I REFUSE to give away my peace, my joy, or my try.
Ha!
Hell to the naw!!!!
I have spent the last hour applying to three jobs I FINALLY found that were open. ALL the others were simply teasers who dangled the prospect but laughed when I hit apply.
I got mad.
I fussed at God. I found that satisfying. I fussed at God some more. We both laughed.
I fired up the blog to encourage folk.
I got mad at me for wanting to encourage folk when disappointment keeps handing me a series of behind kickings.
THAT made me mad!!
I told myself I would NOT waste my time encouraging a world who could care less about me!
I turned off the computer in a huff.
God laughed.
I laughed.
We both understood the assignment.
I made coffee.
I got back to being about being about it.
I told them jobs “I will be their plus one!” Now, they have 101 to consider!
You can’t be found, beloveds, if you don’t keep putting yourself out there!
Keep being the needle in the haystack. Someone is bound to get pricked sooner or later!🤣😁🤗
asking for A Friend, Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe
Note: Be encouraged. This too, SHALL pass. Sometime in THIS century would be nice…
Touch someone on heart today. Starting with your own.
Something in me told me not to give up on my dream today. My dream said they can be fulfilled if I just keep trying. My dream said my life has a purpose.
I just stopped by to let you know how much you matter.
I don’t know if anyone will ever care about these words. I still give them. They are all I have.
There have been times, beloveds, when I wondered if I really would recover mentally/ financially from the devastation of the tornado, of losing mom, of the upheaval of moving to a state I had never lived in, of fighting life alone for the past 9 years.
There are times when I wonder still.
I am healing. Slowly. I am growing. Methodically.
I have had many setbacks. Still, the setbacks are nothing more than setups for comebacks and steps for me to succeed.
I’m doing my best to keep moving forward. It is so easy to look backward at the comfort zone we used to have, isn’t it? I keep telling myself we have too much to do. We have come too far to look behind us now.
Last night I tossed and turned in bed, wondering what I was going to do with the rest of my life. It seems to be so vast. Where do I go now, I keep asking God? What do I do now, I keep asking The Universe? Is what I’m doing even making a difference, I keep asking Life?
Nothing is moving. Everything is silent. The silence makes me look harder. I don’t know why. In the past, the silence would have caused me to give up in despair and disappointment.
I no longer give myself the option to quit. I don’t care what happens. I don’t care how many videos get zeros views. I don’t care how many pieces get ignored.
My only focus is in encouraging as many people as I can, starting with myself.
Be encouraged. Your labor is not in vain.
asking for A Friend, Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe
Note: I am living proof that you can keep on keeping on no matter what. You stay encouraged. You make sure you get your rest. You make sure to keep moving forward. Refuse to allow yourself to give up. I don’t care what happened. I don’t care if you have to go by yourself, just go. We got this.
Now, I have one specifically for blogging, creating TikTok and Instagram posts, paying bills, surfing YouTube. It’s my 🧠 brain phone.
I have another 📱 phone I use just as my phone phone. For those under 50, the phone could only be used to make/receive calls. I know. I know. How DID we survive in a world with no Internet, no Google, no Netflix??!…lol.
Doing this, I have been able to become more organized. I have been able to get more rest. My body knows when my phone is in the basket to just chill out.
I’m learning to use what I have. The world right now seems to be hell bent on glorifying poverty, lack, and a ‘woe is me’ mentality. Right now, playing The Victim sells really well on Youtube and Tiktok. I refuse to try to make money that way.
It breaks my heart that there is actually commentary going on where people are cheering on people for taking advantage of others. I find it sad this appears to be normalized. I refuse to make it normal to take advantage of my fellow man and woman.
You have much more than you think. Look around you. Look inside you. You have a wealth of knowledge and experience that will take you far if you allow yourself to try.
Keep trying. Even when it’s hard. I saw a notice the other day that I have posted I think for 650 some consecutive days. I’m trying to do my part.
I hear a cup of coffee calling me. Who wants a cup?
asking for A Friend, Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe
Note: Be encouraged. Enjoy your day. Take care of you today. You got this.