Month: August 2024

I WILL get there.

I WILL get there.

So will you.

Let’s go!

getting after it,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: It’s amazing, beloveds, what happens when you take your focus off your own troubles and set your heart on being of service to others. The MOMENT I took my eyes off my empty account and placed it on encouraging folk, I found my spirit just soooooooooooooo uplifted.

Just thinking of loving on some folk got me to loving on some me. Ah, God. Life IS worth living. Even when it is hard. Be encouraged, beloveds. We WILL get there. In the meantime, let’s keep each other uplifted, eh? Asking for Your Friend.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Uprooted: Enlarge your vision.

I have been driving myself cra cra. Rather, the stupid cursor has been driving me cra cra!!

It’s toooooooooooooooooooooooo small!!!!

It’s tooooooooooooooooooooooo tiny!!!

I can’t seeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee itttttt!!!!!!!!!

For days, don’t ask me why, I have been fighting with the stupid mouse to get it to show me where the stupid cursor was/is!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!??

Finally, the thought occured to me to take two seconds and enlarge the cursor so I can see it.

Huh?

Really?

Ehem…*coughs embarrassingly*…..scuze me….*Cassandra slinks away in order to enlarge the stUPID CURSOR SO SHE CAN SEE IT ALREADY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”

Whew. Am back.

Now, I don’t have to waste half my time chasing down the cursor. Now, I can be about being about writing. Who knew.

I find this as a metaphor for how I have been living my life: Scrounging around, trying to see. Instead of making necessary changes which will aide me in moving forward.

Enlarge your vision, beloveds. Stop trying to force yourself into looking at things you can do something about. Do something about them. Move things around, as needed. Get rid of things, as necessary. Don’t be afraid to walk away from a job, a relationship, a situation which is not a win/win for all parties involved.

I am doing my best to enlarge my vision. I have no idea what my try will accomplish. I am trying anywho. How about you?

asking for A Friend,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: I wasted a weekend feeling sorry for myself. I allowed fear of what terrible financial things could happen to get me off of living life. Now. In the present. Things WILL work out. Some kind of way. Until they do, I am going to ENJOY and EMBRACE my now. Right now.

I am almost out of sugar…*gasp*. Until then, I shall enjoy my coffee until I run out. After that…..geeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeez God move! I can NOT go without my coffeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! Wheeewwwwwwwwwww!

My bad, beloveds. Just having a vision of walking this earth sugar less and unable to make a delish cup of coffee. I can NOT, for the life of me, understand folk who drink coffee with no sugar or iced! Coffee crime!!!

Before I go off on another tantrum, be encouraged. Laugh today. Love yourself. Reach out to someone. Send care to someone. Someone needs to know and to hear that they are loved and not alone. You can start with me, if that helps….lol. Be well. I love you.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Uprooted: Good habits WILL keep you grounded.

These have been tough days. That said, I have, surprisingly, been finding my good habits keeping me grounded.

I have found myself getting up. I have found myself keeping my promise to write daily. I have been keeping my promise to use at least one day, each week, to work on and complete ten pieces to have available for when life is acting ten kinds of fool.

I have found myself no longer looking at the what but focusing on the Who, meaning God and all He has in store for me and my life.

I used to carry on about all the happenings and WHY these things have happened. Life is much too short, in my opinion, to keep trying to beat a dead situation into the ground. It happened. Move on, Cassandra.

I am finding that my good habits are no longer suffering fools or foolishness. I have ALREADY beaten the dawn. I have been up and had my me time of coffee and yakking with mom and God about all manner of boring subjects. I am almost done with ten pieces.

Keep on keeping on, beloveds. Good habits take time to build. Once they get going, good habits will beat lazy out of bed.

If you are having a hard time with establishing some good habits…*shrug*. Start with ONE. One thing. Just one. Just do something. Just a little today. Then, a bit more, tomorrow. After a while, that good habit will take over for you. Then, you can move on to do just a bit of something else.

Whatever you do, beloveds, be sure to keep on being good to you. Change takes time. Cut yourself some slack. Stop being so hard on yourself. Celebrate your try. Stop worrying about the outcome(s). The outcome is not up to us.

Be encouraged. I love me some you. So does He.

cheering you on,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: I find NOTHING more delightful than loving on folk. I love you, beloveds. I truly do. I wish you well. I hope for success in your endeavors. I tell you ridiculous and corny jokes in the middle of the night. Take care of you. You are much too priceless to be forgotten. Be well…

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Choose your dreams not your fears, beloveds.

It’s time, beloveds.

Time to choose your dreams over your fears.

Time to choose to reach out for love instead of shrinking in fear.

Time to start something new instead of choosing to power in fear.

Can you see the theme, beloveds?

Fear.

Fear!

FEAR!!

Fear keeps us blinded. Fear keeps us paralyzed. Fear keeps us from moving in ANY direction.

Face your fears.

Acknowledge your fears.

Dismantle and tackle your fears.

Everyday if you must.

