I think I did it!
Yaya!
trying,
Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe
Note:
One step.
One step.
One step.
You are loved.
You are NOT alone.
Keep on being…YOU!
Category: God
Not in my vocabulary!
Quitting.
Not in my vocabulary!
Giving up.
Not in my vocabulary!
Walking away.
Not in my vocabulary!
Giving in to the darkness.
Not in my vocabulary!
Giving up on love.
Not in my vocabulary!
Giving up on my dreams.
Not in my vocabulary!
Giving up on my fellow man.
Not in my vocabulary!
Walking away from hard.
Not in my vocabulary!
Turning my back on me.
Not in my vocabulary!
Giving in to fear.
Not in my vocabulary!
Allowing doubt to take over.
Not in my vocabulary!
Running away from facing ME.
Not in my vocabulary!
Allowing others to run my life.
Not in my vocabulary!
Choosing to see the worst.
Not in my vocabulary!
Choosing to remain in my comfort zone(s).
Not in my vocabulary!
Nah, beloveds, we got entirely too many thangs to do than to allow anything or anyone get in our way. Including, ourselves. Especially, ourselves!
Get up!
Try.
Fail.
Laugh.
Then, get up and try, fail and laugh again.
And, again.
And, again.
Until?
Until we win!!
winning with you,
Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe
Note: I have not had a paycheck since June. And, that was only a check of ONE day’s pay. That’s it.
I’m 55.
Jobless.
Alone.
Yet, not alone.
Does these ‘realities’ make me want to run for the hills? At times. Does these things make me want to doubt myself? Undoubtably. Does these things make me want to lose faith in my faith? No.
I won’t lie, beloveds. EVERYTHING was shaken after that awful tornado tore through my yard. Everything. I have never been more terrified. Never. And, I had been through Hurricane Katrina and another tornado, in the past.
I don’t know why THIS tornado was so earth-shattering, pun intended. Maybe, it’s because I faced it alone. At 55. Suddenly, my age took on a life of its own. It began to dominate everything. It made me question everything.
Can I REALLY move forward? Can I TRULY be successful. At my age?!
God keeps telling me I can do this. The Universe keeps saying I WILL do this. Life keeps shouting to me that I MUST do this.
Beloveds, I’m afraid I may not be up to the task. What if I can’t? What if I don’t? What if I do and what I have to offer is NOT enough?
Ah, there goes that word again, beloveds.
Enough. Six letters that causes the greatest anxt and heartache for ALL of us? Am I enough? Is what I have to offer ENOUGH? Can I give enough that will EVER matter to ANYONE?
Yet, the only way to find out, beloveds, is to go on ahead and to find out!
We may not be enough for some. We may be too much for others. We WILL be perfect for those The Universe has just waiting to love and care for us.
But, we are terrified of that six letter word. Enough. We soooooooooooooooooooo want to BE enough.
Why?
So, we can be CHOSEN. Ah, another word that tears at the heartstrings. Chosen.
What if no one chooses to be with me? What if the world chooses not to see me? What if my skillsets are not chosen, by a job? What if a mate refuses to choose me? What if folk won’t choose me to be a friend. What then?
Am I then, not enough? Not worthy?
It has taken God fifty years to love me enough where I could finally learn to love ME. So much so, beloveds, I am perfectly okay should I never be selected. If I am never chosen. If I am forever found wanting for the world.
Why?
Because, God loves me!
Me!
Astounding.
Amazing.
I can barely understand why. I’m loud. I’m a goof. I watch dumb things. I think stupid things. I am ridiculously hopeful. I am maddeningly stubborn in the belief we CAN! and we WILL!
Still, God whispers to me how very much I matter. Me. Not my work. Not my money. Not my try. Not my good deeds. Not my perfection.
Me. The goofy, loud, stupid, dumb, non-working me that has NO idea what to DO now. Ah, God, why won’t You just go ahead and quit me as the world so easily has done and shall continue to do?
I know I am talking to SOMEONE. Someone out there is wondering why in the fresh hell won’t God/The Universe/Life just give up on them already?! They want to throw in the towel. They want to quit. But, something just won’t turn them loose. Their dreams simply will NOT leave them alone. Life just keeps on annoying the hell out of them and telling them not to quit. Not just yet.
I’m talking to YOU, beloveds. If you are reading these words, I am speaking to YOU. I am praying for you. I am rooting for you. Don’t give up on you. Not just yet. Your life is NOT near the end. You are on the precipice of a fantastic journey.
Get ready to enjoy your life. Get out there and live. Yes, you have your stresses. So what. Toss your stresses in the shower and keep it moving! Make some coffee. Take a walk. Make a new friend. Hug a neighbor. Reconcile with family. Just DO something.
Be encouraged.
One step.
One step.
One step.
You are loved.
You are NOT alone.
Keep on being…YOU!
Help me be loud:
Don’t give up. Not just yet.
I want to give up.
Right now.
I’m tired. The roofers are roofing. The maintenance guys are maintaining. The heatwave won’t end. The bills keep piling up.
Me: I’m tired of this.
God: I know.
