I started this piece, aeons ago. Life, however, got in the way. I went back to it and find it timely for today. Who knew. Maybe, it will bring you a bit of comfort. It did me:
Whew.
Whew!
That’s what I thought, beloveds.
I am in training, AGAIN, learning something terribly difficult.
The first time this happened, a bit more than a year ago, I got off work and cried, like a baby.
I felt like:
A, Fool.
A, Failure.
FLIPPING OUT!!
You see, I have been used to getting by on my intelligence, my effort, my personality. But, with the new que/duties, I had not the first clue. My brilliance did NOT translate. I couldn’t do it.
*gasp*
I COULDN’T DO IT!??!
I was NOT used to failing, workwise. I was used to pats on the back and great job. I was used to, proudly, handing my brilliant effort to God, to Life, to The Universe, and getting a ‘how great is that?!.
Now, I had to show them less than stellar, performances. How, embarrassing. How, soul-snatching. My OUTCOME was me, or so I believed, back then.
I grew angry, secretly, at God, at Life, at The Universe. The job I was doing, before, though difficult, I had mastered. I could do it, in my sleep. Truth be told, I had started to get a bit stale. No one could tell. I still did outstanding work. Yet, I was no longer satisfied, with my try. I barely had to try.
God, knew this. Life, knew this. The Universe, knew this. Too bad, no one told me. Ha!
Eventually I:
Learned.
Grew.
Succeeded.
Who knew?
Sometimes, new things are put in our path to grow us up.
New hard things forces us to get out of our comfort zones. Ack! We all love/need to be comfy, don’t we?
I am learning how to live in a world full of uncomfortableness. Life is just like that, at times:
Uncomfortable.
Be encouraged, beloveds. Life is so much more than chasing down things to make us comfortable. Real living, oftentimes, is found in the most uncomfortable of places.
Keep going.
Keep growing.
Keep doing you.
Even when you find comfort nowhere.
Even when you are feeling theeeeeeeeeeeee most uncomfortable. Especially then.
Life is short. Enjoy the one you have.
Keep trying.
Even when your try is taking you every where but where you have been trying to get to!
trying still,
Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe
Note: What are you doing here? Get on out there and live. Asking for A Friend.
One step.
One step.
One step.
You are loved.
You are NOT alone.
Keep on being…YOU!
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