Month: April 2024

All He needed was me.

Me: That’s ALL?!

God: Yep.

Me: Are You SURE?! That’s it??

God: Uh, huh.

Me: Why doesn’t it feel like enough though?

God: Enough for who?

Me: Good question!

God: Ah, beloved.

Me: Aha, God!

God: ALL I need, ALL I require, ALL I long/hope for is…YOU. Your love. Your care. Your try. Your hopes. Your dreams. Your failures. Your successes. Most of all, beloved, your heart. The rest really can and does come out in the wash.

Me: Why am I forever falling short then?

God: In whose eyes? Surely not Mine.

Me: It’s hard to believe You. If I were to be COMPLETELY honest God.

God: I NEED for you to be honest. Completely. I can take it. Besides, your heart tells on you on the daily.

Me: Hmmm.

God: Hmmm. What say we go have a cup of coffee and just BE together?

Me: I would like that.

God: Good. Because I like you.

Me: Awwwww, God.

It amazes me, beloveds, to KNOW God loves me. ME. This dopey, ridiculous, what in the world have you done NOW me! Who knew?!

I keep looking at my life wanting to do more, be more, give more. I keep asking God to bless me, financially, so I can do the more I long to. He has not answered. All He does is tell me to just keep being me. How weird is He?!

Just BE, beloveds. You are EXACTLY what this upside down world needs. As am I. Let’s love the lot of us, together, eh? Even the ones who are the most maddening/disappointing. They need us the most.

loving folk the best way I can,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Ah, God. Thanks for loving us. Thanks for loving even the ones who doubt You are even there or real. Thanks for loving those who are angry with You. Thanks for loving us ALL. EVERY ridiculous one of us. I love You.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Time: Value it.

One reason why I do meal prep is it saves me time so I can do other things.

Also, meal prepping leaves me with meals I can eat when I’m not feeling well and don’t want to prepare something.

Time is short. I’m trying to value time as best as I can. We only get twenty four hours in the day.

I’m debating whether to finish my writing or to stop in watching movie or two.

I think I am going to stop worrying about the future and enjoy a movie or two. Time is short. Who wants to join me?🤣🍿

You have twenty four hours in your day. What are you going do with it? Who are you going to spend your time on?

Do not waste a moment on things which does not serve you and others. Do not waste a minute.

I need to get to meal prepping. AFTER the 🎦 movie!🤗🍿🎦🤣🤗

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: You’ll never know what you can do if you don’t take a chance.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Hello old friends.

I have started collecting books again. I have not started reading though.

I have no idea why but after mom passed away I lost my joy in reading. No earthly idea why and still makes no sense to me.

I tossed every dream away, when she passed. Figured what the world do I need them for now? Eventually, I drug them from the tombs of the get gone. Reading, has been the last to come out. Now, I am looking forward to seeing old friends again!

Which one will I start with!?🥰🤗

asking for A Friend,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Take your dreams out of the drawer. Take your hope from out of hiding. Get back to living. Start living. Live. You got thangs to do.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

When impossible really IS impossible.

What do you DO, beloveds, when impossible really IS impossible?

Remember:

It’s not!

You are NOT alone!

God will NOT let you fail/fall. Not too terribly hard anyway❤️‍🩹😂

Keep going.

Laugh.

Rejoice.

Be encouraged.

When we are weak, THEN He is strong 💪.

Take heart.

Take care.

Nuff said,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note:

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Be kind: Unintended connections.

What the world?

Huh?

WTW?!

HUH?!

Where is THAT music coming from??????

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

👀

😳

It turns out that someone near me had connected to my WIFI speakers. I had no idea who. I finally had to disconnect.

Technology is great. Connections are fantastic. That said, we have to be careful of the connections we make.

There are also connections we need to disconnect from. They are connections which no longer serve us or the other end. They are connections which are keeping us from living our best life.

There are connections which keep us from our calling. There are connections which are hindering our dreams.

I am doing the best. I can to disconnect from as many hidden connections as I can. I make sure to keep fear disconnected. I’m work to keep doubt disconnected.

I work to stay connected to positive things. I work hard to stay disconnected from pride. Pride keeps us from taking ownership of my mistakes and lack of try, at times.

