So be it.

Reality: You will NEVER get there by standing on your faith. Can’t you SEE?

Me: So be it.

Fear: You will NEVER get there. You are too old. No one will go with you, anyway.

Me: So be it.

Doubt: You will NEVER do the things you have been wanting to do. Look at you. It has been forever and you are in the same place.

Me: So be it.

Faith: Beloved, your lot may NOT be to enter. You may be asked only to hold the πŸšͺ door for others.

Me: So be it.

Life: I may never show you how or where.

Me: So be it.

The Universe: You may never find that which you seek so desperately.

Me: So be it.

God: All you gain, I may ask you to give to another.

Me: Do You promise to be with me?

God: Always.

Me: So be it. You ARE.

God: What?

Me: Everything. Everything I need. Let’s go tell some folk they are loved and not alone.

God: So be it.

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Your life matters, beloveds. It does. That I could take away all that troubles you. I can’t. I can hope for you. I do. I can pray for you. I will. I can laugh with you. I shall.

Life is short. Get out there and live. Don’t let what troubles you to trouble you too much. You can still find joy in your day.

If life hurts just now, that’s okay. Things do heal. So shall you. If you have given your all, let your all be enough. Wait. Patiently.

Builders spent ALL yesterday pounding on the roof. Each blow is a reminder of what caused the damage. Each blow, a promise the roof IS being repaired. Each blow, restoring what was nearly destroyed.

Be patient. With you. Be patient. With your circumstances. Be patient. With those in your life. Be patient if you are currently alone.

If reality shows up to remind you of all you are going through and yet to experience…*shrug*…

So be it.

In case no one has told you today: I love you. So does He.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Choose your dreams not your fears, beloveds.

It’s time, beloveds.

Time to choose your dreams over your fears.

Time to choose to reach out for love instead of shrinking in fear.

Time to start something new instead of choosing to power in fear.

Can you see the theme, beloveds?

Fear.

Fear!

FEAR!!

Fear keeps us blinded. Fear keeps us paralyzed. Fear keeps us from moving in ANY direction.

Face your fears.

Acknowledge your fears.

Dismantle and tackle your fears.

Everyday if you must.

Rinse and repeat, as necessary.

It has been surprising how many places I have been finding fear hiding. I am doing my level best to meet and defeat them head on.

I am finding honesty has been the fastest way of getting fear out. Honesty with me. Honesty with family and friends. Honesty with God, especially.

The other day I yelled at God. I want to holler:

“What’s the purpose of having You in my life if you can’t/won’t help me to fulfill my purpose NNOOOWWWWW!!?😑πŸ₯ŠπŸ«ΈπŸŽ€

That said, getting this fear out of my actions and my inactions IS helping me to fulfill my TRUE purpose.

I wish I could get there faster. I am trying to be okay with this intermittent movement.

Until then, I fight. My fears. My frustrations. My anger. I don’t have time to indulge those things.

I CHOOSE my dreams over my fears.

How about you?

asking for A Friend,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Your dreams matter. Hold tight to them. In the meantime, beloveds, do something EVERY DAY that will take you one step further to seeing your dreams fulfilled. You got this.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

God, I’m over it!

Me: I’m over it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!

God: You rang. What’s up.

Me: I’M OVER IT ALREADY!!!!!!!!!!

God: Over what, beloved?

Me: I’m over Your Silence! Your Silence can kick rocks!!!!

God: What else?

Me: I’m over this heat!!!! It’s toooooooooooooooo damned hot already!!!!!

God: What else?

Me: I’m over Your Forever Optimism. “Keep going, Cassandra”. Enough already with that, God!!

God: What else?

Me: I’m over waiting PATIENTLY! I’m over waiting, PERIODTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!! Ack!!! OMG!!!

God: What else?

Me: I’m over being alone. I’m sooooooooooooooooooooo over struggling, financially, alone. I’m ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooover it, God, and almost over You!!!!!

God: What else?

Me: I’m over fighting with the same damned mountains every blasted day. Enough!!!!!!

God: What else?

