Category: Music

Day 3: The generator: Whose fault is it really?

Someone managed, somehow, to get a generator.

It wasn’t me.

Shhheeeeeeeuuuuuuooooootttttt!

The sound annoyed me. Ticked me off!

Why?

Because,  I could imagine folk who were being cooled, who had lights and enjoying near normal whilst I was swearing, er, sweating terribly, in the dark.

Fresh hell!!!

I got angry at God. HIS fault I didn’t have one!

Never mind He had been reminding me for months to research options for when lights may go out as it storms so frequently that lights going out are a when and not if.

Yea, beloveds, I was in the middle of a great debate about how God SHOULD have done this, that and the other thing.

God calmly countered He HAD asked ME to do the this, that and the other thing which would have, at the very least, kept me with a charged phone!

My bad, God. I sowwy.

Often, whilst things are still and quiet, God will ask us to do some seemingly strange things which can and does prepare us for bumpy roads ahead. It’s up to us to listen.

Now, I am not angry at my neighbors. I am grateful they have a bit of normal. My normal will never be normal, as it was…*sigh*.

I am using my time to prepare my chicklets for this new normal. Life changes. Life will change us if we let it. I plan on the change being permanently optimistic.

I am going to keep on living as best as I can.

I am going to keep on loving folk.

I AM GOING TO LOOK INTO GENERATOR OPTIONS!🤣🥲🤣

grateful/thankful for life,


Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Don’t beat yourself if you find yourself unprepared. Do what you can, now. Move forward, now. No need lamenting about what you didn’t do. Do. Now. Love someone. Starting with you.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Day 3: God, why am I still here?

Me: Why am I here? STILL?!

God: Why on earth would you ask?

Me: Why!? What USE am I? What GOOD am I doing? I am:

Old.

Fat.

Alone.

55!!

Broke.

Broken.

😥😥

God: You are many things to Me and others. You are:

Loved.

Seen.

Cherished.

Heard.

Valued.

Know yet not, beloveds, your value has nothing to do with your production or lack thereof, in YOUR eyes. My Eyes see you much differently.

Me: How so?

God: Great question! Keep asking. In the meantime, cut yourself some slack. Know that I love you and am right here with you, in this present darkness. Tell me another story.

Me: K. Once upon a time…

wondering what to do with me now,


Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: When sudden change comes upon suddenly, beloveds, hold on. Be encouraged. The world has turned upside down for me. Thanos has snapped his fingers. Ah, beloveds, the avengers SHALL show up for us. He promised. I believe God. Nuff said. In case no one has told you today: I love you.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Day 3: No reason to stop.


No reason to stop.

No storm shall stop me from pursuing my dreams.

No reason.

No!

I shall:

Press forward.

Press on.

Press through.

In the dark.

In the light.

In the rain.

I have thangs to do!

doing thangs,


Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Keep going, beloveds. We got thangs to do. Be encouraged. Though your steps falter, though your heart quivers, though your shoulders slump, lift up your head!

We CAN.

We WILL!

When this battery dies, I shall write, STILL, in my ♥ heart. I shall continue to endeavor to ever pen words of encouragement and love. Ah, beloveds, be encouraged. I love me some you.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Day 3: Afraid not, I’m afraid.

Fear: Aren’t you afraid?

Me: Afraid not, I’m afraid.

Doubt: Don’t you Doubt things will work out?

Me: Afraid not, I’m afraid.

Anger: Don’t you want to tell God to kick rocks for not protecting you?

Me: Afraid not, I’m afraid.

Fatigue: Don’t you want to give up on this dream fulfillment foolishness already?!

Me: Afraid not, I’m afraid.

Fear/Doubt/Anger/Fatigue: Well, why in the hell not??!!😠😡🤯😱

Me: Because, God has NOT given me a spirit of fear but of love and of a sound mind. More than enough for me. Anymore stupid/unnecessary questions?

🎤 drop.

Nuff said,


Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Be encouraged. Tell fear and the like to take two seats and kick rocks. Stand on your faith. You can do this…

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Day 2: Chicken strips and fries saved my life.

God: Make some chicken strips and fries.

Me: Now?! It’s after 1 in the morning!😴

God: Go make them anyway.

Me: K.

I was tired, beloveds. Super sleepy. For some reason, my spirit just would NOT let me go to sleep.

It was on me to go make some chicken strips.

I made chicken strips. The moment they were done the tornado 🚨 sirens lost their minds.

A bit after that…🌪 🌪 🌪…

They have estimated three 🌪 hit. 300 plus lines are down.

I am using this time to rest and reflect. Here is the latest text I sent out to fam/friends:

ALL I have thought about is checking on folk.

Life is short. Please, please, please think it nit strange all that is going on in your life right now.

LISTEN to the ridiculous and small things God asks you to do that may turn out to be life savers. I am enjoying my chicken strips and fries! In the dark. With God. With you.

Life is good. Even when it’s hard. Will send this the next time I turn on my texting phone.

You know, beloveds, it’s really interesting what we find essential when having to ration battery time. Ah, another post topic!😆

living life anyway,


Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: What a week I am having. 🚨🌪😳❤️‍🩹😥🔥🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏😭😱🤯🙏🙏❗️❗️😳🥺🤣😆😴🥰🥰

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Day 2: Am in my ‘so what?!’ phase.

Me: It’s 🔥 hot!

Me: So what?!

