Category: Hobbies

Real talk: House cleaning.

I have had to clean house this year. I have had to clean up many a mess due to some internal stinking thinking.

I didn’t believe in myself, like I could have. In turn, I failed to fight for myself, as I would have.

Just now, I took out the trash. It has been terribly cold these last weeks. So much so I have absolutely DREADED taking out the trash.

Today, I told lazy to stop being lazy. The sun was stunning. She brilliantly showed off her sparkles for all who were smart enough to get outside.

Taking out the trash gave me the energy to do more. Okay, it didn’t. I made myself get on with the business of LIVING.

Fear, of the future, can keep us from living, in the present.

Be sure to get out of your fears, beloveds, and into your brilliant future.

Folk all over the world have been bemoaning the state of the world. To hear folk tell it, we may as well just pack up, not care, and kick a pet or two on the way out. Hooey on that!

Real talk, beloveds, we HAVE to keep up with our internal housekeeping. If not, we shall find ourselves too easily swayed and dismayed by lies and disinformation.

ENJOY your today. It’s the only you get. Hopefully, another today will be tacked on to this one!

asking for A Friend,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Okay, um, like you are supposed to be doing chores. What are you still doing here?😁🥰🤣❤🙏

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Yes!

Yes, you CAN.

Yes, you WILL.

Any other questions?

asking for A Friend,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Now that you KNOW you CAN and you WILL, what in the heckamiah Jeremiah are you waiting for?! Get going. You have too many thangs to do.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Disappointment: Tearing down walls of my own making.

Ow.

Ow!

OWWWW!!!

Disappointment has kicked my tail this year.

Apparently, disappointment has had nothing better to do than to mock me relentlessly.

In my disappointment, I found myself rushing to God to hold up the latest pile of what in the fresh hell is THIS?!

Then, all God has done is told me to take it up with The Universe.

So, I scoop up all THAT disappointment, and rush off to confront The Universe.

Then, The Universe shrugs and tells me to take it up with Life.

Sooooooooooo, I scoop up the now THIS pile of disappointment, and confront life about presenting me with so much THIS and THAT.

Life simply smiles and reminds me I am learning HOW to make mishmash.

How can I argue with that?

In fighting disappointment, I am learning to fight FOR me, not against my current circumstances.

Things change. The only thing consistent is change. I am forcing myself to learn how to graciously accept the change.

Yes, I will continue to try. Yes, I will change what I can/must. Still, I will be good to me until the change comes.

Whatever your circumstances, beloveds, try not to allow disappointment to grow bitter walls within you. Stay open. Tear down your defensive walls.

Allow light to come in. Breathe joy in there.

Whatever you choose, be sure to take a bunch of love to disperse wherever you go.

asking for A Friend,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note:

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Things are NOT what they seem.

I’m taking a break for a few days. I’m relinquishing my need to control things I can NOT control.

The unknown does NOT have to be the terrifying place I have been making it, these last few weeks.

I have been seeing gloom and doom when neither of those things have been near.

I have been secretly prophesying my imminent demise, from my abode.

I have been seeing boogeymen in EVERY corner, when none have been close by.

Unknowingly, I was building a castle of fear. Realizing my error, I gave myself permission to step aside. I needed to regroup. I needed to catch hold of that which had caught hold of me.

I need to step back so I can keep the main thing THE main thing: Standing on FAITH. Standing ten toes down. Waiting PATIENTLY. Free from fear.

Why? Because, I am loved and I am NOT alone. Neither are you, beloveds.

I REFUSE to allow the fear of the unknown to run my right now. Right now, I am here. Right now, I am cared for. Right now, I am enjoying my place. Right now, I have a wonderfully tight relationship with God, a few family members and a couple of friends.

Right now, I have my health, such as it is. Right now, I am in my right mind. Right now, I have amazing life I am reimagining. All I have is right now.

Someone needs to KNOW that things are NOT as they appear. I wonder who has me up this late? Ah, God, we have need. Hear us. I speak also for those who don’t believe in You. Bless them also. Continue to love them also. Give us grace to hang in there. Ah, we are trying so hard not to be tired. We are a smidge on the exhausted side. Be there for us. Uplift every heart. Meet each need. Asking for many friends. Amen.


Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Things are NOT what they seem. Be encouraged.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

God, I’m tired.

God, I’m tired.

I’m tired of wondering.

I’m tired of waiting.

I’m tired of wishing.

I’m tired of Your Silence.

I’m tired of of ALWAYS having to keep my act right acting right.

I’m tired of fighting with/against fear.

I’m tired of watching the wicked prosper whilst the gentle/meek inherit hard times.

I’m tired, God. You tell us not to be weary in well doing as in due season we will reap if we faint not. I’m tired of wanting to faint and be weary but not being able to.

That said, I shall NEVER tire of You.

Your Friend,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Sometimes, it’s necessary to let friends know how you feel. Their response is up to them. Never be afraid to be honest with your true feelings. Too many folks are running around in pretend mode.

I AM tired. Doesn’t mean I am giving up. I have too many thangs to do. There is much too much love I have left to give.

My heart wanted to encourage folk. My spirit was tired. Initially, I sided with spirit. I turned off the phone. My heart asked what if there was someone who needed a bit of a boost? I sided with YOU. Be encouraged. Rest as needed.

Give yourself permission to be a tad weary. We are human. We can’t go 100 miles an hour all day. Rest, then keep looking UP. It can be hard to look up when all you see are storm clouds coming.