Me: I’m over….hmmm. I’m over, giving up on myself, when things get hot and hard. I’m over, doubting You, when things are hot and hard. I’m over, beating myself up, when things get hot and hard. I’m over, running away, when things are hot and hard.

God: What will you do?

Me: Get over myself…..hahahahahahahahahahahahaha!!

God: Great choice. Hang in there.

Me: How about some coffee?

God: K.

Me: LOL.

This heat is relentless. So much so I would like to just say to hell with everything. I dare not. This time will pass. It’s just so hard getting through it.

It stormed really bad earlier. The storm reminded me of the tornado. I found myself crying and afraid. Crap! I’m tired of feeling afraid. That made myself get up to make a cup of coffee. I decided to reach out and let folks know things will be okay. The only way to get through these hard times is to just get through these hard times.

Don’t let the heat keep you down. Don’t let the heat sap you from your will to keep trying. I want to withdraw from the hard. I want to seek the familiar. I want to hang out with the comfortable. I dare not. I can not. I must not. I will not.

I decided to start my me time early. Want to join me? I’m having coffee and chicken strips. Don’t judge….lol.

Hang in there, beloveds. Everything really will work out okay. Remember that it is okay to NOT be okay until you are okay again. Okay?

I have given myself permission to not be okay today and to simply rest. I have been doing my utmost to be of service. I find myself in need of some service. Ah, God, we could use a refill!

asking for all my friends,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: You can do it. You can. Times are super hard for so many folk, right now. It’s super easy to give into dismay and despair. We can’t afford to. I shall be encouraged for folk who are just too damned hot, tired and hurting to give two flying flips about being about it and keeping it moving.

In case no one has told you today: I love you. So does He.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

You are worth it.

You are worth it.

You are worthy.

You are worthwhile.

Nuff said.

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Beloveds, You are worth more than you give yourself credit for. You are worth the time. You are worth the effort. You are worth the inconvenience.

Stop seeing yourself in your concerns as burdens. Your concerns and worries are just as important as everyone else’s.

You are worth the time it takes to get to know. You are worth the effort it takes. You are worth every second of try.

Look up. You have nothing to be ashamed of. Be proud of who you are. God is. The folks who truly care about you are as well.

I just stopped by to tell you that you are worth it. You are. Is letting you know for A Friend. Be encouraged. Be sure to laugh today. Be sure to love someone today. Starting with you…

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

More than meets the eye.

There is more to me. More than meets the eye.

There is more to you, beloveds. More than meets the eye.

Too often, we judge ourselves by what we are currently are doing or not doing.

Financially, I can’t do right now. So, I have little. It has been difficult to not feel as low as my current bank account numbers.

We are always pushed to seek more, to have more, to do more. Why? So, we can give the pushers all we have gained! For THEM.

Don’t get it twisted, beloveds. Most folk are NOT in your corner for you. They are there to find out how to get what you have. To garner your network and your influence. This is the way of the world.

God loves us simply because we are worthy of and to be loved. Simple as that. This is one of the millions of reasons why I love Him so.

Don’t worry. I’m not about to go on a spiritual rant. I’m just letting it be known that we were and are NOT here, on this earth, to be the exclusive Kleenex for the world.

We are NOT here just to be used up and tossed out when our use has been fulfilled.

I am more. So are you. We are millions of things all at once.

I am trying my utmost to just BE. Just rest. Yes, there will be time to DO. Even then, I must realize I am so very much more than what I do.

I wish I knew how to express myself better. I fond myself questioning my talent because it’s not making me money. I don’t write for money. I need money to live. Therefore, I am going to have to learn how to make money from these dumb words of mine. Crap.

In the meantime, yall get me for free.πŸ˜‚πŸ₯°

Be encouraged, beloveds. You are so much more than meets the eye. I love you.

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Nuff said. Love YOU, beloveds. Asking for A Friend.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

No going back.

No going back.

Just because you are afraid.

No going back.

Just because the way is unfamiliar.

No going back.

Just because the road is lonely.

No going back.

Just because everything has changed.

No going back. Is asking for friend.

Me: K.

