Month: December 2023

I belong.

I belong.

Here.

Now.

Here and now.

I belong.

In this place.

In this space.

In this hard.

In this hard place and space.

I belong.

Because of.

In spite of.

Despite.

I belong.

Joyfully.

Hopefully.

Knowingly.

I belong.

Ah.

Aha!

belonging,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Isn’t it nice to KNOW where you belong? Be encouraged. This too shall pass…

Finally!: God asked me if I was enough.

God: Are you enough?

Me: I don’t know.

God: ARE you enough?

Me: I think so.

God: Are YOU enough?

Me: I believe so.

God: Are you ENOUGH?

Me: I hope so.

God: You are enough.

Me: I know so.

God: How do you KNOW?

Me: Because You loved me first. You love me still. You loved me enough. I learned how to love me enough.

God: Ah.

Me: Aha!

more than enough,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Fighting through my fear was just an exercise in faith. Fear can NOT abide, stand or defeat faith. What does faith have to do with love and. KNOWING we are enough without having to be or do or have? Great question! You are getting closer. Keep asking.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU

Fear: An old foe/friend came to visit.

I’m afraid.

Will admit this off top.

I have done my best to not get down on myself. Much.

I have allowed myself to FEEL this terribly terrifyingly mystifying fear.

For days. Until. Ah! Until had to show up.

Until:

I realized I was listening to a bunch of lies.

Why?

Because I was, I AM doubting ME. Not so much my circumstances but my ability to overcome them.

Ah.

I tell myself I am too old.

I tell myself it will never happen for me.

I tell myself your posse will never show up for you.

Today, I arose and told lies and fear to shut the hell up and to take the hell with them.

At that time, fear became my friend. A reminder that I CAN. That I WILL. That I am loved. That I am NOT alone!

Ha!

I choose.

Hhmm.

God and Life are super smart. They know fear will drive you to THE one thing it can never defeat or stand upon.

Huh? You haven’t figured out what THE 🗝 key is to defeating fear?

Your heart is screaming the answer, beloveds. I shall reveal tomorrow, maybe, if you come calling. It’s the one Aha! you really need to discover for yourself. It will mean more.

If your current circumstances have you doubting, down and afraid…*shrug*

It’s okay. That fear, that foe, will soon turn into your friend. It will cause you to fight for you and will teach you many lessons.

In the meantime, KNOW:

You CAN.

You WILL.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU

standing,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Be encouraged. We got this.

Fear not, beloveds.

Fear not, beloveds.

When things seem bleak.

Fear not, beloveds.

When things appear dire.

Fear not, beloveds.

When life looks to be unfriendly just now.

Fear not, beloveds.

When you find yourself alone among many.

Fear not, beloveds.

When you doubt in your strength, in your worth.

Fear not, beloveds.

When you feel worthless and nothing seems to be worthwhile.

Fear not, beloveds.

When giving your all just isn’t enough.

Fear not, beloveds.

When you don’t have enough.

Fear not, beloveds.

When your try is too tired to try yet and still again.

Fear not, beloveds.

When you don’t know what to say or do.

Fear not, beloveds.

When your doubts have grown bigger than your dreams.

Fear not, beloveds.

Why not?

Because, beloveds, your fear has driven you to the ONE thing fear can NEVER penetrate.

Ah.

Aha!

Keep asking.

Keep going.

Keep growing.

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: You didn’t think I would actually give you the answer to the pop quiz did you, beloveds? What would be the fun in that? Your fear has been driving you a long time. Your fear(s) introduced you to me, in the first place. Why do you image The Universe has brought you here? Ah. Aha! Keep asking…

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being… YOU

I told the boogeyman to shut up.

The boogeyman has been loud lately. Scaring me half to death about:

Bills.

My age.

Bills.

My age.

Bills.

Shut up!

*Cassandra tells fear to shut up and keeps it moving.*

keeping it moving,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Tell fear to kick 🥊 rocks. Keep going…

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being… YOU

The camel 🐫 told God “That’s cold”.

That’s cold!

🐫😳

*Cassandra looked at the LAST straw and shakes her head*

Me: This is NOT fair.

God: I know. That’s life.

Me: This is NOT fair!

Life: I know. There are as many reasons for me as the countless galaxies.

Me: This is NOT FAIR!!

The Universe. I know. Life is currently being life in your life, just now.

Me: That’s cold.

🐫: Tell me about it.

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Keep going. I know. That’s cold…

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being… YOU

Ewww: I told God yech!

Twin and I were arguing.

Er, talking intelligently about coffee creamer. She likes hazelnut.

Ew, yech AND gross.

Forever and a day I have been drinking plain old plain Coffeemate. No thrills. No extra. Just extra boring. I am in a boring sort of mind, coffee wise.

