Category: Inspiration

Afterbirth.

“I should have kept the afterbirth and thrown the rest away” – words spoken, from a mother’s lips. Words that could never be. Words that should have never been…said.

Words that shaped EVERY step, every way, of life, or lack thereof, moving forward.

After.

Birth.

Two words, which bore:

Pain.

Doubt.

Helpless.

Hopeless.

I spent many years, decades, trying to wipe the ‘less’, from the mess, thereafter, I felt my life was.

It, was worthless.

Therefore, I, was worthless.

After, birthed a lifelong pursuit, to earn love back:

From, God.

From, Life.

From, mom.

From, the whole damned world.

My world, now damned, became a damned fight to let this world know I was worth a damn!

Dammit!

I matter, my heart shouted!

Do you, doubt jeeringly stated, EVERY step, there…after.

After, ah, after!

After, I prayed for a do over.

After, I prayed for a before.

A before, where after, had never been spoken.

A before, where after, had never happened, and had never, 💔 broken, this ♥ heart, of mine.

To be continued…

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Hang in here, with me. I promise you shall cheer, by journey’s end. Til then, KNOW beloveds, that you are NOT the things that have happened upon you. You are NOT the pain, inflicted upon you. You are NOT your pain.

Remember alway:

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being… YOU

Adjust…

Adjust… https://www.instagram.com/reel/Cwhk5okI52O/?igshid=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Adjust…

Your attitude.

Your days is in YOUR hands, beloveds. Make the grass as green as you like! You don’t need someone else’s day/life. Live yours. Enjoy, today. Okay? Asking for a Friend.

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: What the world you still doing here waiting for the note?! Get to writing your own bestseller of a life!

Perseverance: I want to quit. So what?

I want to quit.

So what?

I’m TIRED, of reaching out, only to hear silence, only.

So what?

I’m EXHAUSTED, from trying to exhaust every option.

I started this piece, days ago. I quit on it, days ago…lol.

Actually, was saving it to finish up, today. I needed a break.

In fact, I put the brakes on my try, for a bit.

It’s important, beloveds, to take the time to get off the world, and rest, just a bit.

I rested. Restlessly. I told myself I got thangs to do! Still, my heart demanded that I be still. It can be soooooooooooooooo hard, to not use effort, to get what I want and need. Yes, it takes full effort and try but the TRY is the point. The outcome, is not up to me. ALL I can and must do is to try and wait, patiently, for the outcome to live and move and have it’s being.

I am watching the third round of The Tour Championship. The first two days, folks were making birdies every where. Today, they are all pressing, stressing, and shooting their way OUT of winning. Pressure can and will do that, won’t it?

I am learning, to not put pressure on the outcome. I am learning to just ask, try, work and be all I can be and leave the rest to God, to Life, to The Universe, to fam, to friends, to my job, to my community, to respond in whatever way They/they need to. Takes the pressure off Them/them, off me, off TRY.

Leaving peace, in place of, stress.

Leaving joy, in place of, try.

Leaving hope, in place of, doubt.

Leaving laughter, in place of, tears.

I want to quit.

So what?

I CHOOSE.

Keep going, beloveds.

Take your feels with you, if need be

going/growing with you,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Remember:

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU.

Today, I will.

Today, I will.

Nuff said.

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Keep your promises, today. Especially ones you made to YOU. Either you will or you won’t. Enough wasting ⌚ time with wondering. Do or don’t do. Enough waiting for others. Love on you. Now. Today. You have everything you need to have an uproariously, joyful and joy-filled day.

Don’t get mad at God, Life or The Universe if you choose to wallow in happenstance. Be sure to happen, to your day.

Leave the day impressed with all you have done to shape, sharpen and reshape your world. You are NOT a dame or damsel, in distress. Start causing havoc on ALL the things holding you back. Get going…

That thang that you do: Turn the page on yesterday.

Yesterday is over.

Whew!

Time to:

Turn, the page.

Start, a new one.

Another day has arrived.

We can write whatever we want.

We can BE, whatever we choose.

We can be any character we choose, in THIS day.

Forget about yesterday. It did what it did.

Focus on THIS day. YOUR day. Doing that thang only YOU can do.

Haven’t you learned yet, beloveds?

These tests, though trying, are just…tests.🤷‍♀️

So, I spent most of yesterday in frustrated/sad/mad tears?

So what?

I wrote, still.

I enjoyed my ☕ coffee, still.

I laughed with my friend, still.

