Category: Hobbies

Real talk: Take the time.

I wanted chicken strips.

I did NOT want to take the time to preheat the air fryer.

I tossed in aforementioned chicken strips into the aforementioned and cold airfryer. Smh.

You know what had happened…*sigh*.

The chicken strips were NOT my usual crispy.

I was crispy!

Until…*sigh*…Yikes! and Egads! reminded me I had gotten with lazy and decided not to preheat the air fryer.

Real talk, beloveds. Do NOT get with lazy and take the time to do the things that need done in the time it will take to get them crispy.

Sheesh, Cassandra. Get it together. Speaking of which, I have yet another tale to tell. brb.

fixing to tell it,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: You are loved and not alone. I am in too much of a hurry to…hahahahaha. Kidding:

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU

Perspective.

Long time, no see.

Long time, no writing for me.

Life, has, well, been life, here lately.

So much so that I got down, from the world merry go round, so I could FINALLY, see what I thought about life, about MY life apart from what I have been told by parents, churches, the world, real friends, false friends, and myself.

Perspective. I need it. I NEED it. I don’t know where it has gone. I am tired of doing what I am doing at work.

I love my job. It’s just not enough anymore. I can no longer hide amongst the comfort and safety of my job.

I no longer want to be safe. I want to be out there doing doing ridiculous writing things. Those ridiculous writing things don’t pay the bills. I imagine every creative person feels the same way.

Fresh hell. I don’t want to have to grow up. I want to stay a child dreaming childish things like I can change the entire world with my words.

Perspective. I’m trying to tell the adult in me to keep being an adult and stop thinking like a child.

Meaning…. Give up on your dreams at last and shut up.

I don’t know how.

I don’t know how to give up on these dreams.

I don’t know how to make these dreams come true.

Crap.

Around the same argument I go. 30 years plus and counting.

I wish my quitter would quit.

My heart told me to shut up and keep going.

I told my heart to kick rocks. My heart said no.

Crap.

I told The Universe to get someone else. The Universe said no.

Crap.

What do I do with me now?!

??,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Be encouraged. Crap.

You are loved. You are NOT alone. Keep on being… YOU

I wish someone had told me…

I wish someone had told me…

So I am telling you:

I wish I would have believed you…sooner.

I would have:

Taken, chances.

Taken a chance, on me, on my dreams.

Taken, the time.

Taken the time, for me, for my dreams.

Ah, I wish I would have believed in you…sooner.

It’s okay to.

It’s okay to…

Lose, your sense of humor. Things are not always funny.

It’s okay to…

Lose, your perspective. Things are not always clear.

It’s okay to…

Lose your way. God is NEVER lost.

It’s okay to…

Lose, your mind. For God has not given us the spirit of fear but of power and of love and of a sound mind.

It’s okay to…

Lose, your want to. Your want to won’t always want to. So what? We do because we CHOOSE TO, not when we feel like it.

Its okay to…

To lose hope. Sometimes, you have to lose ALL your hope, in to find hope, once again.

It’s okay to…

Lose. Winning tastes so much sweeter,  after your millionth loss.

It’s okay to.

It’s also okay  NOT to!

You SHALL be okay, either way!

Keep going.

going with you,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: I wish someone had told me sooner so I am telling you now:

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being… YOU

Say so.

When it hurts.

Say so.

When you don’t know.

Say so.

When you hurt.

Say so.

When you don’t understand.

Say so.

When you don’t want to.

Say so.

When you want to.

Say so.

When the answer is yes.

Say so.

When the answer is no.

Say so.

When you are sad.

Say so.

When you are thankful.

Say so.

When you are discouraged.

Say so.

When you are being loved and appreciate the loving.

Say so.

When you feel left out.

Say so.

When you are ready to leave.

Say so.

When you want them to stay.

Say so.

When you need to hear the words.

Say so.

When you don’t have words to say.

Say so.

When you don’t know why.

Say so.

I am:

Tired.

Lonely.

Grateful.

Hungry.

Hopeful.

saying so,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: I did not want to do today. I did today. Last night, I told sis I did not want to do tomorrow. Then, I told myself ‘so what’. I’m thankful/glad I pushed past my sad/grief. This will always be a tough time, I suspect. Losing mom on Christmas Morning 2016 still feels like yesterday. STILL. Still, I rise, as Maya Angelou told us all to.

If you are going through, just now….*shrug*. Keep going through. This time SHALL pass. The Universe/God/Life is interested in how YOU will be AFTER the tests and trials have passed. The tests and trials are of no consequence. In the height of them, they feel as though they are insurmountable and shall never pass. Ha!

Hang in there, beloveds. Stay in the fight. Yes, the fight gets exhausting. Remain. Strive. Grow. Move. Live. Whether you feel like it or not. Tell your feels to shut it!

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU.

I find myself…

I find myself…

Afraid.

Alone.

Annoyed.

Annoyed with being afraid and annoyed.

Fresh hell.

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: I have NEVER needed to hear these words more:

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

God told me no.

Me: Take these dreams away from me. I don’t know what to do with them.

God: NO.

Me: Give up on me then.

God: God, no!

Me: Take away these desires then. They are too hard to carry unfulfilled.

God: NO!

Me: Fresh heckamiah…

God: Hang in there.

Me: NO!

God: Hold on.

Me: No!!

God: Be encouraged.

Me: Crap! How can I argue with that?!

holding/hanging on,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: When you reeaaallllllly want to quit, NNNNNNOOOOOO!!!!!!

Okay, let’s keep going. We got thangs to do. Life is tough right now. So what?! Keep going. Embrace the hard. I am fixing to have a cup of coffee and talk to mom in my heart. I miss her. Don’t forget to love on you.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being… YOU

You matter.

I enjoy looking at this saying. It makes me smile. I like to share it, from time to time.

You matter.

Yea, I am talking to YOU!

Oftentimes, folk look around and think others are more worthy of time/attention/love.

You are equally as deserving.

I just wanted you to hear it today:

You matter.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Nuff said.

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: My heart just won’t leave me alone. Keeps saying there are a bajillion folk who don’t feel and know they are loved. I love you. Love you back, okay? Asking for A Friend.

You don’t have to be strong all the time.

You don’t have to be strong all the time.

You don’t have to know everything at once.

You don’t have to feel like it all the time.

You don’t have to.

Ah.

Aha!

It’s a good thing we don’t have to. Is am I strong today. I am angry.

to be continued…

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: If I tell you I’m angry I can no longer pretend everything is okay….*sigh*

You are loved. You are NOT alone. Keep on being… YOU

This is your time.

When I was 8 years old, God told me He had things for me to share with the world. He did not tell me what those words were. He did not tell me when my time would be. He just said He had thanks for me to share with you.

Since that time, I have been:

Wondering.

Wandering.

Wanting.

Whining.

Losing.

Living.

Learning.

Laughing.

Healing.

Hoping.

Helping.

Holding.

Standing.

Falling.

Believing.

Doubting.

Working.

Lazy.

Scared.

Fearless.

Lost.

Found.

Rinse.

Repeat.

Until, God called and said:

It’s your time. Tell them for ME. EVERY day.

Beloveds:

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being… YOU

His and yours,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: This is YOUR time, beloveds. How do I know? Because you are reading these words. I have been waiting for YOU for decades. Go on, now. Do what your heart has been clamoring to do for the whole of your life. You CAN. You WILL. You MUST. Be encouraged.

Tell them everyday.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU.

I tell someone this EVERY day. Every single one. Why? Life is short. Folk need to HEAR they are loved and not alone.

Someone is waiting on YOU, beloveds.

Someone is waiting for your:

Love.

Thoughts.

Care.

Laughter.

Joy.

Someone is waiting to help carry your sad.

Someone is waiting.

Ah.

Aha!

Get on out there, beloveds.

Someone is waiting.

Starting with me.

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Life is short. The world is in desperate need of love. As are we, aren’t we? My lonely has been awfully lonely this week. I have also enjoyed my solitude. A paradox. Speaking of paradox, I have tater tots waiting…