I am doing my best to richard and to be kind. This kindness is so lacking in the world today. I am hoping to connect with kindness with as many people as I can.

You never know who your life is going to touch. You never know who The Universe will send into your life and connect you with.

Be kind to yourself. I like yourself to be open to new connections. Be okay with shutting down old connections which get in your way.

Remember you are never alone. You don’t fight alone. You don’t dream alone. There is someone out there who can and will help you make your dreams come true.

Take care of your heart because it is as precious as you are.

Keep moving forward. Keep looking up. Stay hopeful. You got thangs to do.

doing thangs,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Today is going to be a good day.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

In the meantime has been awfully hard to live with in the meantime.

In the meantime has been awfully hard to live with in the meantime.

Someone forgot to provide me with a HOW TO manual on living in the meantime, in the meantime.

You know, in the meantime while we:

Wait.

Wait.

Wait.

And then wait some more.

Ack!!

Whew!!!

Ah, God, what in the fresh hell are we supposed to DO whilst waiting, in the meantime?

The meantime hurts.

The meantime is maddening.

The meantime is, well, mean.

There is no one feeding me grapes and fanning me as I wait out my dreams, in the meantime.

In the meantime, the meantime is getting harder and harder and harder to DO.

I want to kick and scream.

I want to cut up and act ten kinds of fool.

I want to run away and hide.

I want.

I want…*sigh*.

Ow, beloved, in the meantime sure has been tough to live with in the meantime.

How about you?


Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Be encouraged. We shall get there. Or not. In the meantime, enjoy your day. Life is short. I think I shall go ferret out whatever snacks Maggie/Craig/Chuckster have left. Not sure they left us much peeps. How dare they, eh?

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Practically impossible.

*sigh*

*pout*

*stamps foot*

I have been engaged in a raging argument with The Universe. And I mean rrrraaagggggginnnnnnng!

The truth has reared it’s ugly head and keeps reminding me I can NOT afford my dreams. I can NOT afford to quit my job and write. I can NOT quit my job and learn how to build a website etc.

I CAN learn to build one. Only work is sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much work I am too exhausted to do anything but tumble into bed. Exhausted. Annoyed. Irritated I am much too tired to pursue my dreams.

I have been yelling at The Universe ALL day. In between work, that is. I am just simply tired of fighting with the damned Universe to help a sista out already!

I know. I know. Millions of folk have the same dilemma. Yet, there are the chosen wonderfuls who get the amazing opportunity to have plenty of time, money and opportunity to pursue their passions all day.

I am trying my best not to get on my case for having chosen occupations which don’t pay a whole lot. Rather, God chose ME for these occupations of serving folks. Don’t get me wrong. I love serving folk. It’s my passion. I just wish my passion PAID THE BILLS ALREADY GOD!!!!!!!

Ack!

*stamps foot*

Life is short. There are things I want to do. There are places I want to go. I have spent the better part of 3 decades serving folk and giving what I had. I wish I had more to give.

*sigh*. I don’t even know what I am trying to say, beloveds. I just know that I have outgrown this pot I am currently living in. My tent needs to be enlarged and I can’t enlarge it on my own UNNNNNNNNNNIIIVVVVVVVEEEEERRRRRSSSEEE!!!!!!!!!!

Okay, pout and rant over. I think.

God: Cmere.

Me: K

God: *whispers words only C’s heart can hear*

Me: Ah, God. I love me some You!

*Cassandras clambors off The Father’s Lap and gets about her day/life*

Life is amazing. Here I was, all downcast and sad. I had put on one of my youtube channels that plays beautiful music along with scriptures and the first one that popped up was Psalm 43:5 – Why are you cast down, O my soul? And why are you disquieted within me? Hope in God…

Hold on, beloveds. The way shall be made. He shall make the practically impossible POSSIBLE.

In the meantime. Three words that make me want to pop something or someone upside the head already!

My dreams are impossibly big. Are they impossible? I have no idea. God knows but He’s not telling.

waiting on a practically impossibly improbable dream,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: This is about as bad as fighting with the hot/cold water in the shower! Remind me to tell you about this morning’s adventure, er, shower…

In case no one has told you yet today: I love you.