Rinse and repeat, as necessary.

It has been surprising how many places I have been finding fear hiding. I am doing my level best to meet and defeat them head on.

I am finding honesty has been the fastest way of getting fear out. Honesty with me. Honesty with family and friends. Honesty with God, especially.

The other day I yelled at God. I want to holler:

“What’s the purpose of having You in my life if you can’t/won’t help me to fulfill my purpose NNOOOWWWWW!!?😡🥊🫸🎤

That said, getting this fear out of my actions and my inactions IS helping me to fulfill my TRUE purpose.

I wish I could get there faster. I am trying to be okay with this intermittent movement.

Until then, I fight. My fears. My frustrations. My anger. I don’t have time to indulge those things.

I CHOOSE my dreams over my fears.

How about you?

asking for A Friend,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Your dreams matter. Hold tight to them. In the meantime, beloveds, do something EVERY DAY that will take you one step further to seeing your dreams fulfilled. You got this.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

This too shall pass.

I’m praying for you, beloveds. Praying for those who are ready to give up. Praying for folks who have secretly given up. Praying for those who are over it, already!

Be encouraged. Yea, yea, I know. I know! You are sick and tired of me saying this every blasted day!

We MUST stay encouraged, beloveds. We must. We have gotsa keep on keeping on whether we feel like it or not. Believe me, I am ready to dive back in bed and hide within the confines of my dreams.

I can’t. Life is just too short for that. I have already been there and done that. I’m certain you have done the same. Let’s try something new, eh? Let’s try staying up and in the fight until we have won.

Okay, enough of the rah rah talk. I hear a cup of coffee calling me. Who is up for some? Bring some snacks.

asking for A Friend,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: I can’t sleep. This heatwave won’t allow for it. Alexa is forever screaming about ANOTHER heatwave, for the day. Shut it, Alexa!

I figure since I was up and melting, I would send a prayer and a bit of encouragement your way. Yesterday, I FELT alone. To my soul. An odd feeling. A lonely feeling. Yet, not. I knew I had someone I could call. Still, my heart felt as though it were the loneliest soul in the entirety of the world.

Hold on. Take care of yourself today. Take a break. Take a breath. Take a walk. Tell fear and doubt to take a hike! Asking for A Friend…

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

God, I’m over it!

Me: I’m over it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!

God: You rang. What’s up.

Me: I’M OVER IT ALREADY!!!!!!!!!!

God: Over what, beloved?

Me: I’m over Your Silence! Your Silence can kick rocks!!!!

God: What else?

Me: I’m over this heat!!!! It’s toooooooooooooooo damned hot already!!!!!

God: What else?

Me: I’m over Your Forever Optimism. “Keep going, Cassandra”. Enough already with that, God!!

God: What else?

Me: I’m over waiting PATIENTLY! I’m over waiting, PERIODTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!! Ack!!! OMG!!!

God: What else?

Me: I’m over being alone. I’m sooooooooooooooooooooo over struggling, financially, alone. I’m ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooover it, God, and almost over You!!!!!

God: What else?

Me: I’m over fighting with the same damned mountains every blasted day. Enough!!!!!!

God: What else?

Me: I’m over….hmmm. I’m over, giving up on myself, when things get hot and hard. I’m over, doubting You, when things are hot and hard. I’m over, beating myself up, when things get hot and hard. I’m over, running away, when things are hot and hard.

God: What will you do?

Me: Get over myself…..hahahahahahahahahahahahaha!!

God: Great choice. Hang in there.

Me: How about some coffee?

God: K.

Me: LOL.

This heat is relentless. So much so I would like to just say to hell with everything. I dare not. This time will pass. It’s just so hard getting through it.

It stormed really bad earlier. The storm reminded me of the tornado. I found myself crying and afraid. Crap! I’m tired of feeling afraid. That made myself get up to make a cup of coffee. I decided to reach out and let folks know things will be okay. The only way to get through these hard times is to just get through these hard times.

Don’t let the heat keep you down. Don’t let the heat sap you from your will to keep trying. I want to withdraw from the hard. I want to seek the familiar. I want to hang out with the comfortable. I dare not. I can not. I must not. I will not.

I decided to start my me time early. Want to join me? I’m having coffee and chicken strips. Don’t judge….lol.

Hang in there, beloveds. Everything really will work out okay. Remember that it is okay to NOT be okay until you are okay again. Okay?

I have given myself permission to not be okay today and to simply rest. I have been doing my utmost to be of service. I find myself in need of some service. Ah, God, we could use a refill!

asking for all my friends,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: You can do it. You can. Times are super hard for so many folk, right now. It’s super easy to give into dismay and despair. We can’t afford to. I shall be encouraged for folk who are just too damned hot, tired and hurting to give two flying flips about being about it and keeping it moving.

In case no one has told you today: I love you. So does He.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

You are worth it.

You are worth it.

You are worthy.

You are worthwhile.

Nuff said.

