Who is this me that I see staring back at me?

Who is this?

Who is she?

Wo are you, I ask?

This me.

Staring back at me.

She is old now.

Was she ever young?

Who are you, I ask?

Who AM I, she wonders back.

Who am I, I wonder?

As I blunder.

Making my way.

MY way.

Through this vast thing called life.

There are days I know.

Other days, I know not.

I know not what, or who, or why, or how this me came to be.

Who is this me that I see staring back at me?

God knows.

He’s not tellin’. Says that I have to figure me out.

Crap.

figuring me out,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Words woke me up. They always do. Hurry, they said. Hurry! I hurried. The only problem, beloveds, is I rarely, if ever, know what they are going to say.

This is what came into being. This. These words. Yet, another iteration of…me.

Who is this me that I see staring back at me?

Ah.

Aha!

Keep allowing your dreams to wake you up. Demanding. Asking. Showing you…YOU!

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Frfr: For real? For real!?

Me: For real?

God: For real.

Me: For real?!

God: For real.

Me: Wow!

Life: What He say?! What did He say?!

The Universe: *whispers to Life*.

Life: For real?

The Universe: For real.

Life: Wow.

The Universe: I know.

Huh?

You wanna know what He, what God, told me this morning? He tells me this every morning. And, EVERY morning, it just blows what’s left of my tired, sometimes disbelieving mind.

Huh? Whatcha say? You want to know, to hear what He tells me, EVERY day?

K:

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Yep, blows my mind, beloveds, EVERY day. It’s why, I must tell you, on the daily, on the regular that you are loved and not alone.

How amazing is that!!!!!!!??????

*hugs self*

*hugs the whole of the world*

I so wish more folks knew how much they were loved. Ah, that I could tell the whole of the world. Since, I can’t yet reach them all, how about you help me out, eh, beloveds?

Keep on being you, would you please and thanks. Asking for A Friend.

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: I can’t think of a more awesome message than that. I have spent a delicious night wrapped in The Arms of Love. Fantastic. Be encouraged. Keep on keeping on. Keep trying. Yes, I know. It gets old. Too bad. We got thangs to do. Get to doing thangs with me. Let’s go, people!

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

We are more.

We are more, beloveds.

Much more than a number.

Much more than click bait.

Much more than a paycheck.

Much more than a like.

Much more than a subscription.

Much more.

We are:

Worthy.

Worthwhile.

Worth it.

We can:

Be.

Have.

Do.

Why?

Just because we are.

Period.

Nuff said.

End of story.

I have been studying and studying and studying and studying. Rinse. Repeat.

The more I have learned, beloveds, the more I have learned what I do, what I love, what I aspire to DO does not have a pot of gold at the end of the financial 🌈 rainbow.

That said, NOTHING is more priceless to me than these words:

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

It saddens me how many folk who don’t hear this on the regular. It keeps me up at night.

I ask God EVERY day/night what I can do. I ask The Universe EVERY day/night what I can do. I ask Life EVERY day/night what I can do.

This is the time of year that’s the hardest. Work becomes super busy. My hands super tired. My mind, from work, exceedingly exhausted.

I want to write and just toooooooooo tired. Yet, how can I not?

There are too many folks who are judging themselves because of a past they never asked for.

There are too many folk alone because of thinking themselves unworthy because of what they don’t possess.

There are too many folk who are bleeding to death in plain sight. Hidden behind glass walls prettily made up so folks can’t see the hurt, the sad, the angry, the lonely inside.

We are more.

We are.

God, I am trying to be more. Open the windows of heaven for me.

asking as Your Friend,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: I wish I knew how, beloveds. Until I find out, I give the oyster crackers I have/am. I wish I had baskets and baskets of bread where I could feed the world. Ah, God, why You pressing me so? Make it so or leave me to lead my small life. Stop telling me I can change the world with MY words. Ack. Crap.

Be encouraged. Why? Because, I may need you to encourage me.

Egads! How morbid was that?!😳🤷‍♀️

We are more, beloveds. Embrace you. ALL of you. Enjoy you. ALL of you. Let this world see you. ALL of you. There are folk who will love you for the rest of your days. Let ’em in please and thanks. Asking for A Friend.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

I did not want to laugh today. I did.

