Category: Poetry

Hard: Okay really?!

Okay….

O….

…kay?!

Hhmm.

*pout*

*Cassandra stares at the letter that was certified and certifiably hard to read/stomach.*

Fresh what on earth and what the what the?!!

Whew!

Those and many thoughts crossed my mind upon receiving hard news on top of the hard day!

Okay, really, Universe?

Okay, REALLY, God?

Okkkkaaaaaaaay, reallllllllly, Life?

So what?!

Ha!

Life is short, beloveds. Keep it moving. Despite, in spite, because of, who cares how, who cares why.

No excuses.

You are alone.

So what?

You wish you were alone.

So what?

He did.

She wouldn’t.

So what?

Enough. No more excuses, okay?

Okay.

*Cassandra turns from the mirror and gets on with her life. She has thangs to do.*

doing thangs,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Be encouraged. I say this every day. Do NOT allow hard to make you quit. Not ever. No never. If you must go alone, go! The Universe will reward you. If you must love all by yourself, love! God will bless you. If you must fight despite your fear, fight! Life will assist you. Remember alway, beloveds:

You are loved

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being… YOU

Tell hard ha!

Hard: I’m here.

Me: HA! Bring it. I am here!

*Cassandra has some hard for breakfast and keeps it moving.*

You better ask somebody!

Life is short.

Life is hard.

So what?

No excuse to give up or give in.

Keep your act right acting right!

We do hard for breakfast, beloveds, don’t we?

I wish I had challenged hard more. I wish I would have embraced hard more. I wish I would have laughed more at hard.

I can’t change my past. All I can do is laugh at hard now.

Ha!

Move.

I have things to do!

doing the hard thing(s),

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Life is hard. So what? Enjoy it…

When hard is just too hard.

God: What?

Me: Life is being just too hard, too harsh, just now.

God: So what? Keep it moving.

Me: Wow. That was harsh.

Me: God, is being a bit harsh, just now.

The Universe: So what? Keep it moving.

Me: Well, that wasn’t very nice.

Me: The Universe, was not very nice, just now.

Life: So what? That’s Life. That’s The Universe. And, He’s God. Keep it moving.

Me: I sowwy.

keeping it moving,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Training was/is ten times harder than first imagined or thunk. So what? Train I shall. When the ow hurts, a bit too much, say ow, so what and keep it moving. We got thangs to do. Don’t allow your try to head to the nearest exit and comfort spot when hard is especially hard.

Keep going. Why? Why not?

Hard: Start BEFORE you start.

When going through something hard, it’s imperative to start BEFORE you start.

Start:

Your day, on the right foot/note. I told myself I would NOT allow anything to wreck my mood.

Your mind, in the right direction. I told myself:

I can.

I will.

I’ll try.

I will/may fail.

So what?!

Your body, on the right track. I had breakfast. I hydrated. I yakked with God and commiserated with The Universe. I listened to uplifting music.

Having started BEFORE I started found my day absolutely amazing. It flew past. I laughed. I messed up. So what?

Ah.

Aha!

Keep doing the hard thing. You are only making diamonds, in your 👟 shoe, as you walk up Joy Mountain. Get on up there, beloveds. We got thangs to do!

doing thangs,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Okay, um, like, yall supposed to be out there loving on folk and doing thangs, remember? Scat. Oh, yea, love someone. Starting with you. Be encouraged.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being… YOU

My life changed the day I decided to fight for me.

I work. Hard. I take much pride in working hard. I give my all. To, my job. To, others. To, The Universe. To, Life. To, God. Now, to/for ME.

Sadly, I used to put me last, if at all. For work and all else, I didn’t care how much or how many times I was inconvenienced or came upon a road block. I did my level best to conquer all.

For me, though, for my dreams, I hate to say this but just as soon as a stiff breezed rolled in, I rolled out. I showed out. I lamented. I carried on about not being seen, heard, loved or valued. Then, I took my toys, and left. Left to continue to fight for everyone and everything, but me.

It was easier, you see. I could blame, them, not me, for my dreams not coming true. I could rail against the unfairness, of life. I could chew out God, for not getting things done or taking too long or this, that, the other thing. I could tell The Universe to kick rocks and pick on someone else.

One day, though, I was praying and talking to God about..*shrug*. I don’t remember. Anywho, I was jabbering on about nothingness, when God whispered “Tell The Universe what you want”. Such an ODD request, I thought. Especially, coming from God.

Yet, I did as asked. Scariest thing I have EVER done. I don’t know why, but asking The Universe, it opens up one’s inmost thoughts, hopes and dreams. Those terrifying dreams. Those dreams, so huge, we can barely think on them. They are just too darned big to imagine or believe WE could possibly bring them, into existence.

Yes, THOSE, God whispered for me to ask The Universe for. So, I tiptoed, to the edge of my deepest dreams/fears, swallowed hard, closed my eyes, jumped and landed…

Upon God’s Word. Ah. Aha! Without going all preachy, Jeremiah 29:11 says – For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.

Meaning, God means good things, for our lives. We are the ones who spend our lives diminishing our value. We try and find value in people, places and things.

Anywho, I asked The Universe to help me make MY dreams, come true. An adventure, is being had, by all. Goodness and gravy, though, the way has been hard. I have been forced to fight. For, me.

Every day. EVERY day, Life shows up, shows out and asks me how badly I want my dreams to come true. Now, every day, EVERY day, I demand life give me my dreams and bounty!

