Sometimes, you just gotta wash the dishes.

What a day.

Storms within.

Storms without.

Literally.

Bad enough my phone got to hollering for me to take immediate shelter. 😳

I had to tell my caller I have to take cover.

I was afraid.

I was terrified.

I wanted to cry.

God told me to cry.

I told God I was going to try to be a big girl and have a positive attitude.

My heart told me to shut up and take God up on offer to go ahead and cry.

My ♥ heart cried.

I was too shaken to return to work.

I told work to kick rocks.

I wondered what to do next.

God said to wash the dishes.

I told God I was too shaken and scared.

God said wash dishes.

I washed dishes.

My spirit said thank you.

I refuse to live in fear. I acknowledge it. Feel it. Then tell fear to kick rocks and get on with me day.

I have Doritoes waiting for me.

Come hang out with me as we walk through these storms. The storms DID pass. Felt like they would never end. ALL things have their end. The trick is how we end up AFTER the storm.

I am at peace.

I think I shall climb upon The Father’s Lap and share with Him how scared I felt.

I used to beat myself up for being weak. Meaning, it was never okay for me to be anything but strong. At ALL times. Alone.

I don’t have to be strong.

Why?

Because:

I am loved.

I am NOT alone.

Neither, beloveds, are you.

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: If no one has told you today: I love you. Be encouraged. Be good to you when you are afraid. Everything WILL be okay. Sometimes, we just need someone to remind us.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

An audience of one.

I live my life for an audience of one.

Me.

I live my life for An Audience of One.

Him.

I live my life for an audience of one.

You, beloveds.

I live my life for an audience of one.

My family.

I live my life for an audience of one.

My global community.

I live my life for an audience of one.

My friends.

I live my life for an audience of one.

My job.

I live my life for an audience of one.

Life.

I live my life for an audience of one.

The Universe 🌌.

I do my best. I try. I live. I love. I laugh. I cry.

For applause?

No.

Not anymore.

For approval?

No.

Not anymore.

For love?

No.

Not anymore.

For validation?

No.

Not anymore.

For inspiration?

No.

Not anymore.

For friendship?

No.

Not anymore.

For, I have CHOSEN to BE:

An audience of one.

A friend.

An inspiration.

A shoulder.

An ear.

A pillow.

A lender.

A giver.

His.

Yours.

His servant/your friend,

Cassandra

Note: I choose to be all I hope to receive. If I receive not, I choose to be all I have not received. I love you. So does He.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

She’s a bad mama jamma!

Heeeyyyy!!!

Yyyyaaaaasssss!!!

Scuze me, beloveds, I am currently bellowing ‘She’s a bad mama jamma’ as loud as I can legally get away with.

Don’t worry about the neighbors. They just got to watch me getting down with it in the parking lot to ‘Isn’t She Lovely’ by Stevie Wonder!♥️🥰💯🤗😂

Life is short. Get your shortcomings and be about being about it!

💃🤸‍♀️,

Cassandra

Note: 🥰

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

I love my spot.

I love my spot.

It’s just like me:

Old.

Dated.

The heating/cooling unit a thousand years old.

In need of a paint job.

Yep, just like me.🥰⚒️😂

Enjoy your spot, beloveds. Enjoy you. You are unique. So is your spot. Some of us needs more paint than others, am I right?!😍♥️😳🤣

enjoying my spot,

Cassandra

Note: The Bible tells us to not despise small beginnings. Be encouraged. Enjoy your now. Right now. Love you now. Right now. Just as you are.

Grow, yes. Love you, still. K? Asking for A Friend.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

55: I finally hear You!

55!

I finally hear you.

Universe, I finally hear You.

Life, I finally hear You.

God, I finally hear You!

Why?

Why now?

Because, I have learned to listen.

Because, I have learned…

Because, I…???

Because I!

Ah.

Aha!

Nuff said.

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: All this time. All these years. All my life. God. The Universe. Life. Rinse. Repeat. ALL have been leading me. Here. To this MOMENT. To this revelation. To this realization:

I CAN.

I WILL.

I AM LOVED.

I AM NOT ALONE.

Now go, They said, and tell The world these things.

I say back, I tell the world this every day. I have done so, while waiting for You to show me how. Waiting for You to point the way. Waiting for You to give me the strength. Waiting for You to light my path.

I AM The Way. I AM The Light. I AM The Truth. I AM. As am I, so are you, in this world(an Easter egg for those in the know🤔)

I have been up all night. Again. For days. Days!

I used those sleepless nights to try and understand my fellow man/woman. I used those hours to talk to God and express my bewilderment at His Constant Maddening Silence. It was sooooooooooooooo persistently loud!

For days, I thought of EVERY person who has ever crossed these pages. I asked God, I asked Life, I asked The Universe to bless each one and keep them safe. I asked for their every need to be met. I asked for a few dreams to come true.

