Category: Writing

Fear does NOT have to keep being your dance partner!

When did I stop being afraid, beloveds?

When I realized, I was reaching for fear every time I wondered how the bills would get paid.

When I realized, I was reaching for fear every time, I ordered groceries, wondering how the bills would get paid.

When I realized, I was reaching for fear every time, I worked on a video or wrote a piece, wondering how the bills would get paid.

When I realized, I was reaching for fear every time, I daydreamed about my future, wondering how the bills would get paid.

I was tired of dancing with fear. I got a new dance partner…

*Cassandra curtsies then asks  God to dance with her for the rest of her days*

Life is what we make it. We make it wonderful or difficult depending on what we tell ourselves, on who we ask to dance.

Dance with love. Dance with joy. Dance with abundance. Dance with integrity. Dance with humor.

Above all, dance!

asking for A Friend,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: We got this.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

I HAD to share this video.

I HAD to share this video. I ask that you give it a chance. I almost did not and it would have been a disservice to me.

It touched me. It moved me. Parts of it made me incredibly sad knowing what some are being taught, have been taught, believe to their core.

We are all more alike than we are different. We all want love. We all want to be loved. We all want to be safe. We all want to work and provide for our families. We all want to laugh. We all want to have enough to eat. We all want to enjoy the resources The Universe meant for all.

I have been doing a ton of internal work. On ME. On MY biases. On MY choices. On MY fears. On MY sometimes unwillingness to forgive those who have meant me harm.

It feels really good shedding myself of strings tied to an unwillingness to look inward, to look outward, to look upward.

Be encouraged. This video really did give me hope. It was a tough watch, at times, but so necessary.

We are all better than we have previously shown one another. No lecture here. I am speaking to my own heart. I hope yours can be willing to LISTEN. I’m glad I did.

Have an amazing rest of your day. I love me some you.

asking for A Friend,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: I know I run the risk of scaring off some. I can live with that. We now return to our regularly scheduled content/program. Don’t run. We have to be able to talk with one another, to share tough truths together, don’t we, beloveds? Don’t run. Asking for A Friend.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

It’s okay.

It’s okay to feel like an idiot.

It’s okay to BE an idiot.

I just stopped by to encourage someone to stop being so hard on yourself.

We all make mistakes. Sometimes, we make super public dumbskies. Like posting half finished pieces. Egads!

In the past, I would have been mortified. Today, I laughed at my mistakes.

I made a mistake whilst trying to make heart connections. How can I be angry at THAT?

You tried. You made a mistake. So what? Mistakes comes with the territory. They are NOT an indication of things to come.

They are NOT a barometer of life’s coming attractions.

Fix it. Mitigate it. Move on from it. Periodt. We got too many thangs to do!

doing thangs in the midst of dumb,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Laugh. Enjoy the journey. Especially the dumb parts. 😳🤣😎🤗🙏😁

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

The ONE phrase that changed my life forever!

These have been some terribly disconcerting days. I have found myself:

Excited.

Anticipatory.

Ecstatic.

Disappointed.

Discouraged.

Disheartened.

Plus every other emotion in the book as I work to make my dreams walk in broad daylight.

They are in their infancy. They demand ALL my attention. They won’t be satisfied. Ack.

Please enjoy ‘It Takes As Long As It Takes’. It encouraged me. It is taking as long as it takes…*sigh*.

Still, I am putting myself out there.

I must admit, beloveds, I have had to do real work in reminding myself that my value has NOTHING to do with the lack of views.

I just HAD to hideaway this weekend. I posted. I encouraged. Mostly, though, I gave my heart permission to just miss connections.

Mom as been gone going on nine years. I miss her so. I miss her telling me that everything WILL be alright.

I have allowed myself to miss her. It DOES help, beloveds, ALLOWING yourself the space to heal, to rest, to do or not do, for a time.

This is your life. It’s not a race. It takes as long as it takes…lol.

I thank you. For stopping by. I pray for every follower. I pray for the hidden readers. I pray for the skeptics.

Right now, we are all being told not to care. We are told nobody cares. We are dismissed.

I choose love. I choose to believe in you.

Be encouraged. You CAN. You WILL.

asking for A Friend,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note:

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Well, cracker jacks!😳

Forgive me, beloveds.

Like a dope, I inadvertently posted two pieces half done. The story of my life this year.

Apologies. The heat has been unbelievable and has fried my brain pan. Oops.

I shall try again, of a morrow.

feeling like a moron,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Smh. It’s a good thing I am  NOT my mistakes, eh? Neither are you, yours…

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Let The Universe make you a mixed tape. 😎💯

I am currently jamming to a ‘My Mix’ selection my YouTube Premium has made for me.

