Category: Inspiration

What are you filling your heart with?

I am filling my heart today.

With:

Love.

Music.

Peace.

Hope.

Joy.

Thanksgiving.

Song.

Warm thoughts.

Laughter.

Coffee.

Peanut butter cookies.

Okay, so maybe the peanut butter cookies and coffee are not the best things, right now, as I am fighting with a wee bit of a cold.

Still, I am filling my heart with some fabulous Cee Cee Winans. Currently listening to ‘You Are Loved’…….*hugs self*.

It just feels good to be loved, doesn’t it? So, thought I would stop by to tell you how very much you are loved. You are….*hugs folk*.

I wish I had an endless supply of time, money and friends who could help me spread tons of love and joy. Hey! We don’t need a dime to do THAT!

*Cassandra grabs a bucket full of love and joy and begins dumping on all she can get her hands on*

What are you filling your heart with? There is just too much garbage out there to be filling the heart with. Do your best to stay away from all the darkness and divide waiting to swallow a heart whole.

asking for A Friend,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Whatcha got for my heart? For yours? Fill it with wonderfully delicious things eh?

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

You deserve more.

You deserve more.

More credit than you give yourself.

More love than you allow yourself to have.

More care than you show to yourself.

Ah, beloveds, know ye not how precious you are?

You deserve so much more than you give, allow and show to YOU.

Why will you give to a stranger yet allow nothing much, or at all, for yourself? Great question, eh? Asking for A Friend.

Most of us walk around starved and empty. Depleting ourselves of everything. Giving away everything. Accepting/asking for nothing. Enough with that!

I am doing my utmost to love on me. I can’t believe how unbelievably hard it has been trying to rest. I have been used to working myself into a near coma. Now, Life simply asks for me to be. Just for a time. I have been fighting time like the dickens.

You deserve more, beloveds. So do I. Shame on us, eh, for dismissing these hearts of ours. Let’s do better, shall we? Let’s give ourselves oodles of love and THEN give from the excess.

asking for A Friend,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Okay, um, you are supposed to be loving on some you. Whatcha doing here? You want coffee? Okay, let’s have some. Let’s remember tea for all the tea lovers out there…

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Hey Mags.

Be encouraged.

Nuff said.

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Be encouraged. I have taken the day off from encouraging the world. Okay, I haven’t, but it sounded defiant and restful for a second there.😊🤣

Don’t let life get you down. Rest. Then get back after it. I made ☕ AND 🍵. How great am I? Asking for A Friend. ❤️‍🩹❤️🥰

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Repeat after me: It’s not my fault.

Repeat after me:

It’s not my fault.

I gave my all.

I tried my best.

I loved best I could.

I gave all of me.

It’s not my fault.

I WAS there.

I WAS present.

I WAS ready.

It’s not my fault.

I stayed.

I fought.

I prayed.

It’s not my fault.

Things ended.

Things end.

As they were/are meant to.

It’s not my fault.

I did NOT deserve what happened.

That said, it happened.

I choose to deal with, heal from, then leave the past IN the past.

I move forward.

I remain hopeful.

I promise to be good to me.

Repeat after me:

It’s not my fault.

That being the case, beloveds, why are you STILL lamenting the loss? Pick yourself up. Dust yourself off. Keep going. You have a life of wonder to live. As do I.

For days I have been crying in the silence that greets me now. I thought an outpouring of love would come for me, by now. It hasn’t. The silence grows. Louder. More insistent. Wondering how I will fill it.

I’m choosing to sit here. In the silence. I shall wait to see what Life, what God, what The Universe shall say to me. Now. Here. In this tough place. In this new and terrifying space. Ah, God. What in the wide world do I DO with me now?

asking for a friend(me),

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Don’t fear the silences, beloveds. They come for a reason. Don’t rush to fill them with noise and distraction. Sit with them. See what they shall say to you. In the meantime, STOP judging yourself and beating yourself up for things long since past. Move on. Asking for A Friend.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Believe it or not.

Life is going to do it’s thing.

Whether you believe it or not.

Time IS going to pass.

Whether you believe it or not.

Love WILL do It’s thing.

Whether you believe it or not.

Disappointment WILL show itself.

Whether you believe it or not.

Frustrations will visit you often.

Whether you believe it or not.

Life DOES move on with/without you.

Whether you believe it or not.

Moments SHALL pass.

Whether you believe it or not.

Opportunity will knock on those willing to answer.

Whether you believe it or not.

Best to get living, beloveds, don’t you think?

Whether you believe it or not, your life is waiting on YOU. What in the fresh hell are YOU waiting for?

asking for A Friend,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: I never thought I would live to see the day I would be grateful for a tornado tearing up my life. I am grateful. For being forced to DO something. With ME. I have been pondering and pouting my way through this last little while. Blaming God for being silent. Blaming work for not being fulfilling. Blaming the world for…*shrug*…sure is a lot we can blame the world for.

Blaming family for not understanding. Blaming friends for not being supportive with no knowledge of what was really going on with me. Blaming me for EVERYTHING.

Enough, God said. Get up and DO something. I have. I am. I’m trying.

I wish these next steps did not have to be taken. They do. And, only by me. You have your own steps to take. Let’s get to taking them. Yes, we are tired of all this life tomfoolery. Yes, we would love to be there already. Yes, we would appreciate some help. Nevertheless and however we go. Let’s go! Asking for A Friend. In case no one has told you today: I love you. So does He.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

You are not an accident.

You are not an accident.

You are anon purpose.

With a purpose.

Your steps have been purposeful.

You are being led purposefully.

