Tag: self-improvement

Disappointed but not a disappointment.

Ah, crap.

Ah, God.

Fresh hell!

I finally, FINALLY, got a legitimate job inquiry. I had to do an initial assessment. Then, had to do an A1 assessment, in hopes of getting in front of a live person, initially via phone.

To my dismay, I appear to have picked up a stomach bug or eaten something that had me running to the bathroom ALL day….geeeeez.

I need to complete my assessment.

I didn’t feel well. I shouldn’t have taken the assessment when I did. I wanted to get it over with.

I got it over with. It didn’t go well, or so I thought. I was filled with such disappointment. Could I take me a full year to get a legitimate chance to take an assessment.

I felt like a failure. I felt like a big fat zero. I didn’t feel like a hero. I didn’t feel as if I would ever win again. I felt like a loser.

I picked up my chin from the floor and began again. I applied to dozens more jobs. I was asked to take another assessment. Crap.

A week later. I will see. The congratulatory email advised me. I have passed the assessment. I thought I had failed. I was told to move on to the next assessment. This time fear went with me.

I hesitated to start the assessment. I did not want to fail. I did not want to experience yet another disappointment. They were just too damn disappointing.

I found the courage to try. I took the assessments. Now I wait. I’m satisfied. I did the best that way. That’s all I can ask for myself.

Don’t allow your disappointment to let you quit. Quitting cannot be an option. I had to tell myself to get up. I had to tell myself to keep looking up. I had to tell myself to keep moving forward.

What we experience in life is what we choose. I choose to keep believing in my try. I choose to keep believing in me. Action used to keep believing in the goodness of man. I choose to keep believing in love.

Life hurts sometimes. It’s also worth living. I just stopped by to encourage somebody. Starting with me. Be encouraged.

asking for A Friend,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Quitting can never be our option. We have much too much to do. Let’s go.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Yay!😎

Yay!😎

Received an invite for Job hiring event for the position I applied for. Have an interview for next week.

Yay!

😁💃🏽

Yippppeeeeeee!,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Whew. A long time coming. A step in the right direction. Will be good practice no matter the outcome. Still waiting on the other company.

I have learned that all this hard has never been about a job. It has been about learning to LIVE, with JOY, through, in the midst, despite, in spite of hard times.

Life is ALWAYS going to life. What we DO with our lives, whilst life is lifing, is the key to everything.

Be encouraged. Have an amazing weekend. I have given myself today off from job searching. I will get back after it come Monday.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Sometimes you just have to laugh.

I wanted to upload some motivational videos to Youtube. I checked my stats.

I laughed out loud. Two of the videos got one like a piece. Three of them. got nothing.

The two likes may have been 2 million. My needle in a haystack was seen.

I find myself fighting with wanting to delete my channel. I keep asking myself, who cares? The answer is me.

Life is testing me. My dreams are testing me. I don’t know that I will pass. I know I will keep trying until the end. Crap.

wondering why,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: I find that my tribe is awfully strong lately. It’s a good thing because I feel entirely weak today. I don’t feel as if I could pick up a pebble, let alone move mountains. My try says this mountain is nothing but a pebble. I’m trying to listen to my try.

Sometimes you just have to laugh. Keep on going. You will get farther than you know. None of us know we are steps will take us in life. We just have to go. We just have to take the steps. We just have to keep on trying. Keep trying.


One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Don’t give up on you.

Don’t give up on you.

I was done, beloveds. I mean DONE. Finite. Finished. This is what I texted my big bro:

I think I am done with blogging and my channels. It’s obvious my voice is not needed. Am tired. Of putting my all and getting nothing but silence. Am going to focus on finding a job and paying bills. At 56, I am not weary in well doing. Just tired.

My try woke up, got made, and said “Hell to the naw!#$%#@”.

I texted my big bro again:

My try won’t let me quit. Crap. Fixing to go encourage someone. Starting with me.

Don’t give up. Not just yet. We have things to do.

asking for A Friend,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: This last year has been so exhausting. I’m tired. It’s not that I am not hopeful, I’m just tired of traveling this same mountain over and over. Wife is asking me to do this. I have to keep going. So do you.

Don’t let the hard cause you to quit. Even if you quit, you will still be left with the tired. To rest if you must. Don’t you quit.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Fight back.

When life is being unfair.

