Category: God

God’s Silence: Why are You being so cruel?

“WHY!?”

Silence.

“WHY, ARE YOU BEING SO CRUEL?!”

SILENCE!

“WHY, ARE YOU BEING SO BLASTED SILENCE WHEN HARD IS BEING SOOOOOOO LOUD?!!”

God’s Silence, has been defeaning. Loudly so. Prominently so. Maddeningly so. Fresh hell.

It has FELT like hell. I have felt:

Lost.

Forsaken.

Forgotten.

Afraid.

Not lost, as in directional, but lost as in hopeless. Not hopeless so much as less than. Less than:

Capable.

Able.

Stable.

I hate feeling unstable!

I hate these times. I appreciate these times. These times force me to keep being kind tome when it feels like all else is being sooooooo mean.

Everything within me wants to call mom and say…*sigh*. Crap.

I wish I did not always have to be an adult. Wish I could throw more temper tantrums and take my toys and run. Fresh hell.

Since I can’t, I will sit here and pout, ever so quietly, and ask God why He being so mean with His Silence?

I shall see what He shall say to me.

*silence*

Crap.

waiting in the silence,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Remain still. You are NOT alone. God’s Silence speaks volumes, if you listen. Folk are too quick to fill the silence with distraction and noise.

Be still. All things come in their APPOINTED time.

One step.

One step.

One step.

When life hands you lemons it’s time to break out your blue screwdriver!

God: What on earth?!!!

The Universe: What in creation?!!!

Jesus: YYAAAAAAAAAASSSSSA!!

*Cassandra 💃 dances and 🎶 sings her way out*…*Cassandra bellows with her infamous blue screwdriver and sings til Jesus comes to join her*

YYYYYAAAAAAAAASSSS!!

Be encouraged, beloveds. NO weapon…

Keep on happening to life. Dance your way out of dark places. Sing your way out of seemingly hopeless spaces. Rejoice your way out of cramped spaces.

Loudly. Badly. Gladly.

💃🎶🗝,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: There is so much badness and foolishness happening, the world over, it’s almost enough to give the bravest folk the willies.

When your world is acting a fool, snatch up a screwdriver, turn on some tunes and sing your way out. If nothing else, you will entertain heaven and earth.😆

Remember:

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being… YOU

Face you. Embrace you.

Face you.

Embrace you.

Love you.

You won’t always love what you see.

At times, we do not reflect our best selves. It’s called being human. Us humans can be real jerks and dummies.

I know. I know. The world likes to lie to you and have you all up in your feels by allowing you to think you can be a jerk and a dummy with impunity. You can’t. Nowadays, folk appear not to want to be called out when there act right is not acting right.

I appreciate it when my accountability partner calls me out and let’s me know to keep doing what is right and standing on my faith whether I feel like it or not.

I have been going through some tough days and admit I allowed tired and fear to keep me from speaking in FAITH. I agreed with the lies and dumbness that this tough patch would never pass. It will.

Even if it lingers, beloveds, I CHOOSE to remain joyful, hopeful and PRESENT.

Do NOT allow fatigue permission to move apathy and fear into your peaceful space.

Reclaim your time. Reclaim your peace. Reclaim your hope.

Be encouraged. We got this.

Come on, beloveds, we got thangs to do.

doing thangs with you,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: I love you. God loves you. The Universe fights for you. Be encouraged. One step. One step. One step…

Stop giving up your you time.

I was frustrated.

I wanted to write.

I kept allowing myself to be distracted by phone calls.

Ack.

I decided to choose me and to stop giving away my time in order to accommodate someone else’s time.

Life is short.

Stop giving up your time for someone else’s time. Do the things for your life that you know need to be done. If you have some time left over then give that time away. Time is too precious to keep giving away.

I rested today. All day. I only got one piece out this morning. I chose me. Now I am choosing to keep my promise and get my other two pieces done for the day.

I just want to check on you before I enjoy some Sunday Night 🏈 Football.

I am enjoying some old school music from the seventies. I am getting down on it.😂

Be encouraged, beloveds.

This weekend is going to awesome!!! How do I know? Because, my attitude determines how my days shall be.

Keep being you. Reach out to someone. These can be some lonely days. I hear ☕ calling me. Come join us.

enjoying some me,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Remember you are not mistakes. Make a ton of them this week. This is how we grow. Tell your critics thanks for providing you with so much inspiration and determination!