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Yesterday, I wanted to go back. Back to the known. Back to the familiar. There, I would be safe in my cocoon of comfort. There,Β  I wouldn’t have to challenge my faith. There, I wouldn’t have to do uncomfortable things. There, I could hide in excuses.

I did the hard thing. I kept moving forward. Uncertain of next steps. Unaware of what to do next.

These have been some scary days. They have also been some fun days. There has been some really shaky moments.

I told myself no matter what happens, I refuse to live my life based off of fear. I’m going to try and just see what happens.

Be encouraged. There is no going back. We have things to do. Keep pushing forward. Rest when you need to. Never let it be okay to give up on yourself. You can do this. You really can.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Stop.

Stop.

Questioning yourself.

Stop.

Second guessing yourself.

Stop.

Doubting yourself.

Stop.

Belittling yourself.

Stop.

Silencing yourself.

Stop.

Dismissing yourself.

Stop it, beloveds.

Your life matters.

Your beliefs matter.

Your choices matter.

Your dreams matter.

YOU matter.

Beloveds, it matters not that haters hate what you stand for. Your love, your truth, your integrity, your resilience, your try, your loyalty is terribly annoying to those who don’t have the courage to live as you do.

Beloveds, you are amazing! You keep trying. You keep loving. You keep believing in the face of all you have gone through.

Be encouraged. Stop giving yourself such a hard time.

asking for A Friend,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: WordPress has been a pain and publishing things at odd times. I can’t figure out how to do things. I can’t articulate what I want to say as this heatwave has melted my brain.

Still, I have promised myself I would keep reaching out. Someone, somewhere needs to know they are cared about. Earlier, I was thinking how amazing it would be to receive a ‘just cuz’ email or text or call. Just cuz someone was thinking about me. Ah, I dream…πŸ₯°πŸ™β˜•οΈπŸ€—

Have an amazing weekend. I am going to try and leave writing alone but my encouraged will not shut up and leave me alone. You are just too important. Please hang in the

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Repeat after me.

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Trying my hand at encouraging folk in as many ways as I can. I have NO idea what I am doing.πŸ€·β€β™€οΈπŸ˜‚β€οΈ

Be encouraged.

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Make your mark. Your way. Best you can. Don’t wait until things are perfect. Just try…

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Why do you?

Why do you?

Why did you do what you did?

Did it make you happy?

Who did you do it for?

Did it make them happy?

Are you happy with what you did?

Do you regret doing the do?

Will you do it again?

asking for A Friend,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: It’s important to know WHY we do what we do. Why? Otherwise, we can find ourselves being led by the Do’s and Don’ts of others. Life is much too short for that, beloveds.

I find myself wanting to know why. Why? I’m fixing to find out…

In case no one has told you today: I love you. So does He.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Can you be trusted?

Can you be trusted?

With God’s Silence?

Can you be trusted?

With God’s Grace?

Can you be trusted?

With God’s Favor?

Can you be trusted?

With Life’s Disappointment(s)?

Can you be trusted?

With Life’s Nos?

Can you be trusted?

With Life’s Hard?

Can you be trusted?

With The Universe’s ghosting?

Can you be trusted?

With The Universe’s seeming laughter at your expense?

Can you be trusted?

With The Universe’s refusal to move on your why for no earthly reason why?

Anyone can say yes when the belly and bank accounts are full. Most can say yes when they have a friend or two they can call. Plenty can say yes when lying next to still waters.

Only those who have been tested in the fire can truly say yes to these things. If you find you can’t say yes, don’t despair. Hard shall whip you into shape quick, fast and in a hurry!πŸ₯°πŸ˜‚β€οΈβ€πŸ©ΉπŸ₯°βš’️

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Hang in there, beloveds. This too shall pass. I have never been more discouraged than I was last night. I cried. I was angry with myself. I chewed myself out for being 55 and burnt out. Smh.

Then, I fought the night. Me and the dawn won. I rose. Again. I washed the dishes. I made coffee. I told myself the TRUTH: I CAN. I WILL.

Be encouraged. Things really will be okay. Until then, enjoy your day. Mitigate what you can. Give God the rest. Then get some rest of mind, soul and spirit. Asking for A Friend…

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!