Me: I don’t think You are moving fast enough. Honestly, it doesn’t seem as if You are moving at all for ME.
God: I know. Will you trust me?
Me: Do I have a choice?
God: You do. I will love you however you decide.
Me: Fresh hell…K.
I am in a blaming mood. I want to blame the tornado for turning my life upside down. I want to blame my job for not caring. I want to blame friends for not caring. I want to blame me for not understanding that work and friends would not care when things got hot. I want to blame God for allowing all of this mess in the first place.
I want to lay in bed and play the blame game. Instead, I rise. I get up. I make coffee. I write. I pray. I stand fast. I choose joy. I choose to wait patiently. I don’t have the luxury of time. Life is much too short to be wasting by playing the blame game.
Today is the start of another month. I wonder what the month will bring. I am doing my best to accept whatever comes. It’s not easy. We were never promised an easy life. We can have an awesome life. It’s up to us.
We decide to love. We decide to hope. We decide to dream. We decided we quit or continue.
Be encouraged. Don’t give up. Not just yet.
asking for A Friend.
Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe
Note: I honestly did not want to make my act right act right today. I want to tell my try to shut up already. I can’t. I have things to do. I’m tired of all the construction going around. I’m tired of looking at all the destruction. I’m just tired. I can’t quit. Neither can you.
It’s easy to quit when we are tired. Don’t give up. Not quite yet. You have no idea what’s beyond the next corner. Move forward. Keep looking up. It’s OK to be discouraged. Just don’t quit.
A friend told me to turn on my music and to sing real loud. I have my music on. I am singing loudly on the inside. Singing is bringing up my joy bubbles. Ah, God, where You at?
You SHALL win, beloveds, so long as you don’t quit. Don’t. Not quite yet. Your best IS still to come. It is. Ah, I know. Faith hurts when your dreams just refuse to come to you. I believe in you. God believes in you. Life believes in you. The Universe believes in you.
While we are all toiling, waiting, wondering, wishing, I gather us all and pray for faith, peace, comfort, hope, joy and special blessings whilst we continue to LIVE. Don’t spend your days surviving life. Thrive. Where you are. In the midst of hard. We got this. We truly do.
In case no no one has told you, I love you. So does He. Be well…..
One step.
One step.
One step.
You are loved.
You are NOT alone.
Keep on being…YOU!
Help me be loud:
It’s simply a matter of trust.
God: Do YOU trust ME?
Me: Absolutely.
God: Nuff said?
Me: Nuff said.
God: Simple as that.♥️🎤
Me: Simple as that.🥰
It’s simply a matter of trust AND time.
It’s simple, beloveds. You either trust, or you don’t/won’t.
Do you?
Will you?
asking for A Friend,
Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe
Note: Trust is not always easy. You have to TRUST in the character of the other person. You have to KNOW the other side has YOUR interests at heart. You have to BELIEVE in the other side.
Who do you trust, beloveds? Who or whom, do you believe in? Do you KNOW you can trust said person(s)?
Don’t trust blindly. Consider. Be thoughtful. Measured.
Has he/she/they EARNED your trust by THEIR words/actions/deeds?
Trust is value. Don’t toss your trust around every which way. Be sure the other side has earned your trust.
Then, trust until you are presented with evidence showing your trust was not valued. If so, retrieve it. Don’t hide it away in fear. Don’t judge the rest of the world because some short-sided goof took advantage of your trust.
Don’t beat yourself up for caring enough to trust. Learn. Keep it moving. Stay the beautiful person you are.
I trust this piece was inspiring. 😁😁😂🥰
Take care of your wonderful ♥ heart. Asking for A Friend.
One step.
One step.
One step.
You are loved.
You are NOT alone.
Keep on being…YOU!
Help me be loud:
It’s simply a matter of time. ⌚
God: Do YOU trust ME?
Me: Absolutely.
God: Will YOU trust MY Timing?
Me: Absolutely.
God: Nuff said?
Me: Nuff said.
God: Simple as that.♥️🎤
Me: Simple as that.🥰
It’s simply a matter of time. ⌚
It’s simply a matter of time AND trust.
It’s simple, beloveds. You either trust, or you don’t/won’t.
Do you?
Will you?
asking for A Friend,
Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe
Note: There is a time and place for all that happens. Wait. Patiently. Yes, waiting can be hard. It SHALL be worth it.
All this waiting is forcing me to rely on things other than my bank account and effort. A scary place to be. I have to trust The Universe shall show up for me as I continue to move forward, to do what’s right, to uplift my fellow men and women.
THEN, I can live with whatever does or does not happen.
As I have been waiting on my dream, I have been helping out others by supporting their channels, being a moderator to keep trolls away during folk live streams, sending super chats, liking videos, subscribing to things and being the kind of supporter I would appreciate, if I had a channel.
I’m also trying to keep fam and friends uplifted more. These are tough times. I want to run away and hide. I want to use my hard as an excuse not to extend my overextended heart to others. I can’t. Life is just too short.
Be encouraged. Have hope. Choose to trust. Anyone can choose apathy and despair.