Why I let her talk me into getting some Frech Vanilla is beeyyyyyooonnnd me. Dumbness, I suppose.

Long story short…smh.

I buy said French Vanilla.

I drink aforementioned French Vanilla. Smh.

Ew, yech AND gross!

A nice lesson and following your own mind.

Lately god has been asking me to do things that have been ew and yech. What do I do?

I do the Thing and tell Him ew and yech.

We are not always going to like the things we are asked to do. So what?

It’s important to be true to yourself and be honest. If you don’t feel like doing something don’t do it. If you don’t feel like trying something don’t try it.

If God asked you to do something for Him, such as forgiving your neighbor when you would rather tell him to go move to Mr. Roger’s Neighborhood…lol.

Or, take the high road…

Or, share the lemon squares…

It’s perfectly okay to be honest to say ew and yech. God understands. He sees the bigger picture. You will eventually.

I don’t enjoy the hardness of my job at the moment. I enjoy my job through the current hard. Eventually, the hard will be routine.

Until then, I go to work and say ew.😳🤣

Life is short. Enjoy it when Life and God tosses a bit of ew and yech into your life. It’s called eating your vegetables. 🤣

eating my vegetables,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Okay, beloveds, do NOT tell sis but the French Vanilla was fantastic when I added a bitmore water to my coffee. Sometimes, we have to be willing to experiment and try things a new way.

In case somebody told you today. I love you. You are loved, and you are not alone.

I told God I was tired of making lemonade.

I told God I was tired of making lemonade from all these STUPID lemons life has been handing Mr allllllllllllll year!!

What did God do?

He helped me make lemon squares. We are fixing to have them with coffee. Care to join us?

Nuff said.

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: When life hands you lemons and you are TIRED of the hard? Keep going. Make the most of the hard.

Be encouraged. The fun will be in the living of our dream. In the meantime, enjoy the preparation. Ah, the lemon squares are smelling fantastic! We have made enough for all. I love you, beloveds. Love you. Asking for A Friend.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being… YOU

It always was.

It always was my choice to love.

It always was my choice to stay.

It always was my choice to try.

It always was my choice to dream.

It always was my choice to live.

It always was my choice.

It always was.

It always will be.

Life happens.

Storms happen.

Loss happens.

It’s not what happens to us, beloveds, that changes the game.

It’s what happens in us, through us, for us, as we choose to:

Live.

Love.

Hope.

Give.

Stand.

Pursue.

Persevere.

Ask.

Question.

Strive.

Try.

The choice is mine.

It always was.

choosing,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Life leaves and sees no victims. Our lives are shaped by every choice we make and refuse to make. Live. Love. Hope. Rejoice. Choose.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU

The Universe told me to get it together.

Sooooooooo.

I have a confession to make to you, beloveds.

I used you to get out of trouble.

Okay, so I used you, or you, as an excuse, to try to get ME out of trouble.

My bad.

Scuze me.

What had happened was…

I noticed I had picked up a bit of extra weight.

Hmmm.

Then, I noticed I was writing more pieces, about eating, or fixing fixings to fixin to eat, or eating while thinking of pieces to write about fixing to eat. Or…

You get the point.

N-E-Waze, I was all set to argue with myself AND The Universe to convince us both I was doing a service as in I was providing uplifting pieces which would aid folk in NOT doing the things I have currently been doing.

I know. I know!

My bad.

I TRIED, unsuccessfully, to argue with The Universe that Life was being especially hard on me.

Life said ‘so what?’ and told me to keep it moving.

God told me not to blame Him and He kept it moving.

Leaving me, alas, to throw yall underneath aforementioned bus and proclaim I was providing encouragement to and for you.

I was hiding in plain sight. Comfort eating. Finding NO comfort there. I am finding no comfort anywhere. It will be this way until Christmas passes.

Sshhhhhhoooooooot.

The Universe told me to get it together. To stop hiding. To stop doing things that do not serve me because I am missing mom.

I am doing my best to get it together. I don’t feel like writing today. I am writing. I did not feel like getting out of bed to prepare a proper meal. I prepared and ate a proper meal.

I did not want to reach out to family and friends. I reached out. I did not want to get put of bed and turn on the lights. I got out of bed and turned on the lights.

I chose to live. With intentions. There are no victims here. Life is good. Even as it is hard.

Keep your act right acting right. Don’t allow your feels to run your life. Your feels will run you right into the nearest ditch when your heart is in need or in pain.

It’s okay to need comfort. We just need to be sure we are finding comfort in things and folk who support and love us. Starting with us.

Be encouraged. Take comfort in the knowledge that all will be okay. We shall be okay. Keep going.

going with you,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Fear not. Be not dismayed…