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Your obstacles are not obstacles.

Your obstacles are not obstacles.

They are:

Opportunities to grow.

Chances to overcome.

Moments to improve.

Time to shine.

Greatness to live.

Wins waiting to happen.

Routes to strength.

Precursors to satisfaction.

Don’t fear the hard, beloveds.

Don’t grow too weary at the never ending obstacles.

Smile. They are the introduction to the greatest story ever told!

Stay in the race.

Endure.

Embrace.

Overcome.

Ah.

Aha!

overcoming with you,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: You can do this! You shall. Be encouraged.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being… YOU

LOL.

Until we are not nuts, let us continue pushing upwards, shall we beloveds?

LOL!

striving still and always,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: This has been a tough year. Yet, I grow. Tired, yet resilent. I fight on. As shall you, eh? Asking for A Friend. The world NEEDS our nuttiness! We got thangs to do, beloveds. Let’s be about being about them. Remember your WHY.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!!!!!!!!!

You are enough.

I just don’t feel enough today.

Why my pieces are late. I almost did not write today.

I write to keep my promise to myself. I’m doing my best to keep my promise to me.

I wonder today if my efforts will lead anywhere or be of any comfort. Doesn’t feel like it today.

Ah, beloveds, I soooooooooooo desperately want to allow my feels to run this day. I want to run from today.

I’m tired.

My try just does NOT feel as though it will EVER be enough.

Crap.

So, I wrote. Tired. I try. Tired. I’m tired of running away from the fact I am 55 and still chasing down my dreams.

Yet, I am enough.

I am.

Enough.

As are you.

You are enough.

YOU are enough.

You ARE enough.

You are ENOUGH.

YOU ARE ENOUGH!

Enough already, fear/doubt!

We have had enough of you!

believing in me,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Get excited, beloveds. Disappointment ONLY visits those who are worthy. Disappointment ONLY shows her face to those who simply REFUSE to give up. Be encouraged.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU

God knows I’m tired.

I’m tired.

God knows.

God knows I’m tired.

Tired of:

The fight.

Period.

Why must life be so haaaaaaard!

Ack.

I fight on.

Why?

Because I am tired of running away when things are tooooooooooooooo hard.

I’m tired of believing for everyone’s dreams but my own.

I’m tired of comfort eating my way through grief and loss.

I’m tired of seeing my life through the limiting gaze and perspective of others.

I’m tired of pretending I’m NOT tired.

I think I shall rest today so I can continue to fight for my heart and my dreams.

tired,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: It’s okay to be tired. Rest. Get back in the game. You only lose when you give up. We got thangs to do.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU

♥ Heart check Friday.

It’s Friday.

It’s Fri-yay!

It’s about to be rest day.

Take the rest of this day to rest:

Your mind.

Wrest your mind from ALL that has been worrying you.

Wrest your heart from all that has been scaring you.

Wrest your spirit from all that has been fatiguing you.

You have done your best.

You have given your all.

Let this be enough.

Remember, you ARE enough!

Be encouraged.

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Rest.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU

Fear: An old foe/friend came to visit.

I’m afraid.

Will admit this off top.

I have done my best to not get down on myself. Much.

I have allowed myself to FEEL this terribly terrifyingly mystifying fear.

For days. Until. Ah! Until had to show up.

Until:

I realized I was listening to a bunch of lies.

Why?

Because I was, I AM doubting ME. Not so much my circumstances but my ability to overcome them.

Ah.

I tell myself I am too old.

I tell myself it will never happen for me.

I tell myself your posse will never show up for you.

Today, I arose and told lies and fear to shut the hell up and to take the hell with them.

At that time, fear became my friend. A reminder that I CAN. That I WILL. That I am loved. That I am NOT alone!

Ha!

I choose.

Hhmm.

God and Life are super smart. They know fear will drive you to THE one thing it can never defeat or stand upon.

Huh? You haven’t figured out what THE 🗝 key is to defeating fear?

Your heart is screaming the answer, beloveds. I shall reveal tomorrow, maybe, if you come calling. It’s the one Aha! you really need to discover for yourself. It will mean more.

If your current circumstances have you doubting, down and afraid…*shrug*

It’s okay. That fear, that foe, will soon turn into your friend. It will cause you to fight for you and will teach you many lessons.

In the meantime, KNOW:

You CAN.

You WILL.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU

standing,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Be encouraged. We got this.