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Beloveds, You are worth more than you give yourself credit for. You are worth the time. You are worth the effort. You are worth the inconvenience.

Stop seeing yourself in your concerns as burdens. Your concerns and worries are just as important as everyone else’s.

You are worth the time it takes to get to know. You are worth the effort it takes. You are worth every second of try.

Look up. You have nothing to be ashamed of. Be proud of who you are. God is. The folks who truly care about you are as well.

I just stopped by to tell you that you are worth it. You are. Is letting you know for A Friend. Be encouraged. Be sure to laugh today. Be sure to love someone today. Starting with you…

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Real talk: You are worth it.

I am FINALLY resting.

Sorta.

Kinda.

More and more.

I finally gave myself PERMISSION to ENJOY some real time off. For years, beloveds, I have been wanting to take some extended time off. I have been wanting to spend a good month just enjoying football, writing, sleeping, yakking with family/friends. Rinse and repeat.

I kept telling myself I would do this. Some time. Someday. Someday would never come. There was ALWAYS another bill to pay. There was ALWAYS another person to help. There was ALWAYS work to be done. Somewhere. For someone. For some reason.

I find this terribly hard to admit to…*sigh*. If not for the tornado, I would have continued to work myself into the ground. I would have continued taking more time off, than I was working, because I was just too tired to complete a full work day.

My get up and go had long since gone. Still, I was too busy forcing myself to work beyond what I should have, could have, or wanted to. I no longer wanted to. I wanted to stop. I wanted to rest. I needed to.

I didn’t. Life stopped me for me. The power went out. I had no choice…

When the power came on, Life sat me down and asked me what I was going to DO with ME?!

My heart was wounded.

My soul was tired.

My spirit was exhausted.

I looked around, at the destruction, and chose ME.

Work tried to force me to work. I told work I was not able. Work told me to make a choice.

I looked around, at the destruction, called me, and chose ME!

I’m glad I did. Now, I pick up the pieces. Slowly. Painstakingly. Lovingly.

This me, beloveds, that I am fashioning, is an interesting conglomeration of a potpourri of things. This me, I fashion, shall be:

Amazing.

Amazed.

Magnificent!

Who says so? I say so!

I am worth this time I am taking to do absolutely nothing. So are you, beloveds. It’s time you start taking the time to do the foolish things you have been wanting to do forever. Don’t wait until destruction befalls you before you take the time to take the time off.

Yes, you shall have to meet, greet and defeat your fears. A good thing, eh? We got thangs to do, don’t we? Let’s get about being about our thangs.

Ready?

Set?

Let’s go!!!

asking for A Friend,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: You are worth it. Nuff said.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

More than meets the eye.

There is more to me. More than meets the eye.

There is more to you, beloveds. More than meets the eye.

Too often, we judge ourselves by what we are currently are doing or not doing.

Financially, I can’t do right now. So, I have little. It has been difficult to not feel as low as my current bank account numbers.

We are always pushed to seek more, to have more, to do more. Why? So, we can give the pushers all we have gained! For THEM.

Don’t get it twisted, beloveds. Most folk are NOT in your corner for you. They are there to find out how to get what you have. To garner your network and your influence. This is the way of the world.

God loves us simply because we are worthy of and to be loved. Simple as that. This is one of the millions of reasons why I love Him so.

Don’t worry. I’m not about to go on a spiritual rant. I’m just letting it be known that we were and are NOT here, on this earth, to be the exclusive Kleenex for the world.

We are NOT here just to be used up and tossed out when our use has been fulfilled.

I am more. So are you. We are millions of things all at once.

I am trying my utmost to just BE. Just rest. Yes, there will be time to DO. Even then, I must realize I am so very much more than what I do.

I wish I knew how to express myself better. I fond myself questioning my talent because it’s not making me money. I don’t write for money. I need money to live. Therefore, I am going to have to learn how to make money from these dumb words of mine. Crap.

In the meantime, yall get me for free.😂🥰

Be encouraged, beloveds. You are so much more than meets the eye. I love you.

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Nuff said. Love YOU, beloveds. Asking for A Friend.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

No going back.

No going back.

Just because you are afraid.

No going back.

Just because the way is unfamiliar.

No going back.

Just because the road is lonely.

No going back.

Just because everything has changed.

No going back. Is asking for friend.

Me: K.

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Yesterday, I wanted to go back. Back to the known. Back to the familiar. There, I would be safe in my cocoon of comfort. There,  I wouldn’t have to challenge my faith. There, I wouldn’t have to do uncomfortable things. There, I could hide in excuses.

I did the hard thing. I kept moving forward. Uncertain of next steps. Unaware of what to do next.

These have been some scary days. They have also been some fun days. There has been some really shaky moments.

I told myself no matter what happens, I refuse to live my life based off of fear. I’m going to try and just see what happens.

Be encouraged. There is no going back. We have things to do. Keep pushing forward. Rest when you need to. Never let it be okay to give up on yourself. You can do this. You really can.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!