Category: God

Monday is being Monday!😳

If you know, you know!

I keep experiencing setbacks getting transportation setup for Outpatient  Therapy. It feels like I’ll take one step forward and 100 steps backwards!

It took EVERYTHING within to NOT grow discouraged and to take days one at a time.  Parts of me wants to rush headlong into the future. Go AND my stroke constantly reminds me to live IN THE MOMENT 

Beloveds, we  have to work together to learn how to live and move in the absolute present. We waste time doing otherwise

Take care to take care, eh? Monday sure acted like Monday! If you know, you know…lol

Be encouraged. We got this

could be awfully frustrated if I let myself,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Don’t let your day ruin your day/days! We got thangs to do!

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Your dreams have not forgotten who you are. Have you forgotten?

Your dreams have not forgotten who you are. Have you forgotten?

Beloveds,  Life is calling for you. Your life is NOT over. The best IS yet to come.

Be vigilant. Be patient.  Be ENCOURAGED!

Life is so very short. The time is here for you to FINALLY tell fear HA! and LIVE.

You can do this. You can I root for you. I pray for your great success. Greatness is calling for you. Shall you listen THIS time.

If I can overcome this stroke, beloveds,  SURELY you can overcome a little bit of hard, eh?

FIGHT THROUGH THE HARD. MAKE HARD YOUR FRIEND!

Pain keeps me from writing as long as I’d like. Still, I’m here. I have your backs in prayer.

You are where you are for a reason. Know this:

You are NOT lost. You are  EXACTLY where you are supposed to be. Trust this it’s time for you to start believing in YOU.

Your dreams have not forgotten who you are. Have you forgotten?

asking for A Friend,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Leys go!!

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Sing.

Singing  helps my speech get better. It is to help me with my cadence. So, I’m singing.  Loudly. Badly. With gusto. Yikes  😁🥰😎.

Sing WITH me. Sing badly. With gusto!

asking for A Friend,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Sing. Life is worth living. It is. Be encouraged. My mouth is crooked from the stroke. Singing has really helped get my mouth back situated. There is so much I must relearn. The other day I cried just because of l have to remember and relearn. Then, I got up.

Get up, beloveds.  Come on now. You can do this and so can I! I love you and so does He.



One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

It can/will get hard/tough. Never mind that!

Yassss!

It took me one hour  AND twenty nine minutes BUT I WAS ABLE TO PUT ON MY BRA BY MYSELF FOR THE FIRST TIME!!!!!

Whew!!!!!!!!

YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Never mind that I am now sitting breathless/ecstatic/thankful hopeful and half naked still!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

I’m so worn out, from the effort spent, that I may stay half dressed for the rest of the day! I just stopped by to encourage someone. Starting with me.

It can/will get hard/tough. Never mind that!

determined,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Keep going.  Keep moving forward.  Keep looking up. We got thangs to do!

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

These lessons  learned.

Ah, beloveds, Life has been teaching me many  a lesson

Some, bitter. Some, bittersweet!!

I’m learning how to stand, ten toes down, on FAITH. I tell fear HA! THEN, I keep going.

Be encouraged,  beloveds,  oh, be ENCOURAGED!

What lessons are YOU learning.  I’m getting stronger. Today,  I walked almost 700 feet with my quad cane. It felt good to walk 🚶‍♀️ those exhausting steps! Whew!

I was proud of my try. Be proud of yourself.  You are doing your best.  Let that be enough. STOP judging yourself so harshly!

asking for A Friend,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: I love you!❤️

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Yet, I’m STILL here.

A stroke tried to steal my life.

Yet, I’m STILL here.

I begged God to send me home. God said forget about it you’ve got thangs to do, Cassandra!

So, I got back up. I began,  AGAIN, for the billionth time.

Get up! Begin! Again! Again  and AGAIN!! We got thangs to do.

Yet, beloveds, you are STILL here!

Yet, I’m STILL here. Let’s go!!

