Note: There are times, when all hell has broken loose, where it is easy to focus on all the what in the fresh hell is this, then on staying focused on our dreams and goals.
Count it ALL joy, beloveds. All of it. All is making YOU into the awesome diamond you are. ALL is creating, in you, strength, faith, fight and all the things you shall need, to bring your dreams into fruition.
In the meantime, drag lazy, discouragement and fear, into the shower and LEAVE THEM THERE! We got thangs do do. Let’s get to doing those things, eh?
Worrying/fretting will not make your troubles, go away. Give your troubles a boot, to the rear, and keep it moving.
Be encouraged. Why? Cuz you are loved and you are not alone and you got to hang out with me. What the heck else could one need?!….lol.
It’s hard to know if you have made any type of an impact on anything in your world and the world around you.
You have.
Your small footprint has made a large impact on the world. On your world. You have just been too busy looking at your fears, to recognize all the greatness you have put into the world.
Look around you. You have impacted more lives than you know.
Keep going. It gets lonely. Most are afraid to tread the ground that you are not walking. The walk will be worth it. You are building your legacy as you walk. You’re changing lives as you walk. Starting with your own.
You have the opportunity to change your life every single moment of your life if he chooses to. A hug. The squeeze of a shoulder. A kind word. A caring word. Yours may be the words someone have been waiting for their whole life.
Speak.
Love.
Hope.
Rejoice.
Try.
Keep walking. You should give others the courage to walk as well. Who knows what we shall accomplish as we walk together?
Hey there, it’s me, just an average person with an overwhelming sense of brokenness and loss. I have been a mess lately. Have you ever felt like holding you so tightly that you feel suffocated ????Have you ever seen as a Loser Loser Lost in chaos Today, I want to rant about my journey through…
Wow, beloveds. This blogger’s piece was literally an answer to my prayer, of late.
I have been wondering what I could do/be, what my words could do/be, if I ONLY had financial security. If I had not spent growing up, wondering what, if anything we would have to eat, by the end of the month?
Wondering when/if the lights would be turned off.
Going hungry. Sitting with lights off. These moments, and more, caused me to over value safety and security. I built my life, on being ‘safe’. Yet, mom was ALWAYS blasting gospel music which, thankfully, introduced me to God.
So, here I was, all growed up, believing in God, but living a life wondering what I COULD have done, had I been able to afford college, have ‘enough’ financially, to be able to have time to travel, write, rest and…*shrug*…well, LIVE, as far as I was concerned.
The thing is, beloveds, I never FELT poor. We didn’t have much, in the way of finances. The feeling(s) of poverty/lack showed themselves, once I started school.
Other kids, made fun of our ‘hand-me-downs’. Being one of 13, us younger kids ended up wearing the clothes of the older ones. Lemme tell ya, after things have been passed down, fifty times, they can appear to be a bit worn. Sheesh.
After that, secret shame showed up, showed out and laughed at me. Constantly. Thereafter, constantly, I worked my fingers, to the bone, to earn my worth. If I could not look good, I would work hard, dammit!
I was smart. I was athletically gifted. I was held in high regard, by teachers. But, low regard, by peers. You can imagine, whose eyes I chose to view myself by.
If this finds me rambling, it’s because I am remembering the awful feeling of feeling as though I was ‘not enough’ unless I was doing, for others. Me, just me, would never BE enough. Not even, for God. Especially, Him. I HAD to serve, didn’t I? Else, I would be booted, from the opportunity, to get to heaven. Or, I would never hear ‘Thou good and faithful servant’. Or, I would not be ‘useful’ so why would He waste His time, with ME?!
It took years of love, of BEING loved, by Love, for me to learn to/how love me some me….*hugs self*.
Anywho, I say alllllllll of that to say this:
This blogger so touched my heart/mind/soul/spirit, it brings tears, to my eyes, just thinking of how moved/touched I was, this morning, reading her words. She was ME! In, reverse! I lacked, financially, and felt the same way as, SHE, who lacked not. Wow. Wow!
Just goes to show, beloveds, we truly ARE so very much more than what we have, what we do, what we give, what we know, what we don’t know. We are. Just are.
Ah.
Aha!