I did not want to laugh today.

I did.

I did not wish to tell jokes today.

I did not feel like starting again today.

I did.

I did not care to have to care today.

I did.

I did not need to share my hurt with my sis today.

I did.

I wanted to run away and hide today.

I didn’t.

Not today.

Will I tomorrow?

Beats me. I am living one day at a time!

going even when I don’t want to,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: I woke up in a vaguely annoyed mood. I have not been able to sleep much. Work has been ssoooooooooooooooooooooooo much work. Too much, in fact. Life has been soooooooooooooooo much work. Much too much, in fact. Remaining steadfast and hopeful has been sooooooooooooooooo much work. Much, much tooooooooooooooo much, in fact…*sigh*.

I am also vaguely annoyed as I am unable to take a long drive. I have not driven my car in forever and need to have her serviced and possibly a new battery. Finances, time, finances AND time, has been getting in the way of that.

To be blunt, finances AND time are also getting in the way of my dreams!!! Ack!! Crap!!

To be more truthful, I am soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo tired of finances and time getting in the way of my dreams!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*sigh*

Be encouraged. Especially, when you feel the most discouraged/disappointed/annoyed/fill in the rest.

I love you.

So does He.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Geeez!: Where did YOU come from?!

Me:: Geeez!

God: You rang?

Me: Where did YOU come from?!

God: I am always near. I always hear. Even when you don’t think Me around.

Me: Geeez!

God: Yep.

Me:….hhmmm. Do You mean You were around when I kinda/sorta really messed up that one time with that one thing or other?

God: Yep.

Me: Wow.

Life: Wow. And, He stuck around after THAT?! Not saying…

The Universe: Wow. That was a doozy. Just saying…

God: Yea, I told her NOTHING would separate My Love from her.

Me: Even THAT!?

Life: Even THAT!?

The Universe: Even THAT!!!!?

God: Especially THAT. Anyone can love when loving is easy. True and lasting love loves no matter what. Yes, there are consequences but love ALWAYS loves.

Me: True that.

Life: True that.

The Universe: True that.

God: So, what we/are you so upset about?

Me:…*shrug*…thinking of Your Love made me forget why the world I was so whatever the world I was. Your Lap chases away my everythings.

God: Beloved, you ARE My Everything.

Me: Awww, God.

Life: Awwww.

The Universe: Awwww.

mooning cuz I am loved,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note:

Isn’t it nice to know we are never alone? Life can feel so very lonely. The heart needs to be seen. The heart needs to be loved. The hardest to be known.

The whole trick to life is knowing we are loved the not alone. This is why this blog exists. This is why exists. To let you know you are loved and you are not alone.

Period. End of story. Your life IS the greatest story ever told in God’s Book. In His Eyes.

Just because you are currently looking at your tender heart through warped/stained/smeared glasses, does not mean God/Life/The Universe looks at you this way.

Ease up on you, beloveds! Enough judging your heart so blasted harshly! Enough!

How much longer, beloveds, will you get on you for not being where you thought, where you hoped, where you imagined you would be?

I have to remind myself of this. On the daily. On the regular. It is a pppppaaaaaaaaaain, I tell you! To keep on keeping on.

I fight ME, beloveds. EVERY day. EVERY DAMNED DAY MY BLASTED DREAMS DON’T COME TRUE ALREADY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Whew.

Keep going, okay? You are builiding such a legacy the whole of the world shall see it long after your last steps have been taken.

Go on now. We got thangs to do!

doing thangs with you,

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

There is beauty within us.

There is beauty with us.

Within ALL of us.

It’s hard to believe, at times. The world is appearing to be sooooooooooooooooo very dark.

For the past few months I have been researching what content the world will/wants to receive. Alas, beloveds, the world appears to crave all manner of foolishness and awful.

What sells, apparently, is piling as much grossness, mockery, cruelty, harshness, unbelief to as many folks as who can press send or open an app or social media account.

The content creators who are making the most money are wreaking the most havoc. They have embraced the mindset in which the ends justify the means.