Enjoy your Saturday. I am praying for us all. In case no one has told you today: I love you and so does He.
One step.
One step.
One step.
You are loved.
You are NOT alone.
Keep on being…YOU!
Help me be loud:
Repeat after me: It’s okay to be tired.
Repeat after me:
It’s okay to be tired.
Now, rest, beloveds. This has been a tough year. You have, you are, doing your best to take care of yourself and those you care about.
Don’t worry about what comes next. You can do nothing about what comes next, until it gets here/there.
Enjoy your Friday. Enjoy the weekend. Make some moments. Share your thoughts. Share your love. Expect GOOD things, for your life. Acknowledge where you are hurting or are in need. Then, ask for guidance/help and RECEIVE them.
I got your backs, beloveds, in prayer. God has us all in HIS Care. Even if you don’t believe, beloveds, those of us who do believe, pray for you, hope for you, exhort you, embrace and love you.
In case no one has told you today: I love you.
Have an amazing Friday.
asking for A Friend,
Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe
Note: It’s okay to be tired. Get some rest. The rest will come out in the wash. Things truly will be okay.
One step.
One step.
One step.
You are loved.
You are NOT alone.
Keep on being…YOU!
Help me be loud:
It’s okay to have the chicken strips.
I wanted some chicken strips.
I told myself I would get some act right and start going to bed at a ‘decent’ hour. For the last week or so, I have been deliciously staying up ALL night to binge watch Suits, American Greed, Mega Machines and whatever other shows that suited my fancy.
Today, wombie suggested me getting some sleep act right and get my sleep back turned around on a more normal schedule. Since I am not working, not sure what the ‘normal’ schedule is buying me.
I thought of what she said. It sounded reasonable. I packed things in. I turned down the lights. I situated the covers.
Then, chicken strips started whispering, from the kitchen. I told chicken strips to shut it as I need to get some shut eye so I could get my sleep patterns back ‘normal’.
Wouldja believe God wandered by and asked if I wanted to join Him for some chicken snacks….hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!
I decided on the chicken strips. I think I may add yet ANOTHER all night binge watching! Yaya!!!
It has been really hard learning HOW to rest. I have to keep telling myself my worth is NOT in what I do. I am worthwhile simply because I breathe.
Remember, beloveds, you are valuable simply because you breathe. Don’t feel as though you HAVE to be doing something 24/7. Make sure you get some time to chill and be as lazy as you can possibly be. When you are ready, then get up and keep being about being about it.
We all need to treat ourselves better than we have been. We work too many hours. We exercise too little. We comfort eat too much. We don’t eat enough healthy foods. I’m doing my best to get some act right, whilst also being able to rest and have chicken strips every now and again.
Moral of the story: Don’t be afraid of indulging yourself, from time to time.
I hope you are enjoying your day. If not, get to enjoying it. This is the day that was made for you to rejoice and be glad in.
asking for A Friend,
Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe
Note: It has been soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo surprising finding out how hard it is to just BE. Ah, God. Help me to relax and just be me. Asking for a friend(me).
One step.
One step.
One step.
You are loved.
You are NOT alone.
Keep on being…YOU!
Help me be loud:
Worth(y).
You are worthy.
You are worth it.
You are worthwhile.
Your life matters.
YOU matter.
Nuff said.
Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe
Note: You matter, beloveds. Reminding you for A Friend.
One step.
One step.
One step.
You are loved.
You are NOT alone.
Keep on being…YOU!
Help me be loud:
Who do you choose to be?
WHO do you choose to be?
Do you choose, to be the authentic you? Or, the person you are “expected” to be given where/when/how you grew up?
Who do YOU choose to be?
Do you choose, to be unapologetically YOU? Because you are FINALLY taking the courage to be all out you? Understanding you may be rejected because of this choice?
Who do you CHOOSE to be?
Do you choose, to be the joyful, hopeful, resilient you? Because you are ready, to look at the glass as half full, instead of half empty?
Who do you choose to BE?
Do you choose, to be YOU? Or, do you choose to be TikTok acceptable?
Life is short, beloveds. Much too short to be wasting being something or someone you are not.
There is no need to continue to strive for things so you can prove your worthiness. You are worthy. Periodt.
Who do you choose to be?
asking for A Friend,
Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe
Note: This can be a tough question to answer. Somedays, I wonder who the world I am. How about you? Whatever your answer, keep on being good to you….
One step.
One step.
One step.
You are loved.
You are NOT alone.
Keep on being…YOU!
Help me be loud:
Life is good, even when it’s hard.
Life is good, even when it’s hard.
Nuff said.
Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe
Note: Hang in there. This heatwave won’t end. Maintenance is back 🛠 hammering away at the roof.😳😭🔥😡. I want this to end! Ack!
Life can be a pain. When it does, hang in there. Don’t give in to despair. Tell doubts to shut it. Have a cup of coffee ☕ and have faith. Be encouraged. Asking for A Friend. Fixing to have more chicken strips if any care to join me.
One step.
One step.
One step.
You are loved.
You are NOT alone.
Keep on being…YOU!
Why Can't I Be Loud?! 