Me: I have no one to talk to.

Me: So what?!

Me: The phone is almost dead.

Me: So what?!

Me: NO one loves me. I am all alone. It’s hot dammit.


Me: So what?!

Me: I’m tired of being in the dark.

Me: So what?!

Me: It may take a week or more to get power.

Me: So what?!

Me: I’m missing the playoffs.

Me: So what?! Okay, so that IS kinda messed up.😭

Me:🥰🤣

Life is short, beloveds. When hare tosses you some super hard things, say ‘so what?!’ and keep it moving as best you can.

asking for A Friend,


Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Keep going. Everything will be alright.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Heart check Thursday.

It’s me.

Doing another heart check.

You don’t get enough heart checks, beloveds, in my opinion.

In truth, none of us do.

There used to be a time folk asked how we were feeling and actually cared about how we were feeling!

Now, folk don’t even waste the time asking how folk are feeling.

Speaking of…

How is YOUR heart, beloved?

You doin’ okay?

Has someone looked out for you today?

If not, tada! It’s me…lol.

Be encouraged.

I LOVE saying those two words…be encouraged. There is something awfully encouraging, to me, with those words. I don’t know why. Just always have been encouraged seeing those two words together.

I have been praying for you. ALL day. I keep asking for God to fill your heart with such love you can’t help but share the leftovers with all you come in contact with!

Ah, beloveds, be encouraged. Things will be okay. I sure miss hearing my mom telling me that everything will be alright. I could use those words now. I give them to you:

Everything WILL be alright.

In the meantime, you had best believe that you are loved and not alone. Keep being good to yourself. Get some exercise. Get plenty of rest. Get some fresh air.

I hear a cup of coffee hollering for me. Who wants to join me for a cup? Bring some cookies with you.

Asking for A Friend,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note:

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Repeat after me: I can do amazing things.

Repeat after me:

I can do amazing things.

I am amazing.

I can do life changing things.

My life is changing simply by me doing me to the best of my abilities.

I can do amazing things.

I have nothing to fear.

Yes, I shall fail.

Failing and falling comes with achieving amazing things.

I shall continue to amaze myself with my try.

I choose to see the beauty within me. Yes, I recognize that I may, at times, do some ugly things but I promise to do all within me to live, love and react with love.

I am amazing.

I can and will continue to do amazing things.

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Beloveds, you are amazing! You are! Ah, beloveds, lift up your heads. Know you are not alone. Life can feel awfully lonesome as we trudge up the hill called what the fresh hell. Fear not. Keep climbing. I climb with you. As does He. Let’s enjoy the journey, shall we? In case no one has told you yet today: I love you.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

You are all you need.

I’m working on a piece called ’30 years in the making’.

It has taken me 50 years to understand there is NOTHING I need to fulfill the dreams I have carried around all these years.

I wish my hard head had listened decades ago. Fear kept me silent. Fear kept me caged. Fear kept me from doing all the dumb things my heart has been longing to do for 30 plus years.

Yep, beloveds, I STILL want to do the same foolish, ridiculous, who in the world will care or believe this type of foolishness.

I STILL want to wake up, EVERY DAY, and let folks know they are loved and not alone.

I STILL want to spend my days praying for folk and daydreaming about sitting on the beach and yakking endlessly, with God, about the wonders of the sea.

I STILL want to create motivational videos and audio pieces in weird ways wondering who on earth will give two flying figs about what this old lady has to say!

I STILL want to wake up early, drink coffee with mom, write, write, write, write, until my fingers are tired. Rinse. Repeat.

STILL.

Now, I do those things. As much as I can. Free from fear. Now, I do those things and wonder if I shall be able to do them on a beach, yakking endlessly with God about the wonders of the sea. Ah, God. I hope!

Unti then, I write. I write. I write. And, I write.

Until then, I encourage. I love. I love. I love. And, I love.

Until then,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: You are all you need, beloveds, to fulfill all that is within you. You don’t have to have a mansion. You don’t have to have a bajillion million followers. You don’t have to have a million dollars. Just do you. Be you. The rest will come out in the wash.

I have NO idea if I will/shall ever walk out my dreams in real times. I hope. In the meantime, I am living my dreams. Right now. Writing. Encouraging. Loving. Ah, beloveds, enjoy your space and time. We get one shot at this thing. Make it a great one. In case no one has told you yet today: I love you.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Don’t focus on what you see.

Don’t focus on what you see, beloveds.

Focus on what you are trying to bring into existence.

See through the eyes of FAITH. Tell fear/doubt to kick rocks. REFUSE to allow your image to be clouded and viewed through the eyes of fear and doubt.

The unknown can be a frightful thing if you are not certain of your steps. That said, as long as you KNOW Who is taking care of the unknown, you can walk confidently.

I am doing my best to NOT focus on what I think I see. My perceptions are currently being clouded by bills, bills, bills and more bills. Makes it hard to focus on enjoying life and doing what I know to do and everything else WILL come out in the wash.

I was laying in bed, in tears, wondering if ever will ever come. I woke and told myself I will focus, as best I can, on what I can currently see and do.

In the meantime, beloveds, keep on keeping on. When will I stop saying this? When we have all crossed the finish line!

You CAN.

You WILL.

believing in and for us all,


Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Remain hopeful. Remain joyful. Laugh at doubt and fear and tell them to kick some rocks. Love someone. Starting with you. I got your back. God has us all.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!