“Make your bag(money)!”

“Do you. Don’t worry who gets hurt”.

“They should not have been gullible enough to believe my hustle(lies)”.

“They should have known this is/was too good to be true.”

“I’m getting mine.”

“You owe me.”

“Life owes me.”

“The government owes me.”

“Family owes me.”

“I don’t have to.”

“Take whatever you want.”

“Climb the ladder. Climb over whoever gets in your way.”

*sigh*

It’s high time we all got back on the high road. I can’t force folk to go. I can only make the choice to stay on the high road. And, to pray, others turn from their foolishness and join me.

There IS beauty within us. We just have to choose to express our beauty. Enough flashing the ugly.

Life is short. Choose to care for others. Choose to turn from profitable things that only profit foolishness and destruction.

Rant over. Let’s get on with planting this world with our beautiful, eh beloveds?

There is not enough money to make me choose to tear the world down to make a 💵 dollar more than I have now. I am doing my best to leave the world a better place than whence I found it. How about you?

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Um, the whole piece was a not. Sheeesh.🤣♥️🔥🥰

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Motivation can kick rocks today.

I’m not motivated.

Not today.

So what?

I fight on.

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: I told motivation to kick rocks today. Motivation told me to shut up. Yikes! I fight on.

Yesterday was the first day of spring. It still looks and feels like winter. Feelings have nothing to do with it. Today feels like a year long already. I got up early. I am hoping to run into my dreams today. If you see them, tell them I am waiting.

I suppose I should say something inspiring here. Insert something inspiring here. Asking for A Friend.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Give new a chance.

I used to be set in my ways.

I fight wanting to stay set in old ways.

Take, for example, my sports. There are certain commentators I like. I have watched them for years.

I never cared for new commentators. I didn’t want to give them a chance. I knew it wasn’t fair. I was used to what I was used to.

I told myself to give new folks the chance I have been wanting the world to give to me.

I have been forcing myself to not put folk in a box. I told myself to stop predetermining how I think they will be. To just let them BE! I told myself I would NOT judge them. Because of their age. Or, by MY perception of how much they may or may not know.

I have been enjoying things from THEIR perspective. I am finding new enjoyment by doing this.

I have been working on doing this in as many areas as I can.

It has been refreshing to SEE the good in others and not the what in the fresh hell is that?!😳

Life is short. Yes, we need to hold ourselves and each other accountable for our stupid. We also have to allow room for each other’s stupidity. 😆♥️

Be encouraged. If no one has told you today: I love you.

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Give new a chance. You’ll be glad you did.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

What we are not going to do.

It’s okay to be discouraged.

What we are not going to do is give up.

It’s okay to be disappointed.

What we are not going to do is walk away.

It’s okay to feel defeated.

What we are not going to do is give in.

Disappointment IS disappointing. It is.

Defeat IS discouraging. It is.

But, what we are not going to do is to turn our backs on our dreams. No way. No how.

Can I be honest? Yesterday, I fought my level best to keep myself encouraged. I was mad. At me. I told myself I was a big dope for not knowing HOW yet and still. Crap.

Then, I told myself to shut up and go have a cup of ☕ coffee. It helped.

Change takes time. A lifetime. Nothing short of that will do.

Be encouraged. Keep at it. Keep drinking coffee and eating chicken strips. A weird combo, to be sure. It’s working for me. I think…lol.

trying through this trying time,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: If you are tired of fighting up your mountain, take a break and help someone up theirs. You can keep them company. Let’s go find someone in need of cheer, eh?

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

I told myself to be encouraged.

Fear showed up.

Fear was loud.

I told myself to be encouraged.

The way was long.

The way was hard.

I told myself to be encouraged.

The road was long.

The road seemed endless.

I told myself to be encouraged.

Be encouraged. Fear only gets loud when victory is at hand.

I wanted to argue with 55 tonight. I wanted to tell her that she was too old and that my time has passed.

My dreams told me to shut up and go have a cup of coffee.

Care to join me?

still believing in me,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Don’t give up when fear comes around. Tell it to shut up and go have a cup of coffee ☕ or 🍵 tea. You CAN. We WILL.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!