P.S. Love someone. Starting with you. Keep shining your light into the darkness. Keep being a light. This world needs all the love it can get. Even the folks who are acting the biggest fools. Those need love the most. Let’s love these blockheads, er, hard headed folk, er,….lol.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Wait on it.

My shower and I have been in some heavy battle royales here lately.

For whatever reason, the shower God’s have decreed or decried, depending on whose side you are on, to mix the hot and cold however they bloody well please.

Leaving, moi, in the middle.

So, I am either howling, in outrage, stamping about the bathroom, buck naked no less, whilst either the hot or cold decide to join said shower.

I make quite the sight, lemme tell ya. Geez. I dare not cause you to see something you can never unsee, so shall refrain from describing the heaping, now heavy, personage called me.

I have learned to maneuver between the hot and the cold. I have learned to wait until the hot mixes with the cold. I have learned to be patient.With my showers…lol 😂.

I’m learning how to wait. Waiting can be tough. Waiting patiently can be super tough.

I am thankful for all of this hard as it is teaching me how to wait patiently. I am doing my best just to focus on my steps and not worry about falling behind.

When I was researching what I wanted to do with my riding, I began to feel maybe what I wanted to do would not be successful. I almost stopped dreaming.

Today, I simply dream. I wonder. I wander. I was telling my sister that it just may well be that I will never financially prosper from my dream. I will have to make my peace with that. I have made my peace with that.

Okay, maybe not made my peace but am working on me still.

In the meantime, I’m going to do the best I can to wait and enjoy the waiting.

Enjoy the waiting. Enjoy your life. Enjoy your now. Enjoy who you are right now.

Remember to love someone today. Starting with you. Thank you for being the amazing person that you are. Thank you for all the love you share. Thank you for caring about the world. Thank you just for being you.

Take care of yourself. You have such a beautiful soul. I am hopeful for great things for you this week.

grateful,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Keep going. You got this.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Keep moving forward.

Keep moving forward.

It’s okay to be frustrated. Be sure not to stay in that frustrated space.

I had to tell myself to stop pouting and get back into living.

I did not feel like writing today. Which is exactly why I am writing today.

I did not feel like getting out of bed and making something to eat. I got out of bed and made something to eat.

I have been angry with God all weekend. I have been angry with life all weekend. I have just been angry with bad news period.

I’m tired of being angry. I grab some joy out of my feel bag. I made a cup of coffee and hung out with mom. I blessed somebody else’s youtube channel.

Life is short. I’m glad I got out of bed today. I told myself I was gonna pout and be angry all weekend. Life is much too short for that.

Be encouraged,  beloveds.  You are EXACTLY where you are supposed to be.

Oftentimes, we are where we are for the needs of others. You may still be at that job because you are there to help someone or someone’s else.

I am fighting with being content in my NOW. Yes, I am praying for my future. But, I am doing my level best to be okay IN my now.

Hey, Maggie, whatcha doin?…😂

So, now that I have kicked lazy and sad to the curb I am going to get about the rest of my day.

Please, please, please look up and see that you are exactly where you need to be.

You got this. You CAN. You WILL. Keep thinking on all the good things you have in your life. Be encouraged.

encouraged with you,


Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: ☕️ Have a cup of coffee with me. What all can we get into today? Asking for a friend.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Look at the good in the bad.

I have been working my way through a weekend of:

Sad.

Mad.

Wondering.

Wondering why Life is being such a damned pain!

I told The Universe I am simply TIRED of trying dammit!

The Universe told me to look for the good in the bad.

What the what?!!

I stormed around and ALL I could see, beloveds, was nothing but bad.

Tired, I began to look CLOSELY at the bad and began to see so much goodness there.

Ah.

Aha!

Within the bad, I found:

Tenacity.

Compassion.

Care.

For me.

FROM me.

Before, I would have forever beaten myself up for all I had not done. Now, I cut myself some slack.

Now, I take extra care. Now, I take extra care of ME.

I no longer view myself as unacceptable because things are tough.

I love me, now. If that’s what The Universe has needed to get me to loving me…

Bring on the bad. ALL things work together…

working for my good,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Be encouraged. You got this. As do I.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!