Perseverance: I want to quit. So what?

I want to quit.

So what?

I’m TIRED, of reaching out, only to hear silence, only.

So what?

I’m EXHAUSTED, from trying to exhaust every option.

I started this piece, days ago. I quit on it, days ago…lol.

Actually, was saving it to finish up, today. I needed a break.

In fact, I put the brakes on my try, for a bit.

It’s important, beloveds, to take the time to get off the world, and rest, just a bit.

I rested. Restlessly. I told myself I got thangs to do! Still, my heart demanded that I be still. It can be soooooooooooooooo hard, to not use effort, to get what I want and need. Yes, it takes full effort and try but the TRY is the point. The outcome, is not up to me. ALL I can and must do is to try and wait, patiently, for the outcome to live and move and have it’s being.

I am watching the third round of The Tour Championship. The first two days, folks were making birdies every where. Today, they are all pressing, stressing, and shooting their way OUT of winning. Pressure can and will do that, won’t it?

I am learning, to not put pressure on the outcome. I am learning to just ask, try, work and be all I can be and leave the rest to God, to Life, to The Universe, to fam, to friends, to my job, to my community, to respond in whatever way They/they need to. Takes the pressure off Them/them, off me, off TRY.

Leaving peace, in place of, stress.

Leaving joy, in place of, try.

Leaving hope, in place of, doubt.

Leaving laughter, in place of, tears.

I want to quit.

So what?

I CHOOSE.

Keep going, beloveds.

Take your feels with you, if need be

going/growing with you,

Cassandra

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Remember:

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU.

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