it is 🧣 necessary to look after your interests and not your interest, if you know what I am saying.

Life is short. Let folk know what you need. Be encouraged. Love someone. Starting with you.

Somebody pass out a good note 🗒 for the day. Oh, yea, here:

🥰

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being… YOU

Heart ♥️check Monday on Tuesday.

It’s Tuesday.

Monday threw me off. Or rather FOLKS SHOOTING, HOLLERING, AND BLASTING FIREWORKS FOR HOURS ON END!😳

I’m ancient. I’m in my ‘get off my lawn’ stage of life where I am sounding EXACTLY like my mom.😳😳😳!

She would tsk tsk about ALL life would be doing to me and in my life if I just “keep living.”

She was right. Mom, you were soooooooooo right.

N-E-waze, my day is mixed up and it feels like Monday on a Tuesday. Life feels like it is starting my year of weirdly.

I told my feels to shut up and take a seat. There is zero chance I am allowing my feels to feel their way through my present and try and ruin MY future.

Nope. Nada. It’s not going to happen.

As it happened, beloveds, I found myself really examining my why. And, if my why was STILL MY why.

I found it is. With some slight modifications. Why? Because the dreams that were given to me were, well, given to me. I wanted to know I was okay with running with God, with The Universe, with THEIR ask of me.

It was and is and shall ever be MY choice in whether I follow the pull, the tug, the leading, the guiding. God understands. The Universe understands.

This is part of a conversation I had with them.

Me: Folks sure are acting like a bunch of stupid about now.

God: Will you love them for ME, any way?

Me: Geez.

The Universe: Doesn’t God love you, still, when you get to acting like a whole lot of stupid at times?

Me: Geeeez! That was harsh.

God: True that, though?

Me: True that…

So, I have promised to keep loving folk. Even when all are in the midst of a whole lotsa acting a fool.

Be encouraged. Don’t waste a second listening to the nonsense there is no right or wrong and you can go around treating your fellow man as of no consequence just because you can.

Whew! See, beloveds, I broke the comma rule, on purpose. To, have a super long run on sentence where you could barely breathe to show the point sometimes it IS necessary to color within the lines so we can all live in harmony together and still be able to breathe.😳😆

I’m just checking on your heart today. Make sure you have a fantastic week. How your week turns out as up to you. It’s not up to your job. It’s not up to your family. It’s not up to your friends. It’s not up to the world. It’s up to you and your attitude. Make it a great one.

Take care and remember that you are loved and not alone. Take things one step at a time. Life is short and you have things to do.

doing things with you,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Send your critics some virtual flowers. They help keep you fresh and on your faith toes. Hard helps keeps you swinging for the fences. Disappointment helps keeps you believing in your dreams. You got this. KNOW THIS!!

One lap is enough.

My health is not the greatest at the moment. I have not been able to walk every day. I have not been able to resume my daily task with the gusto I normally do.

I told myself to get out of bed and take out the trash. I told myself to walk just a bit. Even if it was only one lap. I walked.

I could only complete one lap. In the past, this would have been a source of deep discouragement.

Now I rejoiced as one lab would turn into two next time and then three and then four.The point was not the amount. The point was the try.

Keep trying. Even if you can only manage a lap.

One step.

One step.

One step.

walking/trying the best I can,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Life is a series of steps. Get a move on…