Fight back.

When Lonely won’t leave you alone.

Fight back.

When despair comes crashing in.

Fight back.

When all seems lost.

Fight back.

When you can’t see your way out.

Fight back.

There are times in your life when you have to give it all that you have. Times when it feels like the entirety of the little against you. This is when you must fight the hardest.

Life is not always fair. There’s no getting around that fact. Still, we have to do everything that we can to keep it moving. We have to. We must. Quitting is not an option.

I just stopped by to encourage somebody. Starting with me.

Hang in there. Sometimes we just need somebody to tell us to hang in. So I’m telling you.

asking for A Friend,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: I received some upsetting news this morning. What did I do? I turned on my praise music. I’m about to make some coffee. I’m going to do the best that I can to make things work. Life is much too short.

I just want to encourage somebody who’s dealing with especially tough news right now. You will make it through this time. You will. So will I.

In the meantime, it’s imperative that you fight with everything that is within you. You can’t afford to give up now. You can’t afford to give up the ground it took you all this time to obtain.

Put your pride to the side and fight. Put your anger to the side and fight. You can do it.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

I got up today.

I got up today.

I tried.

I fought.

I lost some.

I won just a bit.

Ah.

Aha!

I’ll be back tomorrow.

satisfied with my try,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Sometimes, you just gotta get up!

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Just get up.

Just get up.

Just get up and try.

Just get up and live with intention.

Just get up and love.

Just get up and give your all.

Just get up and do your why.

Just get up and give yourself permission to fail.

Just get up and give yourself permission to win.

Just get up and give yourself permission to be hopeful and joyful.

Just get up and promise yourself you’ll keep going no matter what.

Just get up and go, even if you must go alone.

Just get up and seize every moment of the day.

Just get up and make the most out of every moment.

Just get up.

asking for A Friend,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Okay, so you’re supposed to be getting up and getting after it….lol

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Not just yet.

Don’t give up.

Not just yet.

Don’t give in.

Not just yet.

Don’t walk away.

Not just yet.

Keep walking. Keep going. Keep striving. Keep trying.

Your efforts are not in vain. Your efforts will bear free. You just have to keep trying. You just have to keep going. You just have to keep growing. Don’t give up on you.

Not just yet.

asking for A Friend,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Don’t give in. Not just yet.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

I refuse to give up on me.

I refuse to give up on me.

I refuse to give up on my dreams.

I refuse to give up.

Nuff said.
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: I have been saying that a lot lately. Quitting is not an option.

I turned on my motivational videos. I made some coffee. I did some voiceovers encouraging people not to give up. I didn’t plan on doing that today.

Truth be told, I was going to allow sad to continue to have its way. Good habits was tired of this. Good habits knew we have things to do. Good habits got up and made the coffee. I got the hint.

I’m about to upload more videos to Youtube. I’m about to put out some more needles in the haystack. I’m about to put myself out there to be ghosted.

I don’t know why, but today I am determined by that. I am hopeful by that. I am joyful by that. I don’t know why. Sad should still be sad.

My circumstances have not changed. Still, encouraging others encourages me. I think I shall see what trouble I can get into!

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

What do you do when…?

What do you do when…

You don’t know what to do?

What do you do when…

You don’t know what to say?

What do you do when…

You don’t know where to turn?

What do you do when…

You don’t know how to feel?

What do you do when…

You don’t know which way to go?

What do you do when…

There is nothing left to be said?

What do you do when…

You have been left alone?

What do you do when…

Your faith has been shaken?

What do you do when…

When you have been betrayed?

What do you do when…

You have been left behind?

You live, of course, beloveds?!

Life is going to life. Periodt! The question is:

What are you going to do when…?

asking for A Friend,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Keep going. Keep moving FORWARD. Keep looking UP!

Life truly is what WE make it. I have had to scrape my way out of the pitifuls. I miss mom. I miss working. I miss being financially independent. I miss my friend who moved away.

So what?! What am I going to DO during these times? In real time? Right now?

What did I do? I got up. I made a cup of coffee. I’m preparing to make another motivating video or two.

Be encouraged, beloveds. Keep going. Even when it’s hard. Especially, when it’s hard.

I’m learning to enjoy me at ALL times. Yall do the same.

In case no one has told you today: I love you. So does He. 🥰🤗❤😎

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!