Never  ever no heck to the no way and no how will we give in or give up!

asking for A Friend,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Come on, eh? If I
can drag myself,  kicking and screaming through the hard  then so can you!


One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Its okay not to know.

I don’t know much. I don’t know how.  I don’t know when. I don’t know where. I don’t know where. I don’t know much much anymore. And, beloveds, that’s okay. For now…*sigh*.

I’m doing my level best to stay positive. I’m playing the ” good girl “. Crap!

Sure wish that I could:

Pitch a fit.

Scream.

Scream some more.  I dare not. Instead  I…*sigh

Run.

I don’t know what to do to with the me I used to be.

Can anyone tell me? It’s okay not to know. Be encouraged.

asking for A Friend,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: 🤨😳⏳

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

I don’t know what to do to with the me I used to be.

Crap

CRAP.

CRAP!!

I don’t know what to do to with the me I used to be.  Where has she gone?  Will she ever return?

I don’t know what to do to with the me I used to be. What can I do with her now?

Ah, God, I don’t know what to do to with the me I used to be. Can You tell me?

Who am I now? What worth do I have now

I don’t know who I am?  I have no idea where I belong. I have  to start all over again .

Crap

CRAP.

CRAP!!

I don’t know what to do to with the me I used to be.

asking for A Friend,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note:😥🙏 Can I get a witness?

Who feels as lost as I  do? Not so much lost as…?

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

It’s dark right now. But, that’s okay.

Don’t be afraid of the dark, beloveds. Everyone of us are fighting with and fighting through some dark times.

Bills are impossibly high. No one can afford gas or groceries  I stopped by to encourage someone. God sees in the darkness as well as in the light.

Stand fast  Stand ten toes down on faith,  love, hope and joy.  As my mama always said ” the devil IS a liar! Ha!

Dont let your present circumstances keep you from keeping on! Life is what WE make it. I plan to make the most of mine.

I had a catastrophic stroke. Big deal. Okay  it sucks So what?! I fight on.  Whether I feel like it or not. What are you fighting with. Tell it so what and keep it moving!

It’s dark right now. But, that’s okay.

here with you
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Still, we rise!!!

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

I’m no longer her. Then again, she’s no longer me!

Reality is FINALLY setting in, beloveds. A reality I do NOT want to face. I HAVE to. Dammit, I  HAVE to.

I cried in my sister’s arms tonight. Said I no longer feel like me. I had been itching to make an uplifting video. You know,  one of m ridiculous and sappy ones.  I was going to add inspiring music.  I was going to wax poetic about the vicissitudes of life. 

Then  I realized, I remembered that I could barely say  let alone remember what the vicissitudes of life even meant!

Dammit!!

I fired up my video making software but no longer remember HOW to work it which made me cry harder. Sis told me to teach myself again.

Monday morning I have a neurology appointment to find out just how much my brain has been affected.  I am terrified! What if I can’t remember or relearn things.

Words are my life. How do I regain my footing, pun intended!Ah, God, what do I do with me now.

I am not the same. I will NEVER be THAT her again.  Never seems like such a long time. I’m not depressed. Terrified. Sad. Wondering. Wandering. I am truly in my own Garden of Gasemeni! My ONLY comfort is that  He promised to be with me.

I just stopped by to encourage someone to keep on keeping on. Quit is NOT for us We’ve got too many thangs to do!

Get UP!!! FIGHT! THERE IS TOO MUCH LOVE IN US TO DESPAIR, TO QUIT, TO RUN AWAY.

Cry, if you have to. Then:

Rise.

Move.

Believe.

Sing

Dance.

I may not can raise both hands. Still, I shall flap this left one with all that I have.

I’m no longer her. Then again, she’s no longer me.It will be interesting finding out who WE are…lol

Its okay to wonder who and why you are. Let’s discover together, eh. In case no one has told you today: I love you and so does He.

STILL here,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Be encouraged. Somebody pray for a sista!Asking for A Friend!

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!