I annoyed, er, cut up with my big bro, still.

I watched old TV shows, still.

Old TV shows watched me sleep, still.

I tiredly ate a half can of tuna and crackers, still.

Long story short, beloveds:

I LIVED, with intention, still.

We get ONE day. And, we know not if we will have the day, in it’s entirety. Snatch some kind of joy from EVERY day.

Keep doing that thang that only YOU were born and called to do and be. If YOU were not crucial, why the world would the world be wasting so much of it’s time trying to convince you of the supposed nothingness you are?!

Turn the page on yesterday.

Today has arrived, present(s) in tow.

leaving yesterday behind,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Whew! Nuff said. Keep collecting diamonds…

That thing that YOU do.

What is it, beloveds, that thing that YOU do?

That weird thing?

That loud thing?

THAT thing, deep inside, The Universe has so patiently been trying to pry, from your fearful hands?

Yes, beloveds, THAT thing?

You keep THAT 🗝, 🔒 locked away, where only you can see.

Afraid, THAT, meaning you, will be:

Ghosted.

Rejected.

Dismissed.

Found wanting.

Yet, your heart, has been wanting to…be.

It’s time,beloveds, to start doing THAT thing that only YOU were called and meant to do and be.

Let the haters, hate.

Be you.

Let the world laugh.

Surely, beloveds, the last laugh 😂 SHALL be yours!

Ha!

Let’s go!

The Universe awaits.

We CAN.

We already HAVE!

YYYAAAAAAAAAAASSS!

doing that thang only I can do,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: There are so many bloggers who I enjoy. I grow soooooooooo much. I wish I had more time to soak in all the words that are posted each day. Keep writing. Keep on liking posts, yall. It keeps the bloggers encouraged. Yes, we also need to be encouraged. We wonder if we are talking to ourselves, only, if folk aren’t giving a like every now and again.

So, thanks for those who take a second to like. I understand those who don’t as you could spend all day liking this, that and the other thing.

Rest, today.

Rest, today. https://www.instagram.com/reel/Cwb09GrIbc8/?igshid=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Rest.

You have done your best.

Rest, now.

Tomorrow will look after itself.

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Last one, I promise. I think.

Okay, last one, beloveds.

This was such a discouraging day, I couldn’t let it go by without telling someone to be encouraged.

My age has been lying to me ALL day. 😂 Laughing at me and telling me it’s much too late for me and my insignificant voice and dreams.

Which is why I have been filling inboxes letting folk know to tell age and doubt to kick rocks.

I may never get where I am trying to get. Hopefully, some of yall will make it boosted up on my shoulders.

Either way, we win, eh?

Life is good. Even when the going is tough enough for you to scream ow!

Ow!

Think I will keep staring at my sand art thingies and keep dreaming. I enjoy annoying disappointment by my try. Frustration got tired of me saying ‘so what’ and went to sit on the curb with anger, and anxiety. I kicked EVERYTHING out of my mind, heart and spirit that was trying to suck my joy.

Be encouraged.

And the peanut gallery said:

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU

here STILL,

Cassandra

Note: You already know what I am going to say. Go love someone. Starting with you.

Keep pressing through the hard.

Keep pressing through the hard. https://www.instagram.com/reel/CwgONRfIpIH/?igshid=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Nuff said.

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Keep going. Geez, life. Cut us some slack wouldja? Asking for a friend….

Emergency heart check ❤

Just checking on you.

Why?

Because MY Monday has started out rough. Not so much of the same old, same old. It’s the fact that it’s the same old, same old that has me a bit bummed.

I found myself looking at the outcome, or lack thereof, of my try. This morning, I am in NO mood, to give two hoots about patient waiting.

So, I called my twin.

Vented.

I called my big bro.

Vented.

Texted a dear friend.

Vented.

Told The Universe to tell God I was mad and tired of waiting! Help me make it do what it do or leave me alone!

Vented some more.

Had a cup of coffee.

Told Disappointment and Discouragement to get the hell out of my life!!

I got notification that there were 39 views to my blog. Felt like a moron. Told myself that was 39 times someone heard they were loved and not alone!

Ha!

I just want to tell someone to not give up. I had to tell myself this morning. These words mean something. At least to me. I’m trying.

Fresh hell.

Keep going, beloveds.

Your words matter.

Your try matters.

Especially when it doesn’t seem or feel like it.

The Universe WILL move when it’s time. Hurry up, though! Geez!

discouraged but not,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe