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Real talk: Go to sleep on it.🤬

I was mad.

Reeeeeeeaaaaaaaalllly mad.

Life made me a 🍋 meringue 🥧 and promptly smashed it in my face!

😳🤬😳🤬

I was mad.

Mad enough to do something incredibly short sighted.

Mad enough to do a permanent thing to cover a temporary happening. Yes, this happening was unfair. Yes, this temporary happening was NOT just.

Yet, it happened. What’s more, beloveds, God, Life  AND The Universe all waited, to see what I would DO.

I fussed a bit.

I fumed a lot.

I made ridiculous proclamations and protestations for a time.

Then, I stood on my FAITH.

Then, I rested on His Strength.

Then, I laughed with The Universe.

Then, I told life ha!

Then, I went to sleep.

Peacefully.

Joyfully.

Hopefully.

I worried NOT about tomorrow. I plan on having a FANTASTIC tomorrow.

Why?

I can do nothing about today’s happening. It happened. So what? I got thangs to do.

doing thangs,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Don’t let what happens to you make you into something you are not. It’s NOT what happens TO you but what you allow to happen IN you as you respond to said happenings.

Be encouraged.

Life is not often fair. So what? You got thangs to do. Get to doing those things.

I CAN say that today’s happening has helped me to choose me and steer me towards doing something I had been hesitating doing for no other reason than fear. Ha!

Let’s go!

In case no one has told you today: I love you. So does He.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Stop judging God by your outcomes.

God loves us.

Period.

Not just when we are good.

Not just when things are sunshine and rainbows.

Folk judge God, ofttimes by what they have or don’t have.

I have to admit I used to judge God based upon the results of my prayers. A check mark, to the good, for answered ones. I check on the ‘He didn’t’ row, for the nos or silent ones.

A check mark when things went well. A check mark when things went downhill.

A check mark when I got praise at work. A check mark when work was being too worky.

I sowwy, God. That was NOT fair of me.

God doesn’t owe me a thing. God does NOT have to do a blessed thing for me. God is NOT My Consierge. SMH. I sowwy, Father. You deserved better.

I hate that churches now tie God’s Prosperity to how much we give, serve, do. God loves and will do simply because He loves us and said He would. Period. End of story.

I have let God off the hook.

I have also let folk off the hook. No one owes me anything. I appreciate what folks choose to send my way. If not, I love them because I love. Period. End of story.

I am also learning not to judge Life and The Universe by outcomes. Just because things don’t turn out like I think they should, does NOT mean I am on the wrong track.

We rarely see the big picture. We are too busy fussing over the close ups!….hahahahahaha!

I’m also trying not to judge ME, beloveds, based upon my outcomes. I can be a tough crowd. I am trying not be such a tough critic. Ow, Cassandra! Back up off yourself!

I am trying to be good to me. No matter the outcome. You do the same, beloveds. You owe yourself better.

asking for A Friend,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: I have been beating myself up something terrible the past few days because of a lack of results. I sowwy, Cassandra. I am trying to do better. SMH. Be encouraged. Stop giving yourself such a hard time. Things are as they should be. Asking for A Friend.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

God gave me a 🍋 lemon meringue pie. 🥧

I have been angry with God lately. I keep yelling, er, telling Him I need 💵 money, but He keeps giving me other things instead.

It turns out that EVERY time He has done this, it has been the very thing I have NEEDED but not what I have asked for.

Thank God.

Thanks, God.

Ah, God.❤️‍🩹❤️

The other week, when I had secretly given up, I told God I no longer believed in ‘friends’. Not for me, anyway. Turns out, you find out who your current crop of friends are NOT when tough times truly roll in.

After one more hurtache, er, heartache, I told God no!

I was done. I was no longer waiting foolishly, expectantly, hopefully for a friend to stop by and BE a friend.

That very day, someone I had not heard from I’m forever, reached out via email.

Ha, I told God. He can have His Cosmic Joke! I was NOT going to open my heart.

I opened my heart and let care in.

Beloveds, life is short. Don’t shortsight or shortside your life by closing yourself off when God does not come through HOW you think He should.

Do NOT turn away the care of a long lost friend or  loved one. Don’t make the returner jump through hoops to earn your attention. Let their return be enough.

I keep praying for funds so my needs can be met. God keeps meeting my needs by giving me everything but 💰 money.

Ah.

Aha!

I desire money, IN THE 🏦, in order for me to control my shelter, my safety, and my bearings. Money can never do that.

Ah, God. You are Wise. Help me to trust when the road is long, step and unknown.

Be encouraged, beloveds.

asking for A Friend,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: 🥧 ❤️‍🩹❤️🙏🥰

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Real talk: Don’t lay down on your 😡 mad.

I am 😡 mad.

Livid.

Angry.

Life is being super mean and lifery and I can either complain about it and give up or understand life just is NOT fair and keep it moving.

Angry, I snorted, fussed, fumed and pouted myself out of bed.

I made a cup of ☕ coffee.

I’m drinking said coffee and telling anger it has ten more minutes and then it is going to get the hell outta here as I have thangs to do and plan on having a fantastic tomorrow.

Why?

Because life is just too blasted short to remain angry over things we can do absolutely nothing about.

It hurts when life is being hurtful and we are unable to move from the spot The Universe has cleverly boxed us into.

Remain where you are, beloveds. Be angry, if needed. But be encouraged, have a cup of coffee ☕ and keep it moving. You got thangs to do.

I promised myself a few years ago that I would be sure to encourage others when I am being fought the most.

Why?

Because I need encouragement the most at those times and know how much it hurts to be ghosted, seemingly, by The Universe when life is just NOT being fair.

Hang in there.

asking for A Friend,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: I have eight more minutes of mad time. Who wants to indulge with me and help me hurl more 🍋 at The Universe?😡❤️‍🩹❤️

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

I am torn.

I am torn.

My heart wants to reach out and encourage folk to be encouraged.

Was handed a 🥣 of 🍋 this morning and am angry 😡 enough, STILL, to want to say “F- you!” to the damned Universe and I don’t like swearing.

😡😡😡😡!

Be encouraged, beloveds. Am just too angry/dismayed/disappointed to say more.

The Bible says be angry but sin not. So as NOT to sin, I am going to shut it and head to 🛏 early.

I am angry. I will have to rinse and repeat tomorrow the today I did NOT want to have to do.

🤬!

Keep going, beloveds. Even when you are angry enough to chew nails and pelt 🍋 at The Universe.

asking for A Friend,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Someone enter some nice encouragement here for the rest of us. Asking for me.🤬😡😭😳🤯💔😥❤️‍🩹❤️

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Good habits got me out of bed.

Good habits got me out of bed super early this morning.

Fresh heckamiah!

I wanted to spend another day feeling sorry for myself.

Good habits smacked me upside the head and told me I had thangs to do.

I got to doing thangs.

I made coffee.

I turned on my laptop.

I got to studyin’.

I got to learnin’.

I got to being about being about it.

Good habits would not allow me to go back to bad habits. Nope. Nada. No way, good habits said to me.

I’m thankful.

Continue to do that which you know to do, beloveds. Sooner or later, your good habits will be so ingrained you won’t be able to hide from life anymore.

being about it,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Do something towards your dream(s) today. Doesn’t matter what you do. Doesn’t matter how long you do. Just DO. Then just be…YOU! Asking for A Friend.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Life, we are having a 🎂 cake-date!

Ha!

I am calling a moratorium on sucking it up.

I am calling a time out on pulling oneself up by the 👢 bootstraps.

I am calling a halt to being a out being about it no matter the hard.

Ha!

*Cassandra tosses overboard ALL the 🍋 lemons folk have been carrying*

Beloveds,  just for today we are NOT taking the high road.

Today, we are allowing ourselves to FEEL. Badly if needed. Sad as necessary.

Our losses hurt. We are TIRED of hurting dammit!

We are EXHAUSTED from losing, from preparing to lose.

Fresh hell.

Today, we are having 🎂. A cake-date.

Beloveds, put down the weight and allow yourself permission to be human. We will deal with hard, tomorrow.

Today, we having 🎂!

Be encouraged. We shall get through what we need to get through…TOMORROW!

telling hard to kick rocks today,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: It’s okay to be weary from having to forever have to suck it up. It is what it is is terribly discouraging, depressing AND distressing, at times. That’s okay. We SHALL be okay. Tomorrow.

Be encouraged. Who else have treats for our cake-date? Asking for A Friend…

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

God trolled me.

Me: That’s cold.

God: 🤣🤗

Me: That is super cold.

God: I TOLD you.

Me: Didn’t anybody ever tell You it’s NOT nice to say I told you so?

God: Well, did I or did I not tell you?🤣

Me: Well yea.

God: So? Get it?!🤣. I said ‘so’. Add an ‘I told you and what do you get, beloved?

Me: I told you so?

God: Yea. 🤗🤣🥰. You must admit, beloved. I WAS right, right? I WAS right there, WITH you, as you walked these tough miles you INSISTED you could not do. Nope, nary a step, I recall you saying to me. Amirite?

Me: (trying not to smile)…okay, you were right.

God: I told you so! 🤗😆🍋🥰

Me: 🍋🍋🍋😆🤗🤣🥰

God: Keep going, beloved. I AM with you. I promised. I promise still. Do me a solid and make us a nice glass of 🍋 lemonade. Asking for A Friend.

Me: Real funny, ABBA. One has jokes I see.

God: I SEE you. I SEE your tears. They are precious in My Sight. As are you. I only tease those I love.

Me: You sure must love me an awful lot then!…*stamps foot*. You make it awfully difficult staying mad.

*Cassandra gathered up the last of her tears. She decided to add them with the 🍋 and see what they would make*

making lemonade still,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: When life hands you 🍋 lemons, beloveds, start hurling some at fear and anxiety and stress and inflation and bills and all that is getting in your way and keep it moving.

The way is hard. So what? We got thangs to do. Get to doing those thangs. In case no one has told you today: I love you. So does He. Asking for A Friend…

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

I told God I was NOT making any more lemonade.🤯

I have to laugh.

I had a mini mad with God.

AND The Universe.

AND Life.

Told Them I was NOT making any more 🍋 lemonade from these damned lemons They keep passing my way or allowing the damned fruit stand of life to send me!

Ack!

Drat it all!

*stomps foot*.

I called my twin.

Screamed and hollered.

Hollered and screamed.

Told sis I was only allotting myself two minutes of carrying on time. Life is too short to be wasting with anger that is not going to fix things or chang things.

*two minutes of hollering and screaming *

Please note, I kept the neighbors in mind so tastefully acted a fool in a quiet manner.

PSA: It’s incredibly difficult to carry on tastefully in a quiet manner when you are normally loud like me. Fresh hell.😆🥰

N-E-Waze, beloveds, I just stopped by to encourage anyone who is in the same enough already boat as me.

Be encouraged.

Be angry, if need be.

Be sad, if need be.

Be joyful, always.

Be hopeful, always.

Things are NOT as we feel. Feelings come and they go. Do NOT allow yourself to be steered to dark and non helpful places when your feels want to be extra feely.

Thing really WILL be okay. I promise.

In the meantime, I am:

Rooting for you.

Praying for you.

Hoping for you.

Loving you.

Keep going. You have so much ahead of you. Find something in your day to smile and laugh about.

asking for A Friend,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: I think God is neat. I let Him have it. Told Him I was FINALLY letting myself be mad at Him. Only lasted for a few minutes. He understood. Kinda hard to stay mad at Someone who loves this dope so much.🤣🥰

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Keep wading through the nos.

Today was frustrating.

I got another 50 million nos out of the way.

*sigh*

Be encouraged, beloveds. Keep going.

Yes is on the way.

I hope.

believing I think,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Spent an incredibly discouraging morning getting either told no or ghosted. I had a bit of a cry. Just a small one. I told God I am done for the day.

Keep looking up. Things are NOT how you feel…lol.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!