I have been asking myself this question for the last little while.
Life is NOT fair. And? So? Now that we all know and understand this, beloveds, what are we going to do with this unfair life?
I plan on enjoying as many moments as I can. How about you?
asking for A Friend, Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe
Note: I have to laugh. I was just in the middle of writing a rousing piece about making the best of things. Suddenly, the television went out leaving me in darkness. Startled, I slapped out and knocked over a perfectly delicious cup of coffee โ.
Of course, said coffee landed all over my phone and favorite pair of slippers COMPLETELY DRENCHING MY FAVE SOFT, BLACK AREA RUG THAT IS NO LONGER SOFT DUE TO SPILLING SOME OF EVERYTHING ON THE STUPID THING ALL THE….
I allowed myself to be mad ๐ก for all of ten seconds. Then…….
Life is not fair. So what? What are you going to do with the life you have? Life is so worth living. Even in the hard parts. Be encouraged. Have an amazing week. Start over as many times as you need to.
I get to go scrub the carpet now. Life just ain’t fair, God. Smh ๐คฆโโ๏ธ.
I had a looooonnnng lecture with myself yesterday.
I was slightly disappointed and discouraged that my try isย not currently moving the financial needle.
Next weekend will be the first anniversary of the tornado ๐ช that visited last year. I told myself I am NOT going to start commemorating what happened.
Too often, beloveds, we set up a shrine over something that happened in the past. Things happen. Sometimes really, really, really hard things.
Through this terribly hard time, I have learned, in real time, that life happens. Period. It’s what we DO with our lives, AFTER the distraction/destruction/hard thing has happened.
God/Life/The Universe cares about what we DO with US after the AFTER.
Are we going to choose to be:
Bitter?
Angry?
Apathetic?
Apprehensive?
Motivated?
Determined?
Thankful?
Grateful?
What are we going to DO with our feelings?
Will we:
Give in to them?
Allow them to run the show and run our lives into the ground in order to “punish” whomever we are blaming for the happening?
Understand it’s okay to have feelings and give ourselves room to process, be angry, be sad, be mad, be frustrated, be afraid, by whatever we need to be for as long as we need to be it?
To this day, beloveds, I have to remind myself that it is perfectly okay that I needed all this time to heal. It’s okay that I was unable to start working when my former job advised I would have to. I wasn’t ready. I shouldn’t have been forced to choose between my job and my mental health.
I’m glad I chose my health. I’m glad I am giving myself time to chase ๐ฃ my dreams even though my steps appear to be leading to another dead end.
I keep choosing me. I keep choosing my try. I keep choosing faith.
As we speak, the television ๐บ keeps going out. The power is flickering. The thunder is rumbling.
I don’t know if I will lose power. I DO know what I have control over: My perceptions and my choices. Simple as that. I am fully prepared should the lights go out.
I trust that God will protect me during this latest storm. I trust.
Ah.
Aha!
Trust.
I am grateful, thankful for the tornado ๐ช, because it forced me to look down and see that I had been standing on a bedrock of hidden fear for years.I had to do the hard work of dismantlingย my foundation of fear, while rebuilding on FAITH, MY faith, my faith in HIM.
I am trying not to sound all preachy for all my nonbelievers peeps. Still, I just want to encourage folk to trust. Trust the process. Trust those you have built up as a source of support and hope.
Trust that you can and that you will.
Be willing to be led. Led by what/whom? Great questions! Keep asking!๐ค
You do NOT have to go through a catastrophe to make the needed changes in your life. Don’t wait until you find courage. You’ll never do it if that bd the case. Choose to do what you must. Choose to do what you can.
Keep on leaving your ๐ฃ mark and let the outcome fall where it may!
asking for A Friend, Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe
Note: Things will work out as they were meant to. I will leave things here as the storm is being a storm. Cracker Jacks and orange slices!(This is me ๐คฌ without ๐คฌ)…
I have spent a delicious few hours absolutely messing up EVERYTHING whilst trying to make new mini motivational videos.
What’s worse is I don’t know WHY!?? I’m doing the same things I was doing before. I think.๐๐ฅฐ๐คฃ
I just stopped long enough to encourage you to keep on messing up. We are NOT our messes. We are just making a few extra messes to clean as we grow.
Keep going.
asking for A Friend, Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe
Note: I keep messing up. I think I have used this saying before. I can’t remember….lol. A reminder to keep on keeping on no matter what. No matter how. No matter how long.
I wanted to encourage folk. Yet, I have been super tired.
These last few weeks have found me in bed more than out of it. Vertigo has been my constant companion and tormentor. Ack and sheeeeuuuuit.
I keep telling myself to be encouraged, Cassandra. I keep telling myself to keep on keeping on.
This morning, I told myself we will just try again. At first, beloveds, I wondered if I would even find words to say. Discouragement has been dogging my thoughts. I keep telling it to kick rocks and go away.
I found one word. Then, two. Then, a sentence. Then, a paragraph.
After a while, I forgot the spinning world. My heart began to refill itself as I concentrated on others.
I just stopped by to encourage someone to reach out to others. We all need one another. My lonely is not so lonely today.๐ฅฐ
I give myself permission to be me. I give myself permission to make a million mistakes today. I give myself permission to miss mom. I give myself permission to wonder why things are not moving forward.
I give myself permission to be tired. I give myself permission to be lonely. I give myself permission to be content being alone. I give my heart permission to feel whatever it needs to today.
Give yourself permission. Let yourself off the hook.