Your happenstance is not mere happenstance.

You are here for a reason.

Your choices have not been by accident.

You have made them based upon the knowledge you had at the time.

You have grown because of you choices.

You are growing based off your present choices.

Don’t fear your future choices.

Keep moving.

Forward.

Knowingly.

Knowing you are doing the best you can with what you know now.

Know this:

You are not an accident.

You are an on purpose.

With a purpose.

What IS your purpose?

Ah.

Aha!

Keep asking, beloveds.

asking for A Friend,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: I  keep asking God WHY my life did not end in that tornado. His Silence is defeaning. I ask myself why I can not remain silent as I make my way through whatever the hell this hell is.

My heart just says there are too many hearts that are shouting to be loved. Ah, God. I am inadequate. What can I give but words? They are all I have. I can’t seem to do them justice. Help me say the right words that will let folk know they don’t have to live in darkness or behind walls.

I end where I started: You are not an accident. Neither am I. We ARE loved and we are not alone.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

God, thank You for the lemonade.

Life has been handing me lemons.

By the bushel.

By the boatload.

I wake up to lemons.

I seem to end the evening with the damnable things.

I have pouted because of them.

I have cried my way through them.

I have fussed due to them.

I have laughed despite them.

In the meantime, I have been learning new, more creative, ways to make lemonade. I figure there is no need to be wasting all this hard by complaining how hard things are and have been.

Slowly, I have perfected each glass:

A dab of laughter here.

A smidge of drama there.

A whole heap of grace mixed in.

A smattering of reality.

Oodles and oodles of self care and comfort liberally throughout each glass.

What’s more, beloveds, I now keep snacks handy to have with said lemonade!

Life is much too short to forever lament about how unfair, hard, mean yada yada it can be.

I would not have wished for these lemons to be presented in such a fashion. I am thankful for the opportunity to…*shrug*. I’m just thankful.

I wish I didn’t have to go this way. It has been super stressful, lonely, trying and every other ‘ing one could think of. It has also been exhilarating, freeing, and every other positive ‘ing one could imagine.

If nothing else, I have plenty of fodder to encourage folk with, eh?….hahahahaahahahahaha.

Be encouraged, beloveds, if Life has you going through an especially tough patch. This time is NOT here to break you. It is just revealing the awesome heart, mind and soul called you.

Take care with your heart. It is much too priceless and precious to be dismissed. Be good to you, beloveds. Cut yourself some slack. You are doing all you know.

Life is too short to be wasting lamenting why you have been given your lemons. Get to making a nice tall glass of lemonade. Short of that, get to make some pie, tarts, cookies or whatever else you want to make from your lemons.

What you make of your lemons, with your hard, with your life is YOUR choice. No victims here. We get what we make out of our lives.

I hear a cup of coffee calling. Who is hankering a spot of coffee/tea?

asking for A Friend,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Life is worth living. Even when it’s hard. Especially when it’s hard. Don’t give up, beloveds. Not quite yet. I didn’t want to start again. I started again. I did not want to fight with reality. I punched reality in the face and told it to leave me and my joy alone. I did not want to dream again. Dreaming is just too hard. I dreamed. I dream. Still. I dream of a world where we all continue to love one another and to try and make things the best we can.

In case no one has told you today: I love you. So does He. Be encouraged. Asking for A Friend.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Shut up and learn, Cassandra.

My brother has been trying to teach me.

I have been a trying student. Trying his last nerves. Yikes!

Instead of answering his questions, I have been questioning why he is asking.

I sowwy, big bro.

I am trying to learn to keep it shut and learn. The way HE teaches me. If anyone but my big bro, I would have probably been more patient, more gracious, more understanding.

I don’t know why we can be sooooooooooo dismissive of siblings and loved ones. Maybe it’s because we know each other’s secrets. We don’t have masks we can hide behind.

Ah.

Aha!

I’m trying to let those closest to me, close to me.

I’m trying to get out of my own way. I keep telling myself to shut up and learn. Learning sucks about now. I want to be finished with finishing school.

The Universe: Shut up and learn, Cassandra.

Me: K.

trying to learn sorta,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: I don’t know why Life is sooooooooooooooo insistent we learn this, that and the other. Probably so we can stop getting on It’s nerves forever asking why this and why that…hahahahahhaha. Be encouraged. Have an amazing weekend.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Saturday.

Saturday.

You are here.

Finally!

What a week.

What in the world, Saturday, took you sooooooooooooooooooooooooo long to get here?

Ah, Saturday, now that you have come, what shall we DO, today?

I vote nothing. How ’bout you?

asking for a friend(me)

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: The Olympics have started! Yippeee!! I get to hoot and holler at the television for the next little while. Have an amazing Saturday. Be sure to love on you today. Asking for A Friend.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Say yes to you.

It’s time.

To say yes.

To YOU.

You spend your days telling yourself no.

You spend your hours telling your dreams no go.

Let’s go.

Right now.

Let’s do this.

Somehow.

Some kind of way.

Say yes to YOU.

To your dreams.

To your needs.

To your hope fors.

To your wishes and rainbows.

Why not now?

Why not you?

Why not yours?

Let’s go, beloveds.

We got thangs to do.

Today.

Now.

Let’s live.

We are done with surviving life.

We are:

Thriving.

Trying.

Traveling.

We are moving towards our dreams.

Slowly.

Surely.

Certain.

Let’s go.

Say yes.

Finally.

To you.

asking for A Friend,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Life is short. Stop using reality to talk you out of saying yes to all the ridiculous ideas and notions floating around in your head and heart. Get going. Be encouraged.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!