I’ll never forget these words. Hers. Mine. The words of those who have replied, lately. Yall have changed my life. You have. Yall have opened doors, within me, I had no idea were there! Yalls blogs have uplifted me. I so hope you will continue, beloveds, to be the blessing you are.
Be encouraged,
Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe
Note: I’m vulerable, right now. I don’t know HOW, for the first time, to express how I FEEL. My words, to me now, feels inadequate. Truthfully, I NOW feel, inadequate. You see, the stranger, in my bed, is so amazing to me. I feel as though I will, let her down. Yet, she is ME. I’m afraid, beloveds, truly afraid, I shall fail her. I want to do right, by her. She has ALWAYS tried to do right, by me. Yet, I silenced her. I judged her, wrongly, for getting my heart into so much trouble. Loving a world who could give two hoots, about me.
Ah, I hope these words, are enough. These words, are ALL I have. Ah, am wanting/needing to know, I am more than my words, to you. To, God. To, Life. To, The Universe. To, my family. To, my friends. I want, no NEED to know, I am loved. For God so loved the world…
You have almost given up hope. Secretly, you DID give up hope. That’s okay. Your dreams never gave up on you. They have simply been waiting on you to believe in yourself.
It’s your time. Embrace this time in your life. Choose life and live it to the best that you know. All your disappointments have led up to this moment. Your appointment is at hand.
How exciting.
How terrifying.
Only you know how much you want your dreams to come true. Carry your dreams around has been exhausting. It’s time some of them be fulfilled.
How do I know this?
Because, I pray for you and your dreams every day And, God doesn’t lie. He shall keep His Promises. Should your faith be low or non existent, mine is enough for the whole of the world…lol.
Scary question, isn’t it? You’ll never know, until you ask yourself.
Ask.
You may be surprised at your answer!
believing in you,
Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe
Note: I used to be afraid of this question. Burying my mom, I…*sigh *….learned I had nothing left to lose. I ask, now. How bad DO you want it, beloveds? If you truly believe, in your dream, let NOTHING keep you from believing and trying. Especially, you. Dammit, STOP letting fear scare you half to death!
There IS a path. We just have to keep going til we find it! Don’t you DARE give in to the notion your dream won’t see the light of day. We will find a way some kind of way.
Until you do, cherish these moments. ALL of them. Most have given up a long time ago. You care, still. You try, still. You love, still. Give yourself more credit.
Stop worrying about the reactions of others to the things that you think and need.
Your voice matters.
Your thoughts matter.
Your dreams are not trivial.
Your dreams can and will change this world.
Your dreams can it will change your world!
Don’t forget about you. Remember to love someone else. Folk are hurting. Folk are lonely. Folk are afraid to admit to these things.
Get going. With that thangs to do!
I wish I had believed in myself more long time ago. Believe in yourself. Enjoy your day. Embrace everything that happens in your day. Everything that happens is building a better view of you and your future. Take care.
Note: This is the start of another fantastic week for you! Embrace your week. ALL of it! Don’t dread Monday! Monday has many ginstall in store for you. Let your critics bore themselves with talks of your imminent demise. Laugh and be on your way! Tell them you got thangs to do!
I used to dread mondays. I used to resist hard. I used to be afraid of my fears. I used to allow lazy to run my life. I used to give up on my dreams far too easily. No more. I challenge you to do the same, beloveds. We got thangs to do!
I was talking to my dreams this morning. While doing so, your dreams said to tell you hello.
We have thangs to do. We have ridiculous dreams to fulfill. We have notions that no one believes in but us. We have hopes for our future. We have needs for today. It’s time for us to be about being about it, don’t you think?
Ready.
Set.
Let’s go!!👟🤞😂🥰
terrifying excited,
Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe
Note: What the fresh hell you still doing there after THAT rousing kick in the arse?! Go…🏃♀️🏃🤺🏇⛷️🏂🏌♂️🏌♀️🏌🏄♂️🏄♀️🏄🚣♂️🚣♀️🚣🏊♂️🏊♀️🏊⛹️♂️⛹️♀️⛹️🏋♂️🏋♀️🏋🚴♂️🚴♀️🚴🚵♂️🤸♂️🤸♀️🤸
Why Can't I Be Loud?! 