Not ALL. I am sooooooooooooooo thankful God did NOT answer some of my desperations, er, prayers. Whew!

I NEEDED the hard. I NEEDED the silence. I NEEDED the burden. I NEEDED the lonely. I NEEDED the fight. I NEEDED the thirst. I NEEDED the hunger.

To get me back to…

Me.

Him.

Life.

The Universe 🌌.

My dreams.

My try.

Which leads me straight back to you, beloveds. How? Great question. Keep asking. Keep listening. You shall find your why. You shall REMEMBER your why. You shall Starr living your why. Why? Ah, beloveds, because the world is in desperate straits without you and your why. Get going now. Go on…

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

It will happen: Stop bugging me!

Stop bugging me!!!!!!!

I hate bugs. I hate bugs. Every since maintenance had to go in my wall I have been fighting them.

Today, I also had to fight with my new laptop. Crap!

I have been discouraged all day. All night in fact. I came across a wonderful site. The logger was eloquent in everything.I wish I could be.

Looking at the excellence, I looked at my try and it just didn’t look like it would ever be enough. I began to be embarrassed by the works of my hand.

When my laptop misbehaved, it was a sign things would never work out for me!

At my lowest, the stupid bugs decided to come out and laugh at me. I felt as low as one of those bugs.

I looked at the huge mountain that contained my dreams and it just looked too big. I have no idea how I an going to reach the top.

Daring work, I was able to encourage a peer. I told him to stop letting fear hold him back. I told him to sore like the eagle he was.

I encouraged him. This encouraged me. Now, I am here encouraging you.

Keep going. Even when times are tough. Even when you try just does not feel as though it will ever be enough.

We will make it to the top of the mountain. Together. In the meantime, don’t ever allow quit to run your life.

Disappointment is just another opportunity to set up an appointment with God.

Be encouraged.

I have done all I know. This is enough. At least, for today. I shall try again tomorrow.

It will happen.

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: This was an incredibly discouraging day. I accomplished nothing. I tried.

Keep going. Even when going it’s the last thing you wanna do. I go with you. Love someone starting with yourself. Asking for A Friend.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

It will happen.

Be encouraged.

It will happen.

Cassandra

Note:…*sigh*. Told sis I am TIRED of 55 hollering at me to get going and not know how or where to go and how long. Ack! Told her I would go encourage someone. I shall start with me. Crap.

#YourLifeMattersToMe

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Get back to work God said to me.

Life is many things. Often, and at the same time.

I have been doing my best to walk in the shoes of others. As many others as I can.

It has been eye opening. It has been heartbreaking.

It has helped me to understand that my heart is not as hard as some others. Yet my hard is still hard.

To me. So, my hard is important to God.

So is your hard.

I have been watching Van lifers who have been living in vehicles. Because they want to. Some, because they have to.

I rejoice for those who want to. I grieve for those who have to…*sigh*.

Life happens. To us all. Life is not always fair. Crap! 😭😡

I tell myself to keep trying. I can’t do a thing for those who have to. I can’t even do much for those who want to.

I CAN love them. I can pray for them. I can empathize with and for them.

I can’t remember who said ‘but for the grace of God go I’.

Happenstance can happen at any time. I say this not to scare you. Just keeping it a buck, as a friend said to me. I love that! Means keeping it 💯😂.

Life ALWAYS keeps it a buck with us and let us know we can either participate or get run over.

Where ever you are, beloveds, keep going. Whether you are in a want to space or a have to space. Either way, you are loved and you most certainly are not alone.

Lately, I wonder if my why is reaching anyone. Oh, I hope. I try. That’s enough. I hope my try and my why are enough for you today. I tried.

trying still,

Cassandra

Note: Try to walk in the shoes of another. Someone is tired. Walk with them today.⁰

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

CEO of one.

Chief Executive Officer.

That’s your title.

That’s MY title.

Of my life.

We CHOOSE.

We DECIDE.

There are NO victims here!

Best get to living your best life.

Change what you must.

Do as you will.

Do.

Be.

Prepare.

Give.

Receive.

Love.

Rinse.

Repeat.

running thangs,

Cassandra

Note: Um, get to executizing!⚒️💪🚪💵💯📣🤗

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Starting over: Falling in love with me.

I am starting over.

Falling in love with me.

I AM enough.

My try is enough.

I am worthy of all life has for me.

I vow to:

Love myself.

Honor myself.

Keep my promises I’ve made to myself.

Fight for my dreams.

Be content with my now as I work always towards and for my future.

Share the whole of me with God, Life and The Universe.

Share my heart with those who will honor, cherish, and protect it.

I’m starting over. I’m choosing me. I’m betting on Mr. I’m falling in love.

With me.

loving me,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Love someone today. Starting with you.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!