GIVE THEM HERE!!

And, often, every day, disappointment has shown up, showed out, and popped me and my dreams upside the head. And, now, every day, EVERY day, I tell disappointment, I shall see it, tomorrow!

Beloveds, I may not reach the unreachable star. I promise you this: NOBODY will have had more fun, trying, than me!

Ah.

Aha!

Life is short. Live.

living/fighting for me,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Fight for you. Fight for your dreams. You are worth it.

Take it out.

My life changed completely when I took it out:

Should.

Fear.

Have to.

Guilt.

Expectation.

Now I:

Choose.

Try.

Care.

I choose not to care about the outcome. I choose not to expect the expected. I choose not to fear. I choose not to feel guilty about what I should or should not have done.

Yeah my life changed after I took it out.

Relieve yourself of the burden of others. Relieve yourself of your own burdens. Choose. Live with the outcome of your choices. Make your choices positive ones. I dare you. I dare me. I dare.

taking it out,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

One step.

One step.

One step.

Be encouraged.

Tell fear to shut up.

Fear has been loud lately.

I am in new training that is exposing all of my what in the fresh hell is this?!

I have been:

Lost.

Confused.

Frustrated.

Yet, these feelings are also exposing:

Laughter.

Resolve.

Joy.

I have been forced to whether I want to or not.

How delicious.

How awful.

How deliciously awful.

I don’t feel 55. I feel 25. Alive. Hopeful. Scared to death.

I told fear to shut up. I will NOT stop. I don’t care how hard these next steps are and shall continue to be.

Don’t be afraid to tell fear to shut up. Don’t be afraid to feel uncomfortable. Don’t be afraid to experience some darkness. Don’t be afraid to come into the light. Tell fear to take two seats.

Trust that you have all you need to succeed. Keep believing in yourself. The world will mock you. The world will tell you your gifts are a joke. The world will tell you nobody will want or need you. Tell the world to shut up.

I think I hear a cup of coffee calling. Join me if you like. Remember you are loved and not alone.

laughing at fear,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: The unknown can be scary. It’s also exhilarating. Enjoy your try.

Real talk: Don’t photoshop your life.

I enjoy Tik Tok.

I enjoy Youtube.

I use Instagram but don’t understand it.

I find people fascinating.

I find it fascinating how so many people are trying to present. A world where everything is always rosy and wonderful and the scenery is Majestic. And everything is beautiful and all is right with the world.

When I make my instagram pieces, I keep it real. I am breathless because I am breathless. I fight with vertigo and admit to it. My apartment is not a castle, but it’s mine. It’s dated. The balcony was painted in a horrible shade of gray. The parking lot was… I don’t know what that was they called doing to the parking lot!

It’s MY parking lot. Just because my footsteps are not walking around a mansion does not mean my thoughts are not valuable. That my words can not have an impact.

Your life is just that. Yours. And that life is:

Valuable.

Wonderful.

Needed.

Necessary.

Loved.

Cherished.

Respected.

Don’t judge yourself by what you have or don’t have. By what you do or don’t do. By who is around you and who is not. Those things are irrelevant to the beauty called your life.

You are.

Simple as that.

Love yourself where you are now. Continue to work on yourself but no you are valuable just as you are.

We are all:

Works in progress.

Tapastries.

Masterpieces.

Your life is being shaped by your choices or lack thereof. You are a force of nature. Be the force of nature that you are!

Your life is having an impact on this world. If it wasn’t, the world would not be trying so hard to convince you otherwise!

Keep loving the world. There are people in the world who needs your love. There are people who will love you back. In the meantime, keep going. We got thangs to do.

keeping it 100,

Cassandra

Note: You are loved. You are NOT alone. Keep on being… YOU

55: Looking past me.

I have been trying to look past me and my needs.

I have been working on loving other people and trying to understand your viewpoint and way of living.

I have been watching all kinds of different ways of life on youtube and on the blogs. Trying to get to know my fellow man.

People are complicated. The reason why they do things good and bad are complicated. The world or so it seems just complicated.

I have learned much. I have learned that I have been much more judgmental then I thought. I am doing my best to treat people with the same grace that God gives to me.

I’m trying to look beyond my circumstances as well. I’m trying to make the most of my life in real time. I’m not wondering or worrying about what will happen tomorrow. I may not have a tomorrow.

I no longer worry about who will or who won’t read my blog. I just write. I just encourage. How that writing and encouragement will be received is not up to me.

Understanding others take real effort and work. I choose to put in the work and effort.

This week holds many challenges. I look forward to them all. I look forward. I move forward. I choose. Choosing takes the victim hood out of life.

choosing,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Beats me. Keep going. Keep growing. Remember you are the bomb.com!

Heart check Sunday❤️‍🩹❤️.

Today is Sunday. Almost Monday for some…lol.

I used a dread Monday. Rather, what happened IN Monday. I have learned to receive it all. All things have a way of teaching us SOMETHING.

IF we:

Receive, the lesson.

Embrace, the outcome.

Enjoy, the moments.

Mon-yay, is coming…lol.

Look forward to your life.

Life is going to do life things.

So what?

What are you going to do about the things that happen?

Let’s not waste this week looking back on last week! Keep it moving. We got thangs to do.

doing thangs,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: I’m tired. I don’t feel like doing the hard thing. So what? I CHOOSE to do the hard thing. Be encouraged. You know the rest:

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being… YOU