My friend taught me a lesson without even trying whilst we were engaged in conversation.
He offered me PATIENCE, instead of growing impatient or indifferent, when I went all impatient and indifferent, in trying to defend my position/thoughts.
It was HIS patience, HIS obvious care, HIS willingness to allow me to be a bit ridiculous that stopped me in my tracks.
I realized I WAS being a bit of a buffoon. I realized it was coming from a place of PAST wounds, not PRESENT feedback.
Growing up, we were raised that we had to raise our voices to be heard. There were 13 kids plus two adults.
15 folk all hollering to get their point across. Not terribly effective.
On top of that, I have a loud voice. Yikes!
I am learning how to communicate more EFFECTIVELY. I am teaching myself to apply more moderation and consideration of others.
I am learning how to be more patient with me as I work to overcome old lessons.
I stopped by to encourage someone to keep doing what you are doing. Change takes time.
You may already be a great listener. We can all use a bit of tweaking though, right?
I just now, JUST NOW, beloveds, came to an astonishing truth/conclusion:
I have written since mom passed away 2016.
Not really. Not the stories I used to. Not the poems/songs I used to.
I didn’t even realize it until just now. When mom died, God told me to write. To write about it. About her.
For many years, I couldn’t. I wouldn’t. I didn’t. It’s the one rebellion I definitely kept from God. I wasn’t ready. My dreams went in that casket with her.
Since my friend challenged me to keep my pieces at one minute, and get straight to the point, the writer in me woke up.
I found myself jotting down phrases. Short bursts of feeling found their way onto the pages of my heart.
I found myself speaking to myself, as well as to others. I am calling forth myself. Where has she been hiding all this time?
I don’t know what to make of this development. I shall sit with it a while. I shall see where these words will lead me.
Ah, God, what do I do with me now?
asking for A Friend, Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe
Note: I don’t even know what I am trying to say or who these words are for. You know who you are.
Keep moving forward. Keep discovering those parts of you that hid during times of immense grief and hardship.
Spring is here. It’s time for old dreams to breathe and live again. Rise. We got thangs to do.
Beloveds, I have a WONDERFULLY, AMAZING secret to tell you. Come close.
Ppppsssst…
Did you know THE most crucial person who can and needs to love you is…
YOU!
Yep, YOU, beloveds. Click play, close your eyes and listen and get your heart filled a bit.
YOU really will be the biggest change for your life. Here you have been waiting for God, for Life, for The Universe to send you the person that will change your life.
Tada!
Aren’t you glad I shared this magnificent secret of life to you? There are many life secrets that shall open before you as you open your heart and allow things in.
Even seemingly foolish assignments and thangs…lol.
Get out there and live.
asking for A Friend, Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe
Note: Remember that you are worthy, you are worth it. You are worthwhile.
You are the answer to so many of your questions. You get in your way. You are your hero. You are your toughest critic. You have been your worst protagonist.
One of THE greatest lessons I have learned through living through the hardest times of my life is this:
I don’t HAVE to know what to do because I know WHO to go to.
Simple as that.
Who are you going to? who are you leaning on to support you?
Do you have positive influences in your life? Are you leaning on those who are caring, loving, and supportive of your dreams?
Who are you trusting with that precious heart of yours? Are you with someone simply because they are paying the bills? If so, you can get a job and take care of yourself. You do not have to demean yourself or make yourself less than to keep a roof over your head.
Are you at a job that is bringing out your best self? If not, work towards getting another one. Don’t state a job that is poisoning your soul simply to keep your roof over your head.
When you are in need of counsel, are you going to those who will uplift you and be honest with you?
You don’t need someone who will be condescending to you and pat you on your head. You want someone who will think of you. You want someone who will give you options and let you make the decision for your life.
I seek the counsel of God, FIRST. Then, I reach out to my family and TRUSTED friends.
Finally, I asked myself what I wish for? What I hope for? What I long for?
I’m learning not to rush headlong into a decision. I’m learning to wait. I’m learning to be patient.
I’m learning how to measure twice and to cut once!
I just stopped by to encourage someone. Be encouraged.
I added days, DAYS I’M TELLIN’ YA, to my illness, simply because I had not stocked up on the right medicine.
I told myself to reorder things. I got busy. Was too busy doing thangs. Smh.
Sure enough, illness knocked, kicked me in the face, and perused the near empty medicine cabinet.
I had just enough to be dangerous. Nothing that would clear up the cough, the congestion and barely touched on the fever. When I looked at the cost of what was needed, I balked. Dummy me.
It only took two extra days of flames erasing my brain for me to holler uncle, aunt and all other entities as I ordered meds suitable for dealing with congestion and cough.
Who knew?! Relief soon followed. Yes, I still feel like paint scrapings. But, I am on the mend. For those wondering how the world I know what paint scrapings feel like, just trust your sis.
I know there is some inspiration in here, somewhere, but I am honestly too tired of coughing to remember.
Someone well please pass out some wonderful pearls of wisdom for us all, okay?
In the meantime, have a wonderful day. This day is as YOU make it. What are you turning your day into?
I sing this song to YOU, beloveds, as I think of you and pray for your life.
I sing, with gusto, asking for The Universe to bring tons of love into your life. I ask that your heart be filled with peace, love, hope and joy.
Listen and receive the care meant and sent for you today.
Be encouraged. Enjoy the rest of your awesome day. If it doesn’t feel awesome, shift your perception. You are still here. You have the opportunity to start again. And again.
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