One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Mishmash II

My latest mishmash turned out to be hogwash! Bah humbug.

Instead of wasting a pound of ground beef and pasta, I decided to “reimagine” my mishmash.

I added a bit of this.

I tossed in a bit of that.

I let this and that simmer…

Presto!

Mishmash II. Tadah!

These days, beloveds, I feel as though ALL I am doing is concocting nothing but mishmash: A dash of this. A bit of that. Leaving nothing but a bunch of mishmash.

I want to be angry. I’m much too tired to be angry. I want to bargain with The Universe to let me go back to BEFORE.

Before, things got so hard.

Before, I became another person.

Before, I forgot what it’s like to feel safe.

We don’t get to go back, beloveds. We get to move FORWARD. Keep moving FORWARD. Don’t let the unknown scare you into looking back.

We can’t get THAT back. We can’t ever do THIS again. Yet, too often, we find ourselves wasting time chasing after THIS and THAT.

It’s time to move beyond THIS. It’s high time to seek higher than THAT.

I love talking about THIS and THAT. Only those who are truly trying will even understand what I am saying. Everyone else is wondering “What’s all THIS? What’s up with THAT?”…lol.

Don’t be discouraged/disappointed with your try, beloveds. You tried. You made mishmash out of the leftovers of your life. Most folk just complain about what they have been left with.

Celebrate your mishmash. Or, turn the mishmash into mishmash II!

asking for A Friend,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Stop giving yourself such a hard time. You are doing amazing. The results have not yet shown themselves to you. Be patient. In the meantime, help someone else. Cheer on others. Love someone. Starting with you.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Let them go: Headed in opposite directions.

I feel a pull.

I feel a tug.

From, my heart.

Towards, people.

Away, from people.

At the same time.

AT THE SAME TIME!!

My heart is trying to go one way. This way, is pulling me away from folks and into deep solitude to meditate, to write, to continue healing.

My heart also is trying to go the other way. Towards folks, to share all that I have been learning.

I want to tell folks to go away AND to come here, all at the same time.

Such an odd place to be.

God and Life wants to take me someplace where no one can go but me.

I am ready to go.

I have been longing to go.

Yet, I feel a bit lost.

Just a tad.

Lost as the older I get I want to get closer, not further away.

I hear Him tell me to let them go.

Let things go.

Let, expectations, go.

Let everything go that has been silently holding me back from…

*shrug*

The older I get, the less I expect from folks. Meaning, I am doing my best to release all the strings inadvertently placed on folks.

Yea,

YOU get to choose.

YOU get to choose:

WHO you will love.

THAT you will love.

That you WILL love him/her/them.

YOU get to choose:

To give.

To receive.

To share.

To withdraw.

To draw near.

To have.

To hold.

YOU get to choose:

To believe.

To deceive.

To teach.

To lead.

To be led.

To feed.

To be fed.

To starve.

To empathize.

To despise.

YOU get to choose.

What say you?

asking for A Friend,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Keep putting yourself out there, beloveds. Even when it hurts. I put myself out there, today. Empty was returned. It hurt. Terribly.

I rose. I hugged myself. I told my try not to become bitter. I reached out. Reach out said no. It happens. Life happened. Ow.

Yet, I smile. I am grateful. It was another opportunity to extend myself. I accept the outcome.

I am learning to enjoy the nectar of my try.

I am doing my best to not allow transactions to be in my try. I am trying. I am asking for what I need. I am giving what I have.

EVERYTHING has it’s reasons. We just don’t know what those reasons are. We may never get to know. I am trying to learn to be okay with that terribly cold fact.

Be encouraged. Your try matters. You matter. Keep on keeping on. Don’t be ashamed of your try. I love you. So does He.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Fear, ALL you have done is given me the ammunition to fight you with!

Fear, ALL you have done is given me the ammunition to fight you with!

I shall fight you with faith.

Hate, ALL you have done is given me the ammunition to fight you with!

I shall fight you with love.

Discouragement, ALL you have done is given me the ammunition to fight you with!

I shall fight you with effort.

Apathy, ALL you have done is given me the ammunition to fight you with!

I shall fight you with empathy.

Hardship, ALL you have done is given me the ammunition to fight you with!

I shall fight you with prayer.

Unbelief, ALL you have done is given me the ammunition to fight you with!

I shall fight you with God’s Word.

Beloveds, be encouraged. Use your hard as weapons in your hands. Fight back! Fight on! Fight!

We are NOT victims of our circumstances. We CHOOSE how to respond to EVERY circumstance.

I no longer see obstacles as mere obstacles. I see them as choices to be made. I see them as opportunities to expand my try. I see them as gifts that brings me new chances to strengthen my faith muscles.

Keep using ALL things for your good. You got this!

asking for A Friend,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note:

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

I don’t do easy. I do hard.

Quitting is easy.

Apathy is easy.

Giving in to anger is easy.

Allowing hate to fester is easy.

Turning your back on others is easy.

I do hard.

Loving hard headed folk is hard.

Empathising with folk who want to hate those who look like me is hard.

Reaching out is hard.

Giving voice to the voiceless is hard.

Loving the majority, even while the majority has chosen to allow hate towards those who look like me.

I don’t do easy. I do hard. What do you do?

asking for A Friend,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: The world is what WE make it. I’m doing what I can with my corner.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!