It’s full of old songs I love mixed in FANTASTIC songs I have never heard of!

I was hesitant to allow this. I didn’t want no stupid YouTube selecting for me. How did it know what I would enjoy? It didn’t. It wouldn’t  beloveds, until I got over my fear of new things so I could enjoy and discover, well, new things.🥰😂

To my astonishment and delight, I found the mixes fantastic!!!

So often, we don’t try new things because we are:

Set in our ways.

Used to old ways.

Afraid the new will be a detriment.

Concerned the new will displace the old.

Worried we should not try THAT.

Fearful of being judged for trying/doing THAT.

Truth be told, beloveds, we need to being a whole like more of those THATs that God/Life/The Universe have been trying to get us to experience.

I have found I have enjoyed many THATs that I had initially thought would be hard, boring, concerning,  or a million other ‘ings that never happened. Smh.

I’m learning to trust God’s Mixed Tapes He fashions for my life. He KNOWS me. He knows what I would enjoy. He knows what concerns me. He wants the best for my life.

So do I. I am learning to be more open to experience new things, new opportunities, new relationships.

Yes, there are pitfalls and things we have to account for. Still, the entirety of the world is not a pitfall.

Life is a joy.  Life comes with potholes. So what? That’s why we have a brain and body to maneuver around and fix them! 😎😂

asking for A Friend,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note:

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Try another way.

I’m trying something new. It’s not working. Instead of getting frustrated, I went back to working on some pieces.

Don’t let frustrations with not knowing keep you from trying things. Keep trying. You will get it. Eventually.

In the meantime, continue to enjoy the journey. Instead of allowing myself to get frustrated, I switched to what I knew until I could learn the other. That way I could still enjoy my day.

Be encouraged. You WILL get it. So will I.

asking for A Friend,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note:

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

The things I NEED to know, in order to do what I need to do, I don’t know how to do…yet.

Yet.

Yet!

YET!!!!

OMG!!!!

The thing I need to DO, so I can make what I want, I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO DO YET!!!!!

I am pressing this, selecting that, trying the other.

ALL I have managed to do, beloveds, is spend three or four hours doing things wrong.

I keep telling myself to be patient. I keep fighting the urge to want to fling open the front door and hence my laptop over the balcony!!…*stamps foot*…*pout*.

Instead I have been:

Taking deep breaths.

Counting to 10.

Recounting to 10.

Telling myself to keep on counting to 10 so as not to snatch OPEN THE FRONT DOOR AND HEAVE MY LAPTOP OVER THE RAILING!!!!!!!!

Whew, it’s either laugh, cry, or toss my laptop over the railing.

I chose to laugh. I have taken a short break so I can listen to upbeat music to save my laptop from taking a beating.

The old me would have quit, angry, hours ago. The resolved me keeps reminding the old me that learning NEW things takes time. A lot of it, apparently.  Whew!

Things will come. I am following my heart. Finally. Ah, God, this feels good. Even the aggravating parts.

The things I NEED to know, in order to do what I need to do, I don’t know how to do…yet.

I’m waiting for yet to catch up with me!😤💯🥰🫶

waiting for yet,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Be encouraged, beloveds. Change takes time. Learning takes time. Be sure to carry enough joy and laughter with you to get through the aggravation. 😎

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Remember.

Remember when.

Remember all you’ve done.

Remember when you did.

Remember how much you gave.

Remember how much it cost you.

Then, NEVER give up on you  on your dreams, on your future, on your hopes for mankind.

Remember, beloveds.

Chaos wants you to think it has always and always will be here. It hasn’t. It won’t. It shan’t. It mustn’t. It can’t.

WE decide how long we will allow chaos inside us, around us, between us.

I choose to remember a time where most of us cared about all of us. We can return to that time. In the meantime, I am BEING that time/person/safe space.

How about you?

asking for A Friend,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Remember…

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

I wish…

I wanted to pick up my dream toys and go home. I still want to. This is what I texted my sis:

Am pretty discouraged. I did the last thing to do when launching by sending link out instead of waiting for the algorithm to suggest and send out my video.

YouTube sends to small sample of my subscribers and if they watch, they send to more folk etc. The problem is not the first video but no one watched the second onward so YouTube is not pushing them out.  I could kick myself.

Terribly disappointed only the six folk watched. I appreciate the ones who did. 

I know fam and friends typically do not rush to their folks channel. I could kick myself. I was super proud of accomplishing a goal of many years. I wasn’t thinking about folk living their lives. 

I wish I wasn’t a creative person. I wish I didn’t care so much. I wish what I did paid the bills. I wish…

I decided to stop round and tell someone to hang in there. I started with me.

Be encouraged.

asking for A Friend,